1.31.2005

joe vs joey vs all the other men who's name i don't know

just so i know . . .
i know that you aren't signing any exclusivity contracts with joe any time soon . . . but how "serious" do you foresee this getting?
would you be interested in joe in a way that would stop you from cuddling and kissing other boys?
is he aware that you do cuddle and kiss other boys?

dude - and be gentle with poor joe! i saw the white boy bop he had going on at the club (in no way suggesting i am better, on the contrary, it is so recognizable because i do it too . . . well, white girl bop anyway) no offense to him, but he may NOT be the *best* salsa dancer ever. he must really like you to toss his dignity on the floor and allow you to dance all over it (which i'm guessing will happen as soon as the music starts)

meg, you are nuts

sorry babe, but mondays are my busy days. i agree -the mac mini is adorable! i just ordered an ipod shuffle online today. i know, i'm a fool for all those gadgets - what else can i say? ;)

thank you all for your advice in regards to girly whiny peter. i'll follow your suggestions and let you know if i hear from him. he's such a drama queen.

joe's coming salsa dancing with us tonight! i'm excited :)

just a reminder

yup, this is me still talking to myself . . .
(just reminding everyone in case you hadn't noticed)

all my attempts are thwarted!

i started reading up on everything . .
the KVM switch can't be used with a laptop, only stand alone devices. DAMNIT! so close, yet so far away . . .

i decided what i want for xmas

a mac mini with all the upgrades plus the KVM thingy to connect it to my laptop. my dvd/cd-r drive is pooping out on my lately, it won't burn cds at all (spits them out as unreadable) and is rather tempermental about dvds. other than that, i love my computer and do not need an upgrade (especially since i barely use it). but those mac minis are so cute!

talking to myself

rupa and julie are in meetings/have too much work
anusha has left
i have no work but am still here . . . . oh well.

rick from next house

i think i know who that is.
jules (or nush if she remembers) he lived on maybe the fifth floor? and hung out with marina. he acted all too cool even though he was basically an mit dork. he was from cali - that's why he and marina first started hanging out.

the dean thing - first of all, random. second of all, dean upsets me. i'm basically over it now, but jess told me back when we first moved in together how dean now didn't like me and found me annoying or whatever exactly she said. the two of them are still in touch. its just a little . . . upsetting to have to look back on your college years and recognize the depth of your dillusion concerning who cared about you and who was really just tolerating you (obvious example - ANY kappa sig). for him especially its hard because it makes me start having these really negative thoughts that at one point we were friends and i did something "wrong" to make him not like me. i don't know if you guys have ever looked back like that. its funny the strange effect it has on things because it makes me value people like bryan schmid more - he was always upfront about whether he liked me or not.

i'm a freak :) mostly, the thinking occurs when i'm telling edgar stories. i tell him things that happened and he listens to them and is like - wow, that guy/girl sounds like a prick - you actually consider them a friend? and i start to rationalize and then i'm like you're right, that wasn't very nice.

im out of here!

jules ill see you at home..rupa i dont think ill get to meet up with you tonight cause it may get busy but call if you are free..megan ill see you in march :)

i cant believe you saw sumita and dean...hoooow weird.

work is overrated

yeah, the boys are stupid is for peter.

actually - edgar and i had a really great talk. we both have completely opposite ways of dealing with anger. when something bothers him, he tells you immediately and in no uncertain terms that he's mad. i internalize and allow little annoyances to build up until something finally makes me pop and i rant for an hour about things that happened a while before and he never knew bothered me. sure, not the best - but i think he gets mad too easily and he things i don't get mad enough. so - we started out talking about that. then that lead into a time that i really annoyed him and we talked about it and actually resolved it and then i was trying to make an example of a similar time in which the situation was reversed which lead me into one of his habits that annoys me. when people call him, he always checks the phone and for the most part answers it, almost regardless of what we are doing and then walks into the another room to talk. usually, i can figure out who is on the phone - but something about the whole way he does always bugs me. so - i decided that its like a feeling of being left out of the loop. the resolution is that he just tells me who it is that he deems worthy enough to interrupt our time to talk to them - without me having to listen in and guess. its little, but i think it will help :)

hi!!!

hey girls! i was in california.. and now i'm back. i'm still catching up on reading all the blogs but i thought i'd give you a quick overview of my weekend. i was recruiting at caltech on thursday so i went down to CA from wednesday night to sunday. my only real work was thursday afternoon so the rest of the time i got to hang out with all my 02 buddies. dan and neena live together at caltech so i spent most of thursday and friday with them and then friday night jenny came and picked me up and we spent the weekend in orange county.

we spent all the weekend shopping and lounging around her house eating her mom's cooking and going out to sushi.. as i talked about in the summer after i went there, the best sushi i have EVER had is at this tiny place near their house in orange county. it's in a strip mall, so you'd never be able to tell but it's really the best sushi!!

anyway random tidbits from my weekend. sumita accidentally found out that i was out there and made big plans to meet up with us and a bunch of other MIT people at this bar on saturday. it didn't end up working out but instead we met up with 2 of jenny's random MIT friends that she met out in cali, rick and dean. rick and sumita apparently have some beef so we had to space out the visits.. but rick is an 03 that lived in next house and is this tall skinny guy. anyone know him? and yeah.. dean.. well he's YOUR dean. it was pretty random.. funny enough, he had NO idea who i was :) until i told him the calling all the girls in my phone story.. and then he remembered me.

anyway, it was random... but fun. sumita was herself.. she's now dating her trainer.... in additional to dating (long distance and open-relationship) apurva that indian guy in med school in boston.

she's into yale and sloan for b school and thinking about going to yale. it was hard hanging out with her.. i forgot how hard.. but her new trainer boyfriend is really hot and super friendly. we really liked him!!

my weekend overall was good. i am missing the boy WAY WAY too much by now.. i think i'm gonna drop him a call this week some time. oh.. and jules's present came!! the jbl onstage thing. i dont' have a new ipod yet.. but i am borrowing jonathans and listening right now. it's awesome!!! yay jules :)

i loved reading all the other stuff... sounds like edgar is good.. and peter is being a drama queen. j- i agree with all the advice you got. sounds like such a girl thing to do! writing a whole big email and everything...

nush- i'm glad your review went well. shwaas is probably not on netflix. it's not hindi :) it's a marathi movie actually (yay!) i liked it.. but i'm surprised it's in that category.. usually marathi films aren't enough to make it in. i think my parents have it.. so i could bring it up one weekend and then we could watch it.

:)

ok more soon.. but i have to run to a quick meeting.

cant find schwass in netflix

or that director...are you sure you have it right?

i just had my review:) went well. im gonna leave around 2 to meet my bro, kerry, and maybe dev...

still looking for a flight to miami, may have to wait to do that tonight cause its not seeming to cooperate with me...

movie

never heard of that indian one..but ill add it to netflix :) i added other hindi movies id never seen to it...

the boys were stupid part is for peter right? i kept reading to see what edgar had done and everything seemed pretty wonderful to me :)

im trying to find flights to miami for the cruise and its pissing me off. i had the perfect one last night and now its not there :( urgh. but i got most of the other things done on my list - matching gift, rebate form, review in 30 min...just havent done much work yet :)

oscar watch 2005

i started a new blog because my weekend one was getting long and this isn't about my weekend :)

so - my gay second cousin throws an oscar party every year. he gets pretty into it - door prizes and everyone votes on the oscars and the people who have the most right get nice prizes. he also sends out absentee ballots (although those are not elegible to win) my mom always does it and now since i'm more of an expert than she is, she has emailed him and asked him to include me in his emails. he's sent me two so far - the second one was very informative. i was really sad about the best foreign film category because i thought i would be familiar with some of the nominees (namely, motorcyle diaries and a very long engagement) BUT it turns out the reason is the way the pool of movies is chosen - each country has to select only one movie to enter into the pool that the nominees come from. neither motorcyle diaries nor a very long engagement were entered into the pool.

just thought i'd share that tidbit :) in case anyone is interested - and didn't know this - the colombian representative was "el rey" directed by jose antonio dorado and the indian representative was "shwass" directed by sandeep sawant

my weekend and boys are stupid

so - i think you should reply just to say i do want to be your friend but i'll respect your wish for space. if he wants to be a drama queen and make you feel bad about yourself - its better for both of you that you get that break.

my weekend. friday night - i watched sky captain and the world of tomorrow and edgar slept over. saturday, we went to my uncle's house to babysit for my 13 (i think) year old cousin. it was so much fun! first of all, i beat edgar there (we took two cars so he could leave early if he wanted) i told ryan that he was coming too and he got all excited and said he was hoping he'd come with me. so, we all hung out for a while and ordered pizza. then, one of ryan's friends came over and they played outside. edgar challenged me at xbox (i'm not very good at it) the two boys came in and kicked both of our butts. then, we played a game of life (i won that) my a and u and other cuz came home towards the end of the game.

saturday night i went out with courtney, eric (c.'s husband) gen, matt and kate (m's gf). we went to this loud bar i don't really like - but we got there at like 9:30 so it was fun for 2 hours before it got crowded. then, after another hour, we went to old toad because it was TOO crowded. we talked and drank and made fun of each other - it was really nice. i'm excited that i have a job where i like spending time with my coworkers.

sunday - i got up and jess was on her way to the gym, so i quickly got dressed and went with her. on the way there i realized how not up for the gym i was feeling but she was going for an hour long class. so, i ended up on the bike's (which have their own tvs) for 45 minutes going at a speed that made me sweat, but did NOT make me hurt. yeah, pretty lazy trip to the gym - but a trip to the gym none the less! then, i went to the training session for volunteering at lollypop (the animal shelter) which i almost fell asleep during (three and a half hours of sitting in one place just listening) i almost cried a few times because 1. i'm a little pms-y and 2. the shelter isn't a no kill shelter, so they mentioned some of the conditions where the animals are put down - and then i walked around and looked at all the animals and thought about the fact that some of the pets were not going to get adopted. i'm really excited though because i should have my first mentor training shift this weekend (i need to call her tonight and set it up) and all the dogs looked sooo excited to have people around. the volunteer in charge of dog walking was saying how the dogs learn the routine and just seeing people walk towards them with leashes will get them all excited.

after that, i hung out with edgar. we went to the coffee house we always go to and had to leave a little sooner than usual because there were two people on what might have been a first date and the man was talking SO LOUD it was uncomfortable to be in the same room. their first topic of discussion? he brought up how he saw a dunkin donuts next to a starbucks and isn't that weird because they fill similar markets and must really compete with one another - i thought of nush and jules :) we ended up at barnes and noble so he could study and i could entertain myself :) i read a cheesey chic fiction - which the first 50 pages of was pretty good, but i'm sure went down hill when the story started to actually *develop*

those chinese dishes sound great!

they dont have that...but it is basically chinese food but with more flavor and not general tsos etc etc. its not too expensive either, so maybe next time you come we can go eat there...

about peter - julie you have to respond to the email cause otherwise itll seem like you are more of a heartless bitch. just respond and say something like i understand what you are saying and i care about you a lot as my friend. i want to go back to how things used to be but i understand its hard for you so ill give you some space and if you need me/can figure out how to be around me again we can be friends...

coming to work has actualyl been a good thing! i tried to get u2 tickets, failed. i figured out the total for the check for arjun and avi - 675!! and now im going to do the matching gift thing. then i have to figure out some rebate stuff for my computer/printer. then buy my ticket for the cruise...then a little bit of work...then my review at 12!


GREAT weekend :)

my date with joe sat night was awesome! we had so much fun :) and we had sooo much sake .. . the poor guy spent a ton of money on dinner that night! he picked me up at my apt, we walked to blue ribbon, a really good sushi restaurant like 1 block away from my apt. dinner was fun, then we went back to my apt to wait for evelyn and her friend to get in (they were driving from ct). we sat on the couch watching SNL and cuddling (and a little bit of kissing) while we waited. it was really cute :) then when the girls arrived they got ready for us all to go out, but by then joe and i were pretty wasted and the girls were tired, so we just stayed at the apt drinking wine and hanging out. i don't remember what time he left - maybe around 2:30 or 3 or so, it was pretty late. i walked him out, gave him a kiss, and told him to call me when he got home. he called me last night just to say him, and i tried to convince him to go salsa dancing with us tonight. i dont think he's very confident in his dancing, though, so i don't know if he's going to come. . .

meeting my little buddy was awesome! she was really timid and shy in the beggining of the afternoon, but by the end she had a huge smile on her face and was holding my hand and all! the mom seems nice, too, and she was really friendly with me. she said she had a really good feeling about me, and she knew we would get along great. i was shopping with evelyn and francis, her friend yesterday, and i got a call from julia (my little buddy). i was really surprised she called since she had been so shy and quiet the day before, but it was nice. i'm going to call her this afternoon (hopefully i won't forget. . .).

last night evelyn, francis and i met up with peter at bertuccis. it was fun, the food was really good. afterwards peter drove me home and we had another "talk". i'm so sick of all drama. he was asking me why i've been so cold and weird with him lately, why i've been so different since i got back from miami, blah blah blah. at the end he was just like, "jules, just tell me you don't have any feelings for me". so i replied, "peter, you're one of my closest friends, of course i care about you". he says: "no, you know what i mean". so by this point i'm fed up and reply: "ok peter, that's what you want to hear? i don't have any feelings for you". by this time we're in front of my door. he thanks me for being honest with him, says i did him a favor. . .

this morning i wake up and receive a 3 page letter from him in an email. he said he wrote it a while ago and most of the stuff in is stuff he's already told me. the last paragraph says he's going to need to be away from me for a while, that it's hard for him to be around me and not be with me, that he can't even think of me being with another guy. . .

so yea, how the heck are you supposed to react to that? he definitely succeeded in making me feel like a heartless bitch. he said not to bother about replying, that he wasn't expecting a reply since i probably don't even care about anything he's saying. so, what do you girls think? what do i do/say?

having evelyn in the city was great! i love that girl :) she's coming back this coming weekend with her girlfriend. rey will be here the weekend after that, and then i go home for president's day!

ok, time to work. meg - how was your weekend??

indian chinese?

sesame chicken tika masala?
kung pao paneer?

what is indian chinese food?

i give up

u2 tickets are basically impossible to get. i cant believe we got so many last time...

anyway i tried from 9 on and now im ready to give up. its better that i study anyways, its two weeks before the test...

dinner was good megan - indian chinese food. then sean (my bros best friend) and i just went to my place and drank/talked till 4 am...sunday we went to MoMA and then out for pizza...

my mom will be really happy

so, i heard about lunch with chirag - how was dinner? (directed at anusha) and did you end up going to peter's on sunday?

jules - how was meeting your girl? and your date with joe? and hanging out with peter? and having evelyn in the city?

rupa - last time i knew, i think you were in cali? are you in new york yet? why are you so crazy???????

good morning

megan - i forgot to tell you sat night when we talked that avinash got your moms check :) they said she wrote a very long nice letter with it and they are going to read it to me next time i call...they say thank you :) and will be sending her a thank you card shortly...

im also hoping to write my check for them today too so the matching gift stuff can be processed while im gone. hopefully ill get around to it.

now im waiting for 9 am to try to buy u2 tickets...then i have some work to get done and really just waiting for allen to give me my review then i can go home!

i had a fun weekend. did no studying :( which is frustrating but its ok. i read some on the train today and i think the 24 hour flight will give me time to catch up if i can keep my eyes open...

1.28.2005

i cant keep my eyes open :(

and i still havent had my review...so i may be here late waiting for that....

i'm here!

i just have been productive and ate lunch for the last couple of hours - including having a computer issue and harrassing the computer guy in the lab. he's going to dread me saying his name soon because i keep bugging him about programs for eun.

but now i'm done again . . . well, not really. there are a couple more things i could do - i'm just not motivated. time to catch up on my celebrity gossip!

whered everyone go?

toral just called :) i emailed her again today...it was nice to hear from her. and weird! she said she thinks her sister is going to get engaged by valentines day! how strange...although im glad its her sister and not her! although that wouldnt shock me either...

she is going out in the city tomorrow night, so i may try to meet up with her...

maybe ill intrude on the date :)

my brother is in such a bad mood. some stupid indian girl that he works with originally switched weekend days with him so he could work sat, and she would work sunday so he can come here earlier. today she said she changed her mind. ive never heard all those bad words come out of my brothers mouth before! he was soooo mad.

anyway now he is only coming on sunday and not sure what time...so if the jersey plan isnt too late i may join you - that way i can see peters place and see my cousins baby...what time were you thinking?

nothing happened with joey last night

just wanted to set the record straight. no slow dancing, no ass grabbing, no kissing. a little bit of cuddling on the couch, then i started falling asleep on the couch and remembered that i had a bed in the room next door, so i went to bed. it was a fun night - he's a sweet guy.

meg, i think getting a hotel room just for you and edgar is stupid. you could probably stay with rupa's sister, too. i know i shouldn't volunteer her place without asking her or rupa, but i don't see why that would be a problem.

oh yea, evelyn finally emailed me - she is coming this weekend (weather permitting, of course). she'll get in saturday around 6:30ish, so i guess i'll have dinner with joe, then meet up with evelyn after to party or something.

poor peter - we're supposed to go to bertuccis on sunday, and he just emailed me asking if we could move it to sat night instead, and then we could go to a bar or a movie or something after. i jsut told him that evelyn was coming sat night so we should just stick to the sunday plans, but i still feel kind of 'guilty' for being deceptive or whatever. . .

i have a mission

i may have just posted a sentence fragment. i don't know how, but it suddenly just showed that it had posted.

anyway.
eun just emailed me and sent me to the library to find articles! so - i actually have something that i need to do!

oh, the excitement!

julie = samantha remember?

there is a joe and a joey :) and like 10 other names somewhere in there...

joey was for thurs night, anusha is for friday night, and joe is for sat night :) she is a busy girl

i dont know, i think that we are still young enough that you are allowed to crash at your friends places like that - just tell her that you are there to show him random touristy, memories type stuff and she can come when she wants and doesnt have to if she doesnt want to...at least ask...thats my suggestion...

im booking my trip to new orleans now - i kinda wanted to go early with dev and he keeps asking me about it, but the way it is now we are just going mon-tues...its the last weekend of feb...

i have a mission

Girls

back that story up

wait - what happened to joe???? joey is different than joe, right?

so - i would def be cool with koo and a boy staying, but we plan on driving in on thursday night so it would be three nights plus i don't want her to feel like she needs to 1. entertain or 2. go everywhere we go - especially at night when if she doesn't want to go out with us, she doesn't have to but we'll need to get back in her apartment somehow. PLUS, she has a roommate . . . i don't know, i just don't want to put her out. although, it would be cheaper . . .

also try hotels.com

but really megan, if koo asked if her and a new boyfriend of hers could stay at your place for 2 nights you think youd have a problem with that? i dont think anyone would....plus edgar is really good at first impressions! so hell win anyone over (except for maybe arrogant delts or kappa sigs...)

with his new work schedule, he will be able to get that time off?

i had fun with dev last night too. we hung out with everyone for a long time - till it started to look couplely in the apt...jackie and paul in her room, jules and joey on the couch (the other roommate left early) and dev and i sitting at the counter fixing up my computer...so i said to him lets go to my room and he was like no im having fun being out here with everyone. and i was like i think they prob want to be alone..and he got the point so we went to my room. stopped palying with the computer :)

oh - on my way to my room...(insert some background info: last week when we were at the boys apt, joey (the guy who likes julie) was saying how he wishes sometimes he could just slow dance with a girl like he did in 8th grade with his hand on their ass. and he was telling us how he used to get in trouble in school for that etc etc) so on my way to my room, i changed julies play list to play on bended knee :) joey laughed, i dont think there was any slowdancing..just lots of touching and cuddling...

down with the real world!

i, too, had a hard time getting up today. not because i was super tired or anything - i just knew i was only going to work to say that i went to work, there is nothing i actually need to get done. i can't wait for eun to finishing writing this grant so she can tell me what to do.

so - the gym/time/edgar issue resolved itself before i had a chance to bring it up! edgar got his school schedule nailed down yesterday - classes all day monday and wednesday plus he'll work friday and saturday nights and is going to try to get shifts on TR or just T. SOOO i suddenly have almost all of my weeknights to myself - although i'll only get to see my boyfriend on saturday mornings and sunday . . . but somehow, i think we'll figure out a way to make time for one another.

i don't think esther and chuck are going to boston - but i still think i'm going to look for a hotel room. i feel really uncomfortable asking someone to house both edgar and i when they have never met edgar. but since its just he and i - i think i'm going to try priceline to see what kind of place i can find.

im tired too

i just want to go home and sleep! it was soo hard to get out of bed. dev was still there sleeping and it was so warm in my room...

and the worst part is it is so cold outside that i dont even really want to leave my desk!

i cut my nail down yesterday - it looks and feels gross! and this morning i saw another one that was starting to do that...i think its cause my nails were getting too long...anyway thought youd want the update :)

killer headache

last night was so much fun! too bad my head is POUNDING. megan, we had an awesome dinner party last night. everything tasted great! the uva-tinis, anusha's mushroom appetizers, the arroz con pollo, the patacones (fried green bananas), paul's mohitos. . . yum yum yum. too bad the drinks were a wee bit on the strong side. oh yea, and we had a lot of them, too. i woke up super dehydrated and sleepy.

meg, next time you visit we'll cook for you!

i'd love to go skiing, although i definitely don't think i'll be able to afford flying to rochester + skiing. nush, we should go to vermont. i should talk to anthony, but i'm pretty sure he's close to killington, so we can stay with him.

ok ladies, time to "work".

