i wish that i had blogged the last few months when i was happy and ok with him being going and work felt good. instead i waited until a time when he left again.. .and work is stressful. why am i so depressed? i don't get it. things are actually pretty good. no money issues... new job is going to be fun fun fun

blah. maybe it's all b/c he left. and he didn't call... and I had to do everything to see him... uggh.