boyfriends are overrated...

lunch was ehh...i just dont feel it anymore, im just so frustrated, but then when i said bye and actually had to turn and leave and come back was not easy and im still trying to hold back tears - im def in that state where the second someone asks me something ill burst out crying. i hate that feeling - esp at work...

he leaves tonight at 7 for thanksgiving...and wont be back till tuesday....he was like meet me for coffee or come over after work lalala...but why?? what the hell is the point - he will get to stl tonight and constantly forget to call me every single day - hell call once and tlak for like 30 sec and say i have to go to xyz with this person and that person...he forgets what it means to havea girlfriend unless he is bored and in his apt by himself. i hate that...

ok i need to stop - i have to focus on work....

jules, i dont think they are silly - but i also dont think all those things have already changed - i think afriendship that deep and that long doesnt change by one hook up...do you miss him? have you talked to him today? are you thinking about him constantly...those would be more telling signs...or are you still thinking about the guy you kissed at jackies work? or all the otehr random guys that are around?