random lyrics

don't judge, i think i'm starting to like some country . . .
called "girls lie too" by teri clark

So she can’t go out tonight again
Her sister’s sick, she’s gotta baby-sit
Yeah, that sounds like a pretty good excuse

Now you didn’t hear any of this from me
But things aren’t always what they seem
Brace yourself, this may come as a shock to you

Girls lie, too
We don’t care how much money you make
What you drive or what you weigh
Size don’t matter anyway
Girls lie, too
Don’t think you’re the only ones
Who bend it, break it, stretch it some
We learn from you
Girls lie, too

We can’t wait to hear about your round of golf
We love to see deer heads hanging on the wall
And we like Hooter’s for their hotwings too
Other guys never cross our minds
We don’t wonder what it might be like
How could it be any better than it is with you

(Repeat Chorus)

Yeah, girls lie, too
We always forgive and forget
The cards and flowers you never sent
Will never be brought up again
Girls lie, too
Old gray sweatpants turn us on
We like your friends and we love your mom
And that's the truth
Girls lie, too
Yeah that’s the truth
Girls lie, too

[No, we don’t care how much hair you have
Yeah, that looks good
Comb it over like that

hello

don't stress out about studying, nush, you've been studying so much! i'm sure you'll do fine on the test, you're amazing. i'm sorry you had such a bad night. hopefully a weekend in new orleans will make up for it :)

the game yesterday was AWESOME. the heat won in double overtime, which isn't so great since we were supposed to beat the nets easily, but oh well, at least we won. the seats we had were AMAZING. we literally had floor seats. like, we were on the floor, two rows behind the front row where jay z and beyonce always sit. each ticket cost $550. i don't know how jackie finds these guys (or how they find her). anyways, he got a car to pick us up, we drank tons of beer and had lots of fun. i definitely did not want to get up this morning. i woke up at like 7, packed, then came to work. i'm going home to get my bags at like 4:30, then heading to the airport. i'm going to bea's wedding tomorrow - a friend from high school. her fiancee also went to our high school, and they actually started dating when we were all friends, so it'll be fun. it's kind of scary thinking that my friends are already getting married, though. mari's going to by my date. evelyn and jackie couldn't find affordable tickets, so i'll be the only one representing the northeastern part of our crew. i'm excited about seeing my family again and going to the wedding, although i'm also kind of bummed that i won't get to see joe for another weekend. oh well.

megan, good luck with edgar's bday celbration! nush, enjoy new orleans! rupa, have a great weekend :)

good morning

yesterday was the most painful thing I have ever experienced - and I thought after getting the permanent eye liner, the next real pain id expereince would be child birth...

anyway the real pain lasted only 10 min or so, but then i had a massive head ache and i couldnt even really sleep cause it felt like blood was always rushing to my head and it made it hurt more...

the next apt is for june 6 :( at least its after the exam and before my bday...

other than that, today we have our offsite, so in an hour or so well be going across the street for a powwow all day...then tomorrow my car is picking me up at 430 am :(

i need to study!!!!!!!!!!!!! only a month left and im starting to freak out!!!!!!!!!!

jessie aleman

she's the only one of my close high school friends that you haven't met. the four of us - jackie, evelyn, jessie, and me - were really close in high school. we all met on the basketball team freshman year and have been tight ever since. she's going to school and living in miami - she never came to visit me in boston because she had to pay her way through school and never had any money. . . she's one of the happiest and most energetic people i have ever met :)

i've actually been doing work all morning! i got in at like 7:30 because i want to leave at 4:30 - one of jackie's co-workers is taking us to the miami heat/new jersey nets playoff game :) last time jackie went to a game with this guy they went to a billion bars after and got wasted, so this should be a fun night.

anusha's in CT and rupa is home sick, so i don't think there's going to be much activity on the blog today.

how's life, megan? ready for edgar's bday celebration?

ok, i looked at all the pictures

rupa - kudos that you took the time to be the trip historian but DAMN! those first 150 . . . not going to lie, i got a little bored . . .

and i'd like to point out that there were no guys for like 100 pictures then who shows up? but some black men ;) yeah, i could tell who the photographer was :) :) :)

and who is the girl with the cute short hair cut? maybe jules and jackie are in as many pictures as her - but she stands out as the camera hog because i don't know her . . .

umm . . . that's about it. today i'm going to do not a whole lot again because i'm pretty sure the bone marrow sample i was supposed to get yesterday . . . and then today . . . not going to come again. and eun's still gone :)

haha

wow, next weekend is going to be the weekend of the exes -chike's coming to see anusha, bryan's coming to see jackie.

nush, after i re-read what i wrote, i realized i made a mistake. i meant to say: "have you thought of how satyan would take it if. . ." rather than assuming that it was a give that you're getting back together with dev.

anyways, good luck with your doctor's appt tomorrow. i know you're not too excited about it, but at least you have a fun weekend in new orleans to look forward to :)

at least im still smiling though...

thanks jules

you arent helping :) but its ok, reading that made me laugh. but im not getting back together with him, im just thinking aloud in the blog...

i havent thought about what to say to satyan though - he called a lot last night just to say hi, and i never called him back since dev didnt leave till 2 am. i called this morning though and just said hi got your messages but i didnt get back till late. he had kind of an "oh" response but since we arent "official" he prob knows he cant really say anything...

why and how do i get myself in these predicaments? and while we are discussing predicaments - guess who is coming next fri - sun. chike. i know. as if i werent in enough of a mess already :)

my schedule for the next week is i leave today for home, come back tomorrow night, offsite is friday (it was supposed to be at the lake, but its cold and i am travelling a lot, so its just in 9W across the street - we have never had one before so we will just be sitting around brainstorming etc - we will be getting 200 million to put to work on july 1 and need to figure out how to do that), then i leave sat morning flight is at 6 am for new orleans and get back tuesday afternoon.

:)

yea, you're in a tough spot

have you thought of how satyan's going to take it when you tell him you're getting back together with your ex? i know you guys aren't serious or anything, but still. . .that doesn't seem like it would be an easy conversation.

sorry, i'm not making things easier, am i :-/

where's your offsite? and what exactly do you guys do at those things? and when are you leaving for new orleans? you must be excited about that :)

:-/

had lunch with him. he keeps saying all these wonderfully nice things that make me want to just say fine ill give it another try, but instead i just keep being strong and say i think you should go, i think we should see how keeping in touch works and if its meant to be it will be. hes scared he will leave and i will fall for someone else and he wont be there to remind me of him...i dont think thats such a bad thing - but i do think people can change - i just need to figure out if im ready to give him another chance...

i have so much work to do! and im not in the office again for an extended period of time till next tues afternoon! but i have to bring my computer home with me tonight to get some stuff done...

Girls

nush, i'm glad you and dev had a nice evening. and that's great that he got the job in seattle! i agree with megan - he should definitely take it. it's what he's wanted for a long time, right? you should keep encouraging him to go.

and yea, i definitely feel like i need a break, too! the cruise was definitely not long enough - i'm exhasted! oh well, hopefully this weekend will be less hectic.

last night i left work early-ish (5:45), skipped the gym and just went home and took a quick nap. then i went to bloomingdales with jackie and got my mom's mother's day present (2 change purses from coach - she saw mine and really liked it, so i got her a black one and a brown one). then jackie and i watched ocean's 12. it wasn't good, but i enjoyed staring at brad pitt so it wasn't too bad. today it's rainy and gross out, which means i wish i were still in bed. . .

dev in seattle

might be a really good thing.
he can meet new people and not be thinking about getting you back. if you guys stay in touch then maybe there really is something there . . .

and home does sound like a good thing for you :)

lack of sleep is catching up to me

dev took me out to an amazing italian rest last night. andavii. its right next to the bar we went to the night gabe was in town - fiddle sticks i think its called? we had an amazing dinner. i thought on bill but it wasnt, he was like no i want to treat you and not have it discounted as being an expense account dinner...the food was some of the best ive had i think...

then we went out for a drink at cipriani on west broadway - we had been there the first summer we dated and wanted to go back. it was great. but then i was half drunk and realllly tired and just wanted to sleep. he came in with me, laid down to watch sex and the city and i fell asleep. so did he, he woke me up at 2 to ask if he should go home cause he didnt want me to be upset in the morning that he spent the night. i was so tired i told him to do whatever he wanted. it was so awkward, i hate it. the night was so fun and we had such a good time together that to have to have an awkward you have to go home conversation with him just sucked. and he still cant shake the free wine dinner, he just feels like shit that it came out like that, and it makes him even more weird to julie/jackie/everyone. i just feel so bad for him. anyway this is all something i have to figure out on my own...and after the test. the only drawback is he got an offer in seattle that he needs to decide about in the next week. i told him he should go.

i cant wait to go home today. i just got a break last weekend but i already feel like i need a break from ny! good thing im not around basically now till next tuesday...

good morning!

i have nothing in particular to say . . . but i'm here!

and i'm super excited because lemony snicket's series of unfortunate events will be arriving in my mailbox tonight :)

very cute :)

joe's a funny one :) hee hee

jules, enjoy your night! i wish it weren't raining today :(

email i just sent anusha:

haha. I just sent joe a text message saying: " anusha's going out of town so she won't be around tomorrow night. . .;-) "

his reply: "oh yea, so does that mean one of us is sleeping in her bed? "

what a smart ass ;)

I feel like I'm cheating on the girls while I'm writing this, so I'll put it on the blog too. . .

the big 3-0 and ethan

he hates it.
i call him old all the time :) and he makes cracks back about how i wouldn't remember something because i was still in diapers - even if it happened in like 1991 :)

and yes i would love to see the show! i'm a big ethan hawke fan - i would def go see any show he was in!!!!!

bdays :)

julie, we should be asking you how it feels to be 30? like jackie said at dinner, we sang happy bday to you so many times that you are at least 30 by now!

megan it was so nice on the cruise to always be singing happy bday or to tell people thats why we were there :)

megan - do you want to see a broadway show when you are here for my bday called hurly burly - ethan hawke is in it...google it and let me know :) rupa you too - julie jackie and i were thinking of going that week since the test is the 4th...

birthdays

wow megan that sounds so nice! edgar will definitely love it - i agree with anusha :) i forgot that edgar is that much older than us. how does he feel about the big 3-0?

i'm exhausted. i definitely don't feel like being here at all. i think i might go grab a smoothie in a bit, maybe that'll cheer me up. i don't know why i'm so grumpy today.

the whole bit

i got black thigh highs, black lacy thong/garter thingy and a matching black lacy bra. and it was no small task! garters - not in these days apparently. there were two at victoria secrets - one for $178 and one that was really ugly (it had weird flowers sewed on it) for $40. i checked in kaufmann's. my next stop would have been lord and taylor (maybe women with more money like them?) i ended up finding the black lacy set at walmart . . . it was random and it was the only pair they had left. i think the bra is ugly as sin - but mostly because i think the straps are too thick because of all the lacy material . . . which i guess is fine if the point isn't to cover it up . . .

you most def can do sexy!!

cause nothing else is sexier to edgar! im sure he will love it. it all sounds really cute. i cant believe he is turning 30.....did you just get underwear or the whole bit?

