if i can avoid my boss . . .

today will be great for me.

a slow development of my final plate of the week - and only one today! usually i have 4 . . . and then starting to do some of the analysis - which eun knows that i've don none of so far, so its not like she is going to expect something major by 5. usually she gets really busy and doesn't have time when i NEED her, so she better not make time for me today when i don't :)

hello

i have absolutely no motivation to do any work right now. jackie's little sis and her friend got in last night, so we went out for a little. we were home early but i think i drank too much, so i definitely didn't want to get out of bed this morning. i slept in and came to work at 9:30 - i love that i can do that :) i'm still tired, though. . .

rupa's busy running around to meetings or somethng, and anusha is in CT - she went home to see her doctor.

radie just brought me the prettiest flowers to thank me for covering for her while she was on vacation! ok, maybe today won't be so bad after all :-)

thursdays suck

the last three weeks, i've been doing assays that need to be developed on thursday. the first step of development is a two hour incubation. lab meeting starts at 9 and is supposed to last until 10:30 but generally reaches to 11. soo . . . i need to be here by 8 or 8:30 (depending on how many plates i need to develop) just so i can sit for 2 hours listening to other people's research. sometimes, i find it interesting. today was actually a little bit interesting because the discussion turned more into the kinetics of a listeria infection (listeria? what the hell is listeria? i have no idea - but now i know how it infects a mouse) and the proper way to 1. present data and 2. display controls - both of which actually matter to me.

but still! useless meetings. LUCKILY i don't do this other kind of experiment called fluorispots because lab meeting transitioned right into a meeting about them. meanwhile, i get released :)

everyone's different

i think the teams of adults that are checking in on julia constantly - her mom, soon her foster parents, the organizers, the psychologists - should be aware of whether she is properly dealing with the lose of her mom.

with jackie - everyone is different. and no one is perfect. jackie isn't the guru of strength and properly dealing with personal relationships. not to say i am, or anyone is for that matter. how we are raised, who is there for us to trust and teach us - it all shapes who we eventually become. to say that because jackie was taught at any early age that life can be really hard and to work through it, she is a stronger and better person than me (or any of us) who had two loving parents and a very stable family life is ridiculous.

julie is not the person who is going to have the final stay on who julia becomes. if the program is doing its job right, they are putting more emphasis on her budding relationship with her foster parents (has she met them?) and NOT on julie. julie should be like what her neighbor was for her (and what my paino teacher was for me) an adult figure who is her friend and never has to be the person who says no.

i just explained the situation to courtney - who is the oldest of three kids and lost her dad to cancer at 16. she understands where jackie is coming from - which puts into question whether all of us with as close to perfect childhoods as you can get can never actually understand what julia is going to go through when she loses her mom.

Girls

I don’t think it causes more harm than good. But I do think it causes more harm than you three seem to give it credit for. I think that for you (in this situation and in the one with your friend from home) it was easy to let go cause you didnt "need" them. Then again her mother is (and if she isnt probably should) make sure that julia knows not to depend on you. And its only every other week but kids get attached quickly...maybe even you could remind her at times that you wont always be here. that you will move to miami at some point. not to discourage her but a random comment here and there to prepare her might not hurt?

I disagree with jackies point about being tough and dealing with what you have been dealt. I think that Jackie is a different person from most and is able to internalize all that stuff – whether it is helpful or not I think depends on the person. I clearly am not that kind of person and if I had to just deal with what ive got without having someone to distract me or for me to depend on i dont think i could handle some of the hardships jackie has been through.

yea

i agree with rupa and megan. i think it would be difficult for her if i was a part of her day-to-day life and then just decided to leave one day. but i only see her every 2 weeks or so. i think it's unlikely that she'd be really dependent on me since we see each other so infrequently. megan, the big buddies have to committ to the program for a year, and the kids are aware of this, too, that the relationship might end after a year. and there have been kids in the program whose buddies move away after a year or 2, and they request a new big buddy because they enjoy it - so the kids are definitely getting something out of it.

i think a lot of the kids in the program are in situations a bit different from julia's - most of the kids live with extended family (so with an aunt and a 4-5 siblings and cousins), so thery're in a household where there's a lot of chaos and not much individual attention. in cases like that, i think having an older buddy is definitely beneficial - the big buddy can take them out and pay attention to them and make them feel special.

the kids and the parents also have social workers and psychologists working with them, so i feel like they have professionals supervising everything. if jackie's correct and the buddy program really causes more harm than good, then wouldn't these people end it?

another one of jackie's arguments was just that the kids should learn to deal with what they're dealt - and trying to help them and "pretend everything's ok" by giving them a big buddy will only make them weak. i don't know, i just don't see any of this as "pretending." i think it's just a friendship. when i was 8 or 9, i made our next door neighbor my mentor. i wanted to be just like her - i would spend as much time as i could in her house. she was in her early 30s, had 4 kids (all under the age of 6), and was just really pretty and really friendly and sweet. she'd let me come over and play with the babies and she and i would sit around and "talk". it meant so much to me that an adult who wasn't related to me would pay attention to me. we were friends until my family moved away like 4 years later, and i wasn't devastated that i never saw here again. i know, this situation is completely different from the buddy program, but maybe that's why i think that it's important for kids to have friends who are adults, because i remember how much this woman meant to me. and as long as those mentors or big buddies remain just friends - as long as they don't become a disciplinarian or assume any other parental roles, then i think the kids will be ok whenever the relationship has to end. am i making any sense?

i don't know

i don't really think it's bad to have a temporary role model... i mean i think she'd be sad if julie left in a year, but i think it would be worse if her parents just died and she had to get used to new parents without more people around to have fun with her and do things that were the same as what she did before... it's possible that everything from what her room looks like to what her school looks like will be entirely different, so i think it's good that there's something that could stay the same. even if it's for a lil.

and megan, you are right.. the more hugs the better!!!

dying parents

hi everyone.. i'm glad that we have a natural topic to talk about...

i feel like i understand what jackie is talking about, but agree with jules, that you don't want the kid to ever again (even in a softer form) to feel like they are losing someone in their life. but i think that a parent dying is a bad situation that you can only make a little better but not fix. the types of people in your life that will be there forever no matter what are always going to be your parents.. and the only way to have the kid know someone forever after their parents is to replace them with permanent parents. just like foster parents are kinda a temporary solution until that happens, i think the buddy program is supposed to be a bridge.

by bridge, i mean that it's something constant from before the parent dies until after the parent dies. if the child had no bridge, then the life change would be even harder. the foster parents can't really be the bridge b/c they can't start doing the parental things that they would until the kid is living with them. they can meet her and everything but it won't be the same. it'll still be really different once her mom dies. but you, jules, can be the same before and after, and i think that's what is really important. it's important that, even if it's not forever, that you guys still go out on a weekend and get pizza and walk around after her mom has died.. just to show her that some things haven't changed.

i think having that constant "something" in julia's life is what's important. i think it's important that it be there until she's used to her new parents, but not necessary to be there forever...

so sad. :(

i never thought of it that way...

i think i totally agree with jackie now :( which make me kinda of sad cause i was really excited about the buddy program before...

i dont think its as drastic as it sounds from your brief description of the conversation, but i think a little girl that age would definitely start to depend on you way more than foster parents. i mean for julia, you are a cool, pretty, fun "friend" but you arent just her friend cause you are older and a role model type figure. there is a huge difference between that and a foster parent. you have no idea who that foster parent is going to be and whether or not julia likes them. but now she is starting to count on seeing you all the time. when you leave for miami in a year or two i think shed be really sad...

then again, all our teach a child to read program kids were able to move on and prob never think of us (megan remember your boy? :) but i think maybe that sort of program is better suited for this situation. that you are there for them but as a role model and as a "teacher" not as a friend...i think losing a parent because of illness and losing a friend because they move away would be really hard to deal with...

i had never thought of it this way :-/ i dont think i want to do it anymore after my test is done....

i think more of my hair is falling out :( i think the spot is getting bigger. thinking about it makes me want to cry. yesterday dev came to my office - he had bought me some hair thickening shampoo and stuff, it was really cute :) my doctors apt is today at 330.

i agree

i guess jackie has a different perspective on it since she's actually been through losing a parent . . . but i just don't think it can hurt to have as many people there to give her a hug as possible. i think it would be bad if they set you up as the primary support person - but didn't you say its only every other weekend? she is going to get far more attached to her foster parents. and my guess is the buddy program asked you for a commitment of like a year or something? its not like they are just accepting anyone and handing them a kid - part of their screening process has to be making sure that the volunteers are people that are going to stick with the program and actually care about the kids.

i found out yesterday that my week was going to be bad. and then i found out today that there are problems with the consent - so i'm back to my easy week!!! yeah!!!!!!

good morning

it's so nice out! it's amazing how easily the weather affects my mood - I was so grumpy and tired monday since it was so gross and rainy out, and now today the sun's shining and I'm so happy! I guess spending the night with a cute boy doesn't hurt, either ;-) joe and I went to a sushi place down by wall street for dinner last night. nush, the restaurant is right by our old apartment, on pine and water. it's called ise, and everything there was soooo good! I was really impressed. joe has been going there for a while, so we sat at the sushi bar and everyone knewhim. it was great, we didn't have to order anything. we just sat there and the sushi chef kept making us the yummiest stuff. such a fun night :-)

ok, so I have a question for you guys: jackie and I got into a discussion last week about the family center and the buddy program. basically, she doesn't think it's right to pair up kids whose parents are dying with mentors since the mentors won't be around forever. she thinks that after julia's mom passes away, julia is going to start depending on me a lot, and then she's going to end up getting even more hurt after I leave. she says that I don't understand - I guess the implication is that I don’t understand since I still have both my parents, and her father passed away when she was younger - but that it's better for kids to deal with the situation they're in instead of putting other people in their lives. I disagree with her completely. I think that I'm just there to be her friend, and she knows that - she will establish a relationship with her foster parents before her mother passes away, so they're the people she will depend on. I don't think I see her often enough for her to start depending on me.

thoughts?

is this working today?

where is everyone? :(

im off to lunch with this guy that interviewed me when i was in college...

why won't they show up?!

blogger told me they published properly but they won't show up on screen!!

i give up

for now.

i need to do work, not be distracted by blogger!!

still working on it . . .

ok, that one didn't work either.

i watched being julia last night - i really liked it! its takes place in england in the 1930s and the clothing is so cool!

attempting to outsmart blogger

every time it tells me it can't post something, it posts it as soon as it can post something else - which is why i sometimes post things a billion times . . . its like the ones that aren't posting are just lying in wait to be posted. so, instead of retyping what i just wrote or continuously hitting "publish" i'm just going to write a new message and see if it will post that . .

g'morning all!

so, i thought i wasn't going to have that busy of a week . . . just analysis stuff. i found out this morning that we are going to get our pre-study blood samples wednesday, thursday and friday of this week - and dealing with them is an all day affair . . . especially on friday, because unless i want to work on saturday, i need to stay and run the samples on the expensive machine that afternoon.

so. today is my easy day - but i'm supposed to meet with eun which i'm not looking forward to because i wicked slacked off last week and there are def things i should be farther ahead on that i'm not. not that she's really going to care - because on other stuff she was surprised on far i was along but still.

damnit. i'm not looking forward to this week.

good morning

i had a fun night :) worked 12 hours straight which was not very fun - in at 745, out at 8..ate lunch at my desk...went to satyans show which started at 830. tejal and her boyfriend met me there. the show was AMAZING! its like a rock concert but with random indian stuff. satyan played really well but the tabla gets sort of lost in the mix of two vocals, guitar, base, drums, keyboard...but i could hear it :) and he had a few solo things in the beginning and ends of a few songs. you guys def should come with me sometime. I was thoroughly impressed.

he wasnt feeling well so after the show i went back to his apt with him to just hang out with him. i wanted to get him soup/nyquil whatever but he said just having me around was making it better :) he showed me lots of random pictures from trips he had been on lately and we just talked about the show, work, life, etc. i had the best time. i left at midnight, came home and jackie was still up so we talked till 1. that was fun too :) i love random updates on her life.

and im still freaking out about my hair. the apt is tomorrow at 3.

:)

im having fun but im pretty sure im going to hurt someone/everyone/myself or some combination of that in the process...which is not a happy feeling to have...

but im going out with the guy from friday night on wednesday to a restaurant called candela - it looks great on citysearch but ive never been/heard of it :)

i want to get hit on!

not that i want to go out for drinks with random guys - i just want them to want to and hit on me :)

sticking my tongue out at you...

about the netflix stuff, but not for too long since you are coming for my bday :)

add one more to my list of boys :) you guys will get a kick out of this one. friday night at the concert, i opened a tab at the bar for me and satyan since he paid for the tickets. when we were ready to go i went to the bar to close it out - which was like 10 feet from where he and his friend were standing. he asked if i wanted him to come with me but i said id be fine. i get to the bar, within 2 seconds one guy - short ugly dorky - comes up to me and asks if i want to dance (the concert was very slow/close dance type music) i said no sorry im closing my tab and leaving actually (we were leaving early since it was arleady like 230) he goes to sit down again :) then the guy standing next to me who was really cute and indian turns to me and says hi im raj, i say hi, he says thats a really pretty name. can i buy you a drink? i say actually im on my way out. he says ok ill talk to you till they bring you your check - gets to the do you live in the city where do you work where did you go to school. at the end he is like damn it i finally meet a beuatiful AND smart girl and you have to leave! let me give you my card, i know you wont write but in the event you feel like sending me an email we can get together id love to take you out sometime...

sooo i walk back over to satyan and his friends and they are both smiling/laughing at me. he goes geez i cant let you out of my sight for more than 2 seconds and guys are hitting on you left and right, literally.

anyway today i was cleaing out my purse, saw the business card and decided what the heck let me send him an email :) so i did. just wrote you prob were never expecting this and that is precisely why im writing it :) we should meet up for a drink sometime...

i kinda like this whole no strings attached stuff...anyway he wrote back and we may meet up for a drink sometime...

as jackie put it - being honest with them and telling them that i dont want to just date them i want to date other people seems to make them want it more! i love it :)

sticking my tongue out at you

about the netflix stuff, but not for too long since you are coming for my bday :)

add one more to my list of boys :) you guys will get a kick out of this one. friday night at the concert, i opened a tab at the bar for me and satyan since he paid for the tickets. when we were ready to go i went to the bar to close it out - which was like 10 feet from where he and his friend were standing. he asked if i wanted him to come with me but i said id be fine. i get to the bar, within 2 seconds one guy - short ugly dorky - comes up to me and asks if i want to dance (the concert was very slow/close dance type music) i said no sorry im closing my tab and leaving actually (we were leaving early since it was arleady like 230) he goes to sit down again :) then the guy standing next to me who was really cute and indian turns to me and says hi im raj, i say hi, he says thats a really pretty name. can i buy you a drink? i say actually im on my way out. he says ok ill talk to you till they bring you your check - gets to the do you live in the city where do you work where did you go to school. at the end he is like damn it i finally meet a beuatiful AND smart girl and you have to leave! let me give you my card, i know you wont write but in the event you feel like sending me an email we can get together id love to take you out sometime...

sooo i walk back over to satyan and his friends and they are both smiling/laughing at me. he goes geez i cant let you out of my sight for more than 2 seconds and guys are hitting on you left and right, literally.

anyway today i was cleaing out my purse, saw the business card and decided what the heck let me send him an email :) so i did. just wrote you prob were never expecting this and that is precisely why im writing it :) we should meet up for a drink sometime...

i kinda like this whole no strings attached stuff...anyway he wrote back and we may meet up for a drink sometime...

as jackie put it - being honest with them and telling them that i dont want to just date them i want to date other people seems to make them want it more! i love it :)

more netflix jealousy

i'm getting closer sent to me today or tomorrow :)
i love getting movies as soon as they come out!
and i deserve them - not only do i plan for their release dates, they also go on my list as soon as they are released in theaters. yup, i'm a freak :)

i'm a big nervous freak

i need dry ice. my department's supply of dry ice is empty (as is common) so i can go over to the next department - i should just ask before i steal some. the person to ask is michelle - who will probably laugh at me for being so polite about it. the only person i know in that area is michelle and i just went to her office and 1. it was full of people i didn't know (she shares it with another girl) and 2. she was on the phone. so now i'm wasting a couple of minutes before going to try again . . . or hoping that maybe ours will fill (i'm pretty sure the delivery is on mondays . . .)

stupid dry ice.

damnit

i just tried posting something and it didn't work.

basically - i think the next time i'll be hitting up nyc is nushie's bday . . .

me and nyc

i def am coming for june 10th.
i def can not come on tax day.

other than that i'm not sure . . . i need to take GRE's at some point - so i should probably be studying and planning a weekend to take them.

damnit! this stupid moving on with life thing messes up all my fun :(

my turn

hi ladies -

megan, I'm glad you had a nice weekend and a nice easter! rupa and anusha are all caught up with my weekend, so I guess this update is just for you. . .

