i'm back

ok... so i got to his office and he said sorry but that he'd have to take a conference call from india at the beginning of lunch but it should only take a few minutes...

so i'm like ok.. i'll just wait until after he gets the call and it's over to talk to him so that we aren't interrupted.. so we are talking about his leaving and all the stuff he has to do and his phone is on the table b/c he is waiting for them to call... so the whole time i'm like shit i can't bring it up!

finally they take our entrees away and he still hasn't called.. and ameya asks for the check when they ask if we want anything else.. so i'm like.. shit what do i do.. by this point i'm thinking that maybe i shouldn't say anything b/c he's already so stressed about the stuff he needs to think about before he leaves..

and then finally i blurt it all out. the check's about to come and i basically say.. i'm sorry that the timing is so off on this.."i know you are about to leave but i can't wait a year and i need to tell you this.. i hope it doesn't hurt our friendship at all but i just want you to know what i'm thinking before you leave." then i say "the last few months my feelings for you have grown to a lot more than friendship and i just really like you.. i like spending time with you... (imagine a lot more cheesy blurting... not how i planned)

so he sits there stunned and silent.. and not smiling so i got really worried.. he just looked so shocked and i said i'm sorry to floor you with this.. i just wanted you to know. then he smiles (AHHH!!!!!!) and says.. i'm so glad you brought this up.. i'm been feeling the same way for a really long time

so then he gets really cute and cheesy.. he basically says that he didn't want to be the one to bring it up b/c he's the one that's leaving and that would be rude.. and he kept saying i'm sorry that i'm leaving... and he said he's glad that i feel the same.. and that he just likes spending time with me so much.. he likes that we can have fun together even when we are just doing nothing.. and he said he wakes up and just wants to talk to me.. and that it's been really hard to feel all of that and then know that he's leaving and then he said that a year will go fast and that i should visit him.. and he told me that his roommates have been telling him to say something.. and i told him that they have been telling me too... and then we both got really quiet and shy.. and he said what should we do.. he said i don't really know what should happen... and i told him we could just think about it in a year and be the way we are now.. which he agree.. it was just nice and cute and we spent the next few minutes making stupid conversation while smiling at each other shyly (so pathetic i know)... then he started saying how funny it was that we've known each other for so long but nothng ever happened... and he said.. you didn't even like me when i was a kid cuz i was a dork.. which is true! and then he said he's glad that we've spent so much time together recently.. that it makes leaving harder but it's just been a great few months. (he's SO sweet :) ) and then we walked to his office.. (julie- am i leaving anything out? i didn't mean to tell her first but i had to run there and squeal with someone and tell someone).. but i'm sure i missed some of the cheesy details so then at the end


YAY!!!!!! you guys are so so so awesome for getting me to tell him. i'm so glad i did!!! yay!!! i'm glowing and giddy... :)