my weekend was long

i worked the whole time.
but next weekend . . .
edgar's 30th bday is this saturday. he's going to work, so we are celebrating on sunday. i figured we'd go out for breakfast and then i rented a hotel room for sunday. www.woodclifflodge.com actually, i rented a 'junior suite" which means there's a jacuzzi :) and i got him a video game that every time the commercial comes on he's like oh, i want that game! its called splinter cell chaos theory . . . i can't believe i'm buying a 30 year old a video game but hey, if it makes him happy . . . and i bought some sexy lingerie - which is actually what he asked for. the restaurant in the hotel is supposed to be really nice - but it looks a little expensive and since i'm already dropping $200 on the room, my brillant idea was to get take out sushi before we drive out there. there is a dining area in the room and my mom got me this really nice set of sushi plates w/ the little side dishes for soy sauce/wasabi so i'll bring all that along and we'll have sushi for dinner whenever we get hungry. i can get a decent amount of sushi that will fill us up for $40 rather then thinking about room service or getting dressed nicely to go to the restaurant and spending more like $80 to $90 for food i've never tried. i was going to make reservations at a hotel more in the city and go to our favorite restaurant - nush, the one i took you to - but its closed on sundays . . . so i figured i'd up the hotel budget and downgrade the food :)

i'm pretty nervous. the hotel looks really nice on the website, but anything can look nice on a website. and i don't know about this whole sexy underwear bit . . . i don't know if i can do sexy. but i want to make his bday really special . . .

i cant really complain

even though it sucked to be here that late, im only working 2 more days out of the next 6 working days! thurs ill be home for my apt, friday we have an offsite (which is work but at least its interactive stuff not just at my desk), monday im working but in New Orleans so I cant complain about that :) and tues is a travel day back...

the worst though was leaving at 845 and realizing i lost my keys! it was so frustrating. luckily satyan and i were supposed to hang out at my place, so instead i called him and went over there, watched 24, and stayed there. took a cab home at 630 this morning...during lunch today im going to go get a new key from the management company...

awww, poor nush

i can't believe you had to work so late! i was in a bad mood last night because my flight back kept getting delayed (again!), so i ended up sitting at the airport and reading for like 2.5 hours, when i could have spent that time having a nice and slow dinner with my parents rather than rushing through it like we did. oh well, i got to the airport at like 11:15, met up with jackie, and then we shared a car home.

other than that, the weekend, the cruise, and all day monday were great! megan, i'll give you a more detailed description later since i should probably do a little bit of work now. . .

so much fun!!

hi megan!! the cruise was amazing and fun. i'm uploading my pics today so you'll get to see all the crazy things that we did. sorry i didn't blog yesterday.. i got to work early.. around 1:45.. but then was working hard all day. i left at 7 and caught up on my tivo! and got lots of sleep. today i'm in a really good mood and finally rested from the trip..

megan how was your weekend? how are things in rochester?

yeah! everyone's back!

tell me stories :)

and im still at work....

yup its 740 and im still here :( and exhausted...i think im going to head out soon but we have to send out a packet later today and im not sure if i need to be here for it. i feel guilty leaving since i only got here at 3 but then again im starving!! my body is used to eating every 2 hours on the cruise! im in withdrawal!!!

im back!

and rupa should be too...jules gets back late tonight...

we missed you megan!! it was a lot of fun. 11 girls. very relaxing, great weather, but now im exhausted...we went to bed at 1, woke up at 615 to get off the boat, and i came straight to work at 3...im soooo tired!

oh so lonely

i was getting bored running my samples and it occurred to me that i hadn't checked blogger today!

then i got here and realized you guys are all in miami . . .

thanks for smiling for us :)

good luck with all your work, meg! and you better use the money you're making this weekend to do something that'll make you really happy. . .

1 month...

then you can come here and we can be writing exciting blogs about hanging out with you for the weekend!

i love you guys

i'm in a totally pissy mood - and reading about how excited you guys are to go to miami is putting me in a better mood :)

work was fine last night - i'm a retard for volunteering for these shifts. its stressing my schedule and therefore stressing me and when it boils down to it - for nothing. i was going super well today - even though i thought lab meeting this morning would screw up my whole schedule - so i was going to switch my time on the analysis machine from 3 to 2 and then i noticed that james has it from 2 to 3. i don't like james. i find his way of asking me questions to be demeaning - as if i'm not smart enough to straight out ask me something, so he asks around it. or just starts questioning things that are none of his business. and he can't make eye contact. so it looks like i have to wait until 3 . . . annoying.

but i'm still smiling because you guys will have a lot of fun this weekend while i'm putting in 20 hours over saturday and sunday :)

:-) :-) :-) :-)

that dessert place sounds so cute!

same here - i'm soooo excited about the cruise! i love packing for vacations like this. all you need is a bikini, a passport, money, and some skirts and tank tops. i have enough clothes for a couple of weeks, and it all fits in a small suitcase!

i slept in this morning (woke up at 8 instead of 7), finished packing, hung out with joe for a little (he decided he deserved a day off so he didnt go to work today), then strolled into work at 9:30. i love getting in this late - it makes the rest of the day go by so much faster!

rupa flew to boston yesterday for a dinner wiht MIT kids - they were going to tapeo. she gets back today, then flies to miami tonight. lucky her!

megan, good luck with you hectic changs schedule! and have fun with you fam :)

soooo excited!

the thought of packing and leaving when i have so much stuff to do was almost discouraging, but only for a minute :) im supppper excited to go - i cant wait!

of course i bring the drama with me - baba is coming to Miami tonight :) yup to see my for about 10 hours...crazy...

last night satyan and i went out for ice cream and wandered all around the west village - it was so nice out! we tried going to this place called milk and cookies that ellen told me about - you tell them what kind of cookie you want and they bake it right there in front of you! it seemed awesome! but when we got there it was closed for taping a show with some guy from the food network. oh well, we will go next week when we get back :)

taxes

thats what you get when you totally over pay...and there was one pay check where i tried to withhold 2500 more over the whole year but instead they took it all out in one paycheck :) so that adds up to a nice little bonus...except its silly since if i kept all the money and just paid taxes in the end id at least earn interest on that stuff... oh well, an endless debate my dad and i have...

def go for the real purse :) i think once you start buying some real things you have to just buy all real things cause otherwise it sort of makes the real one you bought a complete waste! thats my i buy too many purses opinion...unlike cari rottenberg though i have no issues if other people buy fake (remember one time jules she made some big deal out of it?)

we were!

when you said you'd been to chipotle, i didn't know you meant you walked all the way down here! that's nice :) yea, the line there is ridiculous. last week from work we faxed our order in, then went to pick it up. it actually works out quite nicely - you get to skip to the front of the line and just pay for your food.

whoa, when i said i was getting money back, it definitely is nowhere NEAR the vicinity of 3000! try more like 300 dollars. still enough for highlights and my mom's mother's day present. she really likes the small coach change purse that i have, so i'm going to buy her two (brown and beige). she asked for the fake chinatown versions, but there's no way i'm getting her a fake of something when (1) it only costs like $40 and (2) if i can afford the real one for myself, then i can most certainly afford to get it for her.

i'll probably give her her present when i'm home the last weekend in april for my friend's wedding :)

we were right next to eachother!

unless you went to a diff jamba juice...

my lunch was good - i didnt think i wanted it since tomorrow ill be wearing a bathing suit but i decided i didnt care :)

jules thats awesome that you got money back! its such a nice surprise at the end...my dad made some money on investments in my name, so i actually had to pay more! but my dad said hed reimburse me that amount...so i think ill be getting like over 3000 back. im def up for a new purse these days i think....

thanks :)

megan, i've always liked your outlook on things. i agree, i'd much rather be rested once in a while. and your plans for this week sound hectic but fun! and you should totally spoil yourself with the money you're making at changs this week.

i got my federal tax return yesterday, so i've decided i'm getting my hair highlighted with that money :) the highlights are pretty expensive, so i'd decided not to do it, but now i've decided that they will make me happy so i don't care :)

and the weather IS gorgeous here! i'm having a smoothie for lunch from jamba juice (with an energy booster). the line was ridiculously long! but it was nice getting out of the office for a bit and walking over there :)

the weather

its been wicked nice in rochester for the past week. yeah . . . not so much today. its completely clouded over. blah.

i'm a little jealous of nushie lunch adventure! i had a bowl of special k vanilla almond and a couple of carrots :)

geez!

i love that you insert the random answers to the questions you know i would have asked if you didnt tell me the answer (would you sleep in the same room, have you seen the ring)

the weather is soooo nice. i met raj for lunch at chipotle. the line is always way too long. but the food was good :) i got a bol instead of a burrito and i really liked it!

boring and loving it

being boring is not so bad - not when you mix it up with things like cruises and trips to aruba . . . or when you trade off a couple of boring nights for being actually rested, in shape, and not gigantically in debt . . .

i'm working at changs today from 4 until 10ish. friday from 11am until probably 9ish and saturday from 5 until probably 10ish. having a paycheck i can look at as play money is good but really its just because my old manager was really cute and wrote me this note about helping them out for just this week because one of the hostesses who worked full time wanted to take a vacation. i figured what the hell since this week is so messed up for me anyway, might as well thoroughly mess it up. then i found out that my parents took this week off so they are actually driving through rochester tonight spending the remainder of the week and the weekend at the lake. they are going to stop and eat at changs so i can see them and i'm going to try to drive down to the lake after work tomorrow and spend the night and then go straight to changs friday morning. i might actually get edgar to go with me thursday night have dinner with parents and steve and missy (first time i get to see the ring) then he and i will spend the night (separate rooms - don't want to freak out the 'rents) and head back for rochester in the morning. then work all day friday, work at the lab saturday until its time to go to changs, work at changs and work at the lab again on sunday.

yeah. i'm going to shoot myself by sunday night. i will def be ready to take a random day off next week :)

i know, but. . .

i know i shouldn't go if i really don't want to, but can't help feeling guilty not going if jackie wants to. i think she's having a hard time having to share me with joe instead of me being constantly at her beck and call like she's used to. last week she was going out to a basketball game with a coworker, and then she wanted me to meet up with them to go out, but joe was spending the night so i told her i didn't want to meet up with her. her response to that was, "oh that's right, you're boring now".

but i've always hated skipping the gym, and then i def need to get my nails done and pack. and i'm not really looking forward to spending a ton of money tonight on drinks when we're going to be partying for the next 4 days straight. oh well, we'll see.

congrats on your corporate card! :)

corp card

i finally got one :) im excited. just in time for my new orleans trip :) although our card is a bofa card with no perks or anything it sucks!

you should be strong too

if you dont want to go out just stick up for yourself and say no!

i dont think i should go either...i really want to finish one section before we leave...

i wore a skirt too :)

im going to chipotle with rajeev today for lunch - i cant wait- i love that place.

it's skirt and flip flop weather!

yes, i wore a skirt and flip flops to work today - although the flip flops don't really match my outfit, i should probably be wearing heels. . .but what the heck, i wanted to be comfy!

yea megan, why are you working at changs? seems like your life is going to be so hectic!

i'm so tired at work today. i dont know why i've been exhausted all week. jackie wants anusha and i to go out with her tonight because a lot of celebrities will probably be out because of the film festival, but i dont really know if i'm up for it. tonight i was planning on going to the gym, then getting a manicure and pedicure, then putting my laundry away and packing. i really won't be happy skipping the gym or getting my nails done, so i don't think i have much time in my schedule for going out. oh well, we'll see. . .

now i'm playing travel agent, trying to figure out when everyone gets into and is flying out of miami for our little vacation. i'm sooo excited!

goodbye earl just started playing on my ipod! ahh, the memories. i'm in such a great mood :)

nush, congrats on finally making it to the blood lab!

argh, soooo sleepy. . .

hi

why are you working at changs again? extra money or to help out?

yesterday i studied a bit then went to satyans, had dinner - which for i think the first time in my life was too spicy for me! had ice cream then came home...

tonight, getting laundry, packing, maybe going out with j+J although i feel guilty doing that since ill be doing that all weekend! then we are off and my crazy travel for the next two weeks begins....