1.27.2005

it may make the whole skiing thing that much more exp though

the ticket alone is like 130...then everything else. if we go from here we could convince peter to drive :) or maybe even go to ct and get a car from my parents and go to vermont...from NYC 3.5 hours or so..alex says there are some in NY and NJ as well...NJ vernon valley or something...

just ideas :) (way too much talking with alex today...)

want to go to rochester jules???

im up for megans suggestion...

what do you say?

thats what i was thinkign for the nail thing. getting it wrapped means going to the salon and basically getting a silk wrap on it that way you dont have to cut it - but i dont think i care about the length. they are all goign to be bitten off soon enough with the studying anyway...

you guys are both working too much to blog to me?? how sad.

great minds think a like :)

julie and i gave basically the same advice!

i'm going to go to the library and study immunology until 5:00. i don't think i'm going to have much else to do tomorrow . . .
these stupid numbers of viruses better come in by next week - this is getting pretty annoying having nothing to do!!

ski by me!!!

don't worry anusha - the dog isn't going to be big and i'll arm you with a squirt bottle or something to protect you from it :)

as for the nail thing - i suggest clipping the nail not all the way down to wear its broken, but just down to wear its comfortable to clip it. it will catch on less things and hurt a lot less and buy you time to let the broken part grow out a little bit until that too is in the reasonable range.

so - fly to rochester, we'll drive out to my grandparents weekend house late friday night, ski all day saturday, hang out saturday night and sunday morning and drive back to rochester and you guys can fly out! sounds like a plan to me :)

i don't know what "getting it wrapped" means

i'd say try to cut/file it as much as you can so to minimize what it'll get caught on, then put a bandaid on. i don't know what else you could do.. .

skiing sounds good. . .where? vermont? i have tons of work to do so i prob won't be able to keep blogging. . . :(

help! nails...

this is not a girly complaint - its a medical one.

my nails have grown pretty long lately, and one of them just broke, which isnt the problem, the problem is that it broke like half way down my nail but just on one side..so it hasnt come off but it gets caught on everything and i cant cut it off cause its so far down the nail..what do i do??? natasha says i need to go get it wrapped. i dont know what that means/or what thatll cost..thoughts?

dont worry, so am i...

we didnt break up...i wanted to but he somehow talked me out of it...i think we are in some limbo stage, i dont know it confuses me too so its prob best not to talk about it...

my only demand of you megan is that if you get a dog it has to be as small as bruge and star - i cant handle dogs that are any bigger than that! and i cant even handle dogs that are that size...but for you ill learn to live with it a few weekends a year...

jules - want to go skiing the last weekend of feb - the one we were thinking of celebrating rupas bday? now that we are doing that in boston, maybe that weekend will work for skiing....

wait a second, i'm confused

didn't we break up with dev? why are we getting music and antivirus from him? are these like parting gifts???

there is no way that i would be able to convince edgar. the gym is too expensive for him, first of all . . . second of all, the branch that i go to is an all women facility - which i really like. its in the suburbs, so its like housewives and grandmas half the time. i just need to sit down and talk to him about it. his classes start this week, so he'll need more time to study anyway. PLUS! he needs to talk to managers and get a schedule where he works more than 2 days a week. all of these things should add up to a busier life style for him. plus - by july, i'll be living in my own one bedroom! where he can have the key and come and go as he pleases without anyone freaking out.

oh - and when i get a new apartment, i'm going to look for a place that is pet friendly. if i find a dog that i fall in love with, i'll adopt it. if not - i guess the shelter gets alot of kitten liters so i can see what i need to do to be an approved haven home and house the kittens until they are old enough to be adopted. so - i can have a pet when its wicked cute without the long term commitment!!!!

computers and music

jules, i gave dev my computer just now to transfer his music, put office on there and give me norton for life through microsoft...

he hated the battery and how it protruded to the point where he was like if i were you id send it back and have them send you a new one with a smaller battery (i paid 20 bucks more for this batter causei thought it would be better to have an 8 hour life than 2 hour) anyway i called HP to see what my options were and why the battery sticks out so much - which i dont mind on my desk, just dont like it like that on my bed/lap. they are sending me a free smaller battery :) so now i have two!

and i told him how we were having trouble transferring our music and he explained what we were supposed to do - none of which we were actually doing :) he is coming over tonight after dinner and will prob play with the computers then. im excited to have indian music and stuff on my computer now :)

gym

can you convince him to go too? that worked with me and dev...i hated that every night i was with him meant that i couldnt go to the gym but then i made him realize that he should go too...now my complaint is that he focuses too much at the gym and doenst even glance at me let alone talk to me! other guys use the gym as time to check girls out and talk to them...and i think its hot to watch him lift, but he says its different when its your gf :) oh well...

so jessie still wont let him come over? how is that situation working out? was she happier after the vacation?

subway

I love their subclub cards..dev and i just got two footlong subs for 2 bucks! and we only ate 6 inches each..too bad we like different toppings so we cant just share one footlong..

i need to reorganize

i never go to the gym - and i hate to say it, but i think i figured out why. i spend an estimated 4 to 6 hours with edgar a night. and he gets a little pouty when my reason for not spending time with him is something that he thinks should be less important - like gym or staying in to watch the village.

i think he and i need to sit down and have a talk. its just annoying because he basically can't come to my apartment and its sort of weird to go to his place - so, there is not like falling asleep talking or that kind of quality time. but i want to go to the gym and would have gone last night, but instead i hung out with him and didn't get home until like 10:45!

frustrating.

not double booked

lunch and dinner are two separate meals! wow - i just realized that i actually already have 3 meals planned for saturday! pizza party, "brunch" at 2:30, and then dinner. it's ok, i'm going to try to have no pizza (trying to get my body ready for wearing a bikini), a salad for brunch, and then hopefully a nice dinner.

nush, i'll def hang out with you guys whenever i'm not busy eating :)

meg, i actually wish i had meetings to go to, for once! i also have a task that i keep putting off. blah.

chirag

i dont think julie needs to worry about what he thinks anymore :) that was a concer like 4 years ago! now we just have to worry about sat night - and there too she has the upper hand cause he is such a whimp!!

jules you can hang out with me and sashank whenever you want. not sure what we are doing or when but lots of random ny stuff

what happened to chirag?

jules - aren't you double booked for saturday? meeting until 2:30, then lunch, then dinner?? you know - guys aren't turned on by girls who order very little!

i try not to drink coffee in the morning. i don't like the idea of *needing* to drink coffee to feel awake in the morning. i'm hoping today will basically be a series of meetings. we just got out of lab meeting, i'll be going to another presentation at noon, its the floor's administrators bday today so there is cake for her at 1 . . . basically, i'm hoping to accomplish as little work as possible (although lab meeting was good for once today because it was actually relavant to stuff i do)

time to go pick up books i ordered! (the first of many worthless tasks today designed to avoid trying to start in on a big project)

looks like it's just you and me, nush

i don't think evelyn is coming this weekend - i haven't been able to talk to her, though. i talked to her girlfriend, D, briefly yesterday, who told me that she's been working until like 2am on some days. D also said that evelyn might have a project to work on this weekend, so i don't think she's going to be able to make it.

yea, i realized sashank would be here after i mentioned to going to jersey on sunday. oh well, maybe i'll go alone then.

it's sooo cold out!

dinner sunday etc

730 or 8 sounds fine for dinner. the appetizers will take me like 10 min to make, same with the drinks...id like to do pilates with jackie when we get home if we have time, and i mopped a bit cause the floor was soo gross this morning but we should prob do it once again (although im sure after having 3 boys over itll just get worse...i hate this weather!)

i cant go to jersey sunday cause sashank will be here - we are going to MOMA and i think kerry will be here too. i think she is taking monday off to spend the day with us...

is evy coming this weekend?

it was sooo hard to get ready for work this morning. . .

i just wanted to crawl back into bed after the gym (well, after my shower really). when i finally made myself leave the apt and get to work, i was looking forward to buying coffee from the street vendor i've been going to ($1 for coffee as opposed to more than $4 at starbucks), but when i got to the street corner the line was really long and it was freezing, so i decided to suck it up, walk right past starbucks and into my building, and have some of our gross coffee. yea, not a great way to start the morning. . .

but i'm proud of myself for working out this morning! it's a lot easier to wake up when you have somebody to work out with :)

nush, i told jackie to tell the guys to come over around 7:30 or 8:00. . . that should be fine, right? i figure we can start drinks and appetizers when they get there, and then jackie and i will work on dinner (which shouldn't take too long).

i'm excited about cooking tonight, too :)

oh yea, i have a date saturday night. i talked to joe yesterday. i don't know where we're going yet, but i'm excited. jackie said that he always picks the best places to go to, so that should be fun. i have no idea what i'm going to wear, though. . .

nush, what are you doing sunday?? there happens to be a bertuccis right next to peter's apt, so i was thinking of going over there sunday afternoon so i could see his new apt and have some bertuccis. want to join me? oh, i think your bro might still be in town, right?

hi megan :) and rups, hope you're having fun!

good morning

megan still no coffee - i went to staples yesterday and they were closed. so i bought starbucks :) i think ill go during lunch today if i have time...

tonight is our night to cook dinner for jackies coworker paul and his roommates. they cooked us dinner last thurs so we are reciprocating. im in charge of drinks and appetizers (drinks = uvatini, uva = grape in spanish, so its just red grape juice freshly blended and vodka) and (appetizers: portabella mushrooms baked with pesto and feta cheese). J+J are making dinner (rice and chicken and tostones or something (plaintains)) Im excited! we cook somewhat frequently but its not like this....

this morning jules and i went to the gym...we were both exhausted. i was up till 12 talking to dev about his job situation etc etc...and she was up since i was talking to him :/ and jackie cant sleep these days cause her pipes freeze if she doesnt keep the water running. none of us get nearly enough sleep anymore!!!

thats all from my update in the last 12 hours...

1.26.2005

dont worry (haha ironic coming from me...)

she is working for CSFB i think...thats where she met fred.

the reasons not to worry:
1. she isnt living with fred! she is living with some other girl who is working for csfb. oh maybe it is jp this time and it was csfb over the summer...who knows, somewhere good :)
2. jules i gave her michael fines number - i realllly hope something is open in our apt and she can move in there!! thatd be soo fun! i hope she calls him


550 bucks for a pretty smile?? and i drink looots of red wine so how long will it last really...my purses are an investment for a life time :) i know thats just my way of convincing myself that its ok. and the other way i convince myself is most people in NY have a shoe fetish. my most exp pair of shoes is like 60 bucks...and i have maybe 2 of those...

i feel like my mouth is hanging in wierd positions. i dont like talking to people now...but i get to leave around 615 today :) (allen is leaving at 6..) then to the gym with jackie then home to study

she IS a senior!

but rush is . . . well, now really - and they are saying they are going to fine for not attending rush events. she didn't do anything aphi-ish last term, so she doesn't want to have to bother with it this term.

she is relocating to nyc :) she has a job with jp morgan in derivatives sales. i don't know what that means but thats what she told me :)

i asked her if she had made plans for living situation next year - i'm wondering (worried) that she's going to say something scary like "move in with my 40 year old boyfriend" . . . . oh well.

def teeth whitening

i think having a pretty smile is more important than having a pretty purse - especially when you already have a few pretty purses!

is lil meghan a senior already? what's she doing after graduation? i feel like anusha probably told me already, but i forget. and why does she want to de-affiliate? isn't she almost graduating? am i wrong?

go white

its so weird that you spend so much time with alex.

i talked (email) meghan! she is such a good kid :) i'm excited that i'll get to see her :)

so, all the ranting i've been doing the last two days about the stuff i'm making is almost over. my last ingredient is getting autoclaved (10% gelatin) i just need to add 2.5 ml to my 250mL already made and filtered solution and i'm done! well, i'll need to aliquot it into little tubes . . . but i need to check with dee the nurse as to a couple of things first.

ok, time to replace some antibiotic i used of dietmar's!

dentist

had to go back...he is such a nice guy though..

im thinking of doing a permanent teeth whitening. it costs 550. i was going to buy myself another purse when i get my bonus, but i think 4 last year is enough and i think i want to hold off for a while...thoughts on the whitening? i have to pay by th 14th to get the "discounted" rate. its normally 750. and he said if you maintain it (brush, floss, and use whitening strips every oncein a while) itll last for at least 10 years or so...permanent eye liner, permanent whitening...why not right?

i have uncle allen not uncle david :)

sushi, my meal is only like 12 bucks..the rest was alex and michael (the new guy)

whoa

$45 for lunch for 3 people in midtown? i didn't know that was possible :)

white rice

damn sushi places that dont have brown rice. that is south beach approved. white rice is not. what is wrong with them?

the ranting stems from a free lunch i just got :) well i paid 5 bucks for tip since allen gave me 40 bucks to take out the new guy we are interviewing. it was me alex and him. he is like 35 so it was more just talking and not interviewing cause he knows way more than us, but either way we got to go for sushi. it was fun :)

now i need to get some work done then im going to give dev my computer so he can add some stuff for me then to the dentist...

the way we were

yea, i think i got it on netflix a while ago. jackie didn't like it. i did, but i think the only reason i liked it is because they mentioned it in sex and the city. i agree with megan, nush, i don't think you'll like it.

megan - with all your complaints about rochester, you should just move to nyc! we don't need to shovel snow around here or deal with cars getting stuck or anything :)

julie koo doesnt' think she can go on the cruise anymore - she realized she has an orgo2 exam that day or something.

i think rupa and nush already know this, so megan: joe called me last night to finally ask me out to dinner this saturday night! i was at the gym so he left me a message, then when i called him back i got his voicemail. i said i'd love to go to dinner with him - i just need to check if evelyn's coming to nyc for the weekend because i wouldn't want to ditch her for dinner if she comes all the way over here just to hang out with me.

i don't know why, but i'm in such a happy mood today! i guess i just had a really relaxing evening, with my gym classes and then hanging out with my roomies/watching a movie. . .

disappointed

in my future husband - M Knight! I didnt see the village but dont even want to...he was too busy thinking about me when he made that movie that it just sucked.

its ok, ill teach him :) (too bad he is married...)

that is exactly what i want

ive had such a good time over the last few months spending time with myself! just going to the gym, watching movies, reading, working more. and when im tired of myself, spending the time with my friends and family...i dont want a boy! sure i love the random flirtatious emails with random boys and i def dont want that to stop, but i dont want anything with anyone...i just need to be stronger/firmer/meaner to get my point across. thats a lot easier said than done...

the way we were

boy meets girl. they fall in love and then for some reason they can't stay together - but they have a kid . . . then at the end, she is happy and he is happy but he is remarried.

hows that for wicked vague. the only value in the way we were is that they mention it in sex and the city. i don't see you liking it at all.

i saw the village last night - wow, waste of time.

and did i mention its snowing again today? the roads JUST got cleared yesterday. i drove on the expressway for the first time since it snowed last night, and it felt so weird to go above 40 miles an hour! back down to driving at 10 to 20mph. shake fist at snow!!!

nush - i can see your point about not going to europe . . . maybe the best thing to do is not be with ANY guy for a little while.

the way we were

julie did we get this on netflix before? i seem to remember watching it but i really dont remember it..i remember not liking it though..

megan/julie? want to give me a quick plot synopsis?

im honestly shocked that he took initiative to hang out. which he has done a lot lately! before new years he contacted me to to have a drink but i was on vacation so much those two weeks that i didnt see him. it should be fun.

i did tell her wed be there. hopefully she is around.

your aunt and the humane thing sound awesome! does walking dogs count for your vet experience :) i had a dog encounter on sunday and i was very good about it - only cause sashank petted the dog the whole way to keep it occupied so it wouldnt eat me alive but still i wasnt that bad!

umm i think julie and jackie broke up with dev a while ago :) now i just have to do it. they both were telling me last night that he makes me think its all new things we are going to "try" but its really still the same shit and i shouldnt tolerate it. I KNOW they are right. I just dont know what to do about it...im not going to europe with chike though - i think that would just be too hard on everyone - dev, my parents, me having to lie to my parents, and i really dont think i want to be with someone in that way either...and i know if i went there id just be half hearted about it, and i know all he wants is a hook up fest and i definitely dont want that...not now at least..and not with him...

so no more conversation about it until i do something different :)

he wants something

chirag, i mean. or else him and carrie are on the rocks. or ARE GETTING MARRIED!!!!! oooooohhhhh, the intrigue :)

as for little meghan deaffiliating - did you tell her we are going to be in town that weekend? nevermind about that, i just emailed her anyway :) i could care less if she deaffiliated - i like her regardless of the letters attached and she might as well save the $300 or whatever in dues if she's not doing anything with the house anyway.

so are we breaking up with dev?

i'm going to be volunteering at a humane society in rochester starting soon :) i went to the first orientation last night. there is another one on sunday and then i'll be paired up with a person for one on one training and then i'm ready to go! they have a clinic there, but i'm not sure how much i'll be able to get in there (i'm trying) but either way - i'll be walking dogs at least two hours a week!

and my aunt emailed me this morning! my cousin george is a junior and is going to be visiting a college this saturday. his younger brother ryan (13 i think) doesn't want to go - his mom is ok with him staying home along for part of the day, but she was wondering if i could come hang out with in the afternoon and evening - i'm so excited! i love these guys :) and they live really close by but i never see them. plus - it will be a mini dry run because my aunt and uncle are planning a trip to italy this fall and want me to stay with the boys for 2 weeks while they are away. SO excited :)

:)

im in a good mood too. i do 8 min tae bo the morning (by present tense "do" i mean ive done it twice in a row which is a good start for me!) and it really gives me more energy. i like it.

what about koo? any more word from here? i cant believe i cant think of more people i would want to go with...thats good that jackie finally put her deposit down!

i had a talk - clearly didnt go anywhere...oh well enough about that. its boring and repetitive and i need to do something about it. so when i do ill tell you, till then ill just bore my roommates with the same stories over and over again :)

i was unofficially told yesterday that my review score for 2004 is "exceeds expectations" and "exceeds expectations" for the two categories we have = what you do and how you do it. im the only one on the team that got that score :) i might find out the bonus number on friday but ill prob only find out when i get back from vacation.

megan - little meghan emailed me. she is thinking of deaffiliating. im going to tell her she prob should....maybe shell be in town to see her 45 year old boyfrined this weekend and i can see her..

other gossip - the lunch julie is talking about is with none other than the indian stallion (isnt that what he called himself? for rupa that means chirag). he emailed me yesterday to see if i wanted to have dinner but i was here till 8 so i couldnt, but i suggested sat afternoon.

Girls

g'morning ladies! i don't know why i'm so happy today since i still feel sleepy, but i just am :)

nush - my party on saturday is over at 2:30, so if you could push lunch back a little later so i can make it, that'd be great :) that's the party where i'm finally going to meet my little girl!

cruise update: jackie put down her deposit yesterday (woo-woo!). i'm still hassling jessie and evelyn to put theirs down. my little cousin, natalia (the one that lives w/my parents now; she's the 19 yr old that moved from colombia recently and is a little bit wild), called me yesterday and said she might be coming too, so that'll be fun. she's fun to party with :)

rupie is leaving me today for sunny california :( i'm going to be so bored at work! oh well, maybe i'll actually be productive. . .



1.25.2005

im just leaving now :(

off to devs, then dinner (maybe my last dinner on microsoft...)
talk to you girls tomorrow

gym

i've actually been doing double-headers on tuesdays, too, for the past couple of weeks. powerflex and then advanced step. i never did it before because the powerflex class starts at 5:45, which was a bit early for me. but now i've decided that exercise is more important than work, so i've made it a point to make it to my class :)

nush - you should buy more coffee tonight. then tomorrow, pop your head into the super-boss's office and offer him some coffee. it's ok to be a brown-noser once in a while ;)

megan - your ranting really means nothing to me, but i hope you feel better getting it off your chest! and i hope everything works out with the syringes tomorrow :)

ok ladies, talk to you all tomorrow!

oh no!!!!

for the first time larry (the super boss) came over and said Anusha can i bug you for some coffee...and i had to say no! damn me for my laziness last night and not going to the gym :( i feel bad...

double header?

jules i thought the double headers were on wednesdays? im confused...

im going to be home tonight so ill be there when freshdirect comes if you are at the gym. jackie should be home by 815 anyway if she goes to the spinning class we usually go to...

this sat you should take her ID and do belly dancing with me! it was fun that one time....

oh how i worry

so - the thing to do on my to do list that i've been avoiding because i have too many questions has taken over my day. and nothing is really "going right" - first of all, all the ingredients are at completely the wrong concentrations, which is not hard to fix, its just going to be annoying. and a lot of the ingredients are antiboitics/antifugal stuff, so i'll be using syringes tomorrow to deal with it - which just kinda freaks me out for no real reason. then, i had gen helping me mix up the stuff initially because it went in the fume hood with this magnetic stirring thing and i just dragged her along since i'm convinced i'm doing everything wrong the first time i do it. yup, we melted a graduated cylindar to the hot plate. it is so much stress for media that i shouldn't be stressing over and as soon as i make it, i'll never see it again.

there. that was me venting. i hope everyone is having a good day :)

on a better note - i can tell that the days are getting longer! its almost 4:30 and although its not *sunny* there is still the reminants of a once sunny ski outside my window :) :) :)

oh how i worry

so - the thing to do on my to do list that i've been avoiding because i have too many questions has taken over my day. and nothing is really "going right" - first of all, all the ingredients are at completely the wrong concentrations, which is not hard to fix, its just going to be annoying. and a lot of the ingredients are antiboitics/antifugal stuff, so i'll be using syringes tomorrow to deal with it - which just kinda freaks me out for no real reason. then, i had gen helping me mix up the stuff initially because it went in the fume hood with this magnetic stirring thing and i just dragged her along since i'm convinced i'm doing everything wrong the first time i do it. yup, we melted a graduated cylindar to the hot plate. it is so much stress for media that i shouldn't be stressing over and as soon as i make it, i'll never see it again.

there. that was me venting. i hope everyone is having a good day :)

on a better note - i can tell that the days are getting longer! its almost 4:30 and although its not *sunny* there is still the reminants of a once sunny ski outside my window :) :) :)

oh how i worry

so - the thing to do on my to do list that i've been avoiding because i have too many questions has taken over my day. and nothing is really "going right" - first of all, all the ingredients are at completely the wrong concentrations, which is not hard to fix, its just going to be annoying. and a lot of the ingredients are antiboitics/antifugal stuff, so i'll be using syringes tomorrow to deal with it - which just kinda freaks me out for no real reason. then, i had gen helping me mix up the stuff initially because it went in the fume hood with this magnetic stirring thing and i just dragged her along since i'm convinced i'm doing everything wrong the first time i do it. yup, we melted a graduated cylindar to the hot plate. it is so much stress for media that i shouldn't be stressing over and as soon as i make it, i'll never see it again.

there. that was me venting. i hope everyone is having a good day :)

on a better note - i can tell that the days are getting longer! its almost 4:30 and although its not *sunny* there is still the reminants of a once sunny ski outside my window :) :) :)

guy with the gloves

megan i wouldnt trust anyones sanitariness in your lab...i dont remmeber details but wasnt there someone who was clearly in the MUST BE COVERED IN HERE room and walked out clearly disregarding the DONT WALK OUT WITH GLOVES ON rule? i wouldnt want to eat anywhere there...

i eat at my desk too...just use the 20 min to get some freshair. its just much nicer when its not slushy and muddy...

lunch

see - i would LOVE to eat at my desk. except i work in a lab . . . which means on the bench across from me, my cubbie buddy occasionally plays with mouse spleen and uteruses (uteri?) being in that environment makes it LESS than appetizing to break open the lunch bag at my desk. and, its def again lab rules to eat here. some people still do it . . . but since i don't feel like trusting my coworkers sterile technique that much - i opt for the provided lunch room :) (which is probably just as not so clean . . . but at least no one cuts up dead mice on those tables)

i agree!

they look a lot better and match the decor much better too. the other ones were too country-ish for the wonderful modern deco my roommates are responsible for :)

i think i win

i can't even remember the last time i ate lunch away from my desk and away from my computer! i could take lunch breaks if i wanted to, but i'd rather leave here 30 mins earlier and just eat lunch while i work. boring, i know.

today i have one of my double-headers at the gym, so i'm hoping that will wake me up. i feel so sleepy! hopefully that'll tire me out, too, so i'll sleep all night tonight. rupa and megan: after our very stimulating stool conversation yesterday, i'm sure you guys are very concerned about our new stools, so i figure i should update you on the status of our stools and ease your worries: the new stools look great! well, i dont know if my roomies feel the same way, but i love them. they seem a little short, but i think that's just because we were so used to the other ones which were way way too tall. anyways, the new ones are cute and the perfect height :)

its nice here

for the moment. its getting cloudier now, but earlier it was really sunny out. sure, the sideways are filled with snow but its too cold for it to be slushy.

of course, by the time i leave - it will be snowing again.

its nice here

for the moment. its getting cloudier now, but earlier it was really sunny out. sure, the sideways are filled with snow but its too cold for it to be slushy.

of course, by the time i leave - it will be snowing again.

its nice here

for the moment. its getting cloudier now, but earlier it was really sunny out. sure, the sideways are filled with snow but its too cold for it to be slushy.

of course, by the time i leave - it will be snowing again.

i bet mine was shorter

i used to like going for at least a 20 min walk during lunch just to get outside - but its grooooos outside. all muddy and slushy. i hate it. so i just went to duane reede, bought a card for arjun and avi and came back to eat my salad...

