whoaaa

really? you are not renewing? thatllbe good for you and edgar...and i guess youre right, space will let you like her again cause itll be special when you hang out not just being home at the same time...

toral and i arent doing so well these days either - part of the blow up sat night where i made a complete fool of myself - but like everyone says, all that crap came from somewhere...

ever since rakesh came in the picture over 7 months ago, there hasnt been one night where she has given up hanging out with him to just have time with me...granted the few times we have tried something family related has come up which is def ok, but its not like the next weekend or the next day she even tries again. its always me asking and im sort of sick of it. im tired of cancelling plans i have with dev or anyone else to do something with her which i used to do alll the time before rakesh was in the picture and she wanted to come to ny every weekend but now she cant even spend a weekend apart from him to just hang out with me...we havent been just the two of us since well before my bday...i thought we had a "talk" after the episode sat night, but it still feels weird and still feels like unless i keep asking we wont have any alone time...

i guess the big thing ive learned from all this is that people have different priorities in life at different times and that has to be ok, even if 7 months can go by...thats a hard thing to get used to...