GOOD MORNING DARLINGS!

i get to be a hostess tonight - i'm not excited.

good job nush for going to your appointment :)

i get to go downstairs and analyze my cells from yesterday now - then . . . do something else for a litle while. i'm planning on being on the 2:50 shuttle so that i can get to my car with plenty of time to get to changs ( i work at 4)

ok, time to go downstairs!

i feel like i should have a good question - but i don't. i have one of those pick one extreme or the other books - but the only thing i can remember is which would you choose for the rest of your life - be constantly orgasming or never have an orgasm? but that just doesn't seem up to our blogger discussion standards :)

done.

i had the blood drawn. results in 3 days or so. my arm hurts. i want something bad for me to eat but nothing sounded tempting enough...

oh the disappointment . . .

i have recently fallen in love with a new man. his name is ryan reynolds . . . you might know him from a little film called van wilder - but i only was interested then. it was in blade:trinity that i fell in love. (want to touch him . . .)

i just searched him and found out he's happily engaged - to alanis morrissette!!!!!!!! dude - why can't she be experimenting still and hitting on some chics - i want ryan :(

ok megan :)

im going...

go to the lab!

the blood is for tests to tell you whats wrong!
go. go now. run. off you go. now. stop reading and go!

i decided i like being spoiled :)

i def like knowing that i can and do buy whatever it is i want/need for myself, but at the same time i love when people get little things for me :) like just now, my coworker steve (rups you met him fri) asked if i wanted to go get a smootie, so we went and when the guy handed me mine steve just took it from me and was like come on, i asked you to go...

then we went for a walk around the block...he was like your boyfriend seemed really cool - i was like whoa i dont have a bf! and he just laughed and was like um ok whoever he was who came all the way there jsut to say hi to you for 5 min and who was totally smitten by you - he seemed cool :)

it was fun :) needless to say i still havent made it to the blood lab...i think ill go right now...i just have to get this one thing out and i dont want to do it :(

i have my own printer!!!

mark had one and since he left its just been sitting at his desk so today i finally swiped it and downloaded the drivers and now its right here :) thatll eliminate 1/2 my walking...now if only i get my butt to buy some senseo coffee!!! im so mad at myself for not doing that yet...

yea, i'm sure you guys are right

i'll just say "thanks, i'm sure the cruise will be great!".

nush, way to be strong! in just 2 more days we'll be outta here :)

i'm the optimist . .

and i still don't think that means he's ready. it can't be a BAD sign though :)

random responses

jules i dont think it means peter wants to be your friend yet! not to be the pessimist of the group..actually scratch that, i am the pessimissit..so since i am the pessimist of the group, just be careful! if you jump into being friends with him, 1. he will prob find out about joe which will kill him...2. he will def start with the length 13 year old girl love letters or letters explaining why you should be with him again...give it some time!

i stood my ground today too :) yesterday i got out of him coming over sort of on the premise that i would stay at his place tonight - but i conveniently didnt bring any clothes for work, so this morning i sent him an email saying listen i dont want to stay over, lets just meet for dinner, then ill go home :) he just wrote back telling me his plans for the day and that hed call around 6 to figure out a place to go to dinner...

im off to get my blood test done...im starving!! im supposed to not eat a lot before i go - so i had cereal for breakfast and then just now ate a granola bar cause i was too hungry to wait another hour...


jules and rupa - who would you invite to dinner?

hello :)

nush, i'm so glad you had a nice evening. it's so great when you get to go home after work and do exactly what you want, then go to bed at a decent hour. and i agree with megan, i'm glad you stood your ground instead of letting satyan talk you into letting him sleep over. i think you're right, and it will be good for you to concentrate on yourself for a little bit.

i got an email from peter today. the subject line said "hope. . .", and the message simply said "i hope you had a GREAT time on your birthday, and enjoy the cruise this weekend". nush and rupa already know this, but megan: he sent me a text message on friday wishing me a happy birthday, also. does this mean hes' ready to be my friend?? he's so weird.

i'm exhausted today. i watched sideways last night while i cleaned the living room and kitchen. i didn't really like it - it was way too slow. i liked the part when the girl finds out he's getting married and kicks his ass. but yea, it was kind of a waste of time. now i'm so sleeeepy. . .

and rupa: you're right, it's gorgeous out right now. the problem with "cute little jacket weather" is that i dont' have any cute little jackets!

argh. i dont know how i'm going to keep myself from falling asleep all day. it's only noon!

i get to eat lunch!

i got here early and got started early and i think today is going to run really really smoothly - so much so that i can leave at a normal hour, possibly get to the gym and still be home eating dinner for gilmore girls and house! yeah!

on the period in sync with roommies - i'm not synchronized with anyone any more!!! me and jess are a week-ish apart and i'm off from gen and courtney's . . . its like i have no friends :(

nushie - i'm glad you are in a better mood! and i hate when boys make you feel guilty for doing what you want. why does his perfect night take rank over your perfect night?? i'm glad you stood your ground and took a night to yourself :) :)

ok, back to my cells!!!

yay :)

glad to hear that you are in a better mood! sorry the weekend was so blah. sounds like a nice night having cold stone.. venting to jackie.. and watching 24. :) that's one nice thing about roommate's periods getting synchronized.. you can bitch about it at the same time.

it's so nice out! i love weather like this.. maybe 5 deg warmer where it's not hot but not cold and there's just a light breeze. it's cute little jacket weather! which i like better than tank and mini weather.

happy tuesday everyone!

much better today :)

unbelievable what one good nights rest will do for you...

i had a good end of the day - satyan took me to cold stone for some ice cream, we had an awk conversation cause i dont want him to sleep over as much. i really want to be by myself and this is all happening too fast - i need it/him to slow down...so i was like you can come over and watch 24 but then you have to go home - he didnt like that plan...he kinda made me feel bad but when i pointed out he was doing that i think he felt bad and he stopped :) anyway i went home, jackie and i bitched about being in crappy moods, having our periods, wanting to get away...it was fun :) then i studied, watched 24, talked to dev (which is also a long story and im starting to really think that he has changed...ill save that conversation for another time though...) and went to bed at 1130 and slept like a baby.

today ill go for my blood test around lunch time - oh and im having lunch with chirag i think? random i know...but he called this weekend to see if we were still out (jules on sat night when i was home with dev already) so yesterday i emailed him and said i got his message and he asked if i wanted to meet for lunch..

hahahah

satyans gonna love you :)

although im starting to realize my bday weekend (now that i can talk about it since julies is over and MINE IS NEXT!!!) is going to be quite complicated...i make too much of a big deal of my bday for the boys in my life - dev, satyan, sort of raj, mike, insert any other boy name here - to not think its important to spend that day with me but i think im going to decide and tell you guys ahead of time which of the lot is allowed to partake in bday celebrations :) so megan, satyan may not make the cut :)

you don't have to!

you are the hostess - you just have to keep their plates and glasses filled :)

and its not that we can't count - its that MIT kids don't feel constrained by limitations :) (see, its all in the wording)

i think i'm going to go home :)

there is more i could accomplish - but i finished a decent amount already :) and i calculated it out . . . i can leave now and with the normal amount of expected work for the rest of the week, i'll be working 43 hours! (that's 40 to get paid for and an extra 3 because whoever set up the stupid system included a half hour of unpaid lunch to be deducted from each day and i'll be working 6 days this week) info you didn't need? probably. got to listen (well read) it anyway? yup :)

now i'm going to go home and finish the bostonians and watch vera drake and/or hotel rwanda plus the episode of charmed i taped last week (which i could really skip - but i kinda like it and then me and my dad talk about it so if i think about it, i'd prefer not to)

ok, time to leave!!!!

:)

satyan asked me if they taught me how to count at mit cause i named way more than 3 people too :) i just emailed him and said apparently no mit people can count since you named more than 3 too!!

i like the idea that there should be two from the same area so there is a discussion - but at the same time - id feel so dumb in the room with those people!! i wouldnt know what to do/say at all!!!

hmm . .

lennon
marx
darwin
jesus
hemingway
something in the julius cesar/alexander the great/ghengis khan/napolean
oh! oh! plato! aristotle! (spelling?) colombus . . .

i feel like the 2 should be related so that the dinner conversation is a nice debate - but i can't figure out which debate i like best :) lennon and hemingway are in there just because i like them :)

DH

megan i cant believe not only arent you hooked on it, you dont even watch it!!

i know it isnt good for you - but minus the side effects it sounds soooooooo wonderful! :) i think id def at least do that patch thing so you only get it twice a year or something :)

i didnt go for the blood work - im too tired and incapacited to even walk all the way to the doctor. ill go tomorrow though...

my answer to the question was picasso, bono, and FDR...his answers (I think cause we named like 10 and then had to narrow it) were mozart (he picked beethoven but i said mozart was cooler so he should switch), dali lama (sp??), gandhi...

what the hell is house?

i highly recommend taking up spanish soap operas! all the men are usually good looking :) although that means the women are all gorgeous and obviously anorexic, too, so it might make you even more obsessed with you eating habits. . .

there's a movie that came out recently in colombia, rosario tijeras. it's based on the book that i read last week (which i loved). i hope it comes to theaters here soon, i'd love to see it.

megan, i can't believe you're managing to put so much time in at changs. you're nuts.

leave of absence and all that junk

getting "fixed" isn't very good for you nush - you throw your body into early menopause because your body no longer produces the level of hormones that it did with a functioning uterus. you may think that sounds like heaven but it increases your risk of breast cancer and a gazillion other not so fun diseases. a lot of women go on hormones during and post menopause to correct for this but as with everything else - natural is generally better. obviously, everything could work out fine . . . but its just adding risk . . .

its sunny out and i went to the gym this morning with jess :) i'm in a super good mood. i want to leave right now - but first i'm going to figure out how long i need to work each day that i don't have samples so that 1. i get paid for 40 hours 2. i can leave by 3 on wednesday and 4 on saturday (to work at changs) 3. i can not work at all on friday (to work at changs all day). it shouldn't be that hard considering i worked yesterday and will have to work this saturday . . .i would just rather be home watching movies :)

oh - and gilmore girls is all new tomorrow! oh yeah, i'm going to be glued to the tv at 8 :) :) :) and then house after that - the first episode after they got rid of cameron!!!! i love tuesdays from 8 to 10

another random tv thing . . . gen and i might take up a spanish soap opera! neither of us are fluent in spanish but both of us have tried. we started talking about it the other day and i was like they always seem so fun and their always on . . . probably not going to happen - i don't think i'm motivated to take on a tv show that isn't even in english.

it's a good thing

we just blog about our personal lives :)

good question, nush. let me think about it a little. . .

When the Blogger Blogs, Can the Employer Intervene?