shortest lunch EVER

so - usually i eat with gen and courtney and they talk - alot.
but today, i went to the library and read from an immunology textbook since i wasn't doing anything productive (and felt really guilty doing that two days in a row) it was good - and if my ingredients still aren't here, i'm going to go back and do another hour. anyway, i wasn't around for them to tell me what they were/are doing for lunch, so i just went and ate by myself. and then anagha joined me (who i like) and we had a pleasant lunch and were done in 30 minutes. lovin' it!

now, i really want to go back to the library. its really quiet and i think this text book will actually be helpful in my overall understanding of immunology (aka what they pay me to do)

jobs

work for orbitz. or work as a personal shopper for someone. jacks and i were talking about that the other day - itd be fun but youd have to be on call 24 hours a day...that sucks. you basically become a therapist for them. or work as a marketing person who has to figure out what types of online ads get people - vicki lin (sandis sister) is doing that i think or did that...she loved it! just spent all day going to different websites and documenting what sort of ads pop up and what gets people attention etc etc...

thats exciting that you meet her sunday! what time? sashank and i are going to MOMA on sunday, if you want to join us before/after...also sat night we are going to the indian chinese rest we went to with ellen - want to come? and friday is satyans show i told you about....

im glad you are going home for the long weekend. you def deserve it. everyone needs some mommy love once in a while! are you going fri - tues?

ive had a good morning so far :)

despite retreating to bad coffee...

but most of my work is done for the march managers that i thought id be swamped with since im out for a week and a half. and today in our meeting allen was asking if we would meet the deadlines (since feb is a shorter month it makes things harder) and i was like actually all my documents are in and im almost done writing all my reports. i think everyone wanted to kill me...but he was happy and was like great then we can send your stuff out as soon as you get back from vacation :) it felt good...

and i think i may get to go to cali for work sometime in the next few months..thatll be ironed out later as well..

none of us slept in the apt last night. i did tae bo with jackie at like 9 so i was wide awake - of course i couldnt study anymore cause i thought i was tired. went to bed at 1030 and was awake at midnight after thinking i had slept the whole night. saw it was midnight and just laid there FOREVER...that kept happening all night. BUT paul helped me take my air conditioner out. julie and jackie didnt want me to cause we just cleaned and they didnt want me to make a mess, but i insisted. i knew that i had to start studying and i cant sit at my desk with the draft of the window. and i was all up for cleaning again if it made a mess. to all of our surprise it didnt make a mess at all, not even one drop of water! i put it in the hallway, and even this morning checked, no water.

ok too much going on here....need to get some work done...

thanks megan, i hope you're right :)

time for our super-duper fun 1.5 hour department meeting. wee!

i just want to shop online and play on orbitz. what kind of a job do i need to get in order to get paid for doing that?

my bad

oops, my big long blog posted twice - sorry!
julie, you are crazy. from the decription, they did an excellent job matching you up with a little girl who you are going to love and who is going to LOVE you :)

and seriously - going on the cruise doesn't interest me at all. i don't have a lot of vacation days and i am not overflowing with money - so three days just doesn't interest me. BUT you guys could all come visit for a ski trip ;)

no cruise for me and great karma

edgar has been sick the last two days (we think he ate bad cheese on saturday because its the only thing he ate differently than me for a 24 hour period). he spent sunday on the toilet or pucking all day and yesterday just on the toilet. i didn't see him at all on sunday because the weather was really bad and he didn't want me to drive. but i went over there yesterday after work. first, i stopped at cvs and got him medicine, then at blockbuster to get him a movie (i, robot - mediocre but DAMN will smith is jacked these days!). then i get to his house . . . his driveway is NOT well shoveled - and its at a little bit of a slope. so, i got stuck going in. him and his dad came out and fixed it. then, on the way out, i got stuck again. there is just something about snowy weather and tight spaces (his street isn't that wide, his driveway is really not big) i don't like hitting the gas as hard as i can (which *apparently* is my big problem). i hang out with edgar until 11ish and then i leave. i do NOT make it out of the driveway. i get myself stuck a little and then unstuck and am almost out of the driveway (my front wheels are practically in the street) and it ends. my car stops moving forward or backwards, completely wedged in to the piles of snow at the base of the driveway. i call edgar, he comes out and can't immediately get it unstuck either. then a car comes. the car has JUST enough room to get around my car but it stops, so i'm thinking maybe the driver doesn't want to just pull around and have edgar still hitting the gas. remember - edgar lives in the ghetto. he has heard shootings while sitting in his room. so, when the big black guy gets out and ask if we need help (i'm standing in the street) I was a bit nervous. i knocked on the window and am like umm . . . do we need a push? edgar says yes. this big black dude TOTALLY saved the day. i was hitting the gas, he and edgar were pushing (i seriously got myself stuck)

so, i drive home. MY driveway has a similar problem - only i know how to get in it. when making a right into the driveway, you just have to make it a little wide (even in the summer because otherwise you hit the curb) but wait, am i pulling in in the singularly most busy moment of probably the last hour. so, i feel that it is in bad form to make a wide right into the line of cars in the left lane. so - i get stuck again. but far enough into my driveway that everyone can get around me! i give up and just call jess immediately. before she came down, traffic had cleared so i got myself unstuck - but since she was there and i was frustrated, i just let her pull it in.

I HATE ROCHESTER WEATHER!

it was snowing when i left edgars, it was snowing when i woke up this morning. at least the last two days have been reasonable amounts so that the roads are ok.

ok, that was my complaining for the day. eun might be staying home today because a child is sick, so basically i have no direction AGAIN. oh well. i shouldn't complain about boring days. maybe i should read the immunology text so i have some clue of what i'm doing . . .

no cruise for me and great karma

edgar has been sick the last two days (we think he ate bad cheese on saturday because its the only thing he ate differently than me for a 24 hour period). he spent sunday on the toilet or pucking all day and yesterday just on the toilet. i didn't see him at all on sunday because the weather was really bad and he didn't want me to drive. but i went over there yesterday after work. first, i stopped at cvs and got him medicine, then at blockbuster to get him a movie (i, robot - mediocre but DAMN will smith is jacked these days!). then i get to his house . . . his driveway is NOT well shoveled - and its at a little bit of a slope. so, i got stuck going in. him and his dad came out and fixed it. then, on the way out, i got stuck again. there is just something about snowy weather and tight spaces (his street isn't that wide, his driveway is really not big) i don't like hitting the gas as hard as i can (which *apparently* is my big problem). i hang out with edgar until 11ish and then i leave. i do NOT make it out of the driveway. i get myself stuck a little and then unstuck and am almost out of the driveway (my front wheels are practically in the street) and it ends. my car stops moving forward or backwards, completely wedged in to the piles of snow at the base of the driveway. i call edgar, he comes out and can't immediately get it unstuck either. then a car comes. the car has JUST enough room to get around my car but it stops, so i'm thinking maybe the driver doesn't want to just pull around and have edgar still hitting the gas. remember - edgar lives in the ghetto. he has heard shootings while sitting in his room. so, when the big black guy gets out and ask if we need help (i'm standing in the street) I was a bit nervous. i knocked on the window and am like umm . . . do we need a push? edgar says yes. this big black dude TOTALLY saved the day. i was hitting the gas, he and edgar were pushing (i seriously got myself stuck)

so, i drive home. MY driveway has a similar problem - only i know how to get in it. when making a right into the driveway, you just have to make it a little wide (even in the summer because otherwise you hit the curb) but wait, am i pulling in in the singularly most busy moment of probably the last hour. so, i feel that it is in bad form to make a wide right into the line of cars in the left lane. so - i get stuck again. but far enough into my driveway that everyone can get around me! i give up and just call jess immediately. before she came down, traffic had cleared so i got myself unstuck - but since she was there and i was frustrated, i just let her pull it in.

I HATE ROCHESTER WEATHER!

it was snowing when i left edgars, it was snowing when i woke up this morning. at least the last two days have been reasonable amounts so that the roads are ok.

ok, that was my complaining for the day. eun might be staying home today because a child is sick, so basically i have no direction AGAIN. oh well. i shouldn't complain about boring days. maybe i should read the immunology text so i have some clue of what i'm doing . . .

hi :)

megan, julie koo just emailed me saying she's thinking of going on the cruise. you should come with us!!!! come come come. jessie aleman told me last night she's going too, so i'm excited :)

i had a crappy night. i was asleep before 10 because i was exhausted when i got home, but then i woke up and couldn't go back to sleep from from like 2am-5am - for no good reason. so of course, now i'm tired and sleepy and kind of cranky. i talked to jessie online for a while, so that was nice. i hadn't talked to her since xmas or something like that. and i also got my tickets to go home for president's day :)

i get to meet my little buddy on sunday! i'm kind of nervous. what if she doesn't like me?

ok done

i have read everything!! that's actually really fun to do.. read a whole day's worth of stuff... so much to say so much to say.

it sounds like megan is in the cutest relationship ever :) i love that you are comfortable with the we. it is so so cute. i'm excited to all hang out in boston that weekend... yay!

senseo coffee... if you aren't sure yet.. is available at gristedes/d'agistinos/associated grocery stores. :) you can also order it from their website.

i agree with the whole low rise jeans thing at work :) but that's b/c low rise was in fashion! even the curvy girl jeans that people wear which aren't made for models are clearly made SUPER low.. and you are right.. it's usually more butt crack than i'd like to see when i'm working.

umm... lots more comments.. i think it's a lil weird that chike is staying at the same hotel.. he may join your family for dinner at the hotel restaurant! :)

megan i'm still in suspense about you coming on the cruise.. i have seen the requests.. i third the requests!!! COME ON THE CRUISE!!!! but i'm still waiting to see your answer.. n/j i haven't called spikey but will today. sorry yesterday was a lil blah.

ummm.. other things.. work is really crazy busy.. i'm going to pasadena on wednesday night for work which will be fun.. and i'm still missing the boy....

:)

i'm back!!!!

for day two of my three day hell.. i'm gonna read the blog and get back to you all.

1.24.2005

why is it snowing again??

this is ridiculous! im going to go home soon...i dont like this one bit!

sounds good to me

so you and paul will give us $30 each ($10 for each stool), and then jackie and i will pay for the rest.

yay! i'm so excited to finally have stools that are the right height :)

Girls

yea, the links didn't work. let me try again:



if not, go to www.pier1imports.com, then look for the mumbasa stools

link didnt work but i like them

i think its fair that my contribution would be whatever paul is giving us since they are my stools...so if you want to ask him for 30 or 40 or whatever its up to you guys. does that seem fair?

yes megan. . .

come on the cruise; come on the cruise; come on the cruise!!!!!


:)


nush - jackie and paul are at pier1, they're getting our counter stools now. i think they're getting these:

if the link doesn't work, go to and look for the mombasa stools in the search.

they cost $40 each, and those were the cheapest they could find anywhere. jackie and i were thinking we could sell ours to paul for half price. they're $20 at kmart, so i paul and his roomies would give us $30 and then we have to shell out $90 for the rest. i don't remember if we agreed that jackie and i would buy them (since you provided so much of the kitchen stuff), or that the 3 of us would split it. either way it's cool, just let me know. . .

megan: especially....

now that you arent coming to NY that weekend, and you already did research to find out where you are going etc...

and it isnt that much work! just have to fly to miami that thurs and back on monday...the rest spikey will take care of ;)

yay!

i'm glad you got that day off already. don't worry, there's still PLENTY of time to figure out flights.

megan, i understand your reasons for not wanting to come. . .b. u. t. . . are you sure you won't reconsider??? we'll have so much fun! :)

i got friday off

hopefully i can get back to work on monday...

chike is staying at my hotel in japan!

gosh this is weird...he just emailed me and said that was their preferred hotel there so hell prob be at the same place! how ironic...

rupa - no appologies necessary - megan and i know not to expect blogs from you or jules on mon or tues :)

sorry...

hi girls.. today is really crazy for me.. just now was my first time checking email since 7am. :(

haven't read the blog but will in a few hours.. hope you guys are well. seems there is a lot to catch up on for me later. mwah!!

sorry...

hi girls.. today is really crazy for me.. just now was my first time checking email since 7am. :(

haven't read the blog but will in a few hours.. hope you guys are well. seems there is a lot to catch up on for me later. mwah!!

damn the man!

i do not think i am over weight.
i do not think i have an overly large/out of proportion ass or extra thick thighs.
my theory on the pants problem is that manufacturers are still convinced that women all aim to be the same shape as runway models and therefore want to wear cuts of pants that match that build.
DAMN THE MAN! SAVE THE EMPIRE!

:)

i hate that at work...in a club or that atmosphere it seems unavoidable sometimes but at work it just seems inappropriate...

this is the sole reason i havent bought sevens yet...i cant understand it but i think my thighs are too big relative to my butt and waist and therefore i am unable to find pants that go over my thighs/butt but that also fit on my waist and dont show my ass...

i just got my books :(

my pants are too big

the pants that i'm wearing today are stretchy so the thighs fit, but there is extra room in the ass. because of this, since i'm not wearing a belt, when i sit down they start riding incredibly low. luckily, my chair has a solid back otherwise i'd have flashed some undies/crack multiple times today.

i want chocolate.

there it is

this thing has a mind of its own...

ok well if you can find out, then i can book a flight today too. for now im just going to ask for friday off...

mon morning flight

i'm not so sure about the 10 am flight since i'm not sure how soon they'll let us off the ship, but i'll find out. . .

i blogged but yet again it didnt show up...

thurs night sounds great to me...i want to come back early on monday though so i can be at work around 12 or 1...if we get back at 8, a 10 flight should be doable, right jules?

flights

look for me too :) ill fly down thurs night for sure, but id like to come back monday right after the cruise so i can be at work by 12 or 1...that way it doesnt count as a vaca day...

i still need to ask allen for the day off which ill do this afternoon...

too many plans!

i don't know when/how i want to get to boston that weekend, and i don't know what i want to do once i'm there. all i do know is: jackie probably wants to go to whiskey park one night; we're going to the concert on sunday; evelyn is also coming with us; we're staying with gabe. other than that, it's all up for grabs!

i'm glad anusha was kind enough to let you guys know how dumb i am :) oh well, at least i still made it to the doctor on time, where my dermatologist checked all the moles on my body and told me they were all healthy and i don't have skin cancer :)

nush and rupa - i put down my deposit for the cruise already, and i'll probably look into getting my flight tonight. i'll definitely fly into ft. lauderdale since it's cheaper, but i want you guys to check with me before getting your flights. it'll be good for us (and anybody else who is going) to try to coordinate our flights - i don't want to have to make a bunch of trips to ft. lauderdale since it is pretty far. i'll probably try to fly home thurs after work and come back monday afternoon/evening.

i think i'm also going home for president's day. at first i wasn't going to since it's way expensive, but i just realized that i have a $100 credit on my orbitz credit card, so i'll probably just use that to get my ticket. i'm so excited :)

spikey

i just paid my deposit :) ill ask allen for that friday off when he gets back from lunch...

rupa i told him youd be calling him later to book it in the same room as me...hope thats ok! :)

megan i have no boston plans. and id love to wander around mit with you. i want to see the new gehry science building. hopefully bryan can get us in and take us around there...

boston

i don't know what everyone is doing while in boston - i know julie has the conert. the one big activity that i don't know whether you guys will want to join in on is my own little tour of mit :) i am going to walk edgar down dorm row, hopefully over to simmons but i know we can't walk around in it unless we "have permission" - i'm a little more sure of getting in next house and wandering around. walk around campus buildings - a little - and then MIT museum.

i'm not sure what else i want to show him - maybe call someone at aphi and get them to let me in and show people around :) obviously, first choice would be meghan . . . but i wouldn't mind seeing emily or joc for a little while. i want to take him to roads - but maybe not for a long time since it will be either on a friday or saturday night. other than roads, i don't really have any *going out* places i want him to see. i think chuck is a sports bar kinda guy while esther and edgar might prefer something like sophia's . . .

sounds like a plan

road trips are fun :) i havent done one in a while...

jules had a doctors appointment this morning..forgot about it and had to go all the way home (which is where the doctor is) after getting to work...she called to tell me how dumb she is :)

rupas prob really busy - she has her meetings with all her underlings today (from what little DE Shaw lingo I understand...) so well prob hear about some people thinking rupa is the best boss in the world...and another one in tears...such politics in the working world! i hate it!

i guess wed take the chinatown or greyhound friday after work...not sure...ill let jules and rupa just tell me how and where to be to get there.

rups - i called spikey to put down my deposit. he wasnt there, left a message, and will do it today hopefully. have you talked to concetta to see if she can come?

drive

mapquest puts the rochester to boston time at just under 6 hours. the fun thing about the drive is its all on 90 - there are no turns to miss or random routes to find. well, not until you get to boston . . . and i'm not scared of getting lost in boston :) (not that i wouldn't get lost in boston, i'm just not scared because i'd eventually figure it out)

we'd leave after i got out of work on thursday the 3rd and get in thursday night. then we'd stay in boston until sunday. i just need to nail down plans tonight with edgar and either confirm that esther and chuck are buying tickets to fly up or else start calling koo or cara and see if they have room for us :) the convenient thing about a hotel is it would be a place to park . . .

are julie and rupa out of their meetings yet??

you are most welcome :)

ill go to boston that weekend...i owe bryan and sandi a visit anyway, i keep cancelling all my trips there...

chike is also going to be in japan for work the week im there (which is next week...) so we are going to meet up for a drink :) chike, my brother, and me hahahah thatll be funny...the last boy toy my bro met was piyush :) that was quite the experience...

would you guys drive to boston or is that way too far? i have no concept of distance...

i think i want all of us to go to montreal for my bday :) i know thats super far away but so many people have been talking about it recently to me and i really want to go. and i need to stop planning fun weekends and remind myself to be antisocial and stay home and study... so thats why i bring up june in january. (i guess i dont need to provide an explanation, you guys are probably the least bit surprised by my comment...)

wow

i stand corrected - anusha has provided me ample entertainment :)

i think i'll try priceline - i just need more info from edgar about what kind of hotel esther and chuck want to stay at and how much they want to spend. if i got to boston, i won't go to nyc. so nush - you'll need to go to boston :)

and WOW! europe with chike?! that's crazy!! although . . . it would probably be really fun. if you are breaking up with dev, might as well get a little trinidadian lovin' in holland! you are quite the international woman . . . ;)

no one likes mondays

julie and rupa are always in meetings.
and anusha hasn't offered up any entertainment . . .

boston and coffee

i think they sell coffee at lots of random places here...rupa told me one day but i wasnt really listening :) so ill look it up and see if there is something near my office. i just bought some this morning. cause after you spoiling me with good coffee for a month i was not about to drink the crap we get here...

for hotels - toral always goes to priceline and gets awesome deals on places like the plaza and other really nice hotels...you should try that. are you still coming the weekend before for rupas bday???

for megan since rupa and jules heard yesterday - chike (who i talk to randomly on IM) asked me yesterday if i wanted to go to europe with him for the long weekend in feb!! i looked up tickets and the absolute perfect itinerary for amsterdam for me is only 500 bucks...im reallllly considering it. we shall see... (FYI megan - all the stuff dev said we would try to work on obviously is just not working and im tired of it. he gets back from seattle tomorrow and wednesday night we are supposed to have a "talk") hence the desire to plan a trip with my ex..... :-D

boston

oh! and i gave edgar options - and he really wants to go to boston that first weekend in march! AND he may have talked esther and chuck into it too! so i'm going to look for a hotel for the four of us to stay in (that way i don't have to impose a guy they don't know on koo or cara). can anyone think of anything in boston that isn't wicked fancy and overpriced?

out of coffee! oh no!

i thought of you friday - i went to target and they had the senseo pods. which means if you are really lazy (or can't find them) you can probably order them off walmart.com or target.com and just have them shipped. actually, there's probably a senseo.com too . . .

this weekend . . . i went to walmart and target on friday to spend my gift cards. at walmart, i found a ladybug pillow (ladybugs are mine and edgar's thing) and was so excited, i brought it to the airport with me to show him. he laughed and took out of a bag a ladybug pillow for me that he had found in the airport gift shop and esther had insisted on buying for me :) everything is really awesome between he and i right now :) after basically living together for 10 days, he's convinced i had this miraculous change . . . which i guess is a little bit true. i got really used to (and started liking) the "we" thing.

saturday - he and i laid around all day. we went to the movies at 5 to see house of flying daggers (didn't like it - he thought it was great) there was a starbucks in the same plaza as the movie theater so we thought we'd go there after. no such luck - the locked the door as we were coming up to it, apparently starbucks is willing to close 5 hours early because of weather. i don't ENTIRELY blame them as this weekend there was a county wide . . . i don't think you can call it a "ban" because i don't think they were giving tickets for it, but the weather was bad enough that they were discouraging all unnecessary travel. we got like 2 feet of snow.

sunday - i laid around the apartment by myself and watched 3 movies - two brothers, boyfriens and girlfriends, and mighty aphrodity. disney is too sweet, 80s french films - not that amazing, and i really don't like woody allen, no matter how hard i try!

i ALSO was playing online and found out that there are potentially good volunteer oppurtunities through a local animal rescue with the information session/orientation this tuesday! so, i'm excited about that. AND i bought a print from an artist in a gallery i visited in st. augustine - which should be made and then delivered in the next 7 to 10 days :)

today - i really only need to accomplish one thing - but its been the one thing i've been putting off for a week. it doesn't seem hard, but i need to make this media from a recipe that is pretty vague. and it means i need to order this thing eun sent me to order right before i left for florida, so i def didn't. and now i looked at the info and her hand writing is so bad that i need to ask her or call someone to descipher it. oh well. that's what happens when you put off tasks :)

warm :) but out of coffee :(

i feel warm and happy at my desk today. i guess that is something that comes from having a room that feels like below zero at night. jules we def need to take the air conditioners out today...we should just put them in the hallway outside the door for now...

megan what did you do all weekend? were you snowed in with edgar?

i know all rupa and julies stories from the weekend...

1.21.2005

counting the minutes

i think i might leave soon. its still sunny . . . i don't want to be here any more!!! i want to go home and be a bum tonight, not waste time here . . . which is all that i'm doing.

too lazy and boring to blog

nothing's going on here! same old stuff at work, i'm just counting down the minutes 'til i can get out of here. i paid helga a little visit today. amazing how much less painful it is when you actually go regularly!

i spoke to my mommy today, she's finally coming back from colombia on this sunday. i'm going to try to go see her either the 2nd or 3rd weekend in feb.

yay! it's almost 4 and i'm going to try to get out of here at 5 :) ok guys, hope you all have wonderful weekends!

:)

ill ask uma chitti about the receipt...

def dont write it out to me then! forget about bofa matching it. just write it out to help and if you want you can send it directly to the kids:
Arjun and Avinash
11530 Seneca Woods Ct
Great Falls, VA 22066
703-406-0823

just write a note reminding them who you are - and have your mom say that shes your mom :) otherwise you could send it to me and ill send all the checks to them together by next friday.

im going to do the taxes thing too...file this, the 25 bucks or so that i gave to mit :) i sponsor a kid in india too but last year they wouldnt recognize that...i dont know why...lets see if this year i can do that...

nushie's cousins are cute

i'm going to be sending you a check today.
my mom is going to send one also - but she is way more organized them i am so she is also going to declare it on her taxes - so, can you or your cousins/aunt and uncle come up with some kind of "receipt" to show that it is going to tsunami stuff?

it's contagious

now mine's not posting . . .

i tried it didnt post...

then i gave up...

