the funk is over . . .

. . . and a new one is just beginning. so - his patience with meeting every single one of jess's demands and her not compromising is finished. which i don't blame him, mine's shot too. she doesn't even realize it, but "grown apart" is an understatement. i'm beginning to seriously resent every word that comes out of her mouth because all i see is her walking all over me and me taking it. i don't particularly feel like taking it any more. if i want to eat smelly cheese, i'll damn well eat smelly cheese and she can keep her opinions to herself! she'll say things like "you could do the dishes tonight"- it just pisses me off. you know, i could. or you could. she empties water bottles - but insists on reusing them. i think i'm the only one that fills them up. she insists on cleaning empty bottles and cans - but she doesn't do it until there are like 10 built up (we're up to six right now - lets see how long these last) she has all these "my apartment, i do things this way" habits that i'm supposed to respect but wait? can i have my boyfriend over? nope. and it pisses me off that she's still clinging to this "he scares me" excuse when everyone else that matters is on my side and people that are "her friends" (noam is apparently totally with edgar) think she's nuts too! if you can't deal with me not being your lap dog, then say it. don't decide edgar is the root of all evil because he is taking me away from your beckon call.

so now, i'm going to send her an email - immature, i agree, but direct confrontation doesn't seem to work with her and if she were me, this is the method she'd choose so i'm trying it out - expressing some of my opinions on the subject and not requesting . . . not demanding . . . just stating that we are establishing a new "schedule" in which edgar - staying in my room and not having any contact with her at all - sleeps over twice a week. we talked about me sleeping at his place - which may happen more often. i would have to park on the street in the ghetto and sleep in a twin bed with him . . . but i think that might happen too.

i have a headache.