By TOM ZELLER Jr.
After several high-profile incidents of bloggers being
fired by their employers, companies are finally addressing
the problems of employees who may be telling the world
their business.

http://www.nytimes.com/2005/04/18/technology/18blog.html?th&emc=th

question

satyan and i asked questions from the book while we were playing frisbee...so here's one of them:

if you could invite any three people to dinner who would you invite

lets see if this works. . .

julia_mets.bmp

nush, it's a good thing you didn't go to rupa's last night - she passed out and slept all the way through today! that's why i couldn't get in touch with her, either. . .

thats great julie!

thats def proof that you were right in your assessment of your role in her life/buddy program etc :)

you should post the pic of her at the game, im sure megan and rupa would like to see it

rups we missed you and tivo last night! i just couldnt muster up the energy to go there...but then when i was in central park i didnt want to go home i just wanted to come to your place!! but my phone was dead and i had already told julie id go home...this week is a re run, and i wont be in town next sunday so hopefully thats a rerun too! they said only 4 more new episodes....

ditto

nush, i'm so sorry you've been so sad the past couple of days. i'm sure a couple of days in the caribbean will help you feel better, and if not, then taking a leave of absence sounds like a good idea. i wish there was something we could do to make you feel better. . .

i'm good. . .i had a great birthday weekend thanks to all of my amazing friends. yesterday i took julia to a mets game, and she had so much fun! it's such a great feeling to know that i make her so happy with our outings. she's the cutest - she got me a present and a card for my birthday! and she made sure to call me on friday to wish me a happy birthday. she got me to sets of pjs and an incense burner. the card she got was so sweet and thoughtful, just saying how i'm such a special person for everything that i do, blah blah blah. it was very touching.

the day

not so bad except that i want to rup out my uterus and i dont have megan next to me to keep feeding me liquigels!!!!!!

i had the weirdest convo with my parents about that yesterday :) 1. hearing my dad tell me to go back on the pill...2. me asking my mom if she ever was on the pill :) apprently yes, after she had me...3. asking my mom why the hell she hasnt gotten her uterus taken out since she knows she doesnt want to have kids!! apparently thats not good for your body...i dont care, after i have the third one im taking the damn thing out!

im going to a blood lab now to get blood drawn so they can test for who knows what - i was on the phone with my dad when he was calling in all the stuff my doctor asked him to call in, and all i heard was gibberish and a lot of things...i hate needles. i hate all of this! i was actually really tempted today to tell allen that i wanted to take a month leave of absense, no pay, just study and stay home...i didnt say it although im still really thinking about it. ill obviously wait and see what the blood tests say and next thurs ill be in CT to get the steriod shots - apparently that makes you all edgy and crazy - as if i need to be more on edge!!!

sorry for all the depressing blogs :( i think i need to start the journal ive been telling myself id start since i was about 10....

eww

i bought a snickers bar the other day cause i was totally craving chocolate and i thought i liked snikers, but then i didnt eat it cause i forgot about it, and now im eating it and i think it is gross!!! how disappointing.

not what i was expecting

i hadn't read any of the Friday blogs - so i went back and read them. they were so happy . . . and the first thing i see for today is nushie's title :(

I feel really bad for dev. that's all i've got . . .

as for the hair thing . . . i feel even worse about that :( jess actually asked me this morning what the update was on it and i had to tell her i didn't know the latest. if all else fails, you could always shave it and where wigs - very samantha :)

sunday didn't sound like such a bad night . . and today's might cheer you up! its beautiful in nyc! at least i think it is . . . the radio show i listen to in the morning's head person is getting cancer treatment in nyc so he's randomly broadcasts from nyc.

edgar and i got into a wicked argument thursday night and into friday. i ended up balling on the phone with him while i walked to my car friday night. but it was better after that. i think i was stressed from too much work and he was just pushing my buttons with being in a pissy mood. i didn't sleep a lot this weekend though because i had to be up early friday for work saturday for dog walk and sunday for work and stayed up each night with him . . . so on sunday he was super sweet and was like you have to be really tired so i'm up for whatever you are up for - even if that's just you going home and sleeping . . . we ended up renting get shorty and then going to see be cool (the sequel to get shorty) be cool - pretty bad.

and now i have to actually do work!!!

nushie - i hope you day goes better :( i'm thinking about you!!

i had the worst weekend....

all day saturday i was just tired from friday night so i didnt get any work done and was just in a blah mood all day...then the worst night i have had in a long time. the prelude to sat night, was friday night i stayed at satyans and evy slept in my bed...

sat, dev came over and we just hung out watched satc and just talked. it was nice. he bought julie flowers and a card for her bday and got all dressed up to go out to dinner with us. i didnt want to go to dinner cause i was just too tired to keep my eyes open, i wish i had just stayed home. we got to dinner - j+J+evy+joe+me+dev - first joe gives dev this really weird/shocked look of i think i know you but i dont so ill introduce myself...dev was like hi joe its dev...awkward moment number 1. then we are at dinner jackie is telling a story of the guy she works with who stayed in her room and how it was so awkward so evy should have just slept there, somehow evy just blurted out well anusha wasnt in her bed so i stayed there...i felt miserable. sure it would suck for dev to ever find out but then all of us were embarrassed/awkward/didnt know what to say so sort of laughed, drank wine tried to change the subject...the walk home was horrible. i told him that i stayed at satyans and totally downplayed it but told him that we have been seeing eachother a lot...

urgh. he stayed over till 3 talking/crying/etc...then of course if the timing couldnt have been more perfect, my period kicks in so i didnt sleep all night cause of cramps...

sunday morning, i get up, showered, found like 3 more spots of no hair on my head :( my parents decided to come up cause my dad wanted to see my hair. apparently now it isnt stress related and it is genetic. i have to go home once a month to get injections in all (4 or 5 now) spots that this is happening in so that it doesnt keep spreading. i have to do this for 6 months. last night satyan and i played firsbee in the park, went out to a nice dinner, then he came over to watch DH with us. but i was so weird the whole day. im just in a lousy mood. i had that i totally embarrased dev in front of everyone and made him feel like shit in front of everyone.

:-)

yes, there is way too much happiness and celebrating going on over here . . .i haven't had time to blog! today has been so amazing. everyone here has been wonderful (especially rupa). i LOVE ice cream cakes from carvel! now i'm getting a teeny bit of work done, then rupa and i are going to get our nails done close to anusha's work :) then i'll go home, maybe try to find a new shirt to wear tonight, try to squeeze in a nap, then time to PARTY :)

and the flowers joe sent me look so beautiful today - they're all blooming and sooo pretty :)

megan is this incentive to work for de shaw :)

i keep wanting to just run over to 45th and see you guys!! but then i remind myself that if im patient ill see youa t 4 when you get your nails done :)

i love today

i love birthdays especially for people that i really love :) then it feels like it's my birthday too :)

today his been a series of cupcakes, ice cream cakes, donuts, and subway sandwiches... and a lil work squeezed in around that.

i love today

i love birthdays especially for people that i really love :) then it feels like it's my birthday too :)

today his been a series of cupcakes, ice cream cakes, donuts, and subway sandwiches... and a lil work squeezed in around that.

new orleans!

im going to new orleans the weekend after the cruise :) im so excited! i have two groups to mee there and sashank will be there with his friends too. so ill get to spend time with them...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

ok, now i have a ful 8 hour day ahead of me with a decent possibility of skipping lunch.

but i wanted to post a big happy bday hug to jules :) the picture is great! it just shows how amazing everyone thinks you are :) :)

:)

rupa the office looks great!

happy bday jules!

i cant wait till tonight :)

trying again. . .

i seriously have the most amazing friends ever

look at what i found when i walked into my office this morning! (i took this pic with my phone, so i don't know how it's going to come out. . .)

href="http://www.rups.net/onlythegirls/my%20desk">my%20desk

and the pretty irises on my desk were from joe. . .i got them yesterday. i'm in the best mood! i dont think i've ever smiled this much before 9am :)

thanks!

happy birthday lady!!!

we wuv you, jules :) happy happy 24th!

maybe everyone except me is having issues with the blog...

or everyone except me is really busy :)

chipotle!!

you should have called me! i would def make the trek down to 42nd for that...

we def should do that when you are in the mood for it again (i think having it kinda makes you want to wait a few weeks before you crave it again...) but i need a little warning since this week ive been out to lunch every day with a different boy!!!

yea, i had to think about it for a while

i had no idea what my answer would be when i wrote the question. i really like the way i was raised, too. you're right though, nush. it seemed to work for me, but it didn't work so well for my brother. makes that whole "parenting" thing kind of scary, huh?

ever since i was little, my mom has always told me that i shouldn't marry because most men are scum - that i should just work hard and make my own money so i don't ever need to depend on a man to support me. the one good thing that came from this is that i like that i'm independent. what sucks is that now i'm just a little bit terrified of commitment and i don't have a whole lot of faith in being happily married. oh well :-)

other than that, i think my parents did a great job with me.

i'm still in a good mood, although a bit more tired than i was this morning. and i'm having chipotle for lunch (meg, i dont' know if you've been there - it's like the nyc version of anna's. except that it's owned by mcdonalds and not quite as yummy)! can this day get any better?

good question

and i dont even really have an answer for it...

i look at someone like you julie whose parents raised you completely differently and i think you know what maybe if my parents were more lenient it would have been nicer/better...but then i realize that there are soooo many people (your brother even as an example) whose parents tried being lenient but it just didnt work out as nicely as you...and the same goes for me - there are a lot of kids out there who were rasied without anything to worry about, definitely having everything you needed and within reason having everything you wanted as well, and i think sashank and i didnt take advantage of that to the point of not trying hard in school not working hard for what we have now, we definitely could have and there are a lot of kids that that do that (or even if you take the studying hard out of the question - look at metzger...)

so i dont think id change the way i was raised - if i could change something about the way i was as a kid i would be less defiant, and definitely less dishonest - i used to lie all the time to get out of trouble and i used to make my moms life a living hell until i was 18...id change that :)

im in a good mood too :) im having lunch with a friend of prashants friend :) seems distant but the guy was realyl cool the first time i met him - just a friendly get together.

and im all caught up!! it feels good....

If you could change anything about the way you were raised, what would it be?

it's amazing how good it feel to get a little bit of sleep

I'm in such a good mood today! I was in bed and fast asleep by like 10:30 last night, and I slept like a baby. so nice :) and I love thursdays (since it means the end of the week and friday are both around the corner), and tomorrow is my birthday! 24 is such an un-exciting number, though. it occurred to me the other day that I migh tbe getting to old to get excited about my birthday. is that true? megan, I started reading that book I'd told you about, bergdorff blondes. it's so ridiculous but fun at the same time. poor sad multi-millionaires.

I hope you ladies all have a wonderful day :-)

it's amazing how good it feel to get a little bit of sleep

I'm in such a good mood today! I was in bed and fast asleep by like 10:30 last night, and I slept like a baby. so nice :) and I love thursdays (since it means the end of the week and friday are both around the corner), and tomorrow is my birthday! 24 is such an un-exciting number, though. it occurred to me the other day that I migh tbe getting to old to get excited about my birthday. is that true? megan, I started reading that book I'd told you about, bergdorff blondes. it's so ridiculous but fun at the same time. poor sad multi-millionaires.

I hope you ladies all have a wonderful day :-)

someone else should come up with a question today....

i had fun last night with dev. although of course we dont see eye to eye on "us" oh well...

since we arent all getting together tonight, satyan is taking me out to dinner to celebrate the tamil new year which is today :)

boys are stupid

women should rule the world!!!
amazingly, i'm still in a good mood . . . i was in a bad one for a second (i got a premie sample which always erks me because 1. they are scheduled samples but the people insist on not telling me when 2. i do NOTHING with these samples. i process them and put them in the freezer and never touch them again - so its an hour wasted for nothing) but eun was so apologetic and i spent 5 minutes convincing her i wasn't upset and somehow . . . i convinced myself :) and now i'm eating chocolate :) :)

he wanted it before...

i think he just took it for granted and now he is realzing that he cant..

oh well...

he wants your body

i'm all set up to use the analysis machine and go home . . . except the machine isn't available until 5:30 . . . .

i'm going to go eat lunch.

im gone for 2 hours and no blogs??

i had lunch with dev, then he came with me and sat next to me while i got my nails done...hot pink for julies bday :)

he is being too nice...and i keep tellinghim listen i dont want to give you the wrong idea and he keeps saying its ok he likes talking to me and feeling comfortbale...some how i feel wrong about it but im not sure what to do...

he is moving to seattle this summer...not 100 percent definite but he said at least 90 percent...

we had sushi for lunch too - he would NEVER get sushi with me when we were dating. i dont know whats gotten in to him....

tickling :)

trust me i know the feeling :)

it will all go down the drain this weekend jules!!! eating bad food and drinking a lot is a must on your bday weekend!! you are prob exhausted cause you might have gone to bed early but you def werent sleeping much :)

i agree with closer - i hated it. i thought the acting was good but it was just disgusting to watch.

yeah i cant go shopping today :( too bad, yesterday or tomorrow would have worked...im going to go get my nails done now. i kepe bitting them and its frustrating me and distracting me when i study...i love that i get to use that as justification...after work im going to study in rock center until dev is free to meet for the gym...