3.5 more hours...and a lot of grunt work to get through...and my books get delivered on monday :( thats totally depressing...

i def want to go to free wine on sunday night now!!

hellloooooo ooooo ooo ooo oo o

(the extra "o"s are the echo effect cause by the emptiness)
i was gone for HOURS! and no one wrote anything.
i completely pigged out at lunch - and i didn't even mean too! i had one modest plate of food, soup, and a piece of cheesecake and now i'm waay too stuffed. but i found out the Li is not only going to work for harvard, she'll be living "near fenway" other than that, she wasn't sure (she has never been to the apartment, only seen pictures) so i'm guessing she'll be in rupa's sister's neighborhood? or maybe in kenmore? i was jealous.

now . . . i have no idea what i'm going to do. but i think i'm going to leave early.

friday's awesome power

its snowing and cold out. the high today here is 8 degrees - not counting windchill. and the roads are not good - i def was going slow and scared of skidding this morning.

but its friday :) i have a couple things i want to accomplish today - all of which are very doable and will be great set up for next week when i should start my weeks of repetative experiments to actually deal with all the blood i froze during october and november. and THAT in and of itself is really fun - because i'll be busy, but on my own schedule. soooo - if i want to take a friday off, i can just work sunday to thursday the week before without a problem :)

edgar gets back tonight - a little after 11. i'm going to pick him up from the airport. i don't know what his family and karlos thought of me, but esther really liked me. i got nicknamed "tall-y" esther is shorter than edgar, chuck is about his height - so i very much towered over everyone.

ok, i think i'm going to do some work. we are having a lab lunch party (sort of) for li, a girl that is leaving tomorrow for a new job. we're ordering a bunch of chinese food (her choice) and all eating together at noon. it should be interesting . . . but its something to look forward to :)

vacations

the weddings are april 30th and may 21st. yes, i know the april 30th one is the weekend after we get back from the cruise. jackie and i are crazy like that :)

i'll let you know when i make my deposit. i think it's easier for each of us to call and do it since he'll probably need more info like bdays and stuff (not that i don't already know all of that, but i just think it's easier . . .), and since we might want to pay for it with credit cards. either way, i'm pretty sure it'll be this afternoon.

and megan, anusha's hair looks great! :)

still enjoying my coffee :)

i love that even though im tempted to buy good coffee when im tired i dont have to. its waiting for me at my desk :) im running out of pods though...so i need to go buy some next week.

i love my haricut too :) its short! like at my shoulders, but it jsut feels so much healthier...i think our guy is the only straight male 45 hairdresser in the world. we love him!

if the weather is gross (and rupa if you are back from seeing your parents) im going to sleep over on sunday :) i have no desire to go all the way to soho and back to midtown...

jules let me know when you make a deposit - i def want to put mine down too. ill ask for the day off next week i think, but it shouldnt be a problem. do we each have to call spikey or can one of us just do it? id like to put it on my card though...so maybe we should each just call...

also, can you let me know what weekends those weddings are that you and jackie will be gone for? uma chitti wants to come visit and i think its easier to have a house full of family when you guys arent there..thanks!

hi girls

i'm here and feeling a lot better today! too bad i have A LOT of work to do, also.

my roomies and i got haircuts yesterday. . .it was so much fun! i love my new haircut. . i have bangs now! now i can't wait until april to get my highlights done :)

megan, sorry your flights were so miserable, but i'm glad you enjoyed meeting everyone in jacksonville! and even if the temp was in the 40s and 50s, isn't that still like 30 degrees warmer than rochester?? we're supposed to get a lot of snow tonight and this weekend, so i'm not really looking forward to that.

tonight i'm going to dinner with jackie's company. they got us a room at the W hotel, too, so we dont' even have to go home at the end of the night. then tomorrow we're going to the spa to get facials. and then evelyn gets in tomorrow night! so i'm really looking forward to the next couple of days :)

rupa - we're going to free wine on sunday before desperate housewives (around 6ish). we're meeting jackie's manhattan friends there. do you want to join us? and then we wanted to come to your place to watch the show (paul still has to see last week's episode, too). does all that sound good to you?

meg -any weekend plans?

good morning girls!!

it's finally FRIDAY!!!! yay :)

megan wasn't this the shortest week ever? :)

1.20.2005

i say nyc

NYC!!!!!! especially cuz it's sooner and i'm kinda a fan of that random holiday ;)

boston

i think i'm going to skip boston also . . .
i think i only want to do one or the other - and i'd rather do nyc because it would be more about seeing you guys (and isn't there like a holiday around then? you know, one of those really unimportant ones - like a birthday?) i'd rather show edgar boston when its nice enough to walk around outside.

BUT i'll talk to him tonight and see what he thinks :) maybe he'd rather go to boston than nyc :)

i don't mean to be *i can't make a decision without my boyfriend* but i'm trying to limit the amount of vacations i take, so i'm prioritizing - which means i want to take the ones with him that we've talked about. i WILL either go to nyc or boston - regardless of his saying no. i just want to give him the oppurtunity to say yes to one :)

did you invite him to boston also?

nyc

that trip is looking good :)
i invited edgar (via email, so he hasn't responded yet) i didn't think you guys would mind :) the cheap flights on jetblue for that weekend are leaving thursday night and coming back sunday night, or maybe we would drive if edgar didn't mind getting dragged along. we could still drive up thursday night and he and i could be tourists on friday while you guys are at work :)

you're not a party pooper

but we expect you to come to NY since thats little effort for a lot of fun :)

still thinking no

for around september i need to have 100 hours logged in with animal experience and 3 people willing to attest and recommend me after said experience. if i can really only volunteer on weekends - and preferably not all weekend - 8 hours a weekend will take at least 12 weeks or 3 months.

plus, it would be flying to miami to meet up with you guys. or flying to jfk to fly to miami with you guys for a 3 days cruise - so, i would need to fly down like thursday to meet you guys to get there in time on friday and then spend the rest of monday getting back to rochester. i'm sure you guys are going to have A LOT of fun - but, i'd rather put it a little work for a little vacation or a lot of work for a lot of vacation and this just seems like a lot of work for a little vacation.

sorry to be a party pooper :(

im here that weekend

if you put down 100 bucks today you have till feb 20th to get all your money back if you change your mind..itll be fun!! i havent been somewhere like that with you since cancun, and come on that was a trip neither of us will ever forget! but i know what its like to be busy...thats my last thing of fun before i have to just spend every weekend in my room...

the cruise

i'm thinking no.
i probably could pay for it - that's not so much the issue. but i still want to go to new orleans (edgar's other cousin) and seattle to see yon (which i told him i'd do in february and is SOOO not going to happen) and boston with edgar. plus misc. trips to nyc. AND the time is fast approaching that i need to take GRE's and find a vet clinic that will let me volunteer there (i'm going to be calling places tonight) once i start volunteering, i want to devote most of my weekends to that so i have lots of hours logged in for the recommendations they will eventually be writing for me.

so - no. but the last weekend in february (25-27) you guys will all be in nyc w/o other family/friends/major obligations? if all that is so - then maybe i'll go there for the weekend as my one adventure out in february - and put off the other stuff until march and after :)

i worry too much

and its always plane delays/issues with delta that are the source of my worry...

im glad you had such a good time :) its interesting to drive around in a place where someone you care so much about grew up and understand them/see another side of them more...rupa, of all the important people in my life - you are one of the few I still have to experience that with! and im in philly so much...we should change that...

megan - when you get a chance to catch up on the blog youll see lots of confusing things about the cruise/weekends etc...but basically jules, rupa and i are putting a deposit down today for that...can you come??

the good news

i had TONS of fun!
friday - went for breakfast to a waffle house with esther (the best friend) and edgar. she had to go back to work so edgar and i hung out at her house with their dogs and played darts and took a nap. when esther and her husband (chuck) got home, edgar made martinis and we played darts until we went to dinner and met up with more of esther friends. we went out to some bars along the beach and then to this cuban place where i had my first mojito - good, but i like martinis way more.
saturday - a lot of lounging and then edgar's cousin who i call mighty mouse and his wife came over (magdiel? i think that might be how you spell his real name . . . he gets called a shortened version which sounds like mighty or else andy, depending on who you are) his wife is sort of annoying, but he's a really interesting guy (lawyer, pilot's license, cave dives - you know, the normal hobbies) she talked about her cats the whole time. so, they came over and we had coffee and talked all afternoon. for dinner, esther chuck edgar and i went to a japanese steak house then went to jacksonville landing (a bunch of little shops along the river) and wandered for a little while. edgar took me on a driving tour around places he used to go in jax. sunday - he and i got up early and went to st. augustine and spent the day there. we met up with his friend karlos and his wife for dinner (karlos used to be engaged to esther and then she broke it off so they don't speak) esther, edgar, and i watched movies and we all went to bed. monday - we went to esther's family's house and i met her grandma (not a word of english)parents and nephews (all but the nephews edgar is close to) then, we went to san marco and wandered around. dinner, we went out with mighty and his wife, edgar's aunt (mighty's mom), esther, edgar and i to a backwoods place that has gator tail. it was really fun - less wife talking about cats and more actual conversation. tuesday - edgar and i went to gainesville (where he actually lived for years) he showed me some of his old apartments and we walked around the downtown-ish area pointing out the places from his stories and we drove past where he used to work. then we came back and he took me to the airport!

so - really nice :) it wasn't very warm (40s and 50s) but i got to a bunch of people (only his cousin ellie in new orleans and his friend ana who is moving to seattle left to meet) and i really liked esther and she liked me - so very productive :)

the bad part

so, i was supposed to leave at 7:30 thursday night. edgar's dad dropped us off and we go to check in and the guy is like yeah, that flight has been delayed long enough that you will miss your connecting flight and you won't get to jacksonville tonight. i can put you on a flight for 10am tomorrow, arriving after 3pm in jax or i can switch your flight to delta (our flight was united) and you'll leave at 5:15am with a final arrival time of 9:30. ok, we did that. so, i spent the night at edgar's since we were leaving so early. we get to the airport at 4am. we get to the delta counter and the woman is like sorry, united did it wrong so i have your reservation but its marked as unpaid and he didn't give you flight coupons. so, we had to go wait for united to open at 4:30 and fix their mistake (which they swear they didn't make) so - we have our boarding tickets and go through security - and we have gotten marked or whatever so even though we didn't set anything off, we get frisked. who can say no to a 4:45am fondling from a strange woman, though? AND it turned out that she knew my extended family - basically a second mother to my cousin chris.

after all that, getting the rest of the way to jax was fine.

on the way home - i was scheduled to fly out of jax at 7:30 on tuesday thought delta with an hour lay over in atlanta, arriving in rochester at midnight. so - everything goes completely smoothly getting to the gate in jax. then they announce - sorry, the stewardessess are running late so the flight is delayed - by over 20 minutes. then, atlanta made us circle for a while. we were supposed to arrive at 8:49, we didn't land until 9:20. so, i had to go from one end of the atlanta airport to the other. i get to may connecting flight and the woman (smiling) says sorry, flights are closed 10 minutes before take off so you missed it! the plane is still on the groun - AND its a little puddle hopper so you have to walk out on the run way to get to it anyway, not one of those big arm thingys! so, i ask her what i'm supposed to do - she directs me to a counter a couple of gates back. i tell the lady there i missed my flight. she looks me up in the system and hands me a new ticket and is like ok, your flight takes off at 8am tomorrow morning. i asked her what i was supposed to do until then and she looks at me with attitude and asks me why i missed my flight. i start getting upset and shes like don't get like that to me, i don't work for delta - you need to go (back where i came from) and talk to them. so, some aggressive discussion later i got my voucher for the crowne plaza and 2 $7 food vouchers later - i got to the hotel got some food and went to sleep. i was up at 6am on wed. so i could take a shower and get on the shuttle and be at the airport for my 8:12 flight. again, getting there and through security was easy. the plane still hadn't arrived by ten of 8. the plane gets there a little after 8 - so, they are going to board just as soon as they can! the board with this info changes from 8:12 to 8:40 to 9 to 9:15 to 9:20 with very little comment from delta. we finally take off for our 2 hour flight with an estimated arrival time of 11:45 - as opposed to the 10:26 scheduled time. so, i've called jessie to let her know i'm running late and to just give her the flight # so she could check online when she gets up to see when it arrives instead of waiting at the airport. i land and call her - and wake her up. apparently she went back to sleep after our first convo thinking she wouldn't really fall asleep and she'd get up in a little while. but she fell back asleep completely and didn't wake up until my phone call. so yeah - i was in a very unpleasant state by the time i got to work.

AND THEN! there was a big (really stupid) fight between dee and gen and some of the usual petiness between courtney and eun while i was gone so everyone was not speaking to everyone by the time i got to the lab yesterday. i think things are starting to work themselves out but - yesterday was rough.

i'm alive!

ok, that's just so no one is worried.
i'll post this and then continue blogging a longer message about my weekend :)

getting high

you could get high and watch herald and kumar :) haha thatd prob rid you of all problems!!!

you and jacks are having dinner at pauls then coming home? we forgot to talk about tonight in the chaos of gross gin and club soda last night...

it's the sick girl . . .

hi girls. . . i'm so excited about the cruise! megan - where have you disappeared to??

rups, i'd love to make you happy and blog, but i saw you last night and don't have anything new or interesting to say since then! besides going to LI to get a haircut today, i'm not planning on doing anything interesting. i'll probably just lay around in bed and hopefully i'll feel better. . .

ok ladies, enjoy your thursdays!

shes alive!!!!

in case anyone else was worried :) prob just me though...i need to learn to relax!

urgh

just registered for the next exam and ordered my books online...

good morning!!!

jules is out sick today :(

how is everyone doing? nush- i just talked to you.. but i'll blog it anyway.. i am definitely down for the cruise in april!!! and would love to upgrade to a real room. i can't believe a cruise like that only costs #300!! why did i think it was so much more?

i have to do the reviews of my group today.. blah. i hope they are happy! what else? i have so so so much work today.. how does this happen?? i feel like i only took one day off and suddenly i'm backed up beyond belief!

anyway.. happy thursday. enjoy your mornings. and BLOG!!! i'm finally good at writing and reading this thing and there's sometimes not a lot going on.

megan.. i miss you!!!! show your pretty face!

still no megan...

i dont like this...i worry too much...

i had fun last night :) it was nice to just hang out at home with you girls and peter. this mornign i went to the gym and when i came home my cramps kicked in. i was so tempted to stay home but i have so much to do...

rupa/megan - cruise? jules said that if we book asap (or put down our deposit we can get it back) they will upgrade us to a better room...would either of you be ready to put it down today?

1.19.2005

i left megan a voice mail... :-/

where is she?

so complicated...jules i think rupa and i are just coming home so we can cheer you up/all hang out together :)

hi girls!

hola!!! i can't do rest. week either :( i'm leaving for california for recruiting on wednesday morning and am gone through the weekend. tuesday night i'm meeting up with alexis moush and company which leaves me only monday night to pack. lunches are also busy :( but i think they are also happening another week (it's usually 2 weeks not too far apart) so i'd be ok with doing that one.

nush- i can meet you for a drink and then come with you to hang out with your roomies... :) i have lots lots of work this week so i can't do both nights.. well i should be able to hang out for a bit tonight and then come late tonight if it comes late.. but one night this week i need to stay at work late... should that night be tomorrow?

i have to finish something for work in the next few minutes but i'll call you guys to figure out what to do :) will call at 4:30 or so

no restaurant week for me

sorry ladies, but looks like i'm going to have to put myself on a bit of a budget if i want to be able to make it to miami in feb and on the cruise for my bday and stuff. i kind of got screwed on my bonus, so i'm not going to have as much $$ as i was counting on.

sorry for being such a party pooper, nush, but i'm just in a bad mood and don't really feel like socializing. i think going to the gym and blowing off some steam will make me feel better. we can talk about plans for tomorrow tonight at home.

jackie wants to hang out too rupa, but i didnt ask her to come up here cause the weather is absolutely gross...so either we can just meet up for a drink then ill go home and hang out with the roomies and go out with jackie down there, or you can come with..whichever you want...

i think im gonna leave here at 5 or 530 and return a few things i need to return (near here and then macys...) so let me know...

restaurant week

ellen made reservations at this place for restaurant week:
Payard Patisserie and Bistro for Wednesday, Jan 26 at 8:30pm

julie or rupa, interested? well prob not julie since its also on a wednesday...but if not, do you girls want to do one of the restaurants another day next week?

may be posted twice...

rups - both nights! i have a gift card for del friscos from my dad...so your first drink is on him :) their drinks are so good..and then maybe we can just grab a quick bite to eat or another drink...and we can stay midtown so neither of us has to travel far in this crappy weather

but tomorrow come to the apt around 830 or 9...thats when i should be home and ellens coming then and im gonna tell people from work to come then too! im excited...

either night!

i'm up for celebrating either night.. so let me know what you'd like to do :) i'm running to a meeting but will be back in a bit and can talk more about plans!

tomorrow

i think im gonna have a party at home anyway tomorrow. can you come rupa? ellens gonna come; i think some people from my work can come; and if not at least the three of us can get drunk and hang out :) i had already told some people since i didnt know of the change of plan..and we have tooons of alcohol...

:-/

you dont want to skip the gym for one night? rupa are you free?

i never want to go out...and when i do the weather is crappy and people are busy!

today's my double-header at the gym

so i won't be home until 9ish, by which time i'll be starving and exhausted, so i don't think i'll be much fun tonight :(

just found out my bonus - too bad i get jipped since i wasn't a full-time employee for the whole year. blah

thats awesome :)

im not going to ct anymore...so jules/rups can we hang out and do something fun? the weather is soo crappy though...so you guys should talk on IM and see what you are up to...

megan, megan WHERE ARE YOU??

it was a formal written review. he said i'm the bomb and the dept couldn't live without me ;)

i find out my comp/bonus sometime between today and friday. it's a little nerve wrecking. . .

jules what did your boss say?

is it a formal review/write up about you? did he tell you your bonus?

i need to do that soon...but every time i ask allen he says remind me later...

:)

my hands stopped shaking :)

i may go to new haven to have dinner with my parents tonight...i tried to see if they would come here but they suggested me meet half way in new haven..

but tomorrow night - rupa want to meet up for/after dinner? jules if rupa cant hang out for dinner ill come to pauls..is that too many people for him to cook for?

yay! congrats nush :)

updates :)

i love getting updates on all your lives :)

celebrity poker sounds like fun.

nush- i checked out that sony one.. it seems cool. the whole thing really is a display! the canon one that i'm thinking about is basically the same size as the sony one.. and i looked through a bunch of sample pictures that it took which i really liked. i know what you mean though about sticking to the brand that you like :) i have an olympus now and first thought i'd only get that one.. but the reviews and pics on the canon were better than on the little olympuses. i'm so excited!! this thing is only 4.6 oz and will fit in a purse! i can't wait :)

i just refreshed and saw the "i passed" thing. woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!! yay :) i'm so happy for you. can we all have a drink to celebrate??? i hope we all aren't too busy ;)

cameras

oooh, rups, i really like that canon. anusha's right, my dad and i don't like sony cameras, so i definitely approve of your choice :)

i'll be here the last weekend in feb.

i dont think we're having a party after our haircuts tomorrow. jackie has a company dinner on friday, so she didn't want to really party too hard thursday night so she wouldn't be tired. nush, paul and his roommate invited us to dinner at their place after our haircuts friday. . . do you want to come? they live in the upper east.

celebrity poker was at lotus - jordan invited us. jackie and i just went to hang out. we couldn't play - we're not celebrities! i'm not a poker player, anyways. the tourney started at like 7 and they opened the doors to the public around 10. by the time jackie and i got there at 11, there were only like 6 players left.

we just got our written performance reviews. . . my manager loves me :)

I PASSED!!!!

That was the scariest 5 min of my life to check that website....

and my hands are still shaking...

clarifications

i meant that ill be here that last weekend if everyone else will...i may also be here most weekends in feb but things change so frequently i have no idea...but megan - try to come that last weekend! (where the heck are you by the way???) how was fl???

and rupa it was for this friday - but that got changed too - we are leaving for philly on friday night. so dinner there with sashank. he has sat off so we will all spend the whole day together.

sony has an awesome new camera out that is like $450, 5 MP, and really really thin and the whole thing is basically a display. thats the one im going to buy my brother when i get my bonus :)
http://www.steves-digicams.com/2004_reviews/t1.html (i dont know how to post websites so youll have to cut and paste)

i know jules's dad and therefore julie dont like sonys for cameras cause thats not their forte, but i love mine...this one is just smaller and cooler...

good morning girls!!!

are you still having a party after your haircuts? nush- did you figure out where you are going friday night? i may still have suggestions... but i couldn't remember if this was for last week's cousin or this weeks.

jules what was celebrity poker? did you guys go and play? i really like that girl that won americas next top model.. eva :)

i've started planning how i'm spending my bonus.. even though i'm not even sure how much it is.. i've decided to also get a new digital camera. i want one that's little and fits into lil purses.. since my current one is awesome but huge :)

i'm gonna get the canon sd300. jules.. any opinions?

hi megan!!! how are you?

not many celebrities

i heard sean penn was there, although we didn't see him. we saw "america's top model", i don't know her name. also heard that the mtv vj was there, cadoose? (i'm sure i just completely butchered his name) although i dont really think he's a celebrity, especially since we've seen him a few times at suede and all.

we're getting hair cuts tomorrow! i'm so excited :) and this week is almost over! too bad it's FREEZING.

wait nush, i'm confused about your blog. so you'll be here the actual weekend of rupa's bday - the 20th? rupa won't be here - she'll be in san francisco for her friend's wedding.

jules did you see anyone famous at celebrity poker?

you should get a big ol' ghetto jacket like me!

my parents are coming for rupas bday weekend too :)

flights to new orleans are too expensive and my mom is giving a concert the next weekend and if everyone else is free that weekend then i dont want to be the one to postpone for another few weeks...so long story short we arent going to new orleans...ill go sunday night or monday morning...

im freezing. im wearing my going out black pants under my work pants and a cashmere sweater and im still cold...i hate this weather.

