not better and still hate being here...

last night i was so frustrated with my hand/work/studying so satyan came over and we went for a long walk around the apt area - went out for pizza, got ice cream. it was absolutely wonderful. then we stayed up till 1230 talking about life/work/us/etc..it was a really nice conversation :) i asked him if it bothered him that i wasnt committing to being with him yet when he and i both know i spend all my free time with him and that we clearly enjoy each others company a lot..he said no. he was like even if it did bother me i wouldnt let it until after your test/after your bday/etc. he was like its been a while that we have been "dating" or whatever you call this but its just too fun and too good to expect something of it right now. i just want to give you time...he did express that it scared him that dev and i are so close still...the way he expresses things like this dont make me feel guilty/dont make me want to just get rid of him...they make me like him even more...

so the whole who is coming to the bday celebrations - satyan is def coming. and im going to tell dev that satyan will be there, and you can come if you want but you cant cause a scene....