fucking luis and juancho . . .

passions of christ - made me want to shoot myself so bad, it is the only netflix movie i've sent back without watching fully

sideways - a guy struggling to be mediocre and his best friend wo is everything to be hated - immature, lies to himself and then to others, attempting to stay young when he no longer is . . . yeah, i like wine but damn! and a guy on the radio said something i liked - that his obsession with wine was actually pretty sad because it was the only thing he was good at in his life.

closer - HATED IT! the advertise it as an "adult romance" umm . . . really? because i thought all four of those characters were incredibly immature. they can't make a commitment and stick with it to save their lives yet they throw around "love" like its going out of style. they break up and make up like its nothing. and i hated the way time passed - each new scene was a year later . . .

wow, so early and so much on the blog

yea, last night was fun. i love hanging out with joe. we went to sleep pretty early, we were both exhausted. sorry nush, we tried not to be too loud but when he starts tickling me there's really nothing i can do. . .

anyways, i agree with you, nush. both extremes are annoying. also, i just hate people telling me what to do. if you tell me that i shouldn't eat something, i'm going to eat it, dammit! i think you guys are right - you need to do it for yourself. i had two really good workouts monday and tuesday and i've eaten pretty healthy the past 2 days, so i'm feeling good about myself. i hope it doesn't all go down the drain this weekend . . .

i started watching sideways last night, but then joe came over and i stopped paying attention. i'll try to watch it last night. and then i still need to finish the passion of christ and watch closer. so many movies!

i really want to crawl into bed right now. i don't know if i'm just tired or if i'm getting sick, but i don't feel well at all! i feel like i shouldn't be tired, though, i went to bed early last night. blah. i took some echinacea, so hopefully that'll prevent me from getting sick. i'm skipping the gym today and going shopping with jackie for something new to wear on my bday. nush, i'm also going to the dior store after work - probably right around 5:30 or 6. wanna meet up? oh, never mind, you're meeting dev tonight. fun :)

rupa, care to join us for some shopping?

wow, megan, i miss you! i was just remembering the birthday signs you used to make and put on people's door freshman year. ahhh, memories. wow, we were some really silly freshmen, huh? why did we waste so much time with juancho and luis?

Girls

the two extremes of that are annoying - mike is a lot like edgar (youve lost too much weight you dont have to keep working out you are pretty just the way you are..) but then there is someone like dev who is too much of a health nut that its just frustrating. i mean sometimes i just want to eat ice cream and french fries! but it needs to be for yourself, and more to be healthy not to be skinny...we should do more things like sunday - i mean for 1. we got to cook together and that was super fun and 2. it was healthy! if we ate that same thing at a rest which we often do it would be fried chicken and too much oil in the veggies etc etc...

megan - why do you have to park in that lot??

julie - did you have fun with joe last night? sounded like you did :) lots of giggling :) there seems to be lots of giggling on our side of the apt these days...maybe jackie should switch rooms with one of us and she can catch the case of the giggles as well...

i liked sideways - i dont think it was great but i liked the concept, just a bit slow....megan did you see closer? or hotel rwanda? hotel rwanda is next on my list...

there is just more of us to love :)

so - i have def lost weight since college - which is great! and when i went shopping on friday i fit into and bought a size 10L pair of pants from gap. size 10 is what i used to wear in high school! ok, its def tighter than when i was in high school . . . and gap sizes run a little big (i think? i don't shop there that often) but it was still a big high . . .

but - on one hand i'm happier with my body, but now i've become a bit obsessed. i check out girls CONSTANTLY! jess and i go to the gym and mock all the skinny girls around us (she has to have a good body, she obviously has no personality) i think its starting to get in my head! when i have days that i eat a lot at one meal, i think i stress myself out into basically not eating the next meal (i did this on saturday, ate a lot at lunch and never ate dinner) i'm not developing an eating disorder or anything - but it seems like the closer we get to actually having our ideal weight, the more paranoid we are about it . . . at least thats my feeling.

i think edgar also gets to me . . . he would prefer me gaining back the weight i've lost over the last couple of months. some of the girls i check out and think have cute bodies, he gags at and says they could be pretty if they'd just eat a sandwich. its like i have to spend more time telling myself to be concerned with what i'm eating so that i don't completely let go - knowing that i will have someone i love constantly telling me how beautiful i am.

morning my lovelies!

i broke the machine yesterday - so my day didn't end as well as it started. and i was locked downstairs in another lab when my advil wore off - so there was a half an hour of serious misery . . . then i got to walk to my car (still light out - so it was really really nice) went home, ate a really unhealthy meal of leftovers and watched tuesday night tv - my favorite night of tv :) gilmore girls was a repeat, so i saw will & grace and scrubs and then house - i love house! i know, seriously lazy and i hate to be that american who brings up the tv watching average (4 hours and 20 minutes a night! beat only by the japanese at 5 hours a night!!!) but i didn't feel good so i felt rationalized :) then i finished sideways (didn't like it) and am almost finished with bostonians (don't like it) . . . i tried to fix my netflix list so i have a mindless comedy/action/teen/animated movie in every block of three - but apparently i missed this round because all the movies are dull and not funny (i still have vera drake) so its taking me FOREVER to get through them . . .

oh well, today should go pretty smoothly and i shouldn't work too late - so maybe i'll actually go to the gym! and finish bostonians . . . and chronicles of riddick (rented from blockbuster the night edgar slept over) oh! edgar will probably sleep over again tonight . . . that completely just gave me something to look forward to :) :) :)

and on the driving me to and from the hosital and my car - he doesn't usually do it in the morning, but he knows i get out around five, so there have been multiple times that he's called because he was in the area (coming home from work or school) just to see if i was getting out of work soon and if i'd want a ride. he HATES that i have to go out to my lot late at night because the part where i park is blocked from the street by empty buildings and not well lit - we call it rape lot. he's cute like that :)

starting this blog yesterday.. but finishing this morning...
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hello everyone :) nush- i'm glad that you had fun with this guy over lunch.. it's really good that you are meeting lots of different guys and satyan isn't just moving right into the boyfriend position ;)

megan- i guess it's good then that you aren't interviewing.. if you know for sure :)

i am doing the job that i originally wanted. this is a bit more senior than what i was originally hired to do- i'll get to work directly with my boss's boss, and she's the head of the hedge fund. and she's a she!!! which is awesome.

plus i really like our current boss.. nick, and i'd still be working a lot with him.. and maybe eventually for him but on something more fun.

other questions? oh.. ameya. hes doing well. we are good too although there isn't a "we" right now, which is why it's good :) i don't know if i talked much about how it's been since he's left.. jules, i think i did to you at soho cantina when i was less than sober :) but yeah it's been a lil awkward since he's gone.. he's kinda avoided emailing me and when i have emailed him it's just been awkward. i really wanted things to stay the same.. to have the nice really informal and not relationshipy emails back and forth.. but we have both just emailed rarely and when we do, he apologizes for not emailing and it's all just more formal than normal.

but, we are both finally OK with that, which is good. we still email rarely but it somehow all feels ok.. i think i finally got a glimpse of what his life is like out there, and i feel a lil more comfortable knowing that we just won't be in touch that often. so now we do email and it's natural and normal. funnny how the mind works :)

so last night i took scott eckert, this guy that (used to!) work for me... and is dating my roommate, shopping. he's not a bad dresser or anything.. but he's really tall and slim.. has a good body for clothes, and he doesn't really take advantage!!! he mostly wears the same pairs of jeans and a different free career fair t-shirt everyday. so we had an awesome time going to jcrew and having him try on everything in the store.. he's too tall for all of their pants, so he's buying some stuff online from them today.

that's all the update for me... oh... and i wanted to say that i thought it was really funny how all of the things that you three mentioned about what you would change are the flipside of the things that make you really cool.. and even more funny is that the thing that you, nush and megan, want are basically exactly what the other has. it's just funny how usually one of our strengths has to be at the expense of something else... and that's usually the thing that we think we should have more of. for example... megan admired nush's ability to be on top of things.. and said that she's "lackadaisacal" about things... and then nush said that she wanted to be more "laidback" about things.. see? flipside.

as for me.. i think the one thing that i'd change is how much i care nowadays about being fit and working out and eating right... i think that at some point in college i just stopped caring... and i don't really think i'm happy at the weight at i am. wow.. revealed more than i thought i would :) luckily, this is totally something i can change.. and soon, but i just think that something has changed in me from the beginning of college till now. when i was in HS, my life revolved around soccer and dance. it was easy to be in shape.. and i actually cared a LOT about not missing a workout. now i'm good for a few weeks and then totally not for several more :)

happy wednesday guys, i'll write more soon!

spanglish

i liked it for the most part, it seemed like the thought process of the plot line wasnt worked out that well and it just sort of jumped around a bit but there were parts that i thought were really funny (esp when the mom is yelling at adam sandler through the girl) i thought the mom was beautiful! i thought she looked like penelope cruz before penelope cruz became famous...so more coy and simple looking. and the little girl was adorable :)

tonight im hanging out with dev :-/ we are working out together after work then going to his place to make dinner...

rupa - after suggesting that we ask questions have conversations other than our daily grind, you have a lot of questions that still need to be answered! id be curious to hear your answers to some of them...

:)

satyan just emailed me - he asked me to wait to watch spanglish with him since he hadnt seen it and wanted to, and i relectantly agreed since i like to be a netflix nazi and watch 30 min at night, 30 min in the morning, and 30 min when i eat dinner..so im not the one holding up movies, plus i like that distraction. anyway spanglish is the last one i have to see now (i dont think i can watch passion of christ in piece meal like that so its prob best to just not watch it at all). but that was the movie they show on his flight to san fran :)

his email was cute, i started to smile when they mentioned the feature movie and as if i werent thinking about you already then thats all i thought of...so you can watch spanglish without waiting for me :)

guess ill start that in about 35 min when i get home :) i love this schedule...

question of the day...

geez..my question really made us write something we all I think knew the other person always wishes they could change but its weird to read it...(i dont know if that sentence made any sense...)...

its so nice to get most of my work done without phones ringing and hearing other people talking all the time :) if only i could do this from home in my pjs while watching sex and the city...

jules, when do you want to go shopping?

my mom isnt coming thurs anymore. we decided its too close to plan it and it seems like too much of a hassle for her to get here and i dont know if allen is in that day so i dont know how long ill be working etc...she is going to try to come monday instead...and if not she will come after she gets back from india...

so im up for dinner/shopping on thurs, and satyan gets back from cali that day so hopefully hell come with us...

how sweet :)

meg, i agree with anusha: it's so cute that edgar drove you from the parking lot to work today. i'm glad you had a nice morning :)

and nush, i'm so glad you had lunch with raj and enjoyed it! it'd be nice to meet this boy if you're thinking of keeping him around.

other news: i spoke to spikey yesterday, and neither he nor none of his friends will be able to go on the cruise with us. they're retarded and half of the people in their 3 rooms hadn't paid the balance on their cruises, so they just went ahead and cancelled all of their reservations. i guess it was a huge mess because spikey booked the cruises for him and his friends while he was working at carnival, so the contact info they had on file was his work address and work phone number. after spikey quit, carnival had no way to contact him to let them know they would cancel the reservations if they didn't pay by a certain date. so, they cancelled their reservations, they're keeping the $900 they had already paid, and the cruise is sold out so it's not like they can just book something now. i spoke to him yesterday and he was really pissed. he's disappointed he won't be coming on the cruise with us, although he said he'd party with us that thursday night we're in miami. he's also pissed that carnival's keeping the $900 they'd already paid. he's hoping he can get them to give them a credit they can use towards another cruise with that money.