I had a really great weekend! friday I got out of work at like 4, then went home and hung out with jackie and joe for a little bit. joe left around 6 - he went to his boss's house in long island to play poker - and jackie and I went on a little shopping spree and got some really cute things for the apt. jorge and gabe got in around 9:30, so we all got dressed and went to a couple of bars. we met up with paul (this guy from jackie's work. everyone at her work calls him queer because jackie likes him and he won't make a move) at this really crowded bar. we got a few drinks, then went to a club to meet up with pulgui and a bunch of jorge and pulgui's friends from puerto rico. the club was way too crowded, we weren't really having much fun so we left after a bit. paul came home with us and spent the night with jackie. we were pretty wasted - it was a fun night.

saturday I forced myself out of bed at like 10am and picked up julia. there were a bunch of easter activities in central park for kids, so we tried to go to the easter egg hunt over there. by the time we got there they'd run out of eggs, but we still had a good time. we hung out and saw a marionette show - sleeping beauty - which was really cute. then we went back to my apt and hung out a bit. sat night we got a pretty big crowd together and went to free wine (which is always fun). it was rupa, anusha, and I; jorge and gabe; a bunch of rupa's and my work friends; and jackie and joe. we had a lot of fun. then we walked to a couple of other bars. joe and I hung back a little behind the rest of the group just talking and stuff. hmmm. . .i think he's my boyfriend now. anyways, it was really cute - jorge and gabe both really liked joe. they told me they give him the seal of approval. when we got to the bar joe had to leave - his dad didn't want him home too late. I left a few minutes after him - I realized that I was really tired and already pretty buzzed, so I just wanted to go home and get some sleep.

sunday morning jackie and I were going to take the ferry out to new jersey (joe lives like 2 minutes away from jackie's cousin, mauricio, which is where she was going to spend easter). we realized the ferry wasn't running because of easter and the first train was at like 4pm, so joe offered to pick us up (poor guy, the drive is like an hour and a half). meeting the family was fun. joe kept saying his dad's an asshole, but he was really nice to me. his mom is really cute! after dessert I sat in the kitchen table with her and her friend having cosmopolitans . . . it was cute. the sister was nice. she didn't talk to me too much - she was too caught up paying attention to her boyfriend. joe hates his sister's boyfriend - he doesn't think he treats her right. from what I could tell, she likes him a lot more than he likes her. . .anyways, it was really nice spending time with his family and getting a yummy home cooked meal. joe and I watched the incredibles before dinner - it was cute :) we left his house at like 9 - the poor guy had to drive like 3 hours in the rain to take me home and then get back.

ok meg, I guess you probably weren't expecting a novel when you asked for my update. I miss you too! when are you coming back to visit?? is there any chance you might feel like taking a visit to nyc for tax day? ;-)

mike

we do talk :) i just sent him a present actually. i met him that sunday when you dropped me off in CT. and he told me all about his job - he works for a subsidiary of americorp which is excatly what he had been telling me for the past 6 years he would be doing. im really proud of him - when he gave me his business card he didnt have a nice holder or anything for it so i told him id get it for him. bought it this weekend and just sent it to him. dont worry though, i think he knows now itll never happen...

anusha and her men

akshay????
wow. that boy has held on for a while!
next thing you are going to say mike called and you guys are meeting up. oh god, please don't tell me that could happen!!!!

i guess you are too damn cute ;) all these boys keep falling for you and holding out hope that one day you'll dismiss the rest of your harem and love them best :)

woo hoo!

jules they got alfie and are sending finding neverland :) so take that one off your queue too! megan i dont know how you time everything perfectly or maybe you are the only person in rochester who actually wants to see new movies...

bachelorette...

megan thats all pretty accurate :)

satyan and i had a talk on thurs night where i made it clear to him that i liked him a lot but that i wasnt ready to committ to something - i had to have a talk about it because he made it clear to me that he isnt dating anyone else and only wants to date me. basically i said to him, so you are only dating me but if i date other people is that ok :) he was kind of taken aback by the comment, rightfully so, but obviously gave the right response of of course it is, you have to do what is best for you. he followed it up with if 3 months from now we still like eachother as much as we do and we still spend time together like we do then i may have a different response to this which i thought was fair...

meeting the friends was fun - we had a great time fri night. his friends liked me :)

anand - two dates, we were supposed to meet this weekend but i wanted to hang out with J+J+Rupa on sat so i cancelled with him. i havent heard from him yet but im sure we will meet up sometime soon

matt - just drunken kissing. i think he is really cool and really fun and definitely dorky and i prob wouldnt mind kissing him again but i clearly cant handle all this since my hair is falling out!!!!!!

akshay - :) megan he is back in the running! he called sat cause he was in town. but we didnt meet up (hence the kissing matt) but i think he is going to come back in a few weeks to hang out.

dev - i told him he was being masochistic, but if he wants to be my friend and put up with how hard it is then maybe we can actually be friends down the road. granted this is different but i kept being friendly with chike and now we really are friends, julie did that with chirag...its possible!

i think thats it from the boys in the running these days.

if this hedge fund stuff doesnt work out im def going to get working on writing a soap opera of my life. it would have been boring for a couple of seasons in there but i think its starting to get exciting again.

i have a doctors apt on wed. and if i need to i may go to ct on thurs to see my dermotologist. i dont like finding new doctors here and since ct is so close i can get away with that...

satyan has a show tonight at 8. ill prob be at work until then.

just read anusha's blog

dude anusha - second term senior year!

poor dev. that boy needs to move on something fierce. not because he wants to be friends with you - but he's just hurting himself at this point!

ok, i'm trying to make sure i'm up to date on anusha's soap opera.
there is satyan - you met his friends on friday, how did that go? by no means are you exclusive but he seems to be believing the relationship is progressing nicely on its way to total exclusivity and boyfriend status.
anand? something like that? the hedgefund guy? he took you out, what, twice? is he still in the picture?
and now matt. but matt was just random drunk making out? or is he one of those desparate, has too much money on his hands and is too much of a dork so now he's going to become just a little bit obsessed with you? or are those just jackie's coworkers? (sorry joe :) )

ok, tell me if that is all correct :)

and dev's right, the hair is probably just a stress related issue. but i don't think it would hurt to make a dr.'s appointment, if its not too much trouble. just to make sure it isn't something like a vitamin deficiency - or talk to your dad to make sure its not an allergy. its better to be just a bit paranoid when it comes to your health, right :)

ok, so now i'm just looking for a julie update.

and i'm missing you guys like crazy! i'm ok with this new don't drink that often lifestyle - but man, i could use a casual night out of too many martini's and hanging out with the girls :)

my weekend . . .

. . . . turned out fantastic!

Friday, i had a big night of watching Finding Neverland. Saturday, i got up early and walked dogs at lollypop - including a wein-something puppy - the kind that are the color of julie and nushie's couch. SO CUTE! then i picked edgar up and we went grocery shopping for Sunday and got soup to eat for lunch. Then, I hopped back in my car and drove to auburn for dinner with my parents and Grandma - which was really really nice. Then I came back to rochester, watched part of being julia and picked up Edgar and he drove to my grandparent's lake house. we got in without setting off the alarm this time :) we spent Sunday at there house - which was also really really nice. at 6ish we stopped playing ping pong (no, not a code for kinky sex, we were really playing ping pong) and started cleaning up. We ate dinner on the way back at a random chain restaurant - not much is open at 8:30 on Easter Sunday. the only sad thing was on the way back, we hit a raccoon :( :( :( I don't know whether we killed it, but it ran out really close to the car so it was hit pretty hard.

when I got home, jessie wasn't there yet and i went straight to bed - but she came in a couple minutes later so we got to talk for a little while before i fell asleep.

i was in a crummy mood when i woke up this morning because i just wanted to stay in bed. but i start my last experiment of the series i've been doing the last couple of weeks and this week should be mostly about looking at results - so slow, on my own time schedule, and won't be any late nights (hopefully) and lent is over, so i can get myself coffee at the coffee cart! i think i just need to take a day off and relax - without having to drive some place to do it. or just have the sun come out!

and i have to go to a baby shower tomorrow night! talk about blah . . . i mean, i like the girl who its being thrown for - but jeez. baby shower? it just doesn't sound like a wild fun time.

losing hair :(

i had the worst day yesterday. J+J left for easter stuff around 12, at about 12:05, i was sitting at my desk studying, playing wiht my hair like i normally do, and all of a sudden i touch this random part on the back part of my head and it feels like there is no hair there, i start flipping out, and go look in my medicine cabinet because it is all mirrors, and sure enough there is a patch that is the size of a half dollar of no hair :( i have never had a panic attack like that before but i was flipping out. called my fam, no one answered the phone. talked to nalini auntie who almost drove to NY to pick me up because i was hyper ventilating. then dev called. we were planning on meeting yesterday for coffee anyway to catch up and to try to be friends, when i was spazzing, he said ill come over. he came, brought me the most beautiful flowers (julie, hence the shushing you on talking about the flowers when satyan was over!) and just hugged me and kept telling me its ok and that i need to not stress about it because stress is what caused it in the first place. anyway, we hooked up...i kept saying we cant do this cause its going to feel really good and you arent going to understand why i dont want to be with you blah blah blah we hooked up again... :) anyway he left at 5, still broken up, still him not understanding and him saying that im his best friend and he wants me to at least be a part of his life. and i said well are you ok with knowing that i date other people or that i have moved on, he said well id rather not hear about it but im not lying to myself and i know that you are, but thats fine. i just want to see you once in a while for coffee. and maybe its a good idea to not come to your apt to do that. which i agreed with, but then he was like but today i came over cause you were panicing and needed a friend, thats what friends do...anyway it was nice...

then satyan came over :) he came at like 8, all dressed up cause he had been to a broadway show with his friends. i was in PJs and ready to just watch a movie but he was like i want to take you out to dinner. i got dressed we went out to baluccis had a great time, came back, watched desparate housewives (rupa, i couldnt wait till later this week! so next sunday if we are all around ill watch it again with you guys and then we can watch the new one like old times...) and he stayed over...

and megan - side note that julie and rupa know already, sat night we went to free wine and i kissed one of their coworkers matt...kissed him a lot...more urgh...

hallo!!

how is everyone this morning? i woke up in a super funk.. i think it's the weather? feeling kinda blah. had a decent weekend though.. relaxing and not too much activity. and i got to hang out with jules and nush on saturday. stories anyone?? megan, how was your weekend?

i'm completely worthless

i've done only the bare minimum of what i had to do today - and there was only three things on my "ultimate" to do list! eun being on service is killing me . . . i just sit around, just getting what i HAVE to get done done and nothing more. oh well. even the "bare minimum" is still 3 experiments.

i'm here

i didn't make it into the office until like 10:30, and i'm leaving at 4. . .

none of the traders are here. half of my dept is out sick or on vacation or something. i feel like we shouldn't be working today.

rupa just went home. she's hungover and sick.

ok, i want to leave here in like an hour and a half, so i should really get to work. . .

nush, all i have to say about dev's text messages is, "too little, too late".

ok ladies, happy friday!

im here

just been working and had lunch with satyan. now im back. everyone is working. julie was sleeping at 830 when i left the house though so not sure if/when she made it in.

dev just texted me saying "sorry i got mad on valentines day. i dont know why i thought of it now but i feel really bad. you looked so pretty that night." if only he had realized stuff like this before it was too late....

oooohh . . . its a holiday!

wait. anusha's working.
then why am i still talking to myself?

where is everyone?

its friday! you can't all be that busy . . .

on joe's family

jules - you'll have no problem :)
a 21 year old girl is going to love you as long as you make it obvious how well you treat her brother :)

1million dollars and frustration

def no. all the family i know is here. the language i know is here. the culture i know is here. i would love to live in europe for a while - but there would need to be enough money to 1. start a new life w/a place to live and time to settle in to the new life before finding a job and 2. a nest egg to be able to fly my family over to see me whenever i want. i guess i could always move to canada . . .

as for easter and edgar - i'm just going to skip easter and i am going to my grandparent's house. my grandparent's probably won't even know i'm there - my mom will tell cindy and that will be enough. as for the continuing discussion as to the stress on our relationship caused by the living situation - i always think about pointing out to him that he's not exactly helping the situation and that nothing is really my fault . . . but generally his funk goes away after a day and its not worth an argument just to vent my frustration on him. i think i'm just going to be a much more relaxed person in july . . . which is really not that far away. plus - june is going to fly by because i'm going to spend my time looking for a new apartment, in nyc, and packing to move to the new apartment. so - its just april and may that i need to drag through. and the latter half of april will be easy because we will be doing another challenge study so i'll have lots of work every other day and get to have lots of random days off. so - really, just the next two weeks and then the month of may :) (i give myself a lot of pep talks - this is all very practiced for me)

PM team is required to work on 3/25

that was the subject line of an email from allen about 2 hours after an email from larry saying his whole team was off on friday...

oh well, i get a personal day some other day for this...

