i miss you. can i write to you instead of to me? :) today was my comp and performance review and a discussion about what is next for me. it's funny how they put together a whole proposal for me about what kinds of things i would or could be doing. can i really be bought like this?

anyway i wish you were here so i could talk to you about all of this.. get your advice on what i should do next. what do you think? i guess i just wish i could see you. i miss talking to you!!! not even the romantic stuff although sometimes i want that too.. i just miss being able to talk all this out with you.. to meet for drinks to think about what i should do and whether or not this is worth it.

i just can't wait till you come back. maybe you'll be different then.. and i'll be different then.. but i think even if something perfect doesn't work out.. we can still go back to how we have been the last year. and that would be worth it. i hope you are enjoying yourself and making lots of change... maybe i'll get to come and see you? wouldn't that be nice :)

blah. i miss you.