oh well. anyways, my answer to anusha's question: i wish i wasn't so afraid of confrontation. i have a really hard time telling people - especially people i'm really close to - that i think they're wrong or that i disagree with them or that i don't want to do what they want me to do. i'd usually rather bend over backwards to make sure that everyone else around me is happy or to make sure that i don't ruffle anyone's feathers, but i wish i could just stand up for myself sometimes and accept that it's impossible to make everyone happy with me 100% of the time.

he is cute :)

the whole driving you from your car to work thing is super cute :)

i changed my mind about raj (the guy i met at the club and who i had dinner with on friday) - i had told julie it was an ehh date, like i had lots of fun but i dont think i want to go out again, but i met him for lunch just now and it was super fun :) we went to a low key sit down pizza place. it was a nice break from my day (which hasnt been stressful at all, i just liked being outside...) anyway he may be included in random parts of tax day celebrations (as long as satyan isnt there...) oh geez and matt will be there...i love my drama!

the one thing i would change is getting worked up about stuff - like i wish i were just more laid back about things. for most cases im able to justify getting worked up about it which i think is the worst part of it all...

good question

my laziness.
nush - this is one quality that you and i are completely opposite on and something i've always admired in you (not to say julie and rupa are lazy - here me out before anyone takes offense :)
i guess its really more procrastination . . . but it takes me FOREVER to actually get something done, and generally its not until the moment for the deadline (although unlike rupa's coworker, i generally make the deadline without angry bosses) i'm just a little too lackadaisical about things and not driven enough to beat deadlines (and go to the gym and do all the things on my ultimate "to do" list) i'm not sure how i developed this trait . . . but i think it contributes to my messy room (oh, i'll do the dishes/laundry/vacuuming later) and my lack of 5.0 gpa - neither of which are things i'm actually proud of . . .

on that note - i'm in the best mood! even gen being in a foul one isn't bringing me down :) i worked late last night so i didn't manage to make it here until noon today - edgar slept over last night. then, this morning i woke up with wicked cramps - so i took advil and edgar rubbed my back and completely babied me until i fell asleep again. i woke up an hour later feeling a lot better, took a shower and we went out for breakfast. then i went to work and he followed so he could drive me from my lot to the hospital. its sunny - but a little chilly out. i got enough sleep, i had a really great morning because it was relaxed and with edgar and i have a really manageable work load for the rest of the day!

sorry to disappoint, but i don't think i want the phone interview. i def do not want the job and i don't want to lie to someone just so de shaw will buy me stuff. although moving in with rupa and the two of us getting a dog sounds like sooo much fun :)

Girls

are you finally getting the job you were hired for then??? that would be so exciting!!! good luck to carianne...ive realized being friends with the person who isnt doing what they are supposed to isnt very helpful cause they take advantage of that :(

rups - whats going on with ameya? do you talk to him regularly?

thurs dinner sounds great - as long as my mom isnt here. i should find that out tonight. otherwise tomorrow im free too...we could have dinner then go shopping to find julie a new outfit?

i read about the sox in the paper today :) must have been a great game. (speaking of the sox, rups i still dont have my tshirt!!)

satyan could join us thurs i think (again if my mom isnt here). friday he has a show and i think may want to meet up with us later but i dont know if i want him to - i think him meeting us after we are well into the night (aka drunk) prob isnt the best idea...im not sure what the rest of his weekend (or our weekend) plans are...

if i let him stick around you will meet him soon enough :)

question for the day:
if you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

of course of course of course

you could live with me!!!!! and and and... you could bring your puppy!! i live in such a puppy building... all the dog owners in the building go out at 9 each night, get coffee, and have doggy play dates. it's very cute... and very upper west side...

i think you should do the phone interview just to think about it.. and see if it's for you or not.. who knows.. it could be your calling!!! and then otherwise you can do what nush suggested and come here for a bit and then go to vet school.

as for thursday.. i'm happy doing anything if you are all still free... maybe dinner at my place again to use up all those veggies? or alta? anything is fine with me. nush, i still want to meet this satyan boy.. is he coming to any of the festivities this week?

also, i'd love to come shopping.

things are really good here. i have handed off my manager title to an associate in the group. i'm so excited!! yesterday was a horrible day.. one, because i had to do a type of work that i really detest doing, and two, because i was doing it for someone who has SO much trouble doing her work on time.. and it frustrates me to no end.. that some people just aren't phased by all the usual red flags (your boss being mad, your boss's boss being mad, your client's being upset, angry emails from david's assistants. none of the above seem to work).

but, it's not my problem anymore!!! i really like the one who is taking on my position (nush- it's cariann, whom you met at my love day party), and i think it's going to be hard for her to deal with this.. but she' scool and she's friends with the girl so maybe that will help.

otherwise life is good.. gosh i feel like i've been in blog withdrawal.. it's been a while since i've written a lot.

what should our topic be today?? any ideas? lets do a topic that will last the day instead of questions that we all answer quickly :) i will think of one and post.

oh oh oh.. and the red sox had the big ceremony last night!!! the yankees played them in boston for the first time which means they got the rings for the world series and the big banner.. and EVERYONE who was now on other teams came back.. it was awesome.

and then they played the yankees (minus traded players) and KILLED THEM!!! they still have it!!!

ok.. now you see why i am so happy today :)

so no south indian food?

thurs night was dinner with you guys :) but we can do that next week...maybe mon? cause tues i have to work late...and wed i want to just go home and relax/pack...i cant wait for the cruise!!!

my mom may come sometime soon just for a night - maybe this thurs or next week one day.

satyan didnt stay over cause he left for san fran this morning - his car picked him up at 645. i could go shopping with you after work today if you want? you should come take care of your sunglasses today or tomorrow cause i think allen may be back on thurs...

i understand

the whole thing about putting your life on hold - that's why i said that it sounded like a good idea at first, but unless your only dream in life is to be a recruiter or to work for a hedge fund in new york, then it probably wouldn't work out. although if you do change your mind, no need to worry about the living situation. i'm sure we could figure something out :)

nush, i know i told you this last night, but i'm glad you didn't give in and go over to satyan's last night! why didn't he sleep over? i was so surprised when i saw him leaving at like 10:30. . .

joe's working late tonight, so he's sleeping over. looks like him and satyan are taking turns.

jackie and i started watching the passion of christ last night. we only got through like the first 30 minutes, though, because we started it kind of late and i was exhausted. at this rate, hopefully we'll finish it by the end of the week. i also need to watch sideways and closer so we can send those back. i haven't watched a movie in forever!

nush, i don't know if jackie told you, but she has to take a client out on thursday, so no happy hour for us (like we were talking about sunday night). she said we might be able to join her, though. i think you might have made dinner plans with satyan, but just letting you know just in case. i wanna buy something new to wear on my birthday, but i don't know when i'll have the time! maybe tomorrow i'll go to the gym in the morning and then go shopping after work. so much to do, so little time!

live with rupa!

im sure rupa would find away to ask alison to move out so you could live there!!! :) use de shaw as a stepping stone to moving to ny, then go to vet school here, and send you car back to oburg...get it when you move out of nyc again...

i was childish but not extreme last night. i went home after work and basically told him i didnt want to go over, so he came over :) we ordered pizza, watched 24 then hung out for a little while and he left at 1030. i finished closer (what a weird movie...). this morning i went to the gym, came home, made a good breakfast and brought it to work, and just finished muddling through my emails...

dev emails me too much :-/ I dont really know what to do...im meeting him tomorrow after work to work out together and i want to have another "im ok with being your friend in fact i love it i just dont want you to think we are getting back together"

so wrong

i thought about it all day and i def do not want to work for de shaw. i can't keep putting my life on hold! and i don't want to work for de shaw/in recruiting/in nyc for the rest of my life. plus - little details like i have a car - what the hell do i do with that in nyc?? you guys already have good rooming situations - am i searching on craig's list and hoping a nice quartet of ato's picks me up??

at least here i'm sort of making strides to go to vet school :) i love the idea of interviewing - but i would feel like such a farce on the phone . . .

well. . .

"decent chance you'd say no" isn't exactly the same as "there's absolutely no way i'd say yes", so then it's not wrong at all!

you'd get a phone interview with someone in the recruiting dept, after which we'd fly you in (ideally, like you suggest, on a thursday night so you could spend the weekend here).

i'm definitely liking this idea. do it, do it, do it! all you need to do is send rupa or me your resume and we'll get the ball rolling over here :)

if you dont say no...

you could get free fancy dinner/drinks all the time like rupa and julie do!!! (im definitely declaring myself an honorary de shaw employee if this happens...thats def all kinds of wrong but i dont really care!)

even if there is a decent chance i'd say no to the job?

you guys could still fly me out? isn't that all kinds of wrong???
if its not, i would TOTALLY interview :) who would i interview with??? ohmygod - that's super fun!!! my interview could be on a friday - fly me out thursday night and pay for my hotel thursday night, interview on friday and out for drinks on de shaw friday and then crash at the sullivan street hotel for the rest of the weekend???

DUDE! it would be sooo much fun :)

no comment?

megan, no comment on our idea to have you work here??? doesn't it make you feel better to know that you can never ever screw up things badly enough to get fired? ;-)

at the very least, you should interview with us! we'd fly you out here and put you up in a fancy hotel and rupa and i could take you to a fancy lunch :)

yes? no? maybe?

nah...

i think this company really really believes in just having faith that the people who stay here will work out.. and that they only think it warrants getting rid of you if you do something not in the terms of your employment contract.

uggh... my nightmare is almost over though!

weird state labor laws

i could EASILY be wrong - but i think NY might be really strict about why you are letting a person go - it needs to be documented and completely objective, which makes "is a crappy worker" a pretty touchy reason . . .

so - start taking notes :) late for work . . . stole a box of paper clips for personal use . . . i don't know what else . . .

what can you get fired for?

cant you try to make their life miserable and then theyd want to leave on their own?

it still sounds like a good idea!!!

although then youll prob have to find me a job there too so i dont feel like im missing out on on the fun breakfast/lunch/coffee/shopping dates you guys seem to always make time for :)

i just got back from the gym. i feel bad, the one guy who is here emailed me right after i left to see if i wanted to have lunch with him..oh well. it felt good to go work out. im much more awake now.

be childish??? im pleasantly shocked you guys are giving me that advice :) ill see how i feel at 5ish when its time to go home...

uggh

will blog more later...

dealing with annoying annoying work.. and just wanted to bitch that you cannot get FIRED from this place for bad work.. ohh... how i wish you COULD.

oh, and nush

i agree with megan - be childish :-)

true

yea, sunday night is my only night of "must watch tv". i usually just watch netflix movies whenever i have time to watch tv on other nights. i randmoly catch the tail end of gilmore girls (after i get home from the gym on tuesdays), but i feel like it's always a repeat, so i'm not so excited by that anymore.

i recently bought this other book that toral recommended, bergdorff blondes. she said it's an entertaining, mindless, kinda "shopaholic" type of book. i haven't read it yet, but i should be done with it by the time you visit next, so we can trade :)

oh, and the reason rupa and i called you last friday. . .it seemed like a much better idea when we thought of it last week. anyways, rupa and i were sitting around brainstorming, trying to figure out if anybody we knew would like to work in our recruiting dept (we have a couple of spots we need to fill). and then we thought megan would be perfect for the job! it pays really well, you'd get to work with me and with a bunch of other really smart and interesting people, and you'd get to live in the same city with us!!! doesn't that sound just fabulous :-)

desparate tv

i do not watch desparate housewives . . . i started out watching it, but i've cut myself done to one night of mandatory tv a week. its too hard to plan multiple nights of either taping and/or actually being near a tv at specific times . . . so tuesdays with gilmore girls and house beat out sundays with charmed and desparate housewives

the book is 'can you keep a secret' - i'll bring it with my to nyc next time and you can read it :) very much like the shopaholic books, just with a different character who has a different set of insecurities. not nearly as socially impacting as your book - but amusing non-the-less :)

why do i have to be up before 1pm today??