1 mm

jules, what if no one from here could come visit you there? youd have all your family that lives there already but none of us, no parents, no jackie, no joe...then what??

meeting the parents!!!! dont be nervous :) youre too cute for them not to fall for! well maybe not the dad, but from what ive heard about his fam the sister is the most important to win over :)

yes

$1mm goes VERY VERY far in colombia ;-)

i had a question, too! but rupa beat me to it. i guess i'll wait until the afternoon or until tomorrow to post it. . .

so, last night joe invited me over to his house for dinner on easter. meeting the parents. . .scary, huh? he says his mom is super sweet and his dad's an asshole. he also has a younger sister (she's like 21), who he's pretty close to. anyways, it's a bit nerve wrecking. . .

do you guys all have to go to work tomorrow? (rupa, i know you do). jackie and joe have the day off. not fair. . .

no

$1mm only goes so far. and having restrictions in life always makes people want that even more. so once you run out of the $1mm you would be depressed. (ive answered most of these before...) when i give an answer like that, satyans response is always, ok so if the answer is no, what minimum amount would you need? i couldnt pick a number but I think it would have to be somewhere in the order or 20-50mm...

devs brother is in town :( i found out from his away message last night :( and he texted me this morning to say that amal was here and how it makes him sad to know im down the street and they cant come over :( satyan was over last night, again. i had fun but all night all i could think about was dev. urgh. im in a blah mood.

although i did have a good morning. i made satyan leave at 7, and then i did tae bo for 45 min. i have a new set up. i watch the video on my laptop on mute and watch a movie on my tv. the italian job is pretty good! i only have like 20 min left, i totally didnt want to leave the apt to get here...

question of the morning

Would you accept $1,000,000 to leave the country and never set
foot in it again?

be happy!

megan you wrote that you have to be happy with day to day stuff yesterday; cheer up!!!

does your grandmother know about the incident? is that why she doesnt like edgar? did you already tell edgar you guys may go out to easter dinner? if you didnt tell him, then just blow it off, whatever extended family only matters so much. in the grand scheme its all about your happiness - not theirs and not even your parents or jess. but maybe you shouldnt go to your grandmothers lake house with him...

and maybe this isnt an option, but are you allowed to get frustrated that he lives with his parents?? i mean it isnt really fair for him to get mad at you - he messed up, which is what caused the whole issue with jessie in the first place, and he is lucky that you were nice enough and love him so much to want to be with him again, but he cant expect her to be...and its not like his living situation helps at all...

sorry, this probably isnt helping :(

frustrated

so - this sunday is easter. this may sound space case-y, but i didn't realize this until being home over the weekend and having my mom ask me what i was going to do. my family on my mom's side - but not my mom and dad - are going to be getting together at this chain steak house place like outback and having easter dinner at 3. so - i ask my mom whether she thinks i could invite edgar, which turns into asking my aunt who the two of them talk it over last night and i get this email this morning from my mom that basically says no - how when my grandma found out that i was going to go to the lake house with edgar, she freaked out and how its easter and she is basically a five year old that it wouldn't be good because she might get really upset. so, now i have no idea what to do. i think i'm going to blow off the holiday all together and just go to the lake house with edgar saturday night . . . but it all gets worse because he was in a mood last night about the whole living situation that he and i can't spend time together because of jess.

i just want to fast forward to july when i'll have my own apartment and it will be sunny outside and stupid day to day activities won't completely stress me out.

:)

validation that im appreciated around here:

email from allen's boss larry:
subject line: Good work.
body: Thanks!

:) If that isnt more rewarding than most other forms of appreciation around here I dont know what is.

Im in the best mood today. We have been in meetings all day long with Troy going over his view of the hedge fund world. Its been very informative.

dammit

i replied and blogger obviously ate up my reply. now i have to get back to work. BLAH. oh well, i guess that means you guys will have to just wait a little longer to read my choice.

nush, congrats on the coffee machine! rupa and i do our part to better the lives of people here by being the pseudo-social chairs :)

megan, stop being a lazy butt and give back to your lab community ;-)

busy little worker bee

so busy today. and it's raining/snowing and gross out. yuck.

i'd definitely choose power over any of the other 2. i definitely wouldn't want to be famous (can you imagine having papparazzi taking pictures when you trip over something in the sidewalk?), and i wouldn't want to do things just because that's what you're expected to do. like christina milian says in the movie "love don't cost a thing": "being popular is a job. you have to work to get in, you have to work to stay in." i think being famous is the same thing, and that's a job i would not want.

if you're in a position of power, then i guess you are either respected or feared by others. what i'd really want is to be respected. and if you're respected and you have power, then you can get people to do whatever you want, even if you don't have money. no matter how rich you are, i think it's impossible to somehow get congress to grant more visas to colombians under political asylum. you'd probably be able to accomplish something like this if you're powerful.

and i think in most (but obvioulsy not all) cases, if you're powerful you must be pretty smart, too.

nush, congrats on getting the coffee machine cleaned! rupa and i do our part to help our co-workers by being pseudo-social chairs :)

hi!!!

yay :) we are actually doing this discussing thing and i disappear for 2 days :)

well, if i had to pick one of three and the other two didn't really depend on the other, i would pick powerful. i think being famous by itself is never a good thing.. sometimes the reason why you are famous is good, but if all you have is your fame, well the the tabloids are always chasing you to see when you aren't wearing makeup and when you hug your platonic guy friend a lil too tightly ;)

as for being rich, i think it would be fine by itself... there doesn't seem to be a huge negative to being rich.. but i think if you are powerful, there are certain things you can get WITHOUT money.. almost makes it go further than money. maybe i wouldn't have the funds to buy a string of diamonds, but i would have enough power to borrow some fancy necklace from harry winston.

each of those options sounds a lil blah.. but that's what i would pick. nush, i do like that book of questions book.. my sister had that in college and my parents, she, and i would randomly think/talk about them.

more soon.. blah i have to run to ANOTHER meeting :)

i picked one!

i made up my 4th ideal, but i answered the question if i was forced to!

i do stuff like that around here a lot - random stuff that i cant handle but have to run around trying to figure out who pays something, why we never get a bill, lalala. i dont mind it, but sometimes i wonder if you really need an MIT education to do that. at least its validated in my reviews with my boss when he recognizes all this stuff as "project management skills" etc etc :) I get to have a conversation with him this week about my target bonus/salary increase for 05. im hoping with the turnover here there is at least some reflection of the amount of work im doing in my bonus...

oftentimes i look around and see that NO ONE is around me. not a single person at their desk but me. thats fine at 730 PM or something when i know im here too late, but i feel like im at rooz's party sometimes when i couldnt find you and that sketchy palm reading guy convinced me there was a party somewhere else i didnt know about!!

not fair!

there were three choices - you made up a fourth! :)

you are going to make yourself indispensable at boa - i'm so not motivated to make those kinds of help everyone improvements around here . . . the few times i've tried (hey, the community garbage can is overflowing, let me try to call housekeeping!) i've been on the phone tracking people down forever and it still didn't help. then, two weeks later it happens again and i wonder how lazy people are that they just do stupid stuff like that . . .

woo hoo!!!!

i got the voice recorder to work!!! im in the best mood :) im going to go eat lunch now....

questions

satyan has this book of would you rather questions. its actually really interesting and sturs lots of discussion. the first time we went out to dinner a long time ago he had the book with him and asked me random questions. i have a few that i remember, but i cant throw them all out on the same day! otherwise ill run out of ideas quick...but i know my question of the day for tomorrow already :) if only uncle david werent working our other two this hard...

although i guess miss julie will be taking plenty of time off for the sun in april so she should work her butt off now!

smart

i responded to him that i wouldnt want any of those things because i think intelligence is one of the best qualities to have. and i said if i had to pick one of those, i would pick powerful because i think you have to be really smart to be powerful. and i crossed off famous for the same reasons - i think i pointed out that i wasnt 5'7 and 120 pounds and therefore i wouldnt want people pointing at all my fat on the cover of a magazine :) he laughed and me and obviously wrote back telling me i was crazy and beautiful and i didnt have to be 5'7 120 lbs to be pretty...and rich, i think thatll follow the smart and powerful...

his response was that he was already smart and he was already rich so he would want to be famous. i wrote back with sticking my tongue out at him and saying that he was practically 10 years older than me so maybe when im that ancient id be able to say i was smart and rich too :)

guess what - we have drinkable coffee here (megan i love my senseo but i still haevnt gone to buy more cause the staples near the apt is always closed when i go by and the place near work is too far away - im going to buy some at walmart when i go home and keep that as a treat cause that coffee tastes like the coffee id want to buy at starbucks when i wanted a treat...) anyway, i sent an email to the building manager and it circled to lots of people and finally this nice guy oscar came over to clean it. i saw the inside of the machine before and after and it was such a change! it is now actually palatable.

i love my random jobs around here :) the other thing ive been working on all morning is learning how to use this new voice recorder that we have. we bought it to record troy (the mit guy who is quitting) talk about his managers. i can play it on my computer but i cant figure out how to play it on someone elses computer....back to working on that :)

im in the best mood :)

my mom always told me i didn't want to be a princess

i wouldn't want to be famous - you no longer get a private life. and the strings attached to fame - going to the right parties, getting noticed on the street, dropping your name to get people to do things for you - those don't actually sound that appealing
and powerful? i'm just not a powerful kind of person . . . what am i going to do, be CEO of a big company? president of the US? you have to work too much and everyone looks to you for answers - def not appealing
i think rich . . . that way i can do what i want AND help others by giving to charity . . . i think that's the best. take trips all the time, right anusha's cousin's big fat checks whenever they have fund raisers, buy my friends cool presents :)

good job anusha :)

thought for the day at the end

I had a fun morning :) After Satyan left this morning Julie and I talked for a while then took the subway to work together. After she left, I met a girl that I want to be just like 10 years from now :)

I noticed her as soon as she walked in cause she had a really nice Gucci purse. And in the midst of me checking out her bag, she asked when I graduated from MIT - a bit taken aback I realized that I had for some weird reason wore my class ring today. Apparently she graduated in 92, works for Lehman, etc etc. Rupa, she knows your sister - she had a brother that went to MIT too that knew her. Her name is Roopa Mehendale? Anyway she was really pretty, trendy (except for the sneakers with skirt thing...which i really hope I never do). When she left she gave me her card and was like if you ever need a job or want to get together let me know. It was a nice conversation, but I never know what to do with these sort of contacts. Am I supposed to email her?

thought for the day:
would you rather be famous, powerful, or rich? torals cousin asked me that in a random email the other day...ill write my response later...

rewards for good planning

i'm done! its taken me doing basically the same experiment 5 times, but today i finally planned it right! and to reward myself, i'm going home now - even though its not technically 8 hours today :)

aruba

thats so exciting!! jackie told me yesterday thats what he wanted to do :) (that def helps in the happiness discussion im sure!)

speaking of marriages, patty and i had a pretty awk conversation about that yesterday at lunch, i think i was mean/rude but from my opinion not out of line. she isnt mad at me at all but i think she was taken aback. it started when i told her that my mom was going to india in may for my cousins wedding, she asked which cousin, i told her my oldest cousin had an arranged marriage, girl was crazy, got divorced and is now getting married again. and she was like arranged marriages are so stupid you have to meet the person/know the person. i got defensive - i was like patty come on, in my family there are over 100s of marriages, one of which has ended in divorce. look at that statistic here when people date for 10 years and then get divorced - i said it nicely but firmly. she dated someone for 7 years then got married and divorced....anyway right after i said it i felt bad, but she kinda looked at me oddly then the conversation continued...anyway...

satyan just called :) he is in jersey hanging out with his family but is coming back at 7 (which is when i think ill get out of work tonight). when he called he called my desk and i didnt answer cause i was talking to steve. so i called him right back and he was like where are you coldstone? its a big joke between us cause i always talk abotu how good i think their ice cream is but how i have only been there twice and i need to go again. in my study guide it said next to one of the lessons for the week "take a break and go get ice cream with a friend" when i got to that part i told him and said he should take me for ice cream. so today when he called he was like how about after work i take you out to dinner, then to cold stone, then we can go home and watch 24 (i taped it for him since he was busy last night) :) i was in the middle of 1000 things so i was like sure that sounds great ill call you at 7 and he was like 7? thats 4 hours from now ill prob call and distract you before then! really cute and i cant stop smiling but also waay too boyfriend like....

mean case of the blues

and i can't seem to shake it today . . .
i need a day off from life when i'm not sick :(

yes, i'm back!

sorry ladies, i came back yesterday around 1pm and i've been swamped at work. radie and erica left for argentina last thursday, so i'm covering for radie all week. yea, no fun.

my 2 cents:

- pro gay marriage. why not? it's not like marriages (both hetero- and homosexual) last that long these days anyways.

- definitely anti-flip phones. ever since i got my super slim sanyo, i've hated flip phones. i guess i'm just lazy and i hate having to flip it to use it. and i think the other phones just look classier

- happiness: i don't know, but i think to me happiness is just an attitude. i think it just depends on how you decide to react to something. i know so many people that have been in really shitty situations, and they still manage to find something - even the tiniest thing - to be happy about. and then there are those people that _always_ find something to be unhappy about.

- i liked the gates. i think it's art.

nush, i'm so glad you finally met jessie! you'll get to hang out with her more on the cruise, too. she's awesome :)

oh yea - joe slept over last night, and he told me he finally told me what my surprise is. . . he wants to take me to aruba the weekend before my birthday. i was so excited when he told me! he's so sweet. it's def going to be amazing spending a few days on an island in the caribbean with him. and then the weekend of my birtday. . . a friend of his knows the owner of marquee (megan, that's this club here that's impossible to get into. celbrities are there all the time), so he said we could probably get a table or something there for my birthday. not bad, huh?

my weekend in miami was amazing. beautiful, sunny weather. i spent a lot of time with my mom, which was great, and with my friends (mostly mari). ok, back to work. i still need to read through what i missed of the blog . . .

is julie back?

she came back yesterday, didn't she?

ok, off to lock myself in a biosafety hazard level 2 room without windows!!!

hapiness

i agree that you have to be happy with yourself and not yourself with any specific attachments, but i dont think its finding satisfaction in your day to day life because i dont think that provides much satisfaction, but i think its in the things that enhance your day to day life - like going to the gym to lose that 10 pounds and maybe one day actually losing it, or working youre butt of at work so you can pay off that credit card. its not the specific event that justifies your happiness but its the effort and work you put into life that should make you happy. i know for myself i dont find that in my day to day activities. i think then i would run the risk of becoming complacent and not working hard to achieve random goals.

i liked the gates :) i think the park looked really nice with random color in it - esp since i look at the park every day from an aerial view (which is one of my favorite things about this building!! the bad coffee is almost worth that view!!) but i think it was necessary in the winter when the park/city look somewhat bleak. if they put lights in the park i think it could achieve the same goal without the same cost. but a natural solution will come in a few months when flowers/trees start to get more life in them!

also pro gay marriage. on this subject, i met jessie finally on friday night! she was here hanging out with evy (J+J were in miami). it was nice to finally see her. i felt like id known her for ages.

sex and the city

i watched the final episode for the first time last night . . .

i love you guys :) i need to move to nyc . . . lab people are getting on my nerves because they can be so moody and my tolerance is low due to illness (i stopped speaking to people on friday because i knew i would blow up at someone) the one person i actually enjoy talking to is matt - and i can't really be his friend because i think both of our significant others would be bothered by us hanging out too much.

the weather is getting sunnier and sunnier though! last night, i went to a coffee shop with jess and we walked there in sandals!!!! i can't wait for summer time :)

hmmm . . . the sequel

pro gay marriage

"gates" are def art (i think) - its just debateable whether you like it.

what does it mean to be happy? i think it means finding satisfaction in your day to day life. I don't think its reached when a goal is reached (ex: i'll be happy when i pay off my credit cards, when i lose 10 more pounds, when i get this promotion, etc) because those are external points of validation. there isn't a job or a boy or a paycheck that will ever make you happy - it has to be a state of mind you are in

i like flipphones - i think because i broke my cute new flipphone and am jealous because i other than that one month of cute flipphone - all i have ever had is ghetto fabulous phones but i can't rationalize buying a new one when the one i have works amazingly.

blog

using it did get easier! (although i still dont know how to add links...)

and the whole point of the blog rups is that you dont have to think things through! we just get to write!

i had the most horrible nightmare last night. that dev was the spy. and that he read all the blog entries i wrote :( i woke up really sad...but i know its not him cause no way would he ever even use a computer that had windows 2000 on it or whatever that person was using :)

i thought i liked the flip phone but now im realizing that i dont like it at all. i miss my cute little nokia that i used to use with tombile. i miss it a lot! but verizon is stupid and wont let me get a new phone until may when my 1 year is up...but then again may is scarily close to now...

jules i cant wait to see what new movies we get on netflix today! i sent those back on the way to the gym this morning.

