4.04.2005

do i have to know them? do they have to be alive?

if the answer to those questions is yes - then edgar. he's handy, i can talk to him for endless hours, and i already like having sex with him. if the answer is no to those questions . . . then i'm not sure yet. i would want someone a bit *old school* so they can teach me how to not be reliant on electricity and grocery stores. and i would want it to be a man - because at some point, i'm going to get bored of talking.

this weekend was bad and good. friday - i didn't nothing. i worked a little late because of the stuff eun dumped on me. saturday - i got up and walk dogs at the shelter. in the rain. for 3 hours. i was a miserable person by the end. then i picked up edgar and we went out to eat. then we hung out for a while until it was time for him to get ready for work. i went to the mall at like 7:30 and talked to my old manager - i'm going to work possibly 3 shifts april 20, 22, and 23. i walked around the mall and bought a couple of shirts at h&m. i got a coffee from starbucks - but now i get my mocha's with skim milk. jess did a nutritional analysis for a class and DAMN the milk in coffee-type drinks kills you! it was still good, so i've officially switched. jess went home saturday afternoon, so edgar slept over saturday night. we hung out on sunday - i made him breakfast :) then jess unexpectedly got home so there was a lot of tension and edgar was all upset - which he had kind of been all day. i called him before i went to bed - twice actually. once he didn't pick up and then again when i was in bed. he was still upset.

i want summer to come 1. because i'm sick of winter and 2. because i want my own 1 bedroom that i can decorate how i want, control completely, and have whoever i want in the apartment there with me.