i definitely got a ton of sleep this weekend - i wasn't up before 1pm either day! it certainly wasn't easy to get out of bed this morning.

how are you all doing? i had a very nice and relaxing weekend. the weather over the weekend was finally nice, so i got to spend some time outside running and rollerblading (when i wasn't in bed, of course). had lunch with jacob saturday afternoon for his birthday - mexincan food and margaritas :). went to dinner with joe friday night, with joe and rupa saturday night (we had some really YUMMY ribs). then last night we had a margaritas and mexican food desperate housewives party at rupa's. sooo much fun. do you watch desperate housewives, megan?

oh, i wrote this like an hour ago and just realized i never hit "publish". anyways, i just had breakfast with rupa. i really don't feel like being here right now. my birthday's in 4 days!!!! i need to go shopping to get a new bday outfit :)

megan, what book are you reading? i feel the same way you do - i just started reading this book that my dad brought back for me from colombia, "rosario tijeras." it's cool because the author is from the same city in colombia that we're from, medellin, and it's about the life of a young girl, rosario, who grows up in a really shitty part of the city where there's tons of violence and drugs and crime - and the book is about her struggle to survive. anyways, i really like how the author tells the story. i started it yesterday afternoon and it's been so hard for me to put it down. i'd much rather be in a park reading my book right now than at work reading resumes. . . i know, i'm such a dork :-)

i say, be childish!

just this once . . .
might as well start a precedence so you can do it later on in the relationship without surprising him :)

weekend

julie and rupa you guys should just blog whatever that message was about! esp since i asked both of you and neither would tell me the story!

fri night i had dinner with the guy from the club - the food was amazing, the company was entertaining but as julie pointed out i should give it another chance instead of just saying it was fun for one dinner which is what i had been saying...

sat i hung out with my oldest cousin from india, went to bertuccis for dinner, and yesterday i played in central park all day with satyan. the weather was sooo nice and i actually got some work done, not enough but some. and at night we went to rupas and made fajitas and margaritas and watched DH. it was really fun :) i wish satyan hadnt been such a loser and not come cause im really tired of dating someone that only likes hanging out with me but cant figure out how to hang out with me and my friends! i dont get it and its frustrating me....

im gonna go work out during lunch and then im supposed to go to satyans after work to eat dinner and watch 24, but after last night i just feel like saying im tired and am going to go home and study, but i know thats childish too...

stories

i have none, so let me live vicariously through you guys!

julie and rupa - i called rupa back by my phone cut out :( apparently it likes being charged more than once a week . . .

i'm sleepy and don't want to be here - especially since my samples aren't coming in until 3ish. but i've got little things i should take care of . . . but somehow, they don't seem that important.

PLUS i'm reading a random sophia kinsella book - the shopaholic author - and i only have like 30 pages left and i REALLY want to finish it . . . i think thats my big un-motivator . . .

heading out soon

im finally going home after 4 days! rest for a while, watch some of a movie then go to dinner...

urgh alex is so irritating. here is the conversation:
alex: im not going to be here mon or tues
me: (obviosuly i know that, its been in the calendar i just didnt ask cause i dont care..) "really what are you doing"
alex: doing some surfing (in a very cocky i know how to surf im cool kinda way)
me: thats cool
alex: yeah its going to be awesome.
me: who are you going with
alex: im meeting some people out there
me: no response
alex: do you know ray dantes
me: (is he for real??) of course i do, we went to school together remember
alex: no response, end of conversation.

on that note im leaving! i cant wait for next week - itll be quiet here, just me and steve which means time to work out during lunch time to catch up on my work/reading/etc.

jules see you at home, megan talk to you on monday through the blog, rups see you sunday at your place!

my replies

heidi is one of jessie's random friends from college . . . it would be like me living with . . . christine hsu. not a super close friend, but def a person she knows and likes. all this stuff happened with her family senior year and she didn't finish her degree in a timely manner . . . so she's still in the rochester area. then she was living with her boyfriend but she found out he was cheating on her so that ended. now she lives in geneseo but wants to move into the city - something that she can afford ONLY if she has a roommate . . . so really, its working out perfectly.

the security deposit thing . . . i'm afraid he'll be a bit vengeful as he thinks we are big partiers. that pisses me off - because its jess. but she def got a call about the party she had while i was in boston where one of the guys puked in random parts of the house (not our apartment) and him and another guy peed off our balcony onto the cars below. i do NOT want to be held responsible for that . . . but i also don't think we'll get he whole security deposit back because i think our landlord is a dick. so - the original deposit was $700 - completely paid for by my parents. i figure i'm going to ask for $650 back from heidi and jess if the landlord doesn't do some sort of walk through and give it back to me directly. that way, i'll be chipping some amount but not a lot . . . then i can give my parents back the $700 without breaking my bank account between my new security deposit, first month's rent, paying them back . . .

blogger actually appears to be cooperating today :)

ok, i should knock on wood before i jinx us. . .

right on, anusha

yea, anusha's definitely right about jackie. her ex, boy jackye has been dying to see her. he was going to pay for her ticket to fly her down there, but she thought it would be better for him to come here since he's paying for the ticket, so he should get the vacation. she told him that he'd have to sleep on the couch (although last night he slept in her bed so that i wouldn't have to jump over him in the morning. i think she told him he's sleeping on the couch the rest of the weekend); he knows they're not getting back together. i don't know what it is about jackie, but i just think some guys just can't let go of her. este (her boyfriend in high school) is still obsessed with her, so is jacky, and now bryan has been calling her like crazy, too. bryan's now saying that he's going to come visit her the first weekend of may i think it was. i guess she just has this hold on guys. but just like anusha said, they all know what's up - she doesn't want to lead them on, she just wants to be friends and she makes that clear. i think the guys don't believe her and just lie to themselves, but that's not her fault. . .

megan, getting paid to read and watch movies doesn't sound too bad. hopefully they'll let you do it. and don't be too annoyed with work - it's friday! everyone should be in a good mood on fridays :) i'm glad things worked out with jessie! and yea, you should probably find an apt first before looking for a dog. have you and edgar thought about moving in together? or has that not come up at all?

hey megan, how much do you miss us? rupa left you a message on your cell phone. call one of us back if you want more details ;)

i don't know if jacky boy would like free wine. i don't know if he drinks wine at all. hmmm, that's a good suggestion though. maybe i'll take jacob there for his bday tomorrow. it'll be cheap (so i can treat him) and we'll get drunk. anusha, you're a genius. if jackie and jacky want to come that would be cool, and you should come too! free wine is always more fun with a group :)

NO.

i dont think your assessment of jackie is fair. i used to think she would just sort of walk all over guys and make them worship her because she is pretty - but she is not like that at all! she always tells them listen you can come visit and we can hang out, but you are sleeping on the couch or if you sleep with me and something happens its not cause i want to date you its just cause we were drunk or something like that...its no that she doesnt know how to break up with people - some people are just able to keep exes in their lives. its not her fault if he wants to come visit her and likes her still - she isnt leading him on. and this has been planned for a long time, not just cause of joe and satyan...

wow i cant believe i feel so strongly in support of jackie :) i think i feel the need to explain her to people (like dev, satyan, and now megan) since i used to think exactly how they do but living with her i see and realize that she isnt like that at all!

megan - who is heidi? is she someone that jess works with? that would be nice if they pay you the security deposit. i was always so stressed to see what they would give me at wall st, julies mom, julie and i were randomly painting spots on walls to cover them up! but i got the full money back...

:)

i know i read those kind of reviews too. with that kind of review i had to cancel the movie plans with satyan :) he has responded to all my other emails this morning, just avoided that one...oh well...the food looks sooo good. just reading the menu is making me hungry! we are meeting there at 830...so ill see you girls at home before you go to your appts.

megan, what happened with jessie??

maybe jacky boy would like free wine...did he sleep in jackies room?

hey girlies

things with jess worked out fine. she agreed to everything the email as long as edgar gives back his keys to the apartment. things are good with us. work is seriously annoying me today - basically because eun is on crack. next week starts another challenge study - they may be short on people so i told them that they should let me do it. i'm pretty sure they'll say no but if they say yes then i'll get inoculated with RSV on monday and have to live in the hospital from the 13th to the 24th. i'll just walk over to the lab every other day with my scrubs and booties and a face mask on and do what i need to do with the blood samples each day and then go back to my bed in the hospital . . . i probably won't log in 40 hours over those two weeks - but i'll probably do 30 to 35 plus i'll be getting paid $1200 for that week and a half plus 2 additional visits a week and two weeks later. i'm pretty sure its unethical and wrong for me to do that . . . but maybe if they are desparate it'll work out :) the rest of the time, i'll just lay in a hospital bed and read and watch movies . . . maybe i can have eun drop off random RSV papers for me to read :)

isn't jacky jackie's ex? she doesn't know how to break up with people, does she? takes her a couple of years? maybe jacky being antisocial isn't the whole reason she's declining all the offers - maybe she just wants this weekend to be about her, and not about doing the double date couple thing . . . and is jacky visiting now out of jackie's loneliness and desire to have a boyfriend of her own since everyone else in her apartment is shacking up?

so - i really want a puppy. but i think i've finally reprimanded myself enough that i'm not going to look until into june or july 1st. now, i'm doing it with apartments. courtney picked me up a bunch of the free advertisements for apartments in rochester and i found this really cute looking building. i made edgar drive past it with me so see if it was actually cute and to make sure exactly what part of the street it was on - the street is kinda close to downtown, some parts are much nicer than others. this is in a nice part and the house is this big red brick old place and has a 1 bedroom available. two problems 1. the price isn't posted anywhere, so it could easily be out of my price range and 2. its april!!!! i don't want a move in date until after june 15th!!! and jess is staying in our apartment - just with a different roommate, so i can completely take my sweet ass time moving out :) i'm excited. AND i don't think our landlord cares a whole lot, so i don't know if he's even going to stress about the security deposit - so i think jess and heidi might just pay me the security deposit instead so i don't have to worry about him being a big fat jerk about things and having to scrub corners so he doesn't charge $200 in "cleaning fees" - which he did to the last people.

i know, the apt is starting to feel so big!

i'm glad you'll be back tonight :)

jackie (girl) and jacky (boy) are hanging out tonight, but i don't know what they're doing. i think jacky wanted to go to a knicks game, so they might be trying to scalp tickets to tonight's game. i invited them to dinner with joe and me, but jackie didn't want to go because (1) jacky's a finicky eater, he only likes steak and fries or something like that - you can't take him to nice restaurants; and (2) one of joe's friends owns the restaurant, and jackie doesn't want to run into anybody she works with.

i also asked if they wanted to come out with me tomorrow to celebrate jacob's bday, but they again declined. jackie says jacky just wants to "go to a steakhouse and then go watch a movie". i don't know how jackie dated this boy for so long. . . he never wants to do anything! oh well.

nush, i just looked up reviews on candela: "The food was good but the atmosphere was THE reason for going. . .if you want to get romantic without being surrounded by snobby diners and servers. . .This is the place to be!". ooooh girl, get ready for a romantic dinner! so are you guys just meeting at the restaurant? at what time?

jacky got in last night close to midnight. jackie is getting her hair cut today at 7 also.

candela

the menu looks really good. they have mojito martinis! im pretty excited. his name is rajeev, i assume he goes by raj since he signs all his emails that way.

you and joe told me about the place you are going on monday - are jackie and jackie hanging out tonight? when did he get in? is she getting her hair cut too? i havent been home since tuesday morning!!!!!!

yummy

the tapas yesterday were so good! i had so much fun at dinner :) rupa wasn't kidding - the food was great, the restaurant was really cute - everything was just great!

nush, i'm glad you got some rest - sounds like you and satyan had a nice little evening. i think you're right - double booking tonight is a bad idea. maybe you'll be having so much fun with the random guy that you won't want to end the night to go see a movie with satyan! i got into work at like 7:45 this morning. i want to leave around 4, go to the gym, then go get my hair cut at 7:00. i hope it doesn't rain tonight - i don't want my nice salon-styled hair to get all frizzy! joe and i are going to dinner tonight. nush, we're going to this restaurant on west broadway (close to where we went for rupa's bday) called besito. one of the guys he works with owns it. i looked at the menu - it's like mexican/south american food. it looks good - i've actually walked by there before and really wanted to try it, so i'm excited.

nush, do you know where you're going to dinner with the new guy? and what's his name, so i don't have to keep referring to him as "the random guy" or "the new guy"?

megan, i miss you! hope everything's working out with your roommie.