1.18.2005

exhausted

ive been up since 530 and am soooo tired. ive been having the weirdest dreams all weekend. i cant remember last night but i know it kept me up a lot - the night before that my mom and i were walking somewhere and someone deliberately pushed her and she went flying/fell...i jumped up...it was scarey...

anyway all weekend was a lot of fun. im so glad i got to spend time with my cousin. i have so many of them but only know a handful really well - this is one that i dont know well at all. we talked a lot about his job, his friends, his family, and most importantly his accident. i felt uncomfortable to ask at first but then i did with the caveat that he can tell me to stop whenever he wanted. i found out so much about him / what he went through...

sat we walked around the whole city. walked to the WTC site, then to battery park city, then to 45 wall st- he looooved the apt! he couldnt get over how cool the apt was :) i guess i miss those conveneinces a lot too - gym in building, amazing roofdeck,doormen who know you even when you havent been ther for a year! it was nice :) then we took the subway to times sq - its fun to walk around there with someone who appreciates it. i just find it to be a pain in the ass these days since its a routine walk for me and i hate the crowd since i usually just want to get somewhere. but its nice to walk around when the person you are with is oohing and ahhing. then we walked to rockefller, my office so he could see a view of the park from the 33rd floor, then we were freezing so we went home - packed and got on a train to ct. we went to a party for akshays parents - he is so cute. saw all the boys - parth, parag, raj, pratiks brother was there too..

that night my cousin from boston and aunt came to see sharad. my aunt and younger cousin left at like midnight, the boy stayed -the two boys drank a whole bottle of crown!!! my parents werent too happy and didnt really know what to say - luckily they didnt throw up or act drunk in the morning i think my mom would have flipped...

then sunday my parents and i went to the temple, then to nalini aunties, and sunday we had a very relaxing day at home. i helped my mom do some errands, we watched hidalgo (which i liked, she hated, and i sent it back today jules). it was very relaxing and nice to spend that time with them...

this friday another cousin from india will be coming; we are going staight to philly on friday night since my bro has sat off. ill come back sunday around lunch time and rupa ill def come up for the double feature on sunday! (was this week a new one?? i hope so!)

that was my weekend....tonight i just want to go home, cuddle with my pink pillow and watch a movie....i bet my room is freeeezing since i havent had the heat on all weekend...

weekends and miami

i still don't know when i'm going home in feb because it all depends on when my mom comes back (which she'll probably tell me today). i'm thinking it'll be either the 2nd or 3rd weekends in feb (so the 11th or the 18th).

for my birthday, i still want to go on a cruise. i'll probably send you more info tonight, but i think it's going to be the weekend after my birthday, april 22nd.

megan, come visit! i don't know when, though . . . the weekend of march 6 rupa and i will be in boston. maybe we can meet there?

bday celebrations...

jules did you figure out when you are going to miami yet? my parents want to go to new orleans with me that weekend (but i said it was as long as we werent doing something with rupa that weekend...) i need to book those tickets next week we have a month in advance rule at work...

and did you find out anything more about the cruise? are you def doing it that weekend in april that you said before?

how the hell do weekends get so full...i dont like it one bit.

megan!

where are you? i was just buying my ticket to cali for my friend's wedding and.. i remembered that it's the last day for the jet blue sale!!!!! it's only $90 between rochester and here.. any interest in coming for a weeekend? it seems like we are all busy till march.. but can we all meet for a weekend then? :) :) :)

i know it's way too early to plan.. but $90 seems like a good deal.

hope your trip to FL was fun!!

welcome back girls

it is WAAAYYY too cold here. i want to go home!

anyways, hope you all had a lovely weekend. mine was great - jackie's party on friday was lots of fun. we got wasted, partied hard, joe and i made out again. saturday was allright - i finally met christian, the boy from michigan that jackie's been talking to. he's really cute and fun and seems like a nice person. something about him totally reminded me of chirag. not his personality, but i think it was his eyes and his smile. anyways, we all went out sat night and i didn't have such a great night since i was alone most of the time and didn't really hang out with his friends or anything. one of his friends, scott, followed me home at the end of the night which was totally weird since we didn't really talk at all at the club. jackie and christian went back to the hotel, and scott followed me home so i'm thinking to myself "ok, i guess we're hooking up now". and obvioulsy it was easier to fool around with him than to send him home, so we hooked up for a little but he kept trying to have sex with me and i just wanted him to go home. . . he left eventually and i was so happy to finally go to sleep by myself.

the rest of the weekend was pretty non-eventful, but really nice and relaxing. my horoscope today says that i should take a sick day soon, and i realized that i never take sick days, so i think i'll have to take a sick day either thurs or friday this week.

i just saw rupa - she looks so happy! i'm totally jealous of her weekend.

horoscope

jules that horoscope was hilarious - and so true for you for friday night:)

i have so much to read/do but will write about my weekend soon...

morning!!

hi girls!!! it's so COLD here :) i left and it was 60 something.. and come back to 13!! ahh :) anyway just wanted to say hello. i missed our blog :(

i had an amazing trip that i'll tell you all about in a few but i first need to finish up somethings for work. talk to you soon! tell me about your weekends!! :)

1.14.2005

well, according to my horoscope. . .

i won't be super boring for much longer! this is what my horscope said today:

It's been days since you've been in the mood to go out and socialize, and you're worried. Could this be a permanent thing for you? Nah. This, too, shall pass -- by late tonight, and that's a promise. At that point, the stars slip out of the comfy-cozy jammies they've been wearing in your house of secrets, and are ready, willing and able to make up for any lost time. So, as per usual, expect to be burning the candle at both ends as you party on down. Better?

nush, i'll give evelyn your number so she can call you when she gets into the city. her cell phone starts with (919). enjoy the movie!

wow we are boring these days...

i didnt have a computer for like 4 hours cause they were fixing it; i thought id come back to at least something!!

i went to pilates while they fixed it :) then ive just been reading..just got it back and plan on leaving at 5:00 on the dot!

talk to you all (except jules) on tues...jules see you late tonight/tomorrow morn! i bought eggs so ill make breakfast if everyone wants...

nothing interesting and new going on here

i would have blogged but i have nothing to say! it's hard to be excited about tonight when it's so gross and crappy out, although i guess it's supposed to stop raining by this afternoon.

yay for 3 day weekends!

im here late and no blogs yet!!

rupas in miami already i think...megan are you working today? jules i bought 2 dozen eggs at eckerd - they had a feb 4th sell by date so i thought 2 dozen would def be necessary...i would have bought milk too but didnt know we were out till i got home...

my new wallet and computer are awesome :) im so happy with my new toys!

1.13.2005

use julie

send julie to the apple store with you ipod - they love here there and give her free anything!!!! :) but if that doesnt work, the extra money for latest and greatest is definitely worth it!

yay

all these fun toys coming :)

i have decided to get an ipod photo! i have to lay my ipod down to rest as it never came back after the whole fiasco on my way back from rochester... i have tried to fix it myself.. to get it covered under warranty.. nothing. :( so basically i'd have to spend $250 fixing it.. when i could just spend twice that for a new one :) ok it makes sense in my head.. actually i've found a place that sells ipod photo for only $420 which is just a lil more than the regular 40gig price and i can still buy applecare so i'm gonna do that.

the only other prob was that it wouldn't fit into the speakers that jules is getting me.. but i read all these message boards and finally talked to a live friend of a friend that has the onstage WITH an ipod photo and it works fine! which means photos for me! it's kinda a waste of money in that it's not that impressive or that much better than the regular 40 gig but for only a lil more money i do get to play with my photos.. and that means being able to walk into someone's house- hook it up to a tv and show them all my pics. plus i get a lil thrill out of having the latest and greatest when it comes to lil gadgets.

i think i'm gonna go to the apple store monday night and play with them.. although i may order my photo thing tonight so that it comes in next week.

i'm still bored.. bah.

mines fedex

so i have to walk a lot farther to get it...i dont know where the ups place is but i think thats a lot closer to the apt..

did you go get a power work out in to wake you up? i cant wait to go home and play with my computer :) hopefully i can figure out the internet....

sweet!

jackie has to go pick up her speakers, too, so maybe you guys can go over there together.

i just wanna go home. i'm so bored and sleepy!

my computer is here :)

of course they tried delivering it and no one was home...oh well...i think ill go there after work and pick it up at around 8

in a good mood now

i was in a bad mood cause i was hungry and i was supposed to have a meeting at 1130 and she never showed up and i waiting till 1. so then i was starving..

i went out for a walk - decided to stop in to fendi and gucci to see what i could buy myself with my bonus money that i get in feb...ended up seein a gucci wallet that matches my purse now (brown and green) for only 150! on sale from 325...i think im going to go buy it after work today. i keep thinking about it - so if its there at 5 or 6 ill get it then go home and just relax tonight. rupa let me know where you end up going - if it is within a few blocks from my place ill come out for a drink but dont plan around me! id be totally happy watching a movie/reading at home....

miami

rups, the weather will be mid-70s to low 80s (and maybe a bit cooler at night). unfortunately, it looks like it's going to be rainy the next couple of days! :(

i wouldn't completely rule out beach days, though, miami weather can be a bit unpredictable. . .

meg, i'm glad it went well! and i'm also jealous that you get to go home now. i wish i could go to. . .

evelyn's coming this weekend! i'm so excite! i think she's getting in tomorrow at like 9, so i guess she'll meet up with jackie and me at some point. then saturday she wants me to go to the apple store with her so she can get herself an ipod :) she's going to be in ct for the next month, then pittsfield MA for the next 5 or 6 months. i love having her in the northeast :)

nush, i'll be around this weekend so i'm sure i'll hang out with you and your cousin at some point. . .

sorry rups, i'm def not up for going out tonight - i need to get my beauty sleep since i'm going to partying all night tomorrow!

have fun megan!!!

:)

ha ha ha

you are sweet... i'll email him a lil later today.. :)

rupa: email him

i responded to his generic email this morning basically saying i know you wont respond cause 1000 people are writing to you but good luck, and make sure you use the camera and the ipod :)

he wrote back...so you should write to him!

do you leave tonight???

how exciting for you and rupa...luckily for me and jules its warming up a bit here...

i'm back!

it went well, not amazing - but let's be serious, i wasn't expecting amazing. it was good to have people look at my data and give me suggestions on how i could fix things and what the flaws may be. and in the beginning, eun spoke up to mention something else (which i didn't really think was worth mentioning, but whatever) and was like i haven't seen any of megan's slides - so, it was good to have that laid on the table (that my boss wasn't super there for me) without having to say it. i think i came across pretty well - and it wasn't so bad because we always get sidetracked. i purposely posed some questions to set up for sidetracking, so i probably was only the center of attention for like 20 minutes of the hour and a half.

now, i think i'm going to be worthless for another half an hour and then go home and pack :) i have been in this lab WAAAY too much lately (i added it up - something like 33 hours logged in BEFORE i got here this morning) which, for you big city/high profile girls may not be much, but i've had just about enough of this lab for one week!

i was so nervous last night that - on top of not going to bed until almost 2 - i couldn't fall asleep. and then when i did, i woke up again a little after 4 and didn't fall asleep again until 5ish and finally gave up and got up at 6:30. so, its starting to hit me how tired i am :)

i love having things to read :)

i liked the atmosphere at asia de cuba. we sat upstairs but i wish we sat at that big table that we kept looking at...

that was one of my bday dinners with dev. but i agree - sushi samba is still my fav :) i def want to go there when im done with phase 1! do you think they do sushi with brown rice?

rupa i looked at that menu - its making my mouth water - but its a little too expensive. my cousin will never let me pay and i dont want to make him take me to such an expensive place - especially when you convert to rupees - hed do it but id feel bad...

im impressed with my will power too :) i dont know if its worked...i feel like it has, but i also have worked out every day for the last 3 weeks, so i feel like that has to have something to do with it too...last night i made south beach version brocc casserole - basically just broc and sour cream :) it was really good...

jules - i hope this weekend you have some time to hang out wth my cousin - he is i think the best cousin in the family - very smart, very fun, very brave...maybe saturday we can all go to brunch or maybe ill make brunch for everyone...

asia de cuba

yeah i think asia de cuba's whole thing of latin/asian is what all the places try to do.. i just think places like sushi samba seem to do it better :)

i'm so impressed with all your willpower to stay on that south beach diet when you guys are tempted by all these restaurants.. and you guys look great already!! lobster mashed potatoes would do me in.. i wouldn't be able to just have a small taste.

so jules- it's not gonna really be beach weather in miami right now, right? i could just go to weather.com but i like blogging it better :)

anyone up for going out tonight? i guess not if jules wants to be in bed by 11 but one of my friends is in town from california- indian friends- and i think we are gonna meet up downtown somewhere for a drink.

speaking of people in town.. nush i never responded to that email of yours about thai food.. have you thought about just taking him to kittichai? it definitely won't be cheap (i don't remember if that was one of your requirements) but is supposed to be good.. otherwise i'll keep thinking and will let you know. moush is my ms. zagats so i may ask her.

megan- my parents are big wegmans fans now :)

megan, megan bobegan. . .

looks like megan't the theme of the morning, so i decided to stick with it ;)

drinks and dinner last night were a lot of fun. the candidate accepted our offer in the middle of the day, so it makes the sell day a lot more fun because there isn't pressure to get him to accept. the food at asia de cuba was really good, but i was a little unimpressed with the restaurant itself. i guess i was just expecting something bigger and more exotic. no one went wild and got drunk at dinner yesterday, but it was still a fun time.

today i feel gross, though. i stuck with south beach friendly foods all night and just had a small taste of the plantains, lobster mashed potatoes (which were great), and dessert, but i still ate way more than i have been eating in the past couple of weeks. i think i'm just going to fast all day today to make myself feel better.

today i'm going to the gym after work, then cleaning the bathroom when i get home before i go get a manicure and pedicure :) i love pampering myself. and i also hope to be in bed by like 11. . .

rupa, good luck getting all your work wrapped up today! i'm so jealous you're going to miami. . .

yay megan!

i hope it all goes really well today. i'm glad that you are gonna be witty..nervous.. and candid- it'll be easier to do it being yourself than trying to be all stuffy and formal :) let us know how it goes.

dinner was super fun.. i met lots of random people that went to college or high school with kate and they were all pretty great. they went to a movie after but i ended up going home and meeting up with anuj's girlfriend uptown.

that place is really good though.. it's in chinatown and looks like a random chinese place but the food was awesome! and super cheap :) we should try that out.. kate has apparently been going there since she was a kid.

no special email from ameya.. but i'm happy :) i just wanted to hear that he was ok and settling in etc and it sounds like things are really exciting. i don't think i'm gonna call anytime soon- i'll miss him more if i talk to him.. so i think i'll wait a few weeks or so.. and you're right, i'll have more stories to tell than just me missing him :)

i leave for miami in the morning so today's gonna be a lil crazy with work but i'll blog every once in a while. megan is it a lil warmer up there? it's super foggy but really warm here :) walking to the subway felt like walking on clouds or something.. and i don't mean it like the cliche :)

good luck megan!

what time did you go back/finish? how did it go???

a tech caller called me at work last night - i listed that as my home number :) and actually left a message thanking me for my last donation in may! i thought if people gave money we just threw them in a pile and didnt care about them...i mean they didnt help us to the real goal of the program - winning free movie tickets...

last night i went to pilates which was a complete waste of my time. the guy was fat and horrible. but at least now i know not to schedule gym time around his pilates classes - which are a lot of the time! then i watched herold and kumar go to white castle. it was funny but stupid...makes you want to hear a guys conversation when you walk by them at a bar or something...

this morning, did a spinning class and am now here...

rupa how was dinner, what time do you leave tomorrow? did you get a special email from ameya? are you going to try calling him?? i think you can...maybe wait until after this weekend - it would have been a week and youll have tons of stories to tell about the bachelorette party...

youll be happy to know i talked to my roommate this morning, so i have no house related topics to overwhelm the blog with...


1.12.2005

about half way done

so, i've gone over what i'm going to present to gen and she's really great so she was being all critical and then going through what she thinks i should have in it and checking what i've done.

i've got all the background of the study and my analysis finished. i have some of the graphs all done and want to do a few more - but i've been working on this none stop, so i think i'm going to go home for a little while then come back again (i miss college where dinner was downstairs and you could return whenever) plus, i can park close now and that way i won't have to be hungry and walk 20 minutes by myself late at night.

i'm feeling really good about it though because gen and courtney approved some of my jokes and said tim wouldn't hate me or think i'm disrespectful (the title is RSV Challenge (the study name): and then in smaller print so much data, so little experience) and i have an all about me slide next that the last line is First time giving a lab meeting so . . . be gentle, its my first time. i figure if i make myself seem witty yet nervous and a bit over my head with all the data, i'll evoke sympathy and likeability to make the rest of the presentation go by with constructive criticism (which i want and need) and no god she's an idiot condecending remarks :)

i'll blog again tomorrow :)

:)

that sounds so exciting. you can explore the city with this girl! go to baseball games, play in the park, etc etc!! :)

rupa im not going to come to dinner...we are going out for drinks (but im not going to drink cause i want to do pilates) then watch a movie and fall asleep...have fun though!

jules see you at home...megan im looking forward to hearing about how you kicked ass on the presentation

:-D

i just found out more about my little girl! i passed the other background check, so i'm all clear to meet her at the buddy party at the end of this month. like i said before, she's 7 years old, her family is puerto rican.

Fun Facts:
School: She's in the second grade and is doing well. She is good about doing her homework.
Likes: (She has so many) Shakira, singing into a microphone, she likes to paint flowers, color, play ball, watch the yankees, play with hair, play tag (where she is good at catching the other girls), pizza, McDonalds.
Dislikes: None that she expressed

i can't wait to meet her!

nush, i'm so excited about your computer! the ups package they tried to deliver yesterday was jackies's speakers, so i think she's going to try to go pick them up today. megan, i'm sure you'll do great on your presentation!

rupa and nush, i'm pretty sure i'm going to dinner after work. i'im so tired, though. i just want to go home, clean the bathroom, and pass out.

i'm getting my nails done tomorrow! and then jackie's party on friday.. . i'm so excited!

blah - can't believe i need to sit here for another 45 minutes :(

yay

potluck and tv sounds good :) i'm glad you are blogging b/c i keep checking and like having things to read.

i get to buy a sofa and other furniture for our lounge! how exciting!! this is our office lounge.. which means it's someone else's money that i would be spending which is great!!

i'm really bored at work today with lots of crap to do... blah. nush i'm so excited for dinner.. i just read reviews and this place is supposed a great cheap but good food find.. i hope you decide to come!!! :)

im blogging alone but i dont care :)

cause i have lots of random tid bits to say...

rupa - i cant watch desparate housewives this weekend, and since youll be in FL - you should just wait till next sunday and we can have a double feature and a pot luck :)

megan - my group loves you

i just offered to share my senseo with the group, provided they purchase a mini fridge for that cube to hold milk and stuff :) that way my life is easier (the cube is right next to mine) and everyone gets good coffee...

THEY SHIPPED MY COMPUTER TODAY!!!!

and my cousin (the one from vancouver who had the burn accident last summer) is coming to NYC for business this week and is going to stay with me this weekend!! Im not going to CT anymore, or will go later, but im really excited. I cant wait to see him...

good luck megan!

youll be fine! you survived mit...you can do this, especially when you have your friends there to teach you how to use the machines...

rupa - call me when you are leaving for dinner...ill decide then...

dinner

is at big wong's.. this place that is supposed to be good at mott and canal. so yeah i'll be around there :) nush - if you do want to skip pilates.. you should just come to dinner. this is basically a few work people who are the happy fun kind and kate's college friends who are fun.. i think you'd like them :) i think big wong's is chinese.

let me know.. otherwise i'll be free at 9 and can meet up. i don't want to be out too late but we can do something.. jules will you be at dinner still then?

good luck megan!!! i'm sure you won't see this till later but we love you and you are gonna be AWESOME tomorrow (glad to hear the girls are being supportive).

i'm slipping on the whole holding up thing... for the most part i've been ok at being fine and happy and not missing him but man.. i do miss him :) not even the quasi-whatevership that we are in since i talked to him, i just miss his being around.

my one blog

i too was up early. i was sitting in the lab by 8, working on my presentation. courtney made me happy today because she sat down and helped me with some stuff. basically, all the girls are really supportive and don't want me to be scared.

BUT the program i need to use to graph stuff is on this computer - but only from a different login (which i didn't discover until this morning) so instead of figuring out how to change the setting right now, i'm just going to sign in under a different name - and shut off all email/blog contacts!!!

wish me luck :) tomorrow morning at 9 . . .

no time for pilates during lunch

so im gonna go at 730 in soho..rups if you are around that area/dinner is over around 830 or 9 ill meet up with you...

sleep

its quite possible that after your dinner ill be asleep :) but call me anyway when you are done...the weather is way to gross for ice skating. tomorrow is supposed to warm up and not be too cold..maybe thatll work...

not going

hi :) i'm not going to the sell day... but i am gonna go to dinner for this birthday of this girl that works for me.. nush- wanna hang out after that?

i think they are doing dinner and a movie but i don't really want to go to a movie. jules- you should go to asia de cuba!! sounds really fun :)

i am sleepy and not as productive.. but it's nice to hear about your mornings :) that really inspires me.

and i'm holding up ok.. trying to detach myself. :)

asia de cuba

you should def go! the food is really good, which to me is surprisingly for such a swanky place - i usually only like drinks at swanky places :)

maybe we can go ice skating tomorrow...

rupa - how are you holding up? are you going to the sell day stuff too? if not, want to hang out later?

megan - hows the presentation prep going?

i have lots of crap work to do and i dont want to do it at all....hence the blogging and adding to netflix :) jules im gonna bring hidalgo home this weekend and watch with my parents, then ill send it back...

me too!

i went to bed at like 10:30 because i was exhausted, went to a spinning class at 6:45 this morning, and had a great workout! usually i'm still sleepy and really half-assed in the mornings, but today i had a great workout. i got to work at 8:30 - it's now 9:30 and there's NOBODY here yet. i guess the rain is slowing everyone down.

nush, jackie and i talked to paul to go ice skating today with him and joey, but i think we'll have to cancel it because of the rain. . .

i have a sell day today for one of our candidates - drinks from 6:00-7:45, then dinner at asia de cuba at 8. i don't know if i'm going to dinner - i guess it depends on who else is going and if we go ice skating or not.

blah. i guess i have to do some real work now. hope you all have a great day :)

its not even 9 and ive been so productive

I went to bed last night at 10 cause I was exhausted, so at 615 when I woke up I decided to go to the gym. usually im not as productive in the mornings cause it takes me longer to get my legs moving - but i did 5 miles in 45 min on the ellipical! which i usually never do...i think ill go to pilates during lunch today too...

then i came home, showered, had my laundry picked up, made eggs for breakfast, and got here at 830 - before everyone else :) which i love doing...

geez i feel like ive done a whole days worth of work and am ready for thursday...

a girl in my office got engaged this weekend :)

rupa/julie - jackie talked about going ice skating last night but since everyone was at the gym etc we didnt go...want to go tonight or tomorrow night?

1.11.2005

going home

ive been unproductive lately...im going to go home...and relax for a bit then go to the gym. hopefully jackie will go with me..

rups i may not go to new orleans - just if i can find someone to go with...dev may be an option but i think thats a bad idea...my parents may be an option - ill ask this weekend..

and it was more of a "if julie isnt here anyway thing" so if she isnt in miami then ill most likely stay and megan can come...

we live together - but i still feel like i never have time/place to tell her everything i have to say!

ok im going home...im tired...

is the common computer the one with all the data on it? i love MIT people.. just no frills.. not too melodramatic :) except anthony of course. sounds like everyone is just blah before thursday? is that why courtney and gen are being worse than usual?

less than an hr left :) i think ameya's being away has made me surprisingly productive. :) i cleaned the whole apt this weekend.. sanded all this wood for a project last night and now just got through my entire to-do folder!!!

don't you two live together?

the blog is you guys chatting back and forth now :)

so - courtney is annoying me a little less because i think its not her being holier than thou to me thats putting her in a bad mood, its that a project that she has worked on and is perfecting is potentially going to get handed off to a prep student in the lab so the prep student has interesting data to apply to grad school with. basically, tim (the bossman) is giving courtney a slap in the face and she's really pissed off.

PLUS! i've been sitting at the common computer in between jonathon (the computer guy) and pranav (a dorky undergrad who is now graduating a term early and will be working full time from now on) i think i love them. they are very MIT and it makes me happy. they just plug away at their stuff without getting gossipy or overly annoyed at how the world has wronged them (which is the main thing i don't like about gen and courtney)

back to a little more work. i plan to leave by 6.