hmmm...

no ideas yet...

gay marriage? whether or not we think the "gates" are art? what it means to be happy? flipphones vs. regular phones?

i guess i haven't thought this through enough...

any suggestions? i promise this'll get easier!! just like using the blog got easier :)

g'morning darlings!

so, what's the topic of the day?

i got 9 hours of sleep last night! i'm still not better - but it can't be that far off now, can it?

i thought today wasn't going to be so busy . . . but i may get lots and lots of infant samples :( i didn't see edgar at all last night, so i was hoping to skip out for an early lunch with him . . . which i can still do - i just need to watch the clock so i don't have to stay here too late . . .

sounds good to me

im up for talking about random specific topics...only reason i dont think itll work so well is because of the lull in conversation most of the time. with only like 5 blogs a day a focused conversation seems like it wont get very far. but doesnt hurt to try!

montreal sounds like fun! ive never been. i think sashank and i are going to go after my exam in june sometime with my parents. either there or somewhere in europe. we shall see...

good idea!

i like it :)

hmmm

i may or may not be here this weekend.. my sister was gonna come into the city but now we are thinking about a road trip somewhere.. maybe montreal? i wanna go somewhere outside of the city. if i'm here.. let's definitely do brunch.

sushi sounds yum.. i think that's what i want for lunch now.

other thoughts... i had this idea a while ago and blogged it but it didn't post... i was thinking that we all tend to blog at certain points in the day... usually more on mondays b/c there is more to share.. but i think it might be fine to have a random topic that we all talk about for a given day.. nothing formal or forced.. but i feel like 1. i don't really use my brain enough to "think" during the day.. about issues in the world or random ideals in society that i have thoughts on.. 2. we usually run into lulls in the blog when we haven't had an interesting night the night before or when everyone is already up to date on our drama...

plus.. i love when the four of us get off on random tangents discussing issues that are out there... i don't mean political ones.. but even the merits of netflix.. so i'd rather we do it more.. i like that we all think a lil differently :)

let me know what you think.. the topic for today can be whether or not this is a good idea ;)

hi rupa!!!

im glad you had a fun weekend. are you around this coming weekend? i want to see you if you are! ill be here studying...but am def up for dinner/brunch one day?? but not with a whole bunch of people, just us! (us is you j, j, and me...)

work is crazy. i dont have friday off, but its ok cause ill get a random day off at some point for working this friday. im going to have sushi with patty soon. even though i have a ton of food in the fridge, its ok, itll be nice to catch up with her. plus i can never turn down sushi!!

hi girls :)

blogger is moody today.. and i have killah cramps right now.

but otherwise.. life is good.. i had a fun weekend too. glad you girls all got to see family :) i stayed in the city... hung out with anuj a lot (who is ENGAGED)... yes i am officially letting go of my "future husband".

he is super happy and really cute about the whole thing. yet another wedding that i am really really excited for.

this weekend i did a bunch of stuff.. first went out with matt (co-worker) on friday which was super fun. we basically wandered the east village.. stopped for fries and pizza at different places and ended up in this random art gallery that had an exhibit on death row inmates' last meals. it was really interesting.. and i liked that we had no purpose for the night except to wander...

saturday i did random saturday errrandy stuff and then went out to dinner and dancing (super fun!). yesterday i had brunch.. rearranged my living room... and talked to my parents and sister a lot.

kinda an uneventful weekend but so fun :) this morning i have been doing lots of work (still catching up from my crazed last week) and talking to ameya over email. which is GOOD b/c i was getting a lil annoyed that we weren't talking.. for some reason he's really bad about emailing.. not for some reason..i get the reasons.. but the girl in me was getting annoyed :) and now we are back to normal.

other big news... i bought pumas :) nothing like the ones i wanted.. but they are gray and orange and the perfect kind of ugly-shoe-that-looks-pretty

blogger hates me

so i got here at 9am. of course - i broke my id last thursday and forgot eun's extra one that she gave me . . . and it was so early that no one answered the phones to come let me in. yup - just had to wait for a couple of seconds and then snuck in with the next elevator full of people.

but then i got to my desk and looked at my calendar and realized - eun's on service all this week! that means i'm going to do basically nothing this morning :) i have an experiment planned for this afternoon - but i can totally blow of this morning!

i'm still not healthy. i guess i always feel worse in the morning - but i'm still coughing and snotting and sleepy. the sleepy is my fault though - sex and the city the last disc came over the weekend and i stayed up until almost midnight watching it - although i still haven't seen the last episode! then i every time i started to fall asleep, i'd start coughing and it'd wake me up - that kept me up until 1ish.

home was nice though - basically i hung out with my mom all weekend. nothing eventful happened. i went to church sunday morning and everyone came over to gush over me and tell me how nice i looked (yeah, not a lot of new stuff happens in o'burg)

now - i'm going to waste time for a while . . . if i had my id, i'd go to the library and read the immunology book . . of course, i don't and i don't want to risk leaving the locked lab . . . oh well, playing on the internet it is!!!

just another manic monday

so i got here at 9am. of course - i broke my id last thursday and forgot eun's extra one that she gave me . . . and it was so early that no one answered the phones to come let me in. yup - just had to wait for a couple of seconds and then snuck in with the next elevator full of people.

but then i got to my desk and looked at my calendar and realized - eun's on service all this week! that means i'm going to do basically nothing this morning :) i have an experiment planned for this afternoon - but i can totally blow of this morning!

i'm still not healthy. i guess i always feel worse in the morning - but i'm still coughing and snotting and sleepy. the sleepy is my fault though - sex and the city the last disc came over the weekend and i stayed up until almost midnight watching it - although i still haven't seen the last episode! then i every time i started to fall asleep, i'd start coughing and it'd wake me up - that kept me up until 1ish.

home was nice though - basically i hung out with my mom all weekend. nothing eventful happened. i went to church sunday morning and everyone came over to gush over me and tell me how nice i looked (yeah, not a lot of new stuff happens in o'burg)

now - i'm going to waste time for a while . . . if i had my id, i'd go to the library and read the immunology book . . of course, i don't and i don't want to risk leaving the locked lab . . . oh well, playing on the internet it is!!!

just another manic monday

so i got here at 9am. of course - i broke my id last thursday and forgot eun's extra one that she gave me . . . and it was so early that no one answered the phones to come let me in. yup - just had to wait for a couple of seconds and then snuck in with the next elevator full of people.

but then i got to my desk and looked at my calendar and realized - eun's on service all this week! that means i'm going to do basically nothing this morning :) i have an experiment planned for this afternoon - but i can totally blow of this morning!

i'm still not healthy. i guess i always feel worse in the morning - but i'm still coughing and snotting and sleepy. the sleepy is my fault though - sex and the city the last disc came over the weekend and i stayed up until almost midnight watching it - although i still haven't seen the last episode! then i every time i started to fall asleep, i'd start coughing and it'd wake me up - that kept me up until 1ish.

home was nice though - basically i hung out with my mom all weekend. nothing eventful happened. i went to church sunday morning and everyone came over to gush over me and tell me how nice i looked (yeah, not a lot of new stuff happens in o'burg)

now - i'm going to waste time for a while . . . if i had my id, i'd go to the library and read the immunology book . . of course, i don't and i don't want to risk leaving the locked lab . . . oh well, playing on the internet it is!!!

just another manic monday

so i got here at 9am. of course - i broke my id last thursday and forgot eun's extra one that she gave me . . . and it was so early that no one answered the phones to come let me in. yup - just had to wait for a couple of seconds and then snuck in with the next elevator full of people.

but then i got to my desk and looked at my calendar and realized - eun's on service all this week! that means i'm going to do basically nothing this morning :) i have an experiment planned for this afternoon - but i can totally blow of this morning!

i'm still not healthy. i guess i always feel worse in the morning - but i'm still coughing and snotting and sleepy. the sleepy is my fault though - sex and the city the last disc came over the weekend and i stayed up until almost midnight watching it - although i still haven't seen the last episode! then i every time i started to fall asleep, i'd start coughing and it'd wake me up - that kept me up until 1ish.

home was nice though - basically i hung out with my mom all weekend. nothing eventful happened. i went to church sunday morning and everyone came over to gush over me and tell me how nice i looked (yeah, not a lot of new stuff happens in o'burg)

now - i'm going to waste time for a while . . . if i had my id, i'd go to the library and read the immunology book . . of course, i don't and i don't want to risk leaving the locked lab . . . oh well, playing on the internet it is!!!

good morning!

i had such a fun weekend. fri i was at a conference most of the day and then went to borders and studied for 3 hours, then met anand for dinner. we were supposed to go to serendipity - waiting for 2 hours (ate dinner nearby) came back, they said 30 more min, so we went for a drink, came back and they were like you werent here when we called you so now its a 3 hour wait! we got so fed up we went to a bar and had beer, and wings! what a great guy!!! :)

sat i woke up with the absolute worst cramps in the world. but i sucked it up, packed and went to philly. got there and just slept on the couch all night except for going out to dinner. my parents came too which was great. then sunday same thing, and was back by 5. satyan came over, we saw napolean dynamite and ate dinner. needless to say i had a lot of fun. got here at 745 this morning since i have a ton to catch up on. my boss is back from vacation this week so itll prob be pretty busy. i may get friday off for good friday! if i dont it counts as a floating holiday but itll be nice to just get it off...

just another manic monday

so i got here at 9am. of course - i broke my id last thursday and forgot eun's extra one that she gave me . . . and it was so early that no one answered the phones to come let me in. yup - just had to wait for a couple of seconds and then snuck in with the next elevator full of people.

but then i got to my desk and looked at my calendar and realized - eun's on service all this week! that means i'm going to do basically nothing this morning :) i have an experiment planned for this afternoon - but i can totally blow of this morning!

i'm still not healthy. i guess i always feel worse in the morning - but i'm still coughing and snotting and sleepy. the sleepy is my fault though - sex and the city the last disc came over the weekend and i stayed up until almost midnight watching it - although i still haven't seen the last episode! then i every time i started to fall asleep, i'd start coughing and it'd wake me up - that kept me up until 1ish.

home was nice though - basically i hung out with my mom all weekend. nothing eventful happened. i went to church sunday morning and everyone came over to gush over me and tell me how nice i looked (yeah, not a lot of new stuff happens in o'burg)

now - i'm going to waste time for a while . . . if i had my id, i'd go to the library and read the immunology book . . of course, i don't and i don't want to risk leaving the locked lab . . . oh well, playing on the internet it is!!!

just another manic monday

so i got here at 9am. of course - i broke my id last thursday and forgot eun's extra one that she gave me . . . and it was so early that no one answered the phones to come let me in. yup - just had to wait for a couple of seconds and then snuck in with the next elevator full of people.

but then i got to my desk and looked at my calendar and realized - eun's on service all this week! that means i'm going to do basically nothing this morning :) i have an experiment planned for this afternoon - but i can totally blow of this morning!

i'm still not healthy. i guess i always feel worse in the morning - but i'm still coughing and snotting and sleepy. the sleepy is my fault though - sex and the city the last disc came over the weekend and i stayed up until almost midnight watching it - although i still haven't seen the last episode! then i every time i started to fall asleep, i'd start coughing and it'd wake me up - that kept me up until 1ish.

home was nice though - basically i hung out with my mom all weekend. nothing eventful happened. i went to church sunday morning and everyone came over to gush over me and tell me how nice i looked (yeah, not a lot of new stuff happens in o'burg)

now - i'm going to waste time for a while . . . if i had my id, i'd go to the library and read the immunology book . . of course, i don't and i don't want to risk leaving the locked lab . . . oh well, playing on the internet it is!!!

im here but only for 10 min

parents said no to what?

i had a great night last night - went home, worked out, got my nails done with jackie, talked to satyan for an hour or so, studyied and went to bed. this morning i went to the gym and have been at a conference all day. im much more concious of what i look like now cause satyan was telling me about conversations he had had with other indian guys about me since i started working here! thats kinda cute but more just scary, so i got all dressed up today, aka more than just lotion on my face :)

im going back to the conference and then im going to go study until 7 when i have dinner plans with anand the hedge fund manager. then tomorrow im off to philly.

dev emailed me today. apparently he is getting like a 75% pay increase to stay here another year. he told his bosshe didnt want to and the only reason he was here was me (the boss knows me) and now im gone (boss was surprised) and the boss offered him 100% pay increase...he said he had to think about it.... :-/

back to my conference

DYING

i feel worse today than yesterday . . . but my day is starting to look better. i almost had a suprise sample that would put me here later AND make me have to think (which is a huge task right now) . . . but nope, the parents said no :)

so i get to keep plugging away and hopefully leave early. i called edgar because i was feeling especially sorry for myself and need to hear a friendly voice. we talked for a little bit. he called me like half an hour later and left a message asking me if he could pick something up for me for lunch. i called him back and said no but i love that he's sweet like that :)

julie is home. how about the other two? what's going on with your days/plans for weekends?

back from the dead...

and i have so much to read!!! anyone else around today?

mixed emotions

i was in such a good mood, then i got a huge paper cut that hurts, then i went to duane reede cause i was hungry and realized i didnt have my credit card :( and im half freaking out half wondering what the heck i could have done with it. i think it may be in the pants i wore to the game on tues...or just on my desk. i put a hold on it but didnt cancel it. i think im going to leave soon and go home and look for it so i can have some piece of mind. satyan is at my favorite midtown bar now too (divine bar on the east side) but im too distraught without my credit card to go there...i may go see him later, we shall see.

rupa, hows the shuffle working out? did you fill it with music? do you like it as much as julie does??

leaving soon

bye ladies! i'll be back some time around early-afternoon on monday.

oh, and nush: so he's using the "we" already?? what's this whole "we were up all sat night" talk?

nah, seriously - i heard you guys laughing for like 2 seconds, then i just passed out because i was so exhausted.

no proposals

i dont think there are any proposals in the air for them yet. im going there this weekend though so ill find out! :) my parents are comign too actually. they are flying southwest there on sat and back on sun. im excited.

jules, i kept telling him to stop making me laugh cause i knew you were home and his response was we were up all sat night cause of drunk people at least you are just laughing and having fun! i thought he had a point :)

i think im gonna go out and study for an hour again. that has been the best use of an hour lunch time so far. i thought about working out but then i have to shower etc etc. ill just go after work tonight...

sashank is going to propose to kerry!

is that how she spells her name?

hello ladies!

I'm in such a great mood today (despite my severe sleep deprivation)! jackie and I had fun at the game last night. zipcar is so convenient! jackie picked up the car by our apt, then she picked me up at work and we drove over to the meadowlands (in new jersey, where the nets play).

the game was a complete blow-out (the nets were winning by like 15 points the whole time), so we let in the middle of the 3rd quarter since we were both tired and hungry. we stopped by quedoba, this really yummy burrito place in hoboken, and then we wanted to go to the tanning salon by our apt before we returned the car. when we got out of the tanning salon, we saw some cops giving tickets to the cars parked around us, so we rushed over there before we got a ticket. the cop saw us and yelled at us for not reading signs, but he said we got lucky and he hadn't written out our ticket yet. as the first cop was yelling at us, his buddy walked over and placed a parking violation ticket on our car. he was so mean - he's like, "yea, he didn't get to write your ticket, but I did." ugh. so annoying! - shake fist-

anyways, other than that minor $115 infraction, we had a fun night. today I came into work super duper early (at 7:30) so I can leave at like 4:00, go home and finish (uum, actually, I haven't even started) packing, maybe get my nails done and hang out with joe for a little bit, then a car will pick me up at 6:30 to take me to the airport. my flight's not until 9, so that should give me PLENTY of time to get there. AND I even checked-in online already, so all I have to do when I get there is check my baggage. not bad, huh?

oh yea, and when I got home last night, there was A LOT of giggling coming from Anusha's room. nush, I'm so glad you're so happy and having so much fun with satyan! I agree - these blogs are definitely more fun to read than the ones from a month ago :)

and congrats to your cousin for the baby!

hello ladies!

