lack of sleep is catching up to me

dev took me out to an amazing italian rest last night. andavii. its right next to the bar we went to the night gabe was in town - fiddle sticks i think its called? we had an amazing dinner. i thought on bill but it wasnt, he was like no i want to treat you and not have it discounted as being an expense account dinner...the food was some of the best ive had i think...

then we went out for a drink at cipriani on west broadway - we had been there the first summer we dated and wanted to go back. it was great. but then i was half drunk and realllly tired and just wanted to sleep. he came in with me, laid down to watch sex and the city and i fell asleep. so did he, he woke me up at 2 to ask if he should go home cause he didnt want me to be upset in the morning that he spent the night. i was so tired i told him to do whatever he wanted. it was so awkward, i hate it. the night was so fun and we had such a good time together that to have to have an awkward you have to go home conversation with him just sucked. and he still cant shake the free wine dinner, he just feels like shit that it came out like that, and it makes him even more weird to julie/jackie/everyone. i just feel so bad for him. anyway this is all something i have to figure out on my own...and after the test. the only drawback is he got an offer in seattle that he needs to decide about in the next week. i told him he should go.

i cant wait to go home today. i just got a break last weekend but i already feel like i need a break from ny! good thing im not around basically now till next tuesday...