:)

if you don't end up doing new orleans that weekend.. can we do my bday that weekend? otherwise i'll celebrate it with jules on her cruise ;)

the movies were good

i liked them both :)

yea, the cruise would be from miami going just to key west and cozumel. leaves thurs afternoon, arrives in miami mon morning. spikey is finding out prices for me, but he says end of april the prices are usually pretty good since spring break is over. tentatively, i'm looking at a cruise departing april 21st.

nush, i don't know when i'm going to miami in feb, but i think it's actually going to be before the 15th because that's when my cousin is celebrating her bday. i want to book my flight soon, though, so if i don't hear anything from her, i might just plan my trip around my mom's arrival (which, also, is still uncertain).

new orleans will be fun! :)

welcome back miss julie

did you like the movies? wow we are being really good about netflix this month...or this week..

a cruise sounds fun! from miami? i may not be able to go since im using so much of my vacation now for japan. and thatll start to be crunch time for studying...but i probably could be convinced :)

did you find out when you are going to miami in feb? if you arent here that last weekend i may go to new orleans - i have to be there for work mon and tues and i may go for the weekend...not sure yet...

better late than never. . .

hi girls! sorry, busy busy day over here (like always).

the snow does look pretty! i'll be hating it when i need to walk through slush and mud later (if it sticks).

meg, don't stress your lab meeting! i'm sure you'll be fine. you should have as much confidence in yourself as we do :)

nush, i'm glad you liked meet the fockers. i thought it was really good, too. last night jackie and paul took down our xmas tree - the living room looks so empty now! we also watched garden state, and then i watched breakign all the rules, so i sent those back today.

so, i think i want to go on a 4 night cruise for my bday. i'll give you more details later in case you guys want to come, but i just thought i'd mention it in case you guys wanted to start thinking of your vacations this year. . .

ok, back to work

i hate the dentist.

i just paid my first dentist bill ever - and i guess i thought it would be like health insurance where i go in, they charge my insurance a lot of money and i pay them like 5 or 15 bucks. nope. i had to shell out 150 bucks to fill two small cavities :( and there is a bigger one starting that he says is a differnt procedure that is going to cost 250...im not happy at all. why isnt dental insurance like health insurance?? or is my health insurance just really good and my dental insurance crappy? i dont get it...i need to ask my mom how much we used to pay growing up/she still pays cause i dont like it one bit.

rupa i havent seen the apple thing - dev emailed me about it too - he is going to get the new cheaper ipod i think...who knows..his email questioned apples desire to keep the luxury brand that was so emphatically discussed on sat :)

back to the anger - i feel like my mouth is 10 times the size that it actually is and i cant eat for 3 hours even though the filling is supposed to be so good (hence the 150 bucks) that i should be able to, but just to be safe im not allowed to. i hate the dentist.

presentation

are they presenting with you? i think you will be fine.. don't stress! and it doesn't seem like eun helps you much anyway.. so it's ok that she's away :)

yay for FL... you'll have so much fun with his friends.

you guys should go to apple.com when you have a chance.. the new toys are out! there is a $500 mac mini computer out and there's also a new ipod that's $99 or $149

ameya hasn't called.. although i'm trying not to wait to hear from him :) i'm assuming he'll send some email at some point to me or to everyone that says he made it ok and is settled... but maybe he hasn't figured out his computer/internet/life there yet :)

i was gonna call the mom to see if he reached ok.. but that seems a lil too wifey-like so i won't. it's snowing! it looks so pretty out

my data

sooo i don't know what i'm supposed to be able to show - that's part of the problem.
and now, since i'm obviously unprepared, gen and courtney have gotten this your a little slacker attitude, so its pissing me off and making me weird about asking them questions. i am looking forward to this trip to florida!!!!

my update is that im still sleepy

nothing exciting, just work...

did ameya call?

no updates since morning?

jules and i were in our meeting.. but are back now :) till our next meeting at 1:30. megan- good luck. you still have 2 days.. you will totally be ready. i think you should just burn it on CD so then you don't have to worry what laptop is used.

i'm sure you'll be able to figure out how to setup your data.. what exactly are you supposed to be able to show them?

i'm bored today.. but still catching up on things from the last week. yay!

u can do it

burn a cd - that sounds like a good idea.

rupa - are you feeling better? no need to give up free coffee for innocent flirting :) we wont tell ameya ;)

we saw meet the fockers last night - it was soo funny. but now im exhausted....he leaves for seattle today for a week and a half.

back to work :( i just want to sleep!

this is me, officially freaking out

so, i may or may not have to give lab meeting on thursday. if i do - i'm TOTALLY freaked! i'm not ready. at all. even simple things like the programs to make the graphs are on one computer, but not on mine. should i create the whole presentation on that computer and then burn a cd? and when i do this, what laptop gets used for presenting???

PLUS! i have no idea how to set up my data. at all. and eun's on call until thursday - so she'll just make it in time to see me bomb.

yup. getting nervous. starting to feel sick. AHHHHH!

good morning girls!!

i got some free starbucks today.. but now it's making me not want to go back to that starbucks b/c i think the guy is hitting on me... last time it was a girl but this time it's the older guy who always sees me with gerry. he asked what happened to my boyfriend :)

how is everyone doing today? sorry i missed the end of the day.. i felt really sick from the night before's italian and the lack of sleep so i went home to nap in the afternoon..

it was nice.. i didn't really end up napping but i did clean the living room and watch sex and the city. super productive monday :) megan- your anniversary night sounds incredible. i love that he treats you like a princess. you ARE a princess :) and i love that he can cook enough to think of adding baileys to fondue.

well i hope everyone has a happy tuesday... jules and i have our long weekly meeting again (blah!) but at least it means i see her for an hr and a half and that there is free fruit! that's always the best part of tuesdays.

1.10.2005

everyones so busy...

:-/

i guess it always takes time for the person on that end of things...and its probably even harder to be told that from your best friend..

im gonna stay at devs tonight, but ill be home tomorrow if you guys dont end up taking it down tonight, we can do it tomorrow. i took out uma chittis with just avinashs help and it was like twice the size of ours so we prob dont need peter or pauls help! we are strong girls :) if you do take it down though, can you please just put my ornaments on my bed...ill wrap them and put them back in that bag for my mom to take home...a few broke last year and that always makes me sad...

could you also just tell jackie not to worry about friday - ill just go home friday. my mom needs to plan her music teaching schedule and cant do it so close to the end of the week...so ill just tell her to plan around picking me up on friday night. tell her i said thanks though :)

joe and peter

i think technically i'm joe's date since he bought my ticket, but i think i'll probably hang out with jackie more than with joe. in my opinion, he's scared of girls and doesn't know how to talk to me, so i dont think hanging out with him all night will be much fun. oh well, we'll see.

i don't know what's going on with peter. he's been super weird and distant for the past week or so. i guess he just needs a little bit of space, i don't know. and his away messages are always super dramatic and stuff - just sappy quotes about love and life. we used to email and talk all day at work, but he's been pretty much ignoring me. oh well, hopefully he'll get over it. he was supposed to come over yesterday to help us take the tree down but of course, he cancelled, so paul's going to come over after work to help us do that.
anusha - jackie is still finding out about the ticket for friday. she said she'll have a definite answer for you by tomorrow.

both i believe...

jules - when you give megan the update on joe, also give an update on peter...you and jackie were very odd when i asked where he was last night...did he say/do anything other than not show up to go shopping with you guys on sat?

jackie's company party?

so are you joe's date or jackies???

sorry ladies,

but mondays are my busiest days. megan, sounds like you had a great night thursday! i'm so jealous. i wish i had a guy to pamper me like that. . .

i had a nice weekend - pretty uneventful, i decided to take it easy since i feel like i'm getting sick. watching desperate housewives at rupa's last night was fun, though. this friday is jackie's company party, so i'm looking forward to that :)

dont run away! im here!

that was so nice to read megan :) im glad you had a lot of fun. FL should be fun too! weekend get aways are the best...

things here are pretty busy since im gone for 2 weeks in Feb, I have to get a head start on all that work and get it done now...

other than that life is same old...

oh, mondays . . .

where's you all go!!
I read Friday's blog while i was using the super fast computer (at 7 at night) . . . there was so much chatting! now that i'm here - nothing :( and i'm only going to be here for about 10 to 15 minutes! then i'm running away . . .

my big long blog

sorry i disappeared - friday ended up being a lot longer than i thought. we got all these age matched control samples for a study that was done last year - and it took a very long time. as in - i left the lab at about 8:30pm Friday night. I didn't come in until 11:30ish because the samples wouldn't be here until then and i knew it would be a late night - but still! I never even turned on my computer because I only had about a 15 minute break (that i spent getting something to drink from the cafeteria).

soooo - thursday night. I got home at sixish. he met me at the door and told me to close my eyes and turned off all the lights - he had cleaned my room so that he could cover every available surface with little candles - including above the door frames. he took of the door to the bathroom and moved all the stuff out of there too and that was covered with candles - including a cluster that spelled out I heart U. he had unhooked the shower and duct taped the drain and set up a bubble bath for me and had gotten a chocolate fondue set, so i had chocolate fondue (pound cake, strawberries, bananas and shortbread cookies). he got milk and dark chocolate and mixed it together with baileys - so it was damn good fondue! he made me a martini while i was still soaking :) after about an hour in the tub (getting fed fondue the whole time) and i got out and got a big long massage :) Then, he made us dinner - steak and mashed potatoes. and made me another martini (the first was one with baileys and frangelico and kahula and vanilla vodka and espresso and half and half. the second was just a normal espresso martini - so i could compare the two) we watched amorres perros while we ate (a movie i hadn't seen until then) and he fell asleep on my lap on the couch watching the movie. we went to bed . . .and went to sleep a little while after that ;)

my weekend was great! and living together? ummm - AWESOME! i was relaxed and happy the whole time. i actually felt my stress level increase as 2:00pm grew closer on Sunday. all week, we've cooked together. i'll help chop and get things ready for the recipe - then he deals with the cooking part while i do dishes. we were happy together the whole time :)

This thursday is when i leave for Florida - so i won't have that much time to miss spending every waking moment with him.

so, now i need to prepare for my fist lab meetings this thursday. i'm nervous to say the least.

good morning :)

megan i still want to hear about your night with edgar and the summary of how the 10 days glimpse of living together was...

rupa pot luck sounds fine with me - i wont be around this coming weekend though (and neither will you...) so maybe the following weekend we should just watch both of them! and then we need to make sure tivo holds on to like 4 in a row cause ill miss 3 during my japan trip...

i saw lots of movies this weekend - well two but it seemed like a lot - little black book - i really liked until the end, the end just got to be too much for me but then they redeemed themselves a bit at the very end. and garden state - i loved that! very different...

and it was the first weekend that i was in NY and didnt go out at all - no bars no clubs - it was great.

morning!

hi girlies! good morning! i came in early today to catch up on last week's work (i got nothing done then!!).

megan i miss you.. i hope your weekend was happy and thursday night was really fun. nush and jules.. it was so nice to see you last night. can we make sunday night DH at my place a tradition? but next time, we should do potluck and all make something. i think it had been a while since i had had italian food.. especially generic italian food and i've been feeling sick since eating last night.

ok.. off to do work for a few hrs and then i'll be back to blogging!!

1.7.2005

megans night :)

must have been so good that she couldnt even make it into work today to tell us about it :)

juanes is

a colombian singer who's from the same city that i'm from. i love his music! he won a ton of latin grammys the year he realeased his first album - i think it was in 2000 or 2001. his music is spanish rock/pop. he had a song with nelly furtado, fotografia, that was really popular. he also has a re-mix now with black eyed peas, la paga, but i haven't heard that one much. i have all his music, nush! remind me, and i'll play it for you this weekend :)

i'll be in boston the weekend of march 6

who is juanes

i was just kidding about the muse :) i just watched the sex and the city episode where miranda gets so pissed that all they ever talk about is boys...i love hbo on demand.

i cant go to boston the weekend i was planning on...a cousin of mine is coming from india and will be either in CT/NY/or Philly that weekend depending on mine/sashanks plans...so my trip to boston has to be postponed to feb or march sometime...

no! i don't need a boy to make me happy

i'm my own muse! maybe it's also because it finally stopped raining. and i REALLY am excited about my lil' buddy, julia. and it's great to have my daddy back in the states.

and i don't know, i guess a lot of guy friends have been calling / emailing me lately, so it's nice to get attention once in a while. nothing special, but it's just nice :)

haven't heard much from peter recently. i don't think he's too excited with me, but oh well :(

oh yea, and i'm going to a juanes concert in boston in march! i LOVE juanes! :)

?

jules did you profess your love for peter during lunch and have him shyly reciprocrat then cutely give him a peck on the lips? seems like thats what put rupa in the good mood on wednesday....who is your muse?

jules!!!

she is in SUCH a good mood today. and she's glowing.. it's so cute :) i can't wait to have an ipod again!! happy friday everyone. now i'm leaving. :)

still here...

i'm finishing up the blog that moush and i are making for him :)

plus he was weird about me coming over

so i'm just drop by later.. show him how to use the blog, give him the journal i got him and leave.

:)

its nice to hear/read so much happiness in your day jules! think its cause your dad is back?

i cant wait to get a computer so i can add/change songs/playlists! its so annoying to have an ipod and to only have put music on it the very first day....plus i def want to bring my computer over to rupas some sunday and transfer her songs to my computer during desparate housewives :)

why I love ipods:

I have it on random, so I listen to a wide variety of music all day, every day. tiny dancer just came up, and I immediately thought of megan! I think your mom likes that song, right meg? and yesteday I totally cheered up when I heard madonna's papa don't preach. it was my fav song when I was little :)

rups - the pics are cute! i love pictures, too.

i think i just love everything today :)

why are you still blogging?

go see him!

why are you still blogging?

go see him!

pics

i downloaded all the pics off moush's camera yesterday b/c we are making ameya a blog (like this one!!!) where he can post pics and stories from his trip.. and we are starting it off with our picture of him.

here is the picture of him that we are using:



here are some other pics from halloween and one of my dress!! :)










thats awesome!

brings back memories of teach a child to read trips down mass ave together...

im going to go do pilates now during lunch...haev fun at lunch :) feel free to transcribe the conversation and post it to the blog :)

GREAT news!

i just found out who my lil' buddy will be! i won't get to meet her until the end of the month, but diana, the head of the program, called me this morning super excited to tell me that she found me the perfect match.

her name is julia vega, she's 7 years old and lives in brooklyn. diana spent an afternoon at her house, and she said julia is a really active little girl. she loves to color and paint, she loves to sing, she loves going out. her favorite singer is shakira! julia is bi-lingual, but her mom only speaks spanish. her favorite class at school is lunchtime :) she loves to play with people's hair. . .

i can't wait to meet her! megan, i don't remember if i've told you about this buddy program i'm volunteering for. they match us up with a child who's parent is terminally ill, and we're just supposed to hang out with them a couple of times a month. the whole interview/orientation process took place last month. orientation was like 2 whole days, but it's cool because diana really gets a good feel for what we're like, and then they try to find a child who's personality would be a good fit.

anyways, that's my great news for the day. i'm in the best mood now!

rups - i'm glad you're in a good mood too! can't wait for lunch in an hour :)

nush, i think the 20th will work. let me check with jackie, and then i'll call and make appts for us in the evening.

megan - how was your night???

Girls

moon: i can go from jan 10-jan 25 :) hopefulyl one of those days works for you guys...maybe thurs the 13th or thurs the 20?

rupa - you are amazing. when dev and i were walking to the subway i was saying how i felt sad for you and even though im happy things worked out this way the timing is just so frustrating. and he was like you have to try to focus and remind her that what she got was one of the best feelings in life - validation of your feelings. he was like imagine what it would have been like if she didnt have that talk at lunch and its so much easier said than done but thats what you/she should remember. i think thats totally right.

you are such an optimistic person - or at least are able to find the little hope/optimism in a situation like that - that takes character. being able to step back and realize all the things you can do in this next year (hanging out at 63 sullivan more often :) etc) and thinking about when you can make a trip out there i think will be really good for you...

what was the conversation about this afternoon - you said he was weird about it? what time is the fam coming in?

megan - how was the 1 year anniv??

i'm here!

hi people...

i'm in the office this morning.. although i'm gonna leave around noonish i think and go visit. he is home today packing but his family is coming in early so he was kinda weird about me spending the afternoon..

i had a really good night... for a while i was all about trying to talk to him and be with him and it was a lil awkward b/c there were just so many people that wanted to see him. but that's why it's great to have my lovely ladies by my side :) to entertain me and push me a lil. thanks girls! you three really are the best!

erica hung out for a while longer actually.. which was nice b/c he was still busy talking to people and that indian guy started up again with the whole.. you're so pretty.. why won't you talk to me.. blah blah blah. poor erica.. i think i pawned him off on her a lot and walked away. by the end of the night, steve-o jeremy and all the others had left. the only ones there were his work people- the indian guy, his boss, and that guy steve.. who i love!! megan- although i don't know carebear's personality at all.. this guy reminds me of him physically.. both in terms of stature but also in terms of being really smily and huggable. he's my favorite of ameya's work colleagues. so i spent most of the time talking to him and listening to ameya's boss tell me about how he's gonna go to india in march to visit ameya and find him a wife. i didn't want to correct him :) so i just laughed along about all his ideas (including renting out the delhi convention center and having an ameya party). crazy man...

so then erica left too and i was bonding with steve while ameya and ray (the boss) had this total heart to heart.. the boss was super sad by the end of the night.. which worried me a lil b/c ameya started talking about going back to this horrible job after a year!!!!

ok.. so end of night (i know you are all curious). everyone else left.. and it was the two of us.. and he was like.. i have to get home.. i still have to do some packing tonight and then tomorrow.. so we walked outside.. i was gonna hop in a cab and go home but we decided to walk around a lil... he apologized for not really getting to talk to me, but i told him it was fine.. that he needed to see all those others that he didn't get to see at all. finally we walked me a bit uptown and then i started to hail a cab. we hugged for about a minute.. he said... this isn't bye yet, i'll see you tomorrow, and we just ended up standing there and talking for maybe 20 minutes. finally i was cold.. sad.. and wanted to leave. it was sad.. we didn't say much but just kinda stood there for a bit- i went to kiss him and he kinda turned away. then he said "sorry.. i know i'm being a jerk, but i can't do this.. it's already really hard". and he's right! yeah i wanted a kiss.. but making it all romantic before he leaves will make it worse.. and i totally told him before that i wanted the opposite.. to just be how we've been and then deal with it when he's back.

so i'm gonna stick to that. my cab ride home was really sad.. but i woke up today.. am in a great mood and am over this kissing bit.

honestly, if he were here for the next year, i don't know if i'd be ready for a full blown relationship. i still like having nights to myself and not having the obligation to call someone or let someone know where i am all the time.. i am finally figuring out a way to do my job but also have a life.. do things to my apt.. hang out with my friends. so i'm gonna have a really fun year doing all those things single.. just like i planned... and then i can be all sappy and romantic when he's back.. it's pointless to be that now.. it just makes me sad.

taht's my big epiphany of the day. and it's friday!!! :)

misc stuff

the cable check goes to jackie, i get utilities. so you can give me $37 for utilities for dec + $10 for netflix for this month.

i don't know how much fresh direct was, i have to ask jackie, but she was the one that paid for that.

and haircuts: jackie actually wanted to go at the end of this month. how's the moon cycle? i don't think she's going to want to wait until mid-feb to do it. . .

good morning

i had a fun night too...i left around 12 i think? rupa still hadnt talked to him much...i walked dev to the subway and took a cab home - i like that we can do things independently now - i like that he understands that sometimes i just want to sleep and thats ok :) im gonna go to a pilates class during lunch today. then to my cousins tonight.

eggs are a good idea - i was going to go on my way home but ill just get them next time :) maybe even 2 dozen would be good since we are all home this weekend...there are still the eggbeaters but i prefer just regular eggs...

im going to write you the check tomorrow - sorry i keep forgetting! and now its friday and along with the stupid haircutting rules im not allowed to write checks on friday...so ill do it for the cable + 10 for netflix for january? and do you know how much freshdirect was and that goes to jackie right?

speaking of haircuts - feb right?? i know thats far away (which shouldnt surprise you) but my hair is starting to feel gross so i just wanted to make sure :) im gone for the first two weeks of feb, but maybe the week after i get back...

buenos dias!

i think our good friend rupa might be feeling a bit sick today, so i don't know if we'll be hearing about her night.

ameya's going away party was nice - there were tons of people there. meg, a bunch of us pitched in to buy him a digital camera, so that was really nice. jackie and i left kind of early, so i don't know how the night ended. while we were there, there were just too many people around for her to really get to hang out with him.

nush - i'm going to the grocery store today to pick up more eggs (we didn't realize how fast we'd be going through them w/3 of us + occasionally dev), soap for the dishwasher, and stuff to make dinner tonight. can you think of anything else we might need?

1.6.2005

sounds wonderful :)

63 sullivan instead of whatever sullivan moush lives at - she was wrong! so we should get more of you!!! :)

sounds fun

i finished my closet so my big plan is to put all the clothes away...

and then to keep busy so i don't get sad that he's leaving.. so you might see a lot of me at 63 sullivan!!!

this weekend

no real big plans for the weekend, i definitely need to unpack and organize my closet a little bit.

on saturday afternoon, jackie and i are going shopping in jersey with peter - there's this mall close to peter's new apt which is supposed to be really good. jackie needs a dress for her company party, and i'm going along for the ride. as of right now, i'm wearing mari's red dress again (the same one i wore to my company party), but i might buy something if i see a dress i really like.

other than that, my bro and my dad want me to work on some stuff for them, so i might hole up in starbucks for a lot of the weekend. . .

oh yea, and i'm watching hidalgo with my roomies :)

boys and plans

so - here's my two cents on the dev thing.
keep your eyes open - be judgemental about the relationship; but both how he's treating it AND how you are treating it. it shouldn't be a *routine* or i've put this much into it, might as well stick around for a really good reason to break up - it should be something you look forward to everyday (or at least most days - no one is desirable EVERY day :) it you keep all that in mind and it works out - great. and if it doesn't, no regrets :)

weekend plans? none. jess comes back on sunday. laundry? i think that's about it. i'm boring :)

weekend plans

1. watch hidalgo with j+j (and rupa if you want to come over...)
2. watch desparate housewives at rupas (too bad megan and guac wont be there this time!! im pretty sure avocados are not allowed in this diet...)
3. maybe going home sunday but i think its such a bad idea..i just have to convince my mom of that as well...

everyone else?

frank is def what i want to hear

and i know that...but at the same time i think that while i may be giving, i am never forgiving - and i think that is more of a problem in all aspects/relationships in my life..i think i am equally at fault for the "surface" type conversations because i am a very nit picky person - especially with him.

i just know that i dont want to walk away from this whole experience/relationship without giving it this one last try when things may have finally been figured out - like i told him/ellen/and most importantly myself - i am ok with having differences of opinions on many of the things we have had differeing opinions on in the past - money/ex girfriend etc...those are things and conversations that would never be easy and will take time to figure out. i am not ok with all the other drama.

i dont think i have much to lose if i dont give it another chance except more of my time and more of my effort but i am willing to give that up for the chance that it could work...

the one thing i am most afraid of is i dont want to change the effort i put in and i never want that to morph into being nonchalant about the relationship - if that happens and my heart isnt in it anymore i promise ill move on...its never easy to make a decision like this and i think when i do make it i want to make it once and for all which i know is wishful thinking and will prob never happen...but at least one more chance...

jules the printer shipped today but the computer wont come for another 2 weeks :)

hmmm....

i have mixed opinions about this.. my honest gut reaction (which i hope you want!) is that this is a bad idea.. where you putting the relationship and him above you.. but in the end, we always have to do what we think is right.. not what we think we are "supposed" to do.

but, nush, if you stay with him, then make sure this time is different. you don't deserve to have to sit there and defend all of your habits and idiosyncracies.. i think i told him this that drunken night.. but it seems like he wants to argue the surface stuff.. like "why do i have to call everyday" instead of "why doesn't he want to call everyday". if you feel like you aren't actually talking about the real issues when you are working stuff out and you are instead talking about the surface stuff, then i would walk away.

i hope me being frank is ok.. and it doesn't sound like a lecture.

i know you know better than anyone what is right for you.. but i think you are really giving in this relationship.. and someone needs to remind you that the first person to take care of is yourself!!! :)

oh yea,

nush, when do you get the computer??

re: anusha's views on life

hey nush, if that's the way you feel then it really shouldn't matter what your friends and family think about your relationship. nobody really knows what's going on in your relationship besides the two of you anyways, so go for it! we all just want you to be happy :)

i didn't do anything with my hair - all i did was blow dry it. maybe it's because my hair's been gross and in a pony-tail all week, so it looks nicer today in comparison!

day 3 of south beach is still working well. the real test will be eating out tonight and going to a bar. i'm going to try to stick to the no-alcohol rule for the first 2 weeks. wish me luck!

oh yea, i forgot to tell you guys about the joe situation. he definitely does not know how to talk to girls - major turn off. so i called him last night, seeing as the party is next friday and he had mentioned he wanted to take me out, but i haven't heard from him. we chatted for a bit, finally i was like, "so, you wanna hang out sometime, or what?". he got all nervous and he was like "yea, i think i'm going to some bars with some friends on friday. maybe i'll give you a call so you can meet up wtih us". but he was really nervous and stuff while he was trying to say this. i was like, "fine, call me, whatever." but, that doesn't sound like real definite plans to me, right? this morning, he told jackie that we were definitely hanging out on friday, blah blah blah. whatever happened to him wanting to take me out to dinner?? oh yea, when we spoke on the phone, he also said something about me going to their party, but he never really "asked" me to go with him. i think i'm just going to be jackie's date and joe can go alone.

i just get frustrated with guys who are wimps :)

my views on my life...

