hmmm....

hi girls! good morning :) megan, i definitely think none of us are working hard enough ;) although jules may disagree... i think we are coffee-ing.. or meeting on david-ing.. or eyebrowing!! like today :) and you two are always blogging :)

but i love it b/c as soon as i open it, there is more to read!!!

nush- i'm sorry you were a wimp.. although it sounds like a good night. have it soon before he convinces you otherwise!!! you gotta be the strong one! go you :)

by the way my mom has started using the word lame lately.. mostly to mean when she doesn't like something.. and although it normally doesn't fit, we rented before sunset on demand the other night and she shut it off after half an hour.. calling it lame. she was right! i even tried watching the first one right before to get into the mood.. but it didn't work.

so yeah.. about me being a wimp... i told moushumi all the drama last night (decided to break outta this whole hiding how i felt with a bang!) and she was convincing me not to say anything. i don't know if she meant to.. but she kept saying that he's just an infectious personality where everyone just wants to be around him.. and she somehow made me think that maybe i'm just dreaming up all the sexual tension? maybe he's just good at making people feel special.. but i don't know... this seems borderline cruel to be this flirty and this affectionate when you really don't feel anything.

then this morning i started thinking that he would never bring this up even if he did like me b/c he knows he's leaving and that's kinda mean to do.. so maybe i should do the same thing and hold off?? i think i'm being a wimp!!!