I'm in such a great mood today (despite my severe sleep deprivation)! jackie and I had fun at the game last night. zipcar is so convenient! jackie picked up the car by our apt, then she picked me up at work and we drove over to the meadowlands (in new jersey, where the nets play).

the game was a complete blow-out (the nets were winning by like 15 points the whole time), so we let in the middle of the 3rd quarter since we were both tired and hungry. we stopped by quedoba, this really yummy burrito place in hoboken, and then we wanted to go to the tanning salon by our apt before we returned the car. when we got out of the tanning salon, we saw some cops giving tickets to the cars parked around us, so we rushed over there before we got a ticket. the cop saw us and yelled at us for not reading signs, but he said we got lucky and he hadn't written out our ticket yet. as the first cop was yelling at us, his buddy walked over and placed a parking violation ticket on our car. he was so mean - he's like, "yea, he didn't get to write your ticket, but I did." ugh. so annoying! - shake fist-

anyways, other than that minor $115 infraction, we had a fun night. today I came into work super duper early (at 7:30) so I can leave at like 4:00, go home and finish (uum, actually, I haven't even started) packing, maybe get my nails done and hang out with joe for a little bit, then a car will pick me up at 6:30 to take me to the airport. my flight's not until 9, so that should give me PLENTY of time to get there. AND I even checked-in online already, so all I have to do when I get there is check my baggage. not bad, huh?

oh yea, and when I got home last night, there was A LOT of giggling coming from Anusha's room. nush, care to give us the gory details? ;)

and my cousin had a baby!!!

this is the one who had a miscarriage 2 years ago, they just had a baby boy today :) a wedding last week for one cousin, a baby this week for another, i wonder whats next!

good morning :)

i had the best day/night yesterday. work was really good/productive. worked out during lunch. then went to starbucks and studied from 5-7. and met stayan at a really cute indian restaurant called bombay talkie. i was there before him so of course i already knew exactly what i wanted to eat/drink before he got there. its been a while since he and i have gone out since we tended to just stay home and watch movies the last couple of times we have gotten together. it was nice when he called during the day and was like i want to take you out, no more eating at home :) he told me all about his job stuff (he is quitting the job he has now and starting his own fund of funds and gave his resignation on monday) then I asked him about his friends. I realized that (even with Anand the hedge fund manager) all my stories/things I talk about revolve around you guys and jackie, and i dont even know a single person that satyan is friends with. he kinda laughed at me when i asked the question but finally got around to telling me about a lot of them and how some of them wanted to meet up with us for dinner but since we hadnt been out together in a while he said i could meet them later...this is all sounding way too boyfriend like. so i brought that up later at home. i told him that i was having a great time with him and i love hanging out with him and im even over my "i dont want you to stay over mode" (how could i not be! every time he stays over i get the massages!!!) but that i just cant get too close to someone this quickly. and he was like why not we have so much fun together. and i was like yeah i know i just need time/space to meet other people and be by myself. that kinda ended the conversation, we just went back to kissing and laughing and stuff :-/ oh well, i tried!

this morning we got up at 6 and just laid in bed till 8. it was great. i cant stop smiling :) tomorrow we are both going to a conference for work...that should be interesting...

these blogs are way more fun to write than the ones i was writing a month ago :)

ice

i fell monday night. there is a lot of ice between the sidewalk/driveway at my apartment. most of it is very slippery and obvious. there is a patch that is usually under a car that is black. i thought i was passed all the ice and i started walking normally to get into edgar's car and BOOM i fell almost literally flat on my face. my elbows are still really sore.

i'm doing really well today! i actually might leave close to 5!!! at least it will be before the shuttle stops running!!!!!

ice

i fell monday night. there is a lot of ice between the sidewalk/driveway at my apartment. most of it is very slippery and obvious. there is a patch that is usually under a car that is black. i thought i was passed all the ice and i started walking normally to get into edgar's car and BOOM i fell almost literally flat on my face. my elbows are still really sore.

i'm doing really well today! i actually might leave close to 5!!! at least it will be before the shuttle stops running!!!!!

pilates

i went, got subway for lunch - it was surprisingly good. i usualyl like it but this time it just had much more flavor etc and i just got a veggie delight...

anyway now im just trying to catch up on lots of random work. satyan called, we are going to meet at this indian restuarant he has been wanting to go to in the 20s somewhere. then hell come over watch 24, and prob stay over :) its just sooo hard to tell him to leave when it feels so nice having him there...

megan i went to pogo and it looks fun! i didnt sign up though and its prob not the most appropriate thing to do at work for me...i think they monitor all that stuff here (hence the getting rid of yahoo mail etc)...when/how did you fall on ice??

rupa - how are you?? whats going on in your world?

experiments etc

everything is going well - although, it seems not matter how much i think about my to do list the night before or as i'm going to work and it seems reasonable - as soon as i start doing it, i realize how much longer its going to take then i planned. i'm still convinced i can finish everything i want to do today by 5 and still eat lunch! some people are going out to lunch - i already said no to that. i've got a pb&j and a clementine with my name all over them! although, i don't know if i'm hungry or not. i'm sick and i fell on ice the other day so my entire body hurts (i'm not sure which of the two is doing it) plus, i keep coughing really hard which i think is what is responsible for the wicked sore throat i have. oh, and i'm on my period so i don't know if its the non descript, probably viral illness i have going on or cramps that is making my tummy feel less than excited with the world. and i'm sleepy.

now - i'd love to sit at my computer for another 15 minutes and read the gossip column on msn or play a game on pogo.com - but i know that that 15 minutes will just end up tacked on the end of my day so NO! i must go work.

i want a nap . . .

woo hoo

i just got alex to go to my 1130 meeting instead of me

i wanted to go to my pilates class at 1215 but im kinda tired and hurting from all the working out. so i may skip and just go eat/study. haha steve just came over and said youre sending him instead?? oops. next time ill go...im tired of going to all of his meetings though!

thats great!

id never seen that before. i think i need to read more girly magazines...

im tired too and i was asleep by 1130 and didnt wake up till 815. i woke up at 730 be reflex and then realized that i didnt want to get here till 915 or so, so i went back to sleep and got up at 815 :)

i forgot to bring any lunch today - im usually never like that. it feels weird. hopefully patty will be free for lunch, otherwise maybe ill just go study again at ABP and get soup/sandwich.

shifting the advertising conversation to the blog

you know which ad i like? this ad in all women's magazines, it's part of the "a diamond is forever" campaign:

"Your left hand is your heart. Your right hand is your voice. Your left hand says 'I do.' Your right hand says 'I did what?' Your left hand knows the answers. Your right hand asks the questions. Your left hand rocks the cradle, your right hand rules the world. Women of the world, raise your right hand."

argh

i blogged earlier but it didn't show up. basically, i was just saying how much fun we had last night. jackie, anusha, joe and i met up at hooters. we had a few beers, some wings and crab legs. then we went to the game. we had awesome seats, dwayne wade hit the game winning shot at the buzzer - it was awesome! then home, joe and i hung out for a bit and then he had to go home. it was a great night, now i'm exhausted.

tonight i'm going with jackie to the nets/bulls game. i'm not so excited about that, especially since i'm so tired, but i'm sure it'll be fun. i need to pack tonight, too. i fly home tomorrow night at like 9. i get into miami at midnight. mari's going to pick me up at the airport, take me home so i can change and get house keys, then we're going to PARTY for st. patty's day. hmmm. . .it doesn't seem like i'm going to be catching up on my sleep any time soon.

meg, how are your expertiments going?

sounds fun :)

i hope eun working doesnt ruin your plans...

the office is so quiet / slow when allen isnt here :) its kinda nice. im gonna study now till julie calls and tells me she is leaving.

o'burg details

sunday was my mom's bday - but she was away until late saturday night. that's the first reason to go home. second, my church is taking church directory pictures friday and my dad asked if i wanted mine taken. reason three is i haven't been home in a while :)

just for the weekend - and it all depends on whether i get samples thursday or friday - eun's on call this weekend so i'd have to stay and work.

i just got a surprise premie sample. they make me so angry.

oburg

i didnt know you were going home this weekend! with who? for what? how long?

i have work to do just no deadlines to do them in so its making the day go by pretty slowly.

all this working out seems fruitless sometimes - and then i realize its cause i never stop with the wings/beer/other crappy food...we need to get back on south beach soon!

poor peter :(

so - i thought i was being all good today - and then i realized i'm around the same place i was yesterday at this time - and i stayed until 6:30 yesterday. i really don't want to stay until 6:30 today :( although - i guess it will just catch up to me on friday when i don't have a lot to do and will be excited to go home early to drive to o'burg when its still light out . . .

its only tuesday.

man - having work to do makes the day really long . . .

ummmm

no, let's not cause a fight on the court. the last thing the heat needs is for wade to get suspended so close to the playoffs. oh yea, and i'm sure joe wouldn't want to get punched. . .

i shouldn't blend in with any 10 year olds! give me some credit, the woman selling us beer last week at least said i looked like i was 16! besides, i'm not expecting to see too many people with wade jerseys. new yorkers tend to hate the miami heat (there's lot of animosity because riley used to coach the knicks). sooo. . .there's hope for me yet :)

i removed alfie from my list. i'm like halfway through dances with wolves! i should finish it in about another week. that movie is like 4 hours long! i like it, though.

we had banana nut bread from starbucks last week for some girl's bday here - it was soooo yummy! i need to eat healthy all day today since we're going to pig out on beer and wings later on today :)

can you call peter?

i would but then again i clearly dont usually do the right thing when it comes to all this stuff...

how did jackie find out? did mari tell you guys?

alfie and word wars :)

jules these are our next two movies (so take alfie off your list! we have a lot of overlap on the new releases...)

word wars is a scrabble documentary sort of like the spelling bee one we saw back in wall st. its supposed to be good.

as for the picture - we are practically going to be sitting in his lap :) or maybe jpe can throw a water bottle on the court, and ill take the picture when dwayne comes into the stands to punch his other eye :)

megan - does julie have anything else??? just kiding jules - i think she is wearing his jersey, think thatll work or will she just blend in with all the 10 year olds wearing his jersey?

for some reason today i had the biggest craving for a banana nut muffin. why do i get such weird cravings?? anyway i went to 2 starbucks, cafe europa, and then ABP until I found it :) and at ABP it was the last one, and didnt look so fresh but i wanted it anyway so i ate it, studied there for an hour since i wont get any work done tonight and just got back.

i have been hanging out a fair amount - i think i was like this last time too, just not the month before, which is what will happen as soon as we get back from the cruise....

i can't wear something low cut

i'm wearing wade's jersey. maybe he'll notice that in the sea of knicks fans. . .

jackie found out yesterday that peter was in the hospital last night. i think he has a stomach virus or something. he was in miami for the weekend, came back to ny last night, and was in a hospital somewhere in jersey last night. i hate that i don't know what's going on in his life anymore. i hope he's ok. . .

meg, good luck with your experiments!

wear something low cut.

so - i just sat through an hour long seminar thingy about good lab safety practices. big waste of time. i feel worse and worse as the day goes on . . . i have four hours to successfully start 2 experiments and complete another. its going to be a little tight - but i just want to go home!

i'm taking my ipod with me. maybe happy music will make me more efficient.

nush, don't get sick!

take echinacea! i feel like you, me and jackie are on a sick rotation or something, and we need to stop.

megan, i agree with anusha: you should def try that dance class. it's so much more fun than running on the treadmill or something.

and nush, good job on getting ahead on your studying! i feel like you've been hanging out a fair amount, too. i'm impressed :)

i really don't feel like doing work. i don't know what's wrong with me. i feel like this week is just going to be a waste because all i can do is look forward to going home thursday night and to tonight's basketball game. i talked to my pops today. he's in colombia setting up for his exposition. the opening is tomorrow night, and he's giving a 40 min talk on contemporary photography, so he's a bit nervous. i called him today to update him on how well the heat have been doing, so he was happy to hear that. he was also excited to hear that we have great seats to tonight's game, so hopefully i'll remember to take a couple of good pics to send to him. any ideas how i can get a picture of me with dwayne wade?

do it!

and look and see if there is an indian one too :) they are fun! they make you feel like you are working out (fine not as much as spinning or running but def more fun). last week i couldnt walk for like 3 days after the indian dance class.

good thing im ahead of the game in my studying cause casually seeing both satyan and anand (the hedge fund manager) is taking up way too much time for me...tomorrow night satyan and i are going out to dinner and fri anand is taking me to serendipity. ive always wanted to go there, the ice cream they eat in that movie looks sooo good!

i think im getting sick too - i keep coughing and randomly sneezing. and i dont want to do anywork - oh thats not cause im sick, i think thats just cause i want a vacation...

while at the gym last night . . .

apparently they added a new class - a latin cardio class. jess and i walked passed on our way out - its like aerobics to latin music loosely based on dancing. it was funny to see these housewives really stiffly moving next to ones shaking their butts and getting into it. i kinda want to go next week . . .

nevermind

i just wrote a big long blog.
and then got an internal error . . .
i was not meant to get out of bed today.

good morning

last night jackie came to the masala bhangara class with me - it was so fun :) the workout last week was a lot more intense but thats what you get with these classes, it all depends on what mood the instructor is in. last week she had been mad at her boyfriend when she made up the dance so there was a lot of punching and jumping around :) i wanted to show jackie what bhangara looks like in an indian movie or something but i only have one movie and it totally sucks...

this morning I went to the gym did a toning class and got here by 9. allen is out of the office this week so the work load is a lot less and ive had time to catch up on random stuff.

i cant wait to go to the game tonight! two weeks in a row seats that are like 5 rows from the floor! i think i could get used to this...

good morning

last night jackie came to the masala bhangara class with me - it was so fun :) the workout last week was a lot more intense but thats what you get with these classes, it all depends on what mood the instructor is in. last week she had been mad at her boyfriend when she made up the dance so there was a lot of punching and jumping around :) i wanted to show jackie what bhangara looks like in an indian movie or something but i only have one movie and it totally sucks...

this morning I went to the gym did a toning class and got here by 9. allen is out of the office this week so the work load is a lot less and ive had time to catch up on random stuff.

i cant wait to go to the game tonight! two weeks in a row seats that are like 5 rows from the floor! i think i could get used to this...

going home!

urgh my long day is finally over. im gonna go home, nap for 20 min then go do a bhangara class with jackie at 645, then study...

i think i get 1-2 movies a month, we def have slow periods and then when we watch horrible movies like first daughter in a 3 day window we get more :)

i'm in a great mood :)

megan, did you ever get motivated to get some work done? our manager, nick is out, and so are like 2 other people in our department, so it's kind of slow here today. a bunch of us took like an hour lunch - it was really nice :)

i have a headache now, though, and just really want to go home, so that's not so pleasant. . .

nush, i'll change the netflix allocations so that you get 2 movies and i get 1. i guess we can switch it up every couple of months or so, although you should be getting to see more than 1 movie a month. our turnover time isn't that slow. . .

ok, time to finish a few things up so i can go home. . .

i've had a good day too :)

megan, did you ever get motivated to get some work done? our manager, nick is out, and so are like 2 other people in our department, so it's kind of slow here today. a bunch of us took like an hour lunch - it was really nice :)

i have a headache now, though, and just really want to go home, so that's not so pleasant. . .