1. i just got to work :) the guys had to come fix my heater today so i got to sleep in and i just feel well rested and ready for the 1.5 days of work left that i have :)

2. dev.
i dont want to go into too much detail cause there is just too much to write about, but ive done a lot of thinking over the past 3 weeks and i had decided that i wanted to end it based on the last few months of complete miscommunication/misunderstanding/lots of bad stuff...which for the 3 weeks that i was apart and every time i talk to my friends/family seemed like breaking up with him was the only solution that made sense. last night i went to ellens and on my walk tehre and during our whole conversation about it i started to think that maybe for someone who matters to me as much as he does and has for the last year and a half and someone who forgives me when i do the most unacceptable things and he still is able to look me in the eye and tell me he loves me unconditionally and that he knows and i know that i screwed up but he also knows that we both are young and have a lot of growing up to do...

anyway long story short, after a series of us tryign to explain eachother i realized that this will be my first chance to live in the same city and have time for eachother and we have learned from issues like him travelling and not calling and have started to find solutions to it, and me studying and knowing thatll happen again in a month...but even so i think we have grown a lot and i think i would constantly ask myself what if i did give it another chance if i didnt give it this chance one more time. if it doesnt work then ce la vie (or however you spell that :)) but if it does than all this growing up together should be work it right?

i am perfectly aware that maybe im just giving in to his convincing comments and that i may get more hurt or i may be closing other doors of opportunity around me - but at the same time if i just give up now when i do believe there is potential to make it work - that it is possible for me to direct my efforts into the relationship in a different way that works better - than i may be closing the door to this opportunity too fast...

anyway i guess that wasnt as short and to the point as maybe it could have been but im just going to post it anyway...

rups - the menu looks awesome! im excited.
megan - what are the plans to celebrate?
jules - what did you do to your hair??? im glad you like the computer :) i cant wait!

that place looks good :)

oh, big cities . . . :)
i ate fine rochester cuisine last night. yup, that's right - wendy's :)
BUT tonight edgar has a whole thing planned out - including martinis :) he took notes and we went out last night and purchased the makings for a regular espresso martini as well as an espresso martini that also has baileys and frangelico :)

i'm pretty excited. i got him what basically is a big paper weight. its a round clear blue glass thing about the size of a cd or a little smaller with the chinese figure for happiness carved in it twice (which means double happiness or good fortune for a couple) i wanted to get him the one that said love, but all they had was a small one that was a solid pink color. we saw them together in this cool store a while back and he was all excited looking at the chinese figures and translating :)

one year!

wow.. one year... that's awesome. congrats! i hope you have a fun anniversary and lots of sex :)

nush- dinner tonight is at esperanto- this place that i love love love in the east village

congrats on your anniversary!

wow - 1 year is a LONG time. and nush, 1.5 years is even longer! i like the computer you're getting. i'm excited for you!

rupa, thanks for posting the link to her computer, and thanks for the compliment! my horoscope today said that i'm like a magnet, and that i'll be attracting lots of people today. looks like it was right! both you and ellie have complimented me so far :)

every single muscle in my legs hurts soo bad! i don't even want to move :( too bad i have to go almost all the way home now for a derm appt at 1. blah. oh well, at least i'm looking forward to dinner with the girls tonight, and then ameya's going away party!

meg, we'll miss you!

sorry girls :(

i just found out that i have a load of blood to deal with tomorrow . . . can't come tonight :(

plus - tonight is when edgar and i are going to celebrate our anniversary (its officially tomorrow) yup. one year. :)

ok. today i need to be productive. i'll start with making a list of what i need to accomplish :)

hi girls!

i just saw jules a lil bit ago and she looks great today! jules, i like your hair like that. i didn't go to ameya's last night.. he was doing a roommate thing where they went to dinner and were bonding.. he invited me over but i didn't really want to intrude on the roomie-only goodbyes. i'll see him tonight :) and i'm thinking about calling in sick tomorrow and hanging out with him while he packs...

here's a link to nush's computer..


with a downgrade to celeron processor, upgrade to bright screen, upgrade to 1 gb memory, and the two year service plan...


that is as long as she got the same one she emailed me about :) which i think she did. megan i wish you would really come tonight!!!

anyone have exciting plans for the weekend?

good morning, ladies!

nush - i want to see which computer you got! send me a link or email. also, thanks for making me those copies of the south beach book :)

rupa - did you see ameya yesterday?? is his ipod working??

meg - at what time shall we be expecting you for his going away party tonight? ;)

1.5.2005

yup :)

since i got this i got most of the upgrades i wanted and it was still only 1150! an early bonus present to myself... :)

im going home then to gym then to ellens...rupa think of south beach friendly places for dinner for tomorrow night :) ill work out in the morning so i can just come straight to your office after work...

yay

congrats! now you can start collecting music and blogging from home :) ha ha

the bright screen will be awesome. you got the bright screen right?

i'm NOT being productive today. should i just go home?

i bought an HP

the value i was getting was soo much better for the price. and all the reviews i read have been positive - no complaints on battery ect...free printer, free cdr/dvd drive, etc etc...

it gets here in 2 weeks :)

hell no

i wish.. but considering that he's the guy who just quit the high paying corporate job to do non-profit work.. that i'm gonna be the sugarmomma in this relationship.

and i love you all.. but i'd much rather fly you here tomorrow then all of us to india...

on second thought.. that would be fun!!! we could all go see him and then nush and i can show you around!

wait, he's not flying us all to india?

you know, as the friends of his newly discovered love of his life - i thought he'd be buying 4 first class tickets to india to visit him/meet him for his girlfriends birthday . . .

wow. he's already disappointing me ;)

you are a twisted person megan

but thats why we love you :)

i wasnt a whimp! i did it too...i just dont think i was able to just definitively say its over...

back to rupa gloating! megan want to come up for the surprise party on thursday?? :) you dont want to go a whole year without meeting ameya do you?

i LOVE it!!!

oh, thats the perfect way for it to work out :)
you guys can be a happy (albeit rather awkward) couple at his going away party and poo to people like his sister and moush who thought they could get in the way!
so happy :)

see anusha - fate rewards those who are not gutless wimps.

julie, maybe you should pass that on to joe . . OR we could play a twisted pavlovian experiment on him and see if you can reward him (not dirty or pimping you out - a little kiss or any positive attention!!!!) when he acts confidently and ignore him when he's not . . . i think it would be fun :)

sorry sorry

forgot the last part...

we walked to his office.. had a nice not awkward hug.. and then i started walking to my office and then i ran back quickly.. true elementary-school-love-on-the-playground style and pecked him on the lips.

then i ran away.

even when she says she cant talk to me i can still hear the smile in her voice!!!!

this is so exciting!!! no kiss? no awkward hug?? how did you leave? is there more time for you two to be alone (not that thats really possible in nyc) before he leaves?

i'm back

ok... so i got to his office and he said sorry but that he'd have to take a conference call from india at the beginning of lunch but it should only take a few minutes...

so i'm like ok.. i'll just wait until after he gets the call and it's over to talk to him so that we aren't interrupted.. so we are talking about his leaving and all the stuff he has to do and his phone is on the table b/c he is waiting for them to call... so the whole time i'm like shit i can't bring it up!

finally they take our entrees away and he still hasn't called.. and ameya asks for the check when they ask if we want anything else.. so i'm like.. shit what do i do.. by this point i'm thinking that maybe i shouldn't say anything b/c he's already so stressed about the stuff he needs to think about before he leaves..

and then finally i blurt it all out. the check's about to come and i basically say.. i'm sorry that the timing is so off on this.."i know you are about to leave but i can't wait a year and i need to tell you this.. i hope it doesn't hurt our friendship at all but i just want you to know what i'm thinking before you leave." then i say "the last few months my feelings for you have grown to a lot more than friendship and i just really like you.. i like spending time with you... (imagine a lot more cheesy blurting... not how i planned)

so he sits there stunned and silent.. and not smiling so i got really worried.. he just looked so shocked and i said i'm sorry to floor you with this.. i just wanted you to know. then he smiles (AHHH!!!!!!) and says.. i'm so glad you brought this up.. i'm been feeling the same way for a really long time

so then he gets really cute and cheesy.. he basically says that he didn't want to be the one to bring it up b/c he's the one that's leaving and that would be rude.. and he kept saying i'm sorry that i'm leaving... and he said he's glad that i feel the same.. and that he just likes spending time with me so much.. he likes that we can have fun together even when we are just doing nothing.. and he said he wakes up and just wants to talk to me.. and that it's been really hard to feel all of that and then know that he's leaving and then he said that a year will go fast and that i should visit him.. and he told me that his roommates have been telling him to say something.. and i told him that they have been telling me too... and then we both got really quiet and shy.. and he said what should we do.. he said i don't really know what should happen... and i told him we could just think about it in a year and be the way we are now.. which he agree.. it was just nice and cute and we spent the next few minutes making stupid conversation while smiling at each other shyly (so pathetic i know)... then he started saying how funny it was that we've known each other for so long but nothng ever happened... and he said.. you didn't even like me when i was a kid cuz i was a dork.. which is true! and then he said he's glad that we've spent so much time together recently.. that it makes leaving harder but it's just been a great few months. (he's SO sweet :) ) and then we walked to his office.. (julie- am i leaving anything out? i didn't mean to tell her first but i had to run there and squeal with someone and tell someone).. but i'm sure i missed some of the cheesy details so then at the end


YAY!!!!!! you guys are so so so awesome for getting me to tell him. i'm so glad i did!!! yay!!! i'm glowing and giddy... :)

optimism

thats one of my resolutions for 2005...

although for me optimism and crazy preposterous thoughts are still synonomous :)

rupa where are you?!?!?! no talking to julie on the phone/IM you have to blog!

desperate housewives

i tried watching it this past sunday and they were showing some other crap instead! i hate it when they do that!

oooh - way to be optimistic, nush! i hope you're right and they're out making out somewhere. . .

we should be patient

maybe there is a heavy duty make out session going on at whatever restaurant they are in :) no need to rush back to work if thats going on!!

speaking of all this relationship stuff...im def hooked on desparate housewives after that weekend megan was here :) sunday at 9 is going to be a regular event for me...or at 915 in rupas apt so we dont have to deal with commercials

oh, joe . . .

i'd be more willing to accept the lack of confidence if he wasn't assured of your response . . . or hadn't hung out with you that much . . . but DUDE! you've already said yes, all you need to do is call and confirm (it's only polite)

i'm super sleepy and very sad that the hospital doesn't sell pepsi products (i want a mountain dew . . .)

no switching votes!

sorry nush, too late. yea, sounds like joe is a bit wimpy. jackie says he's not very confident (which, i must admit, is a turn-off). oh well, maybe he's just shy and he'll get over it as soon as he sees that there's no reason to be intimidated by me!

nush, sorry the whole dev thing is so miserable :(

rupa - aren't you back from lunch yet???

i didnt get that part either...

you have to call joe today to ask if he is asking/taking you to the formal...maybe my vote goes to peter. is it too late for that? :)

rupa ill agree to the pact...we actually talked last night - which sucked cause i think after a year and a half and living in the same city we owe it to eachother to talk in person...but it was the same thing you and i talked about last night - that we will keep belaboring over the same crap and the bottom line is im not happy and there really shouldnt be any more conversation...i dont know how you hang up the phone after a conversation like that - so after like 3 hours he was just like well you have nothing else to say so im gonna go..i said id still like to talk in person to which he was catty and just frustrated and was like why i think youve made yourself perfectly clear...

so im not really sure what the status is...but i at least had the talk...who knows...

also, check out the email i sent you re the HP computer i was looking at...dev and ravi uncle thought it was a good deal...i want your seal of approval too :) i may just go ahead and buy it today...

jules im kinda worried that even if i haev a computer i wont have good internet access - i have no idea how that stupid wireless thing works!!!

urgh

i didnt blog about the convo earlier cause its just depressing and the same stuff over and over...so no more about this lets keep talking about rupas soap opera :)

rupa's soap opera

that's the way i feel too! and then i feel a little guilty - like, should i be WISHING for drama?? but then again - i really think she should tell him . . .

and joe bought your ticket and told jackie to tell you instead of calling you? wow. looks like he's a wimp too. maybe he should talk to rupa and anusha . .

oooh

is she at lunch now??? i can't wait for her to get back! i feel like i'm in watching a soap opera and they've just left us on a cliff hanger. . .

haha. silly rupa

she im'ed me like 2 days ago when jackie was using my computer, and i definitely told jackie to just ignore her. poor cari.

oh no!

i took my blocking off AIM for some crazy reason.. and now cari is IMing me!!! not only that.. but her first IM is.. hi.. how are you? do you have to go b/c you always have to leave when i IM you!!

ahhhh!!! i hate when excuses get worn out... :)

yay

i like the friends who kiss idea... :) and that joe already bought your formal ticket. when is that?

ok i'm gonna tell him. yay!!! you guys are awesome. nush- as a pact.. if i tell him.. then you HAVE to talk to dev by the end of the weekend.. which means even if you hang out saturday afternoon with him and it's so good you don't want to ruin it by having a talk.. ruin it!!! he's always gonna make it seem like it's the wrong time for a talk.

is that a deal? :)

i'ts only 10am

and i've already missed so much!

rups, i just tried to give you a pep talk on the phone, so i don't think there's much more i can add here. all i can say is TELL HIM, TELL HIM, TELL HIM!

and i love that we have this blog - and that you guys are so much better than me at writing in it! :)

and for the record: yes, anthony is such a girl! he's definitely an MIT guy. hmm, actually, though, don't girls eat MORE when they're depressed and stuff? so if he can't eat because of his emotions, then he's not really a girl, huh? oh well, either way, he's way too emotional and sensitive for a guy. or are we just not emotional and sensitive enough?

as a side note: i hate the weather here right now - i'm still in miami mode - i want to go back home!

oh yea - and spikey and i definitely don't have a long distance relationship! we're just friends. . .who kiss when we're in the same city :)

megan, you'll be happy to know that i have not spoken to joe, but he already purchased my ticket for their big formal company party, and he asked jackie to tell me. i should call him today for sure.

it wont fall apart!

as long as you dont get overly dramatic with him and you just tell him that you have those feelings/thoughts i think itll be fine and the friendship wont fall apart.

oh baby, dominate me!

GOOD MORNING ALL!

anthony is a girl. everyone let out a big sigh of relief that that one never took off!

so, i think you'll go nuts wondering if you don't say anything to him - which is not going to be fun. get it off your chest! if the friendship falls apart because of that conversation - it was doomed anyway. so go for it!

at a wedding

haven't heard anymore though.. he had to run to a meeting.

ok so maybe ameya won't hate me... :) but the ross thing really is a big risk yeah? as in waiting for a year isn't a good idea? thanks for all the help girls :) sorry to dominate the blog

HAHA

did he meet a new girl in vermont? (is that the state he is in...)

off topic

but i had to share... this is anthony being such a girl.. can you believe i once wanted some of that? ;)

r u p i e land: how are you?
faslinVT: meanie...
faslinVT: im ok... :-r u p i e land: awww
faslinVT: girl problems...
r u p i e land: you feeling better?
r u p i e land: of course
faslinVT: yeah im feeling better...
faslinVT: i still can't eat...
faslinVT: but im not sure if its because of my emotions or because i might still be sick...
r u p i e land: whoa
r u p i e land: that kind of girl trouble
r u p i e land: ? :-)


Who SAYS that?? :)

best kiss

i pre nominate you and ameya for this :)

i of all people know that things are a lot easier for your friends to tell you than for you to actually do/think...but i think you have absolutely nothing to worry about for those 4 concerns...
1. he loves you. if not more than a friend, at least as a friend. which means he will not think you are a freak and he clearly is showing flirtatious tendancies so i dont think he will get nervous...
2. ameya - mad?? i def dont know him that well but that description doesnt seem plausible...he may get frustrated that you brought it up - as you prob will be. i think that professing something like that right before he leaves just will stir up emotion that has no where to go since he is leaving...but other than that he wont get mad. and like ross, its better to tell him than to just let it slip away!
3. he isnt metrosexual enough to be gay
4. he is related to moush! remind him of that subtly :) haha but honestly if you were pushing them to date since we all moved here, it prob would have happened already...

was that pep talky enough???

i'm a wimp

and it was ipod hell when i got there... moush never came over.. but jeremy, steve, and claire were all helping him out when i got there... we were finally alone by 1am or so (still there!) but his computer (not ipod) was really frustrating.. so both of us were grumpy and i was kinda having trouble staying awake... (AND i'm a wimp)

so i figured i'd talk to him today over lunch... blah. but after seeing how stressed he is about leaving.. i worry. maybe i shouldn't say anything?? i'm having lunch at noon so i need 3 hours of pep talks!!! all the things that i am worried about...
1. that he'll look at me like i'm a freak and get nervous that i like him
2. that he'll like me too but be mad that i brought this up right when he's leaving
3. that he'll tell me he's gay
4. that he's in love with moush.. or insert any other name

i worry that he's gonna do 1 or 2 more than anything... and then our friendship will wither away... help!!!!

rups how did it go???

megan rupa came over last night for a little bit and julie and i tried to reverse moushs conversation with rupa...im not sure if we were successful or not...guess well have to wait for miss rupa to blog...

1.4.2005

i don't think so

:)

you dont think shed tell him do you???

she = moush?

long distance

rupa and ameya...
julie and spikey...
megan and edgar once she moves to NYC for vet schools :)

sounds ok with me...

rupa - ill work out here, come meet you at your office then we can take the subway to my apt together? sound good? and next week ill come to your place...

i have no more opinion on the computer either :) therefore ill postpone it yet again...

will she stay there till 10? you should go there after she leaves...cause if you go when she is still there, the kiss still wont happen :) and shell never leave if she knows you are there....



dinner

you should go to the gym here so you can come up to my apt! i finally did my closet so you can come see that too :) it's hard to turn down movies and starving girls though...

don't take the tablet pc from dev.. he'll probably hold that over your head as another thing he's done for you... and you don't need that.

i don't know if i'm getting an alone dinner with ameya although i think we are still having lunch.. he just called and apparently she's going over there at 7ish to hang out while he packs.. but he asked that i come over later and help him figure out the ipod and help burn music etc... which i'm happy to do.. but i don't want to be there when she is. isn't this strange? i love them both.. but when it's the 3 of us.. she talks a lot more than i do so i just stay quiet and am not myself. i think i'll go there at 10 or so and help him out. i should try and get a dinner though before he leaves- tomorrow he's doing a roommates thing and then thursday he has a work thing. i think it's really only lunches that are left :)

so yeah.. i guess it makes more sense for me to come over and then head to his place than for you to come up nush- jules are you around tonight too?

i'm gonna keep up this once a week thing for us (even two weeks)!!!! new years resolution for all of us.. is that the NYC girls see each other than we see the rochester girl.. no offense megan!!

i don't have more advice on the computer..

megan- how's the vetschool prep going? any word on possibilities of ending up closer to us? :)

2 weeks?!?!?1

you tricked me and said only one week!!! phase 1 lasts for two weeks!!!

urgh im going to die......but maybe ill lose a few pounds in the process...

i agree with megan and rupa

you can't go from powerbook/ibook to dell! actually, i've also heard of a lot of people who have had problems with their dell battery, so def get the warranty if you do get it. but rupa seems to have good alternatives if you don't want to pay for an ibook, although, if you're not going to be using it a lot, you don't need all that capacity anywyas, so just get an ibook!

more on spikey: he is involved in his son's life. he actually brought him to the movies with a bunch of us one night. it's the only time i've met him - his name's gavin. we all hung out and got food before the movie, then when we got to the theater spikey was sitting next to me and his son was sitting on the other side of him. before the movie started, gavin kept whispering to him that he wanted spikey to switch seats with him. spikey was like: "why, do you want to sit next to the girls? tell me why you want to switch seats, if not i won't switch with you." gavin was too embarrased to tell him why he wanted to sit next to me so they didn't switch, but it was cute.

i don't remember what his major was, i don't know his gpa. he works for carnival - he's a personal vacation planner (same as what peter used to do). out of 500 sales people he's the 3rd best seller, so i guess he's good at what he does. i don't know what his long term goals are. i know, i know: carnival salesman isn't very ambitious, but oh well.

and rups, i def like your idea of hanging out with spikey when i'm home and dating joe when i'm here. i talked to peter a bit while i was on vacation and stuff, but after my vacation i'm def convinced that i don't want to date him right now. i don't think he feels the same way, though. he gave me this really cute pic of the two of us that was taken when we were 19! it's hard to believe that we've been friends for soo long.

yumm - brownies sound really yummy right now. nush, jackie, and i all started the south beach diet today, so absolutely no sugar and carbs for 2 weeks. blah.

doesn't she have a boyfriend?

how long have you two known ameya?
i don't think i'm going to accomplish anything else today. which is pretty sad. i think i only accomplish about 4 hours of work in any 8 hour day. which i don't really like . . . but i don't know what to do about it. ohwell.

and next thursday is my first lab meeting! i'm really really nervous. they are going to ask me questions and i'm going to say "i don't know" and its going to be bad.

i think she was calling me the traitor :)

rups im going to go to the gym after work, but if you want i can go to the gym here and meet up with you after that? ill be sweaty and gross and im on the stupid south beach diet cause i live with j+j but i promise i can still be fun :) if i work out here ill be done and can be at your office/your apt by 8 or 815...

if you want to come to our place we have a wide array of movies/fun/depressed girls who cant eat :) if thats enticing to you...

this whole computer thing is driving me nuts :( i kinda just want my bro to send me my old one so i dont have to deal with thinking about getting a new one...and dev keeps offering me his tablet but im stubborn and stupid so i keep saying no...i think today he had about enough of it and unfortunately probably wont offer anymore... :) when did i become so finicky?

are you getting an alone dinner with ameya?? how did she get a whole dinner to herself? that doesnt seem fair at all..and i def second the her being jealous thing - you are allowed to be jealous - you have the crush....

rupa!

step away from the computer and go eat something!

hey!!

believe me... that blog was the HARDEST thing to write.. cuz i don't want to see her staying a PC user :) but still...

yum.. i want some brownies.. that sounds good. maybe i should get lunch??? :)

TRAITOR!

