mixed emotions

the weekend had a series of ups and downs. friday night with dev (my last dinner with him in the city) was really fun. we had the best time - then we got in a fight on the way home :( I made the mistake of telling him that i was concerned that after the whole DUI thing he was going to be back to a driving city and that I hoped he would be safe - i do feel those things, i guess i shouldnt have mentioned it, i didnt think it would become a 3 hour fight at 2 in the morning on his last night here :( anyway i made him go home, and the next day we didnt talk about that, we just enjoyed eachothers company, i took him to the airport - cried my eyes out. i didnt realize how hard that would be - i dont think ive done something like that since i left mike to go to college - and this feels even worse cause at least then i KNEW id see mike again. im not so sure with dev...anyway.

then i went to philly and gave my brother the biggest hug ive ever given him in my whole life and just started crying again. he was wonderful. i had a great weekend with him and kerry, planning the wedding, eating great food and just hanging out. i feel like i get to know her better and better each time i see her, and i think she is absolutely great! then last night i went to satyans friends house to see fireworks which was very nice. then out to dinner and home to sleep :)

tonight im going to go to his apt and watch the aviator and order in. he bought a new dvd player and flat screen tv in the last few weeks so id go over there to watch movies :)