nush, i'll change the netflix allocations so that you get 2 movies and i get 1. i guess we can switch it up every couple of months or so, although you should be getting to see more than 1 movie a month. our turnover time isn't that slow. . .

ok, time to finish a few things up so i can go home. . .

there is a puma store in soho...

those shoes sound great rupa! ive been wanting light green pumas for a while, just havent gotten around to it...

netflix - did you send something back yet? they did that to me last time too, for me i think it took like an extra day for them to record on the website that i had sent back sharktale and they had already started the process of sending the next one...i should check if alfie is on our lists...speaking of lists, julie do you think we could change up the 1/2/2 breakdown of movies for a while? you or jackie could get one movie at a time and id get 2 for the next month or so till i start locking myself in my room to study? it gets frustrating to only get 1 movie you really want to see a month or so...

i had the best morning, went to jackies work with julie, had breakfast with J+J+Joe. saw the trading floor, its crazy and really fun :) was here at 1030 and have been/will be running around allll day. i had a very eventful weekend but you guys will have to wait till i get back from my next meeting to hear about it...

i want alfie too!

it's on my netflix queue and it's on the top, so hopefully they'll send it out soon. . .

i had such a fun weekend! evelyn and a friend of hers, jen, came to visit. we found a free wine restaurant close to our apartment, so we went there friday night and got wasted! it was so much fun, and the food was good, too. then jackie and i went to a straight club, and evy and her friend went to a gay club. the next morning was so much fun when we were all trying to piece together all the pieces from our drunken nights.

anusha and i went to jackie and joe's work to have breakfast with them this morning. it was so nice to see him again :) he's sooo tan! i'm definitely jealous. a guy at work gave jackie 4 really good tickets to see the heat/knicks game tomorrow, so jackie, joe, hopefully anusha and i will be going to that. and then thursday i get to go home!

i love wearing sneakers to work! mine are getting all dirty and gross, so i've been thinking about cleaning them for a while. maybe one of these days i'll finally get around to it. . .

rupa and megan, i'm glad you all had nice weekends. our good friend anusha is in meetings all day, so we probably won't be hearing much from her today.

ok ladies, enjoy the rest of your days! :)

netflix might be making me happy . . .

so, under my "at home" list . . . in addition to just the usual three slots marked 1 2 and 3, there is a slot marked "+" . . . what's up with that?? its making me happy though because it lists Alfie as shipping - alfie was the next on my list and it comes out tomorrow - i really wanted to get it before it went on a long wait and it took weeks for it to be sent to me . . . so, i think either netflix is sending me a random freebie? or maybe they are holding it for me until i send something back? either way, i'm pretty excited :)

i love sneakers

they were at a champs near home?
your parents wouldn't be willing to run over and get them for you? you can always return them if they don't fit :)

courtney is waaay jealous of my roos. they are pretty dirty already though - now is not the season to be wearing out new sneakers, its all snowy/slushy/muddy . . . oh well, they have to get dirty at some point.

i love sneakers

they were at a champs near home?
your parents wouldn't be willing to run over and get them for you? you can always return them if they don't fit :)

courtney is waaay jealous of my roos. they are pretty dirty already though - now is not the season to be wearing out new sneakers, its all snowy/slushy/muddy . . . oh well, they have to get dirty at some point.

i love sneakers

they were at a champs near home?
your parents wouldn't be willing to run over and get them for you? you can always return them if they don't fit :)

courtney is waaay jealous of my roos. they are pretty dirty already though - now is not the season to be wearing out new sneakers, its all snowy/slushy/muddy . . . oh well, they have to get dirty at some point.

buy new undies!!!

that's my vote :) it's definitely the more fun option of both. handwashing anything is never fun.. especially undies.

i wanted to take my laundry home this weekend.. but somehow not having a car trunk to drop stuff in makes it annoying. i did end up running into someone from my HS though on the train who lives in ny and was bringing home his laundry. he said he does this once a month and has never actually done his laundry in the city. ah.. boys.

i found the sneakers that i wanted (not the navy and maroon) but other just dark.. can wear on anything ones.. i actually found them walking to the bus station on sunday at champs sports. should have just bought them then!!! but no.. i was gonna wait and really think about it. came back to nyc and the champs here doesn't have them!!! and puma's website doesn't have them! grrr... they were perfect.. black and grey and a lil bit of bright lime green. blah.

the roos rock

i wore them everyday last week :)

now - i have a rather limited wardrobe. our washer is broken in my apartment so i thought about going to the laundrymat - but i'm planning to go home this weekend. so i counted up what i have left clean - i'm two pairs of underwear short of finishing out the week! so - i'm either handwashing in the sink or buying new underwear :) sure - lazy. but it just annoys me that our washer is broken because its just the stupid quarter slot part thats jammed and it does this a lot. stupid washer.

mondays blow

how was everyone's weekend?

my was nice - if not a little boring.
our little technician party on friday night was wicked fun - made me actually feel like i have friends and a life here beyond edgar. nothing amazing the rest of the weekend - although i seem to have lost the ability to sleep in . . . i was proud of my 10am saturday morning - even if i started waking up at 9am . . .

i'm trying to motivate myself but i'm in a pretty blah mood today.

oops

hi megan :) i missed your blog somehow... i'm glad the technician party was fun!!

how are your new roos?

morning!

hello girlies :) i hope everyone had a wonderful weekend! i had an amazing time at home. my parents and i went to atlantic city on friday.. ate and drank a lot and gambled a bit. i won 56 dollars! the rest of the weekend was pretty chill. i visited my dance teacher... went shopping with my mom. went to a anniversary party at moushumi's and then to this religious thing at night. it was really great :) i'm all relaxed and happy now and i brought back indian food.

how were all the other weekends? what's new in everybody's life? it's sunny out tonight.. which makes me happy. hope it stays through the week!

mondays blow

how was everyone's weekend?

my was nice - if not a little boring.
our little technician party on friday night was wicked fun - made me actually feel like i have friends and a life here beyond edgar. nothing amazing the rest of the weekend - although i seem to have lost the ability to sleep in . . . i was proud of my 10am saturday morning - even if i started waking up at 9am . . .

i'm trying to motivate myself but i'm in a pretty blah mood today.

new credit card

i cant wait till i live in a house permanently and have a home phone number and have lived there for more than 1 year...i just got a new credit card cause orbitz changed their policy and id rather get cash back...jules - i should have stuck with the citi one when they were doing the free ipod giveaway!

anyway you guys have all prob left for the day...

i'm starting to do work . . .

i'm going to start a series of experiments next week and i'm trying to maximize my results and be super efficent, so i'm planning them all out now. its tedious, but hopefully semi worth it . . .

i'm def leaving by 4:30 . . . which is sooo rationalized because i was here before 8:30 :)

i'm starting to do work . . .

i'm going to start a series of experiments next week and i'm trying to maximize my results and be super efficent, so i'm planning them all out now. its tedious, but hopefully semi worth it . . .

i'm def leaving by 4:30 . . . which is sooo rationalized because i was here before 8:30 :)

i'm starting to do work . . .

i'm going to start a series of experiments next week and i'm trying to maximize my results and be super efficent, so i'm planning them all out now. its tedious, but hopefully semi worth it . . .

i'm def leaving by 4:30 . . . which is sooo rationalized because i was here before 8:30 :)

:)

i love fridays. its sunny now, i went to the gym and did pilates so i dont feel guilty skipping the gym when im done with work, im getting lots of work done, alex is out sick, its a good day :)

i'm back

the seminar was good. i'm slowly understanding more and more - this isn't going to make sense but i'm going to try anyway . . . my lab does T cell studies, inaki (eun's husband) does B cells. so, when we did the study of purposely giving people virus we looked at both T and B cells. the computer comes up with a dot plot where basically each dote resprents a cell. thne you tell it to compare this color to this color - the colors being different cell receptors. then, you can figure out what percentage of the cells have what receptors by putting a block around different groups of cells and telling the computer that those are what you want to look at. so - for all the T cell receptors, i could ask people around the lab what looked right and if i was picking out the right populations. the B cells - not so much. so, during his presentation he had a lot of the markers i had looked at so i got to see his version of the same graphs. that may seem little - but it was a huge warm fuzzy to me to know what was going on and to have seen those types of plots before :)

yersterday - jess was working and edgar was not so we got to have some down time at my apartment. we hung out for a while and ended up falling asleep together for like an hour. then we showered, found food and went to this new bar that a girl from chang's is working at. its called daisy dukes and is a country western bar so edgar was super excited. the music was fun - upbeat country and kind of old school 80s rock (pat benatar, poison) the place was PACKED! and there is a mechnical bull. yup, edgar rode it. so did the other chang's people we met up with. it was soo funny :) this one guy (that i didn't know) rode it a couple of times and was AWESOME! including the last time i saw him when he took his shirt of and showed that not only was he a great bull rider, he also had a washboard stomach, amazing arms and oh my god did his back look nice, all shoulder muscles flexing while holding onto the bull . . . ahh, a moment of silence for that boy's body . . . .

and tonight, after work we are going to go to gen's apartment and have a little technician party. a bit lame, yes - but we're going to play games and hang out. i'm excited :)

kojak?

which boy of mine or someone elses did we nickname that?? i cant remeber...and there is some new miniseries called kojack that made me think of it since i never knew where the nickname came from - i think rupa came up with it?

last night was sooooooooo much fun. to bring megan up to speed (and for rupa to know my change of heart) at around 5 pm the mail guy comes and gives me a letter from dev - no stamp so he just dropped it off. it had two like 10th row tickets to the uconn big east tournament in there with a note basically saying i know youd like this go have fun with someone youd have fun with - dont forget i love you. i called him and said i didnt want the tickets per the email i wrote him last week and he was like just go, i asked if hed go with me he said no, so i wasnt going to go. i offered them to allen to kiss up a bit :) he said no, then i called J+J to tell them to go instead. jackie is the best - she is so convincing, she was like its like a consolation prize - you worked so hard at the relationship and it didnt work so here go see your fav basketball game :) shes great! so we decided to buy a third ticket so we could all go - paid 60 bucks for that ticket, luckily the seats next to us werent taken - they prob were some microsoft person who just didnt use them...so we all got to sit together, had 2 pitchers of beer and some chicken fingers. then i went to satyans :)

which was wonderful. he is a great guy - i feel kinda guilty about my date tonight now...not that there was talk of anything serious but it probably could head that way if i wanted it to. but anyway i was there for a few hours, talked a lot, made out a lot, then i went home at 1230 or so. he kept saying really cute things to me - jules, i think he may be that kind of person you were talking about yesterday, that i do too many random cute things for the boy im interested in and find random things that always remind me of him and i need to find someone who pays attention like that to me...not that i just demand attention but that i want reciprocation - anyway i think he is like that...but anyway the whole point is i laughed and smiled A LOT and had a great time :)

i think im gonna go work out during lunch today...after all that beer and fried stuff i still feel gross.

my eye is hurting, but im pretty sure its just lack of sleep...

hi

i kept trying to blog all day yesterday and it kept messing up! after typing up the same thing like 3 times, i got frustrated and gave up. i've been at work at like 7:30 the past few days, and i actually like it. i get so much work done in the morning before people are around and being annoying.

meg, enjoy your seminar! it's snowing here. blah.

g'morning!

why the lack of chatty chatty yesterday?

its 8:30 in the morning. i'm here because of eun's husband - he's presenting at one of the weekly seminars that i usually skip and i thought i should go. 1. because he's my boss's husband and i think its respectful and supportive to go and 2. because i've managed to go to two of his lab meetings AND he's edgar's mom's doctor (we haven't told eun this factiod yet, his mom thinks he's a prick) so i actually want to know.

i made myself coffee. hopefully it will help.

morning!

i went to see the incredibles last night - really good!

also - i looked at the pictures.
the guy with jules is joe, right? i remember him being better looking . . . or maybe its just the quality of the photographer ;)
and allison is the one in the light blue/grey shirt with the little lace part? and who are the guys in red??? i hate that i don't know these people :(

pictures

my comments:
1. there are some ugly pictures of everyone from that night!!
2. my favorite are the julie getting drunk progression and looking like she is about to jump joe at any time...

pictures

to see great fun drunken pics of us all on rupa's bday, go here :)

pictures

the evening begins with a happy hour at d. e. shaw, then we all went out to dinner.

pictures!

to see great fun drunken pics of us all on rupa's bday, go here :)

pictures

the evening begins with a happy hour at d. e. shaw, then we all went out to dinner.

i hope that last blog posts...

conan

patty will let me know by 2- then my vote is for paul or matt! i love both of them. satyan doesnt get in till 6 and i didnt want him to come anyway. i think its hard enough to go without dev when this was something i did for him - i dont think id want to go with another boy im interested in...i wish dev were coming with us - i wish he could handle being my friend...i miss that a lot...but i guess that comes with the decision - which i am still sure about, i just wish it were easier...

megan - i get into almost all museums for free - met, moma, ntl history, whitney, guggenheim...one of the few perks - but the best perk - i get to go on my first business trip next week - and guess where its to!!! west hartford CT - sure not as fun as FL or Europe but i get to go home for a night and take my parents out to dinner on expense :) its going to be soooo fun!!!!! i havent decided what day - hopefully early in the week.

jules - fri night i have the date, then sat i just want to study all day - if you wanted to go out to dinner or go see a movie or something lowkey id be up for that - but i want to get to bed early - im still tired from boston...

rupa - you should go home early and rest!!!!!

good morning :)

hi girls!!! i love that there are so many blogs to read :) those towels are super cute. jules- i changed the link that you added to a link that said "click here", otherwise it was too wide for the page and moved all the blogs down to the bottom. i think that's such an awesome gift.

i hope conan is super fun tonight! i can't wait to hear about it tomorrow. is it the one that shows up tonight on TV? i'll have to tivo it and look for you. do something crazy on the show if you can!! if they ask for volunteers.. go up!!

my eyesight is a lil crazy today. i feel like my pink eyed- eye is watering like crazy even though it isn't and so everything i see out of it is blurry and a lil cloudy. looking at anything close by has been fine (people from close by or my screen) but then from farther away it's blurry.

mango lassis... i feel the same way about them. actually what makes a lassi a lassi is the yogurt they add.. so usually people put mango, yogurt, and sugar. i like regular lassis better that are basically yogurt and sugar and a lil homemade buttermilk (to make it more liquidy).

i'm going to philly this weekend too :) i haven't been home for more than 2 hrs in a really long time (since xmas!) so i'm going this weekend to do absolutely nothing but hang out w my parents (and make a trip to home depot and target). friday night, my parents and i are driving into philly, going to this old historic seafood place that i really like called "bookbinders" and then seeing bride and prejudice. that's the movie with the hindi movie actress and then other people i don't recognize. it's supposed to be pretty bad but i think it looks cute and i want to support the penetration of indians into hollywood all i can :) then i have no plans the rest of the weekend :)

joe is back on sunday.. when is satyan back? and how's edgar, m?

i write yet again. . .

yea, i like the towels. you can always trust jackie to find cute gifts. we'll probably get them that and then something else for the house.

nush, if patty can't go, maybe we can ask jackie if she'd like to invite paul. it's better not to let the ticket go to waste! although i agree, better that than to bring alex. . . or how about satyan? he's not back yet? or i could also invite someone from work if there's nobody else. . .

i've walked by mezzogiorno and i've never heard of the other two. wow, that boy is putting a lot of effort into this date. so cute!

i think friday night jackie and i are just going to do something low-key like a movie. then saturday i'll hang out with julia all day. jackie is going to philly sat night with paul and some of his friends. i really wanted a low-key weekend, plus i didn't want to spend any more money after all i spent in boston, so i decided to just stay home. nush, what are you doing sat night? if nush and rupa aren't doing anything, maybe i'll just hang out with jacob or joey crack or something. and then sunday, i get to see joe :)

yummm, i love mangos. i agree with anusha, though, i'm not a huge fan of mango lassi. but i do loooove fresh mangos. . .