you can't go from ibook vs powerbook to DELL!!! you don't get more for your money - you get a dell! no comparison.

julie - congrats on spikey :) i'd like to know the story of the kid. does he have a job? and club promoter - while cool for a weekend visit - is not what i count as a good job. does he support his child? people makes mistakes - its just how you deal with them. i'm two thumbs down if he's not an active part of the child's life. kudos on going to cornell though. major? gpa? long term goals? if he's calling you marriage material, we got to check out his resume too :) someone's got to support you when you decide to move back to miami for no apparent reason :)

umm . . . i think that's it. i just had an hour and a half long meeting with eun - broken up by a 45 minute brownie break for matt from downstair's birthday. yummmy :) plus, extra chatty time with matt, kelly (who is pregnant and sweet and randomly says the most inappropriate things), courtney and gen. i really do like my fellow techs :)

ok, time to be productive!

jules

oh.. i also have a few cents on the julie dating idea :)

i think jules you should keep "talking to" spikey but then go out with joe here.. so you have someone local to cuddle. it sounds like peter is out of the running (he hasn't been even mentioned in the blog in a while).. which i think is good!!!

date joe.. maybe spikey you can date when you are back there.. and the other guy sounds cool too. don't knock him out of the running for being too short!!!

also.. i'm very happy for you that you seem to be meeting lots more boyfriend material guys instead of fun hookup guys :) you deserve some of that ;)

powerbook!

i would vote for the powerbook too.. but if you want more for your money (powerbooks aren't really lighter than PC options.. just much cooler) then i would go for one of those HP ones with the amazing screens.

the resolution on the HPs is really increible.. it's like owning a plasma TV. dells are good for the money but guaranteed your battery will crap out after a year of use and need to be replaced.. i probably know 20 people that have dell laptops and all had the same issue. dells are good.. i have one and i like it :) but i would get the completecare warranty if you get one!!

sony vaio's are really really good for size.. if you want a tiny machine- the only thing is that their batteries don't last very long. i don't mean the way that dells stop working but the actual power life is only about 45 minutes for a sony vaio as opposed to 3 or 4 hrs.

another apple option is the ibook.. which is cheaper and lighter... but still a mac :)

jules- yay i'm glad you are back!!! i think you are right about the moush thing.. first that i should tell ameya and second that i think she is a lil jealous. :) that's a lil weird isn't it? i felt like that too when she was telling me about how i'm just reading too much into what he feels.. but the other thing is that i'm a lil jealous too. she's gonna have dinner with him tonight to say bye.. which made me jealous too.

the funny thing about having a crush is that i'm now being such a GIRL!!! analyzing the most random lil things.. thinking about him a lot... it's crazy. :) at least it's making me smiley and giddy.

nush- what are you doing tonight? can i see you????

dell

i think im leaning towards dell. you get so much more for your money and since i dont need to take my laptop anywhere size/weight shouldnt be too much of an issue...i emailed dev some options so lets see what he say...

get a powerbook, nush!

that's so exciting! jacks and i had fun setting our pwerbooks up yesterday so we can share our songs and pictures and stuff (and dev is awesome for setting up her wireless)! i keep learning new cool things you can do with the powerbook - it's amazing! i also figured out that i could get my gmail on my apple mail also - yay! :)

now i need to convince jackie to buy songs on iTunes so that i can mooch off of her for a while for a change :)

welcome back, julie :)

i'm here and working hard! that's the reason i haven't been blogging. aside from lunch with rupa yesterday, and the 30 min phone convo with my parents this morning (which i hadn't spoken to in like 1 week), i've been trying to catch up to all the work i missed in the past couple of weeks.

nush - i think the sooner you tell dev, the better. if not, he's going to feel upset and deceived that you've made up your mind about what you want, yet you're pretending like nothing has changed.

megan - i'm not dating joe yet. before i left for miami, he said he wanted to take me out to dinner when i get back. i guess i'll call him tonight because i think he might be too much of a wimp to call me if i don't take the initiative.

rupa - i think you should forget about what moush says and tell him anyways. i agree with megan: who do you think knows ameya better, moush, or his roommates? i think she might just be a wee bit jealous because, if he's dating you, then she can't command all of his attention like she usually does when the 3 of you are together.

and now for me: i totally fell in love while i was in miami. ok fine, not 'love', but i'm definitely in 'like' with spikey (his name is alex, i'm sure it'll be easier for all of you to remember him as spikey). nush - you met him briefly. he lives in miami, he's friends with one of our friends, rey, he went to college in cornell. he came over to the apt one night when we were all going out - he was in town for a night. i was showing him the apt, we came into your room and i introduced him as spikey, so he showed you the picture of him in high school when he had a mohawk, which is why we call him spikey. anyways, that's the first time i'd met him. since them, we've hung out a couple of times when i've been home, but nothing significant had ever happened between us. i always knew he had a crush on me, though. anyways, we hung out a lot more this time when i was home. i even made out with him when i was sober! i can't remember the last time i kissed a guy when i was sober ;) he took me to a miami heat game one night, and we had an awesome time. his friends told me that he said to them, "dude, julie's smart, she's cool, she's pretty. . .that's the kind of girl you marry." guys don't usually say that - i thought it was cute. obviously, nothing's going to happen since i'm here and he's there, but it was still a fun 1.5 week fling :) oh yea, there's also a pretty big factor i forgot to mention: he's 23 yrs old, and he has an 8 yr old son. so yea, needless to say, he's not perfect. jackie says she thinks he might be a bit of a player, too. i guess i just liked him because he was really fun and silly - i love guys that are always joking around and don't take themselves too seriously. anyways, he said he'd come visit again sometime, so we'll see :)

i also met a guy who's friends with my cousin, natalia (she's the 19 year old who's a bit wild, came from colombia like 2 years ago, and lives with my parents now). he's actually lived in my neighborhood forever, he's friends with all of my friends in our neighborhood, he went to the all-boys highschool next to my highschool, yet we'd never met. his name is esteban, he's colombian (both parents are colombian but he was born in miami, so kind of the same as me), he's a year younger than me and super short (either my height or maybe even a bit shorter!). if it wasn't because of the height and the fact that he's younger than me, i'd be totally interested in him. he was really cool and nice and sweet, although he wasn't very attractive.

oh well, that's enough rambling for now. dammit, now i need to find time to go back and read all the old blogs. . .


she is a whimp too :)

just kidding - she was just too tired to call him last night...i think he wants to take her out to dinner...maybe one of these days shell get through all her work and say hi to us :)

i could argue one side...i just think someone who is stronger and more opinionate (you and dev) can easily talk me into one side of something...youre right - no law just stick to finance :)

you can't be a lawyer

you have to be able to argue either side! not agree with them both . . . you have to pick one and argue it to death.

that's what i'm doing.

tellhimtellhimtellhim!!!!

ps is julie dating joe NOW??? :)

anusha.prasad@bankofamerica.com

i dont think its just his infectious personality at all. i dont think he would talk to you every night and his friends definitely wouldnt try to distract the sister so you can go in for the kill....

BUT the flip side of Megans ross recollection is that if you do tell him and if he does convey the same feelings - he is going to be in india for a whole year! it may be easier to ignore the feelings/situation until after he gets back...then again there isnt a guy in this world who is better than ameya so maybe it isnt worth ignoring...

maybe this is why im so bad at relationships - cause both sides of every situation seems compelling to me...maybe i should have become a lawyer

excuses!

so - moushumi has a point in that he does sound like that type of person. BUT his roommates pushed you! they see him around different groups of people, so they know if he acts differently towards you/talks differently about you/yells out your name in his sleep.

i think using this immediate deadline is a little cruel for everyone involved - but what if he goes to india and meets someone? hello, do i NEED to remind you of friends?! ross goes off to (insert random country here) and as he's leaving, rachel realizes she loves him. when he comes back, he's dating julie!!!! sure, timing sucks - but it will be even worse to pine away for him for the next year, put him up on a pedestal where no one in your day to day life can compare and then have him come back over you . . .

so, as long as you keep in mind that there is going to be a year of transition period a gazillion miles from each other - and you still believe the alternative is more painful - go for it.

look at me, all handing out love advise :) what, one reasonably successful relationship and i'm suddenly an expert?????

and footnote - i LOVED before sunset. maybe i'm just more artsy than the rest of you and rupa's mom :)

nush's email address

what's your bofa address? i sent that email about the party thurs to "anusha.prasad@bofa.com"

did that work? i don't know your proper email add anymore :)

hmmm....

hi girls! good morning :) megan, i definitely think none of us are working hard enough ;) although jules may disagree... i think we are coffee-ing.. or meeting on david-ing.. or eyebrowing!! like today :) and you two are always blogging :)

but i love it b/c as soon as i open it, there is more to read!!!

nush- i'm sorry you were a wimp.. although it sounds like a good night. have it soon before he convinces you otherwise!!! you gotta be the strong one! go you :)

by the way my mom has started using the word lame lately.. mostly to mean when she doesn't like something.. and although it normally doesn't fit, we rented before sunset on demand the other night and she shut it off after half an hour.. calling it lame. she was right! i even tried watching the first one right before to get into the mood.. but it didn't work.

so yeah.. about me being a wimp... i told moushumi all the drama last night (decided to break outta this whole hiding how i felt with a bang!) and she was convincing me not to say anything. i don't know if she meant to.. but she kept saying that he's just an infectious personality where everyone just wants to be around him.. and she somehow made me think that maybe i'm just dreaming up all the sexual tension? maybe he's just good at making people feel special.. but i don't know... this seems borderline cruel to be this flirty and this affectionate when you really don't feel anything.

then this morning i started thinking that he would never bring this up even if he did like me b/c he knows he's leaving and that's kinda mean to do.. so maybe i should do the same thing and hold off?? i think i'm being a wimp!!!

different situations

its easier to say "let's get started" than it is to say "it's over"

YOU CAN DO IT RUPA!

anusha - do you ever get the impression that either we 1. work less than the other two because we are always there to respond to the blog or 2. we work harder because the reason they aren't there is because they are off getting coffee or having *business meetings* which involve food and drink on someone's expense account?

im a whimp but rupa you cant say that tomorrow!

i didnt have my talk with dev yesterday. it was just too hard to do that after not seeing him for 3 weeks so we just ate dinner watched before sunset (which bored me...) and exchanged xmas presents. he got me really nice speakers for my room. we set them up after the movie, and i got him cufflinks he really wanted and couldnt find in ny. i fell asleep around 12 i think but it was really nice...i know the talk is inevitable but its just so hard when one person (me) is pretty sure it isnt working and the other person (dev) thinks that this is it no matter what...

anyway rupa you arent allowed to use the im a whimp excuse with ameya! can you at least plan a "business trip" to india sometime soon??

1.3.2005

that's what i'm here for!!

i'm leaving!!!

:)

i love you megan.. you crack me up.. :) i cracked up just long enough for my boss to walk by and ask if i was ok. :)

oh yeah

and good news on that whole not actually related thing! i was kinda wondering about that but didn't want to ask . . . i figured it was up to you . . . and we'd all just keep our mouths such when the kids came out a little funny :)

not that i wish my friends pain but . . .

i like drama :)
it makes the work day go by so much faster when like every hour or so there is a post that's all *intense*!

LOVE it :)

rupa - you can do it! you are a healthy, well balanced individual who any guy would be lucky to have waiting for him back in the states. i say he is going to be a smitten kitten by the time he leaves for india!!!! of course, maybe the reason that he hasn't had any girlfriends is he's trying to figure out his sexual identity as a homosexual indian man . . . but i'm sure that's not it ;)

i know..

it's always some kind of drama!!! it's crazy. by the way, i don't think i included in my rambling that he is in fact NOT my cousin (we are cheesy movie.. we are NOT jerry springer).

in answer to your questions.. i don't want to have something long distance. especially b/c there hasn't been any relationship now.. i want us to be however we'd normally be.. which i'm guessing is emails and maybe a call or two. but i don't want to tell him on the phone when he's in india and i DON"T want to wait a year... so i'm figuring that at least i'll get it out in the open... and then probably nothing happens for a year but at least he knows what i'm thinking...

as far as the other questions...
i don't know what he's ready for.. b/c i don't think i really want anything to happen. i just want him to know that i like him.. i figured either way he's leaving.. either he's not interested and just a big flirt ;) or he is and he's leaving.. so i'm safe in telling him and then i deal with whatever happens when he's back.

he is normally not-aggressive. i was talking to steve his rommate about this and he was like "you guys are gonna get together but he's too shy to make a move, so you have to". where do i FIND these guys? i don't really know other details..

i know he hasn't dated in forever. he hasn't while i've been living here.. but steve said he doesn't know of anyone that he dated in college either. i never bring it up with him... so i have no idea why. seems odd?

so yeah.. i'm not really sure what i'm trying to accomplish but this limbo stage has gotten really frustrating and i want it to go one direction or the other. so lunch it is...

going away party is now on thursday. :)





your life sounds like a movie!!!

what about if you do some sort relief work in india also?? that would be the perfect end to this story!!! a whole year of you and him away from all the friends and family that keep coming in the way??

talking about it during lunch sounds like a good idea...and a party friday night sounds like a great idea especially if the party is after the talk :)

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

the only question is - who plays you in the cheesey movie?
seriously rups - do you ever have NORMAL guy drama?! he's either gotta be in the same tight circle of friends with your ex . . . or so spineless that he won't make a move . . . or have a sister who either doesn't want you two to get together or has serious subtly issues.

it's almost a little too tragic that he is going away. are you hoping to maintain a long distance relationship when you don't even have a short distance relationship yet? is HE ready? i am at a stratigic disadvantage because i don't actually know him. has he dated at all in the last year? is it normal for him to be non-aggressive? is this a long time unrequitted love, two best friends where one is waiting for the other to realize they should be together? (cough cough - julie and peter - cough cough)

dude, and seriously - what's the deal with the sister? do we need to beat her moment ruining buttocks? (i feel bad swearing on the internet! i almost couldn't type the B word earlier today!)

that's my two cents. it needs to be broad up to him because otherwise it will eat at you all year. but ditch the sis - she's cramping your style :)

and no...

i don't think j and j are official yet ;)

stories part II

ok.. so he's apparently moving at the end of january.. so now i'm thinking ok i really need to tell him soon! this same night, his friends are all talking about the new years party that they are throwing and i keep telling them that i'm not gonna come b/c i have decided to do this whole "doing nothing" night. finally at the end of the night.. we are walking around.. and he's like, i can't believe you aren't hanging out with me on new years! so this is why i decide to go to new years.. essentially all through break i'm thinking about how to tell him how i feel about him, and it's finally new year's eve.

so new year's eve, i first went to anuj's and finally got to this party that ameya had at 11:45. he was worried that i was gonna miss the 12am mark and was happy when i got there.. the only problem was that his sister was there. i like his sister most of the time, but this night, i wanted to be alone with him and my plan was to just kiss him at midnight!! so midnight hits and it's the two of us standing holding hands watching the countdown and his sister comes and gives me a big hug right at new years.. which was nice.. but then all of a sudden it's this huge crowd of people (his friends) who have come over and everyone is hugging and kissing and then i basically don't get him alone again the whole night... at least this night was a lil more forward.. holding hands.. his arms around me when we were standing but nothing where i could just tell him how i felt.. which is finally what i wanted to do.

so we're all hanging out and at some point i go to the bathroom and i'm washing my hands and this girl that he knows is at the sink next to me. i didn't really see her b/c i was deep in thought about when i was gonna tell him and she somehow read my mind and was like "tell him already!".. which i thought was really funny.. apparently it's really obvious that there's something there and she says that the whole night his friends have all been talking about how neither one of us will make a move... so i told her that i wanted to say something but his sister's always there.. so she's like don't worry i'll take care of it.

we go upstairs and she brings over Steve and Jeremy (his roommates) who are the ones she's been talking to about this the whole time and they come over when i'm standing with ameya and his sister and they oh-so-subtly tell her that they want to show her something in the other side of the club.. so she doesn't go at first and then she drags my hand and is like.. lets go see what they are showing.. so i try to play it off but basically she gets that there is nothing to show and doesn't leave.. ameya by this point is super drunk and wants to go home b/c he isn't feeling so hot.. so he tells me he wants to leave and the two of us decide to take a cab to his place (yay!).. we make it outside and his sister and 2 work friends are like.. hey we are coming too.. we end up in this cab and basically they convince us to go to the bar downstairs from his apt.. we are there for a bit and then he's feeling sick again so he asks me if we can go to his place.. we leave to go to his place (yay again thinking i can talk to him now) and he starts puking.. so he's puking for the next half hour or so.. we go sit on his bed and i'm feeding him water and wiping his face.. he grabs my hand and says "you are amazing, you know that".. and shy lil rupa finally comes out of her shell and is like "just kiss him!!" but of course.. everyone comes back at the same time.. all of a sudden it's his roommates, his sister, his work friends and the place is chaos again.. we sat there a lil longer and then finally i left to go home and he went to sleep...

argh!!! so now the india trip is final. he's leaving this SATURDAY!!! (nush and jules- there will most likely be a party friday for him!)... so now i haven't yet told him... although i think it's mutual.. but he's leaving this saturday for a year. so sad.. i think we are gonna have lunch on wednesday so i want to talk to him then.. but it's tough with all the people that want to say bye. that's my story.. sorry to ramble on and on :)

i like him a lot!! i hope this works out b/c it's just been really good with him the last few months.. but it'll be hard when he goes. thoughts? :)

stories

hi all,

here's the rest of my winter break story.... a lil boy drama for you all to enjoy!

so... i've kinda had this lil crush on ameya for the last year (or more!) that i've been good about being in denial about. megan i assume you know who i'm talking about although i know you haven't really met him.. but this is a guy whom i grew up with and have played the "platonic best friend" with for some time now... i've done a good job of denying it.. playing it off as absurd when people suggest that we date.. and always suggesting people to him that he could date.. but then i'm always happy when he doesn't end up dating them :)

so the long version.. which i want to give you b/c i've never told you all and cuz it's all on my mind.. is that last year in december there was some night that ameya and i went out to eat.. we had a fun night.. ended up in his apt and ended up talking at his place until some odd hour of the night.. it was probably the first time that we were touchy feely and a bit flirtatious but nothing really came of it. that was the first night that i was like.. hmmm.. this could be good.. but then the next night i went to his sister's company party as her date. there she was telling people that i was her cousin (as every indian person does) but then she explained to me that we were really cousins.. so i got scared and stopped the whole interest in ameya thing.

so over the last year or so.. ameya and i have gotten really close.. i've started talking to him pretty much every night and it's wonderful. i mean even as just a friend, it's good.. but i've definitely felt a lot more possessive over him than i used to. so this halloween, i went to his party.. we all hung out for a long time.. and same thing.. by the end of the night.. it's just him and me hanging out, usually me laying in his lap and us talking.. for whatever reason nothing else ever happens!!! so since halloween, i've gotten out of denial and decided that i need to do something about this.. something like telling him what i'm thinking.. especially b/c now it's starting to see odd that we aren't dating, but i've always been afraid to talk to him about it.. so every time we hang out i'm too chicken to say anything.. i just am the way i always am.. flirting a lil but then stopping if it's too obvious. i've stopped the whole suggesting that he date other people, which is good.. and i've stopped telling him that he's my cousin (which i also used to do as a way to deflect anything... so stupid!!)

so finally at xmas time i decide to tell him... we have dinner right before xmas and i think i'm gonna say something but we don't get any time alone to do so (his friends showed up). at the same time.. we talk about this nonprofit in india that he's thinking about joining and basically at the same time that everything in my head works out about liking him, he gets this job in india!!!! so.. now this guy is moving to india.. and at the time he thinks it's gonna be the end of january.. i'm posting this now b/c i'm afraid i'm gonna lose it all and at least you can read this lil bit while i type.

is julie dating joe yet?

is the official date scheduled?

yay

jules is here!!! we just had lunch and caught up :)

i just ate lunch

and now i want to go to the little convenience store and get milk or ghetto frap or something . . .

nye - yup, played scene it, scene it disney, and lord of the rings trivia pursuit. it was really nice! everyone won one game (mom, dad, steve, missy, me and cindy - 3 teams of two in that order). edgar came in the middle of scene it. now i know how to turn on the heat and water and stuff at the house - so you guys have to come visit! kissing bridge (ski place) is only half an hour (if not less) away! 3 bedrooms and lots of sleeping bag space!!!

yesterday was awesome - edgar and i slept in (9:30 baby!) then i made us breakfast and we watched red violin. then we got chai and hung out talking for a while (it's been really warm lately!) then we made dinner together (from scratch, actually good!) and watched charmed (my choice) then we hung out listening to music and talking until about 11 - then went to sleep :)

my update

same old here - still on the break with dev, tonight is the night for the talk. obviously no epiphany in my 3 week break, but i think ive at least sorted out what i want and we shall see what he worked out and if we have a happy median...

my parents are still in india - everyone is ok there even though madras is scarily close to the part of india that was hit the worst. my parents get back on wednesday.

my heater is still broken :( but thurs morn im staying home to have it fixed. ill just watch a movie while they fix it :) i saw a cheesy black movie yesterday - breaking all the rules. i liked it - it wasnt a good movie by any definition but it provided precisely the entertainment that i wanted last night...

ok me again

yay!! i'm so glad your mom hugged edgar!!! did you guys hang out and play board games as planned?

i had a really awesome xmas with my family... although i got sick over the weekend (and then proceeded to get my parents and sis sick)- we had a good 5 days together though.. which was long enough to feel like old times when we were all living at home (not like someone was visiting)... we did a lot.. including going to atlantic city and seeing spanglish (good movie, despite all the reviews!!!)

i came back to the city on wednesday night...and hung out with anuj!! (megan- that's the guy i used to call future husband). he sent me an xmas card last week and the return address was something on 86th st!! like 9 blocks from me!! so it turns out he's moved there with joke (that's the girlfriend.. i really like her now.. and it's pronounced "yo-kah"). he's got an awesome place.. we went out wednesday night.. him and 2 of his college friends that i know well- till 5am.. which was awesome, but not good for the cold. :)

thursday night i worked and then went out with him again and met up with ameya.. then friday night (NYE)- i ended up party hopping at anuj's place and then to ameya's party at this bar. more in the next post!!

new years

mine was really fun! edgar ended up coming too - he drove there after work. my mom hugged him when we left :) very good :)

oh what a beautiful morning . . .

so, wearing gloves is a big issue around here. there are areas that you HAVE to wear gloves and there are areas where you CANNOT wear gloves. the idea being - you touch potentially contaminated things with gloves. don't take that bacteria/virus/whatever junk the blood had that you were just working with and spread it over areas where people don't wear clothes. so, this tech from another lab walks through our lab (its all one big hallway) and goes out our door WEARING GLOVES. it got pointed out to dee (the motherly nurse) she just went and ripped him a new one. she handed him a bleach wipe and politely asked him to wipe down the door handle - and any other areas in our lab he might have touched - since it is TOTALLY wrong to touch them with gloves on. he was all "i used my sleeve blah blah blah" and she was just like no you didn't. and you never do - i've seen you touching everything with gloved hands - STOP IT.

ooooh yeah. and that is why courtney and gen lovingly sign all emails/notices "MLB" for mosmann lab bitches.

good morning!

i'm back!!!! actually i was around for most of last week but was swamped and so i didn't read the blog. how fun is it to read 5 million blogs in a row!

i have lots of stories and things to tell as i'm sure we all do. but i hate that nothing shows up on the blog until i write everything so i'm gonna send this in small pieces.

happy new year

i hope you all had fun. dc was awesome :)

no more yahoo email for me at work - part of new year changes :( so just email me at work if you ever need to....