catchup blog

hi there! get ready for the blog of a lifetime.. I just read the whole thing and am trying to catch up. I can't believe julie and peter hooked up!! hee hee.. at one point earlier that night, when we were at vivek's party, they looked like they were making out in the corner.. mostly b/c peter was standing in the corner and julie couldn't really stand up.. so he was holding her up. I told them that they looked like they were making out and they both cracked up like that was absurd.. but just a few hours later.. :)

I'm sorry the other boyfriends are being ick. I think ti's just this time of year.. everyone seems busy and stressed or something.. but I do agree about commitment. it's a really scary thing. I feel like it's SO much better being in that "what if" stage when you know you are going to hook up but you haven't yet and you can shamelessly flirt or even kiss (i.e. the J and J duo from the hamptons.. I mean J and J and J) but then as soon as something real happens it's like you have to go one way or the other and that's annoying. I wonder what will happen with you and peter, jules. maybe you'll just be friends with occasional drunken benefits.. or quasi bf/gf without all the extras like not being able to go out to clubs with other guys.

I'm thinking out loud as I type and kinda on cold medicine so maybe I'm not making sense (I just read back what I wrote and it doesn't make sense anymore) but my point was that the limbo stage can be really fun.. although it's like eating candy or something where it's at first really fun and really good but if it goes on for too long.. just like if you eat too much candy.. it gets really frustrating or makes you puke :)

anyway.. I'm sure at some point when you have to, you'll both talk about it and I don't think you'll go back to totally platonic. nush.. when did things with dev get frustrating again? I feel like I missed a lot of the last ffew weeks or something b/c I thought things were good and then you were saying that you are close to crying after you see him. why is he being weird about not calling? that sounds strange. did this start ever since that long trip that he took to seattle over his bday? fill me in.. I feel a lil confused. also, I agree with jules that getting away from work and getting to home where it's fun and relaxing will be good.. and things will be better once the test is over even though I think you are right and that isn't the reason for all the trouble.

I love that edgar is worried we will make you single… ha ha ha… :) but I think you are right.. that by december something jules may have joined the semi-comitted side too.

ok.. sending this on b/c now everything I wrote is getting outdated. I just had a coffee date with jules.. which was so fun! back to work.