Girls

people are writing today!

mango lassi is basically just mango pulp (you can get it canned) and milk/cream and sugar. i dont like mango lassi cause it tastes too processed for me, but when mangos start to go bad in my house, and they dont taste good alone, my mom mashes it up and adds milk and sugar. its soo good.

those towels are really cute julie!!!

from what we know about joe - im sure his surprise will be something totally extravagant and totally deserved :)


we get to see robin williams on conan! there is also some random nutritionist person that i dont know...but im sure itll be funny. since rupa is sick :( i asked patty if she wanted to go - alex asked me this morning if i had extra tickets but id rather let the ticket go to waste then take him!!!

my date friday has emailed me a lot asking about places to go etc - he is super cute - anyone heard of/been to: Cendrillon, L’Ecole, Mezzogiorno - the first one is pan asian which may include korean food and therefore scares me..the second is at the french culinary institute, and the last is right on spring and thompson...but ive never been to any of them - i wrote back saying either the second or the third...

nush, that's sooo cute :)

i really like this boy already! i'm so excited about your date. what are you going to wear??

i'm in the best mood today! i came to work a bit early to get some stuff done since we're leaving early for conan, and it's so nice to be here in the morning when no one is here yet. it's quiet and nobody bothers you. . .

i feel like all of my friends in miami are getting married! jackie and i are going to a wedding with este and mario when we're in miami next week. two of their closest friends from high school, gaby and janet, are getting married. jackie and i know them pretty well, too, so that'll be really fun. now i just need to find a dress. . .and i just bought my flights to go home for both bea and chantal's weddings (april 30 and may 21st). so much fun to look forward to! i think jackie and i are getting chantal these cute wedding vows towels: click here

nush, i don't get a discount at the met. if it's "suggested donation" only, i think i can handle paying like $15 bucks or so for the 2 of us. thanks for offering to come with us, but don't worry about it if you need to study or something. i want to take julia to the museum saturday, and then i'll probably hang out with joe on sunday when he gets back. i think he gets back around noon. did i tell you guys about the bet we made (which i already won)? he said doesn't believe in sunblock, and i told him he was going to fry on the cruise. he said he doesn't burn. yea, after 2 days he's already sunburned, so he gave in and is using sunblock. now he has to do something to surprise me. too bad the poor kid is sunburned, but i'm glad i won. i can't wait to see what he comes up with :)

ok, time to get back to work. . . hope you all have a great day :)

mangos and monets

edgar asked me the other day what was in a mango lassi - i have no idea (other than mango) so i said i'd ask . . . ok, i guess that wasn't in the form of a question . . . but you know what i mean :)

anusha - which museums do you get into free with the boa id? and its def better to say no to dev. what guests are on conan?

museums

jules, not sure if you get in for free through david or not, but i do...so let me know if to get into the museum you want me to come with you. although the met has only "suggested" donations...

you should go to moma - its awesome - ive been 3 times already.

joe is cute :) do you get to see him sunday night?

some boys are super cute

my date on friday emailed me about dinner friday and actually wrote "In a valiant effort to avoid making you hike all over the city in the cold, it is probably easiest to pick a place closer to you." he clearly has already been trained!

i cant wait for conan today! megan - i was supposed to go with dev (got tickets like 6 months ago) - now im going with j+J+rupa. it also means i get to leave work early :) then ill go home, study for a bit, then go to satyans (or maybe hell come over, we shall see)

dev emailed me yesterday - he had tickets for the uconn basketball games for tomorrow night :( i reallllllllllly want to go. and id realllllllly like to go with him, if he can handle spending 4 hours with me at MSG. but thats prob not allowed so i just wrote back saying something like there are a lot of perks that come along with being your girlfriend, and im not so i shouldnt be able to enjoy the perks either. he didnt respond to that - but i really want to go! and sit in good microsoft seats! and i really miss him...

oh well....

ditto

i'm EXHAUSTED. and it's so stormy out. . . i just want to go home and watch a movie. or i at least wish rupa were at work to distract me.

i just got another email from joe telling me all about how much fun he's having and how much he misses me . . . he's so cute :) i can't believe i won't get to see him until sunday.

i'm taking julia out this saturday. diana, the buddy program coordinator, sent me an email about a free spanish family program at the met, so i think i'm going to look into taking her to that. i haven't been to a single museum since i moved here! i went to the met once when we were in college. . .

blah. i need to force myself to focus on work. . .

tired

i cant keep my eyes open now...

i got up at 6 to go work out so after work i can get a solid 3-4 hours of studying..i think if im home by 6, i can sleep till 7 and then study till 10...

rupa no coming over and distracting me tonight! i have to work!! just kidding - i hope you feel better - are the antibiotics shilpa gave you eye drops or pills? my dad recommended that julie and i get some anticeptic drops just to be proactive just in case. he said we prob wouldnt get it and even if we do itll only last 3 days (that part was for you rupa..) and to put hot compress on it!

i think i need to take a walk but its sooo gross out. i like snow when i either have time to play in it or can curl up on my bed and watch a movie...by the way im watching horse whisperer now which i surprisingly sort of like.

i have no idea and i have no idea

i haven't asked him for the story - he was making all the rounds, calling everyone. i just said congrats a lot :)

and i have no idea what my parents think - they are in north carolina. i talked to them for like 10 minutes total on sunday, split between 3 different phone calls.

i have no idea and i have no idea

i haven't asked him for the story - he was making all the rounds, calling everyone. i just said congrats a lot :)

and i have no idea what my parents think - they are in north carolina. i talked to them for like 10 minutes total on sunday, split between 3 different phone calls.

wooooow!!!

thats awesome! congratulations steve!! is there a cute story that goes along with it? thats super exciting!

oops

didn't realize my first blog had posted, so i ended up posting the same thing with 2 different subject lines. . .

weddings are so much fun! :)

that's great, megan, congrats to your brother! are your parents excited?

my brother's girlfriend, annie, is moving to boston at the end of this month. she got a job there working for homeland security or something like that. i think they're going to try to do the long distance thing and see how that goes.

poor rupa's home with pink eye today, and i know i'm just being paranoid, but i just want to wash my hands like every 2 minutes (as if that were going to help) and i swear my left eye is starting to feel a little funny. hmmm, or maybe it's my right eye. . .

blah. it was raining like 2 minutes ago and now it's snowing. the weather here is so weird. i just wanna be in bed watching a movie right now. this whole "working" thing is no fun.

wow

that's great, megan, congrats to your brother! are your parents excited?

my brother's girlfriend, annie, is moving to boston at the end of this month. she got a job there working for homeland security or something like that. i think they're going to try to do the long distance thing and see how that goes.

poor rupa's home with pink eye today, and i know i'm just being paranoid, but i just want to wash my hands like every 2 minutes (as if that were going to help) and i swear my left eye is starting to feel a little funny. . .

blah. it was raining like 2 minutes ago and now it's snowing. the weather here is so weird. i just wanna be in bed watching a movie right now. this whole "working" thing is no fun.

big news!

my brother called me last night - he proposed to missy on friday! he's in engaged! the wedding is going to be next memorial day :)

fannnnnntabulous!

the ride home after ct was pretty blah.
edgar didn't get much sleep saturday night - right after we dropped off rupa, he got a call from esther that her grandma had passed away. she had been pretty sick for a while so it was very expected, but everyone was in tears. he was pretty close to her too from his time living in florida so he was pretty upset by the news. but - even with that lack of sleep, he wouldn't let me drive even though i offered a lot.

i came in late to work today. edgar slept over since jessie doesn't get back until tonight and it was really hard to get out of bed this morning - 1. because i'm a lazy butt and was tired and 2. i knew it would be my last chance to be cuddling with edgar like that for a while. but i did and then missed the 10:30 bus. so i walked in and stopped at hess and got 2 mountain dews (2 for $2!) so - my day started great. courtney is in a bad mood, gen is fine and eun and i talked for like an hour about boston and stuff. so - i'm still on cloud nine after such a fun weekend :)

AND i got three netflix movies while i was gone - so there is going to be a whole lotta go straight home and veg after work today - no roommate and edgar will be in class. i've got six feet under season 2 disc 2, a random movie called homegrown (i don't know why i add these random movies to my list, but once they are there i feel guilty removing them as if i'm backing down from a challenge - i'm weird) and disc 1 of part 2 of season 6 of sex in the city. i've seen all but the last episode, but i thought i should take a refresher course on the last couple of episodes :)

i miss you guys and boston already . . .

fannnnnntabulous!

the ride home after ct was pretty blah.
edgar didn't get much sleep saturday night - right after we dropped off rupa, he got a call from esther that her grandma had passed away. she had been pretty sick for a while so it was very expected, but everyone was in tears. he was pretty close to her too from his time living in florida so he was pretty upset by the news. but - even with that lack of sleep, he wouldn't let me drive even though i offered a lot.

i came in late to work today. edgar slept over since jessie doesn't get back until tonight and it was really hard to get out of bed this morning - 1. because i'm a lazy butt and was tired and 2. i knew it would be my last chance to be cuddling with edgar like that for a while. but i did and then missed the 10:30 bus. so i walked in and stopped at hess and got 2 mountain dews (2 for $2!) so - my day started great. courtney is in a bad mood, gen is fine and eun and i talked for like an hour about boston and stuff. so - i'm still on cloud nine after such a fun weekend :)

AND i got three netflix movies while i was gone - so there is going to be a whole lotta go straight home and veg after work today - no roommate and edgar will be in class. i've got six feet under season 2 disc 2, a random movie called homegrown (i don't know why i add these random movies to my list, but once they are there i feel guilty removing them as if i'm backing down from a challenge - i'm weird) and disc 1 of part 2 of season 6 of sex in the city. i've seen all but the last episode, but i thought i should take a refresher course on the last couple of episodes :)

i miss you guys and boston already . . .

sorry, busy day

hi girls (or, i should probably just say "hi nush"). i'm here but been busy and tired all day. jackie and i took the 11:30 bus back last night with all the weirdos. nush, you would have loved it. there was a woman wearting reptile-print boots and she had a matching purse. she was wearing a leopard print coat, but it was like in strips or something. and she had an enormous and ridiculous matching hat. she kept humping the seat or something. . .so weird. and then a mexican guy that sat close to us was like wasted or something. he kept asking us where the bus was going to, and he looked really confused when we said that nyc was our destination. then he asked what city we were in right now, and he didn't believe us when we said we were in boston at the moment. anyways, i just put my headphones on, closed my eyes and ignored him the rest of the time.

the concert was so awesome! i don't know if you guys are familiar with the orpheum, but it's a pretty small theater, so we had a good view of the stage and it just felt a lot more personal than if we would have been in a huge arena or something. juanes gave an amazing performance. he sounded awesome, and the whole crowd was really into it, so it was just great. we had such a great time - it was definitely worth the lack of sleep.

ok, hope you all are having a good monday.

hello!

hi all :) sorry not to finally open this up until now.. i had so much fun too. this weekend was amazing :) megan.. ditto on the you-and-edgar-seeming-happy.. you are so cute! and i am totally an edgar fan now.

the rest of my weekend was fun.. today's busy and crazy of course... but blah. more later...

nobody to distract me....

hi girls

this weekend was so much fun! megan it was so nice to wander around with you and edgar sat - you both seem really happy :)

i just got back this morning :( thanks for driving me home megan! we got to ct around 3, then i stayed home till 5, went to mikes house, and stupid mike didnt have a car to drive me to new haven even though that was the only reason i went home cause he promised me he would take me to new haven...anyway at like 8 he just took me back to my house cause at that time it was too late to come back to the city. needless to say my mom was thrilled :) it wasnt bad at all just frustrating to have plans change like that at the last minute...

came stright here and cant wait to go home, watch a little more of valmont and then study.

i talked to my fam a lot about dev/life/satyan. its weird to feel such a sense of relief in their voice when i told them about it. dev hasnt called since sat night. satyan is in FL till wednesday so im looking forward to doing nothing and being by mysefl for 2 days!!!

me too :)

on the happy part and the sleepy part..

my night was super fun :) i started with prashant's friend from high school josh (prashant is the one who got mad at rupa for some convo) and his coworker (who already emailed me by the way to hang out next week!). we went to divine bar, had a few drinks and calamari. then at 730 i left to go meet satyan - on the walk over i called my bro and told him i broke up with dev - he was shocked/happy/laughed a lot when i told him i had to go cause i was going out to dinner with satyan :)

anyway satyan and i went to amma (my fav indian restaurant). we met on the street and walked there - food was amazing like always and being with him just made me so happy. i feel like i can say/do anything i want - and if im completely crazy hell just say that and laugh - i like that feeling. anyway we ate there, then went to his place. he lives in tudor city - which to me felt like a completely different planet cause we were so far away - his building was in spiderman - the main building where the bad guy is on the top floor of it - thats his building! it felt like i was in a museum. his apt is pretty small but perfect for a single guy. we started on the couch just talking flirting etc. then i not so subtly suggested we go lay in his bed :) proceeded to make out for about 3 hours...from midnight i kept saying i had to go home and about an hour later he walked me outside to get a cab (i thought that was really cute that he walked me all the way down...) talked to me for most of the cab ride home...it was cute :) i loved it. he is going to FL on sunday so i wont see him till wednesday which is good - i need some time to study next week! i keep telling him how i want it to be casual and i dont want anything serious...

that was the night :) one more meeting to go to from 2-3 then im outta here!

i am happy

i probably look happy but sooo tired. can't wait to sleep on the bus :)

i'm here :)

definitely wrapping things up but i would love to hear about your night, nush.. jules's sounds amazing and she looks so happy :)

tell me all about it!!

jules it may just be us

megans in boston already and rupas prob trying to wrap things up so she can get there...

and i already told you all about my night...

im off to a meeting, then to pick up some sort of present for sandi (earrings i think) and then here, another meeting, then boston! i like when days are busy like this...keeps me entertained

wow

i had so much fun last night! a little too much fun. . .i'm exhausted now! i hope i can get some sleep on the bus, if not, i'm not going to be any fun tonight. . .

the game yesterday was awesome. we had really good seats - jackie brought paul, and him and joe get along really well, so that was cool. we had a bunch of beers during the game, then went to a burrito place in hoboken - i don't remember the name, but it's better than chipotle, not better than anna's. anyways, then we went home and joe slept over. needless to say, there wasn't a whole lot of "sleeping" involved. we hooked up all night with small 45 minute naps here and there - no sex, but we did a lot of everything else - it was great. he leaves this sunday on a cruise of the eastern (or maybe it was western) carribean, and he'll be back the following sunday. he's so cute - i'm going to miss him.

the rack near fanniuel (sp?) hall??

im not too psyched about going there - id rather just stay in the mass ave/comm ave area since there are so many options there and im only dropping my stuff off at sandis at the end of the night, ie like 2 am when things close...

what do you guys think about going to the rack fri night?

neither koo nor gabe were too excited about the idea of roads (and i'm not really tied to that idea either), so they suggested the rack. i told gabe that we just wanted to meet at roads for a drink, then go somewhere else (and that cara was having a party, so that we'd want to stop by there at some point in the night).

so, i think i like the idea of going to roads for a drink if it's not too late and if it's not too packed, then the rack, then cara's. thoughts?

thanks meg

ill let you know sat depending on how i feel..im just gonna buy a 1 way for now.

J+J+i are taking a 530 greyhound, should be at roads at 1030...it will be packed :( that sucks. we should go there sat for lunch or something when it wont be packed!

im so tired im listening to my ipod while i work to keep me awake (thats not really kosher around here...) oh well. and i got my nails done so i can look pretty for you girls

frat boys and puerto ricans

they almost went to cameron's for his halloween party . . .

we can go to roads friday night - but keep in mind it will be PACKED by the time we get there.

and anusha - i don't need to think about it, i'm sorry that i've been unclear . . . we will DEFINITELY drive you to ct if that's what you want :) crazy girl - you think an 1 or 2 is enough to make me say no to you??????

i'm dead tired. first of all, i didn't go to be until after midnight - at which point i called edgar because i hadn't really talked to him all day. obviously, i didn't get off the phone with him until quarter of 1. then, my alarm went off at 6am, so i could leave at 7am to take jess to the airport with enough time to get back to take a shuttle to work to beat the NIH monitors for our 8:15 appointment (they were early - luckily, so was i - we started at 8 and were done by 8:30) and of course, i was all geared up from working late last night so that on top of being really nervous for the NIH visit and being so busy in the morning - i kept waking up with nightmares about the experiments i've been doing lately.

so, hopefully edgar won't mind if i take a little nap on the way to boston :)

im bored

im really tired cause ive been getting up and going to the gym in the mornings these days...

it feels like friday too which is totally frustrating! i think im not used to 5 day work weeks anymore, plus the conference i went to yesterday is usually on thursdays, so you feel like the week is done...

:-/

whoa

ekta's going to be in boston this weekend? why did cara mention ekta in her email? i'd definitely be up for going to cara's for a visit - cameron and sam are two kappa sigs i like :). i don't know if gabe and the others are meeting us at roads, also. if they do, then i probably won't go to cara's for too long.

megan, have you talked to koo? is she hanging out with us at all this weekend? and why the heck were you in the lab until 9pm?? oh, is it because you're taking friday off?

i'm in such a good mood today! i'm meeting up with joe and jackie after work to go to the bball game (i think jackie is taking eddie, a guy that works with her), and then boston tomorrow!

happy thursday girls :)

sounds good :)

i cant wait! megan, going to ct is like 1-2 hours out of your way...so def think about it and tell me what you think. im fine with taking the bus there too - or skipping it entirely depending on how im feeling...

and i saw we all meet at roads first and hang out for a bit, have some jack for rupas bday and then head to this party...

yeah, i'm in the lab at 9pm . . .

my apartment is 341 commonwealth, the red door, on the aphi side of commonwealt
but hte otherside of mass ave. apt 10, first floor, i think its buzzer 2.
its friday night and all are welcome. i live with a lot of former kappasigmas,
so everyone will know people. i live with Mike Ramos, Cameron Bass, Sam
Prentice and Muyiwa Oni( you probably dont knwo him) and 2 girls. so needless
to say there will be others there that you know. we wer tyring to get ekta to
come, but she is lame and didnt. i dont know meghan's relation to KS anymore so
i dont know if she wants to come, but she too is more than welcome.

that is a part of an email cara sent me . . . i think i went to her apartment at halloween - its not that far down mass ave. anyone up for a visit?

my day

i think cute indian boys are invading the fund of funds industry! there is satyan, and then today at the conference i went to a cute one sat next to me (works at a FOF down the street, went to upenn and LSE, really nice!) and then a realllly cute one who is like 28 just launched his own hedge fund. its really small, and we couldnt invest but i went up to him anyway and introduced myself :) that was exciting. then i went to helga. she yelled at me for waiting so long..i didnt tell her i havent been going causei had a bf and didnt think it was necessary, but now that i dont i felt the need to go! anyway i feel sexy and happy.

dev had been emailing me a lot trying to explain stuff all of which i already know/have heard before. i have been writing back and today i finally wrote back responding to his email and then the last line was something to the effect of "i know im being selfish and i know it seems like i dont care and i dont love you, but i need to be selfish right now. i have to do this for me. please respect that." no response...hopefully now ill at least get a few weeks to myself where i can just figure out who i am and what i want...

speaking of who i am, satyan apparently took some astrology classes (thats huge for indian people - my mom constantly believes in that stuff) and he asked my bday/time of birth/etc and online last night he kept writing me all the things he understood from whatever he was seeing from some chart that you get when you put in that information...anyway it was really cute and flirty and most importantly made me smile :)

ok back to work...

my day

i've made up a quality control log for our centrifuge. i've filled in dates i was supposed to do a while ago - and will have to do a lot more of that later on.

i think g'bury is a little out of the way - rochester is basically directly west of boston. edgar said whatever i wanted - he doesn't have anything to do until monday afternoon, so its me going to work monday morning. i figured we'd do brunch somewhere in boston - i have no opinion where, i don't think we ever did find a really good place. maybe rupa - do you or your sister have a favorite place? and then head out after that. its 6 hours sticking to the thruway - which we are going to try avoiding.

ok - i'll be honest. i just stopped writing this, got distracted and just emailed meghan and cara to remind them of our coming. i have no idea where my train of thought was going so i'm just going to post this because i'm too lazy to read it over and think about it again :)

greyhound

i vote for greyhound on friday since its closer to our offices...and from my expeireces more reliable - i could prob get on a 530 or 6 bus not much before that. is that the time you guys were thinking of too?

jackie and i talked abotu bringing some wine with us on the bus :) but maybe we should hold off till we get there...i was thinking roads too...not sure anything was ever finalized but what better time to finalize it than now...

megan, is gbury out of your way?? what did edgar say? i keep flipping back and forth cause my parents are having people over at 4 so if i go home they cant drive me to New haven to get a train...not sure what ill do to get home. i may just keep it open and decide on sat/sun is that ok? what time were you thinking of leaving?

im in the best mood, but have some stuff i need to do before i can blog all the reasons why...

happy birthday yahoo!

in honor of yahoo's 10th bday today, baskin robbins is giving away a free scoop of ice cream today. i think there's something you need to print out and bring with you, but you guys should do it if there's a baskin robbins near you! unfortunately, there's none nearby, so no free ice cream for me. . .

i've been so tired today. blah. i wish it were thursday already! i get to see joe and dwayne wade tomorrow, and then friday i get to go to boston!!! rupa and anusha, were you guys thinking of taking the chinatown bus on friday? and at what time?

gabe is asking me what i want to do on friday. did we have any plans? i seem to recall roads, but i don't remember if that's what we'd finally decided on. gabe wants to know so he can try to round some people up (ramon, monica, jorge. . .)

monitors!

there is an internal safety monitor inspecting the lab right now.
tomorrow - a monitor will be coming from the NIH to review stuff for the challenge study i'm part of - where we make people sick. i get to make up some stuff today about doing quality control on a centrifuge that we don't actually do. AND this monitor is going to be coming tomorrow - before my lab meeting. so, i'm going to have to be here at like 7:30 to set up the next step of an experiment before they get here at 8:15 so they can be done by my 9am lab meeting. hmm . . . if i did the first step at 7am, i could start the second step before the lab meeting . . . nevermind, that'll never happen. i'll just let the first step sit for longer than it needs to.

i'm super excited about boston! in 36 hours, i'll be there :) and in 2 and a half days (60 hours? that just doesn't sound as nice as 36) you guys will be there!!!!

nush - we'll have to figure out what time to leave sunday, but we can drive you home :)

motorcycle diaires

i realllllly want to see it! i think i may go saturday with sandi if any of you want to come...but we shall see.

i started shark tale this morning - soooo cute! and awesome actors/voices. i cant wait to finish to tonight/tomorrow morning :)

peter is a complete drama queen. we got in a big argument/discussion on sat night (he came to meet me and jackie smewhere) where he was basically bad mouthing julie and i was like listen you like her, thats why this is so hard, you cant forget that and just bad mouth her! urgh. i just wanted to tell him to leave me alone. then the next day he harped on every word i said the day before - and i had had a few drinks so i prob wasnt very coherent that night...

jules - whats joe up to tonight? you should have him come watch one of the movies with you!

dammit

anusha beat me to the first blog! oh well, i tried :)

g'morning

megan, i'll put up the first post today so that you won't feel lonely :)

so, did i tell you guys yet that i'm in love? my ipod shuffle is sooo cute and sooo awesome! i know, i know - it's probably not normal to be in love with a $150 gadget, but hey, since when have i been normal? ;)

rupa has a bunch of drunken pictures of us at her dinner last friday night, so as soon as she uploads those you guys can see them. there are like 30 of me (a wee bit drunk, of course) and joe :)

today after work i'm going to my 2 classes at the gym, then going home and relaxing. we have 2 netflix movies i still need to watch. nush, they didn't mail motorcycle diaries yet! my dad saw it this past weekend and returned it, too, but i guess we're still at the bottom of the waiting list. jackie's hanging out with peter the drama queen today. i think they're going to go see million dollar baby. have any of you seen it?

ok guys, hope you all have a wonderful day . . .

still no motorcycle diaries...

thats sad! maybe when they get troy back they will send that one...if not ill add it to my queue and maybe when we send shark tale we will get it...

it hurts to cough and walk and everything! ive gone to the gym for like 4 days straight and my body has been aching a ton - the good aching. i went this morning and feel all energized. conference to go to from 11-2 then helga :)

drive to ct and boys

i like my boy :) he pays me the right amount of attention . . . ok, he's a little overly attached - but so am i at this point. i'll deal with that when it becomes a problem :)

to get to rochester - i think its just 90 . . . although edgar wanted to check out an alternate route (i think he hates the idea of paying for a road) you want to go to glastonbury? i'll talk to him about it and see how much of a detour it is :) i think it would be fun to take you home!

joe and satyan

sooo much easier to handle than dev! dev paul and peter are all of the same breed i think...although once i keep forcing the "give me space" thing with satyan he may switch into paul mode...his email was cute though :) ive been getting cute emails like that from him all day. i love it.

urgh. i dont want drama.

it's not a lot

honestly anusha, it's not like you're asking for a dozen roses every 2 days or anything. a quick phone call or a short email message is not too much to ask for.

dude, i don't have to ask joe to call me every night or anything, but he does it because he wants to talk to me. and he texts me randomly throughout the day just to say good morning or when he's thinking about me. and he'll call me randomly whenever he gets a chance. . .and i never had to ask for any of that. i don't think it's very hard to do any of that, and you shouldn't have to tell your boyfriendt that thats what you want.

i've been in such a great mood today! i don't know why, i just woke up happy (instead of tired, like i usually do). i guess getting >7 hours of sleep for 2 nights in a row is a good thing. we had a really annoying department meeting, and even that didn't put me in a crappy mood! and if everyone actually does what they were told to do in the meeting, then i won't have a lot of crappy work to do anymore!

tonight i'm going straight to the gym after work, then going home and waiting for groceries, then watching a netflix movie. i can't wait to go to the gym today! wow, i am in a really good mood :)

sunday...

megan: what time were you thinking of leaving boston? do you drive on 90 to 84 by any chance to get to rochester?? would you want to drop me off in ct??

does that mean i need someone to spoil me and do everything i want?

cause thats what that translates to for dev...but i think a simple email like that too no effort on his part but made me smile...doesnt seem like a lot from my point of view...

what polar opposites my ex and my current interest are...

From: Satyan Shah
Sent: Tuesday, March 01, 2005 1:57 PM
To: Prasad, Anusha
Subject: RE: good morning


NUSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just wanted to type your name and send you a message.

what polar opposites my ex and my new interest are....

From: Satyan Shah
Sent: Tuesday, March 01, 2005 1:57 PM
To: Prasad, Anusha
Subject: RE: good morning


NUSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just wanted to type your name and send you a message.

exhausted

but slowly catching up on all the work.

tonight im going to go straight to the gym and then go home to study. i finally watched all of troy last night. i dont have time to watch a movie all at once anymore, but i figured it out - if i watch 30 min of it each morning when im getting ready and 30 min at night when im going to bed, i can be done in just a few days! im going to start that with shark tale tonight...

surprisingly for myself ive been holding up pretty well without dev. granted ive talked to him and seen him a few times, but i havent broken down and wanted to get back together with him, and ive shed a few tears but im not in need of a hole to crawl into forever.

unfortunatly i think its easier cause satyan is around. and i totally dont want him to be a rebound guy. he is way too nice for that...

anyway i tried explaining to him yesterday thati needed space adn that i didnt want to see him every day and i def didnt want him to stay over...in response to that he asked if he could take me out to dinner on thurs night :) and he suggested amma, the indian rest that i absolutely love. the problem is what i love there is this chicken dish, and he is vegetarian :( so i feel bad...maybe they can make that chicken dish with paneer instead of meat...i doubt it though, most things at indian rest are just frozen and heated up...(gross thought but usually true)

ok back to work...

i've been here for about 45 minutes . . .

i just hate putting up the first blog - it makes me feel lonely . . .

i'm glad you enjoyed watching the street turn white . . . now imagine having to brush off all that beautiful white from your car in your work clothes before being able to start your morning commute. also - add to that dumb drivers who can't understand how to drive in snow so you suddenly find yourself at a dead stop for no apparent reason behind a line up of cars which is inevitably being lead by someone who thinks their top speed in snow can only be 10 mph. AND keep in mind that that beautiful white stuff is predicted all week - so that relaxing bus ride friday night might not be as short as scheduled. i've already gotten motherly warnings from a couple of people that my drive on thursday may be a little hard as i will be fighting the weather. stupid snow. stupid winter. have i mentioned how as of late i am uninclined to have the next phase of my life take place in the north east?

ok, enough whining :) i'm really not in that bad of a mood. i went to the gym yesterday with jess, then got this yummy foccacia with spinach and cheese on it from wegmans to have with my soup and carrots and celery for dinner. edgar came over after his class and we went out for coffee - i'm still on a little bit of a high from how great sunday was :) when i came out of my building and saw him, i felt little butterflies in my stomach - yeah, i'm divided between smiling at how cute that is and gagging at how grossly sweet it is . . . we ended up at wegmans again because i was craving a moutain dew - i got a fresh samantha which are now called odawalla's instead. AND - they have easter candy out. my favorite candy in the world are cadbury mini eggs - mostly because of the chocolate in the middle. so, there was a rack of cadbury dairy milk chocolate bars - which is the chocolate in the mini eggs - on sale. i took it as a sign. so far, i've only had two little squares - who knows if it will make it through the day though :)

now - i'm writing my self assessment that i probably should have done over the weekend instead of watching three movies but really who cares. its not like eun actually gave me a deadline . . .

snow day

if only that flied at work...

i took a snow day from the gym this morning :) it looked gross out so i decided to sleep in...ill go straight from work though.

julies shuffle is so cute! its soooo tiny! my lip gloss takes up more room than that!

10 am and nothing yet?

hi everyone :) i slept in this morning and came late to work but still no blogs!! how is everyone? i am doing well... last night i worked till about 8 and then met moushumi for yet another bday dinner (she couldn't come on friday). we went to tomoe sushi and then had a little nostalgic dessert (like we used to when i lived with her) at this tiny beautiful cafe called cafe reggio. we shared a pot of jasmine tea and an apple crumb cake with ice cream.. so wonderful. i wish i had my camera with me b/c it was beautiful looking out and watching the street get white. then i went home and slept in till 9:15 :)

how is everyone's morning? lots of work? staying warm? anyone take a snow day? :)