:)

dinner somewhere else then DH sounds great! Ill invite him. Hes been watching them with me so Im pretty sure hell come :)

good morning :)

hi everyone :)

tapas were wonderful last night.. nush we missed you.. and megan we missed YOU too!!

i'm so glad it's friday.. megan what are your weekend plans?

nush- i'm happy to do DH and dinner on sunday (you should bring satyan!) but sunday isn't a great day to get sushi (they don't really have the freshest since lots of fish markets are closed... but i'm happy to eat some other kind of food!)

how was tapas?

i finally feel rested!i havent felt this way in a long time. i left work at 630, went to satyans, studied outside for a bit, worked out with him in his gym, then studied some more. we went out to dinner and were "asleep" by 1030...this morning we left at 730, he went to work and i went to the gym at rock center. and got here at 915.

he wants to hang out tonight cause he is busy the rest of the weekend but i have dinner with that random guy i met at the club! oh well, i told him i had dinner plans and he was like well maybe we could meet up and watch a movie after, which may work but i think its best that i dont double book in one night - i dont think im capable of pulling that off...we shall see...

sushi

now i see them :) only after you guys posted though..so weird and finiky..

rups - want to have sushi for dinner sunday near your place then watch desparate housewives? i wanted to come watch it with you guys last weekend but i also wanted to finish watching gandhi (which i did finish last week and thought was amazing..) and a good sushi place always tempts me :) maybe dinner around 8? i also really want chipotle these days and there is one right near our apt, i think ill do that for lunch one of these days...

have fun tonight!

here now...

hi!! i've been meetings for lots of the day but wanted to say hi! things are really good here.. i think the weather makes such a difference. i'm in a good mood.. work is good.. and life otherwise is nice. every once in a while i have this great realization that my life is pretty amazing. i think about how now is definitely the point in my life where when i'm 40 i'm gonna think about the "fabulous 20s in NYC".

yesterday i decided to take advantage of the great weather (and remedy the fact that i wanted to skip the gym) by walking home from work. what a good night :) i ending up strolling up avenues that i haven't really explored which was great.. and it was a good workout. i left work at about 7:30/8 so it was just dusky. when i got near my apt.. i decided to have sushi for dinner.. so i went to this great place near me that is my new fave in the area.. and i sat at the sushi bar. i love doing that b/c they make yuou more interesting things and usually give you some free good stuff to try (i've never gone alone before) but it was great and a really good time.

anyway.. a really good night.. and then tonight will be tapas. nush, i'm sorry we are missing you :( but catch up on sleep and let's have dinner soon! i haven't really seen you in a while :) since the free wine night!!

megan, any word from jessie?

you can't see your blogs?

i see your "falling asleep" one and the "hey guys"

where's megan today? i'm exhausted too. i hate feeling this tired. i can't wait to go to dinner. . .

where are all the blogs today?

Girls

where is my blog

Girls

falling asleep

im tired :( i want to leave and go to the gym cause maybe that will give me more energy and make me wake up. after work im going to go to satyans and work out there or take a nap there, then call you guys and let you know if im alive enough to come to dinner. i went to bed at 1, up at 5, and def dont function well with less than 7 hrs sleep :(

tomorrow night i have a date with that guy i emailed after meeting him at the club :) and sat im going to jersey to see my cousins. thats all my plan for now and i really hope it stays that way! i just want time to lay in my bed and watch a movie which i can only justify if it follows hours of studying. less than 2 months to go :-/

suspense

megan, how'd it go with jessie last night???

yesterday jackie finally got over being mad at me (yay!). we went to the maroon 5 concert, and then we met up with sean (her boss) and a few other work people for a few drinks. i don't know how we managed to do it, but we got pretty drunk in like 1 hour - it was great :)

joe had to work last night again, so he met us at the apt after work. he was going to come out with us, but the poor kid was so tired. so i left the old man at home and went out with jackie. her and sean were making so much fun of joe for staying at home. oh well, i had fun hanging out with jackie and her work people. then when i got home i had a lot of fun waking joe up. hey, i had to take advantage of the fact that anusha and satyan weren't in the next room ;-)

anyways, i'm exhausted now but in a great mood. i think i might be a little delirious, though. today after work i'm going to dinner with rupa, radie and erica, and maybe satyan and anusha. we're going to some tapas place that rupa has been raving about for a while, so that should be fun. then i just want to go home and crash. sooo tired. and it's only 11. . .

hey guys

im back :) i had a really good day yesterday. i had my meeting in the morning for work, got a new drivers license since mine expires on my bday this year and i dont know what weekdays ill be back in ct to renew that, and then just hung out with my mom for her bday. we had dinner at an indian rest with like 15 people. it was really fun :) this morning i got in at 830, had coffee with satyan and got to work by 930.

jules/rupa, what are the plans for dinner? is it a huge de shaw crowd or just the two of you? im exhausted since i woke up at 5 am to get here today so i may bail but ill let you know..

megan i dont think the email was too harsh - what did she say?? if you stay at his place, would his parents know?? how does that work?

jules we are getting sideways :) (i dont know if you get notices in email as soon as things are shipping/received since you are the main account, but i check it constantly to find out what we are getting!)

good luck megan :)

i'm glad you decided to stand up for yourself and make jessie compromise with you. let us know how she takes it! who ever thought relationships with best friends could get so difficult? jackie and i are going to the maroon 5 concert tonight, and then we're going to have a drink with sean, her boss. she invited me out with her boss, so i'm hoping that means the cold war is over. . .

hola...

saw the email before this :) so i don't have a lot more to say.. although i am in suspense now to see what jessie's response is. is cubano24 edgar's email? i couldn't tell who that was.

i'm having a good day. i finished my only meeting of the day which means i can catch up on email and other things and then head home at a decent hour.

oh and i bought a case for my ipod that i'm really excited about. it is here:

http://www.booqbags.com/Detail.bok?no=86

yay :)

the funk is over . . .

. . . and a new one is just beginning. so - his patience with meeting every single one of jess's demands and her not compromising is finished. which i don't blame him, mine's shot too. she doesn't even realize it, but "grown apart" is an understatement. i'm beginning to seriously resent every word that comes out of her mouth because all i see is her walking all over me and me taking it. i don't particularly feel like taking it any more. if i want to eat smelly cheese, i'll damn well eat smelly cheese and she can keep her opinions to herself! she'll say things like "you could do the dishes tonight"- it just pisses me off. you know, i could. or you could. she empties water bottles - but insists on reusing them. i think i'm the only one that fills them up. she insists on cleaning empty bottles and cans - but she doesn't do it until there are like 10 built up (we're up to six right now - lets see how long these last) she has all these "my apartment, i do things this way" habits that i'm supposed to respect but wait? can i have my boyfriend over? nope. and it pisses me off that she's still clinging to this "he scares me" excuse when everyone else that matters is on my side and people that are "her friends" (noam is apparently totally with edgar) think she's nuts too! if you can't deal with me not being your lap dog, then say it. don't decide edgar is the root of all evil because he is taking me away from your beckon call.

so now, i'm going to send her an email - immature, i agree, but direct confrontation doesn't seem to work with her and if she were me, this is the method she'd choose so i'm trying it out - expressing some of my opinions on the subject and not requesting . . . not demanding . . . just stating that we are establishing a new "schedule" in which edgar - staying in my room and not having any contact with her at all - sleeps over twice a week. we talked about me sleeping at his place - which may happen more often. i would have to park on the street in the ghetto and sleep in a twin bed with him . . . but i think that might happen too.

i have a headache.

megan, how's life in rochester?

it's absolutely gorgeous here! it's warm and sunny - it makes it so difficult to sit in front of a computer inside all day.

i decided to sleep in today, so i just got to work like 30 mins ago. it felt so nice to get in after everyone else was already here! usually i'm one of the first ones to arrive. i just found it impossible to get up this morning.

oh well, time to work. megan, how's edgar? is he still in a funk?

morning girlies :)

it's sunny!

love handles

yeah yeah yeah im going on that same cruise silly...and i def have more love handles than you do! oh well...

im off to ct hopefully in the next 20 min or so...talk to you guys on thursday!

i'm not nuts

i have a cruise to go on in less than 3 weeks, and i still have some love handles i'd like to get rid of ;)

yea, i guess i'd rather live in nyc and wait a long time to get new releases rather than live in the middle of nowhere and have them immediately.

i was going to take julia to the circus this weekend, but she's going on a camping trip with her mom - the family center organized the outing. oh well, looks like we'll go to the circus next weekend. yay! it's almost quitting time.

at least one class?

you are nuts.

i think i figured out our netflix problem - i looked at the rtn envelope today and our movies go to flushing and are sent from there - that probably explains the day and a half or so turnover time...and if we lived in the middle of nowhere it would prob be easy to get movies as soon as they come out (which by the way we did this time - spanglish released today...) but with 6mm people we just have to be patient...

jules ill look at home and see if i can physically see some and get an idea of what there is. otherwise i think we just pick one at random this weekend when we are all around.

megan, i'm impressed

how do you do it?? oh well, i dont have a ton of time to watch movies anyways, so i don't mind that much.

nush, i'm definitely with you on getting the A/C asap. let me know if you need me to do anything. it does get way too warm in my room, especially when joe's in my bed, too ;)

my parents' 27th anniversary was last week. they have this really cute pic of the two of them where they look like the biggest hippies, but it's like wallet size. i want to get it blown up and framed and give it to them as a present. it's such a cute pic! i love it.

and nush, don't worry - we would never let megan's dog attack you!

i'm so tired today - i really really reallly just want to go home. but i'm forcing myself to stay at least til 5:15, then go to the gym and do at least one class. then i have to go home and finish my taxes. argh. i have an exciting evening ahead of me.

once again, i so win at netflix . . .

shipping today - sideways :)

i know i have nothing to worry about :)

just wanted to state it for the record...its hard not to remince about how stupid metz is whenever i think of facing dogs...

its hot here too, i love it! i dont love it in our apt though and they arent turning off the heat until the end of may!!!! we are going to get a stand alone ac hopefully this weekend (jules i looked today there is a huge price range and not a lot of detail...if i have time tomorrow i was going to run into bernies or something to see what the differences are) that way our living room is tolerable and julie can roll it into her bedroom at night so she can sleep instead of roast at night!

dogs and girls in nyc

first of all - there are a couple of ways to train a dog to say "don't do that" - jars of pennies shaken near it, a spray bottle of water that gets squirt when the dog does something wrong. the pennies would annoy ME - so i actually think i'm going to equip myself with a spray bottle of water if i get a dog . . . mostly because i need something to make sure the dog doesn't bark because that's just rude in an apartment building. so - when you guys come, if there is a little splinter (that's what i'm going to name it) running around you will be handed a spray bottle and told to use your discretion. if the dog was bothering you - it would be closed up in a room or a crate. i would probably crate train the dog . . . so probably a crate. i'd like to train the dog out of jumping on ANYONE because that's a dog habit that bothers me when owners don't try to correct it. and i HATE over the top licking - so both of those things you'd have full permission to spray away :) plus, jules will be so excited to be in the same room as a dog, she'd probably never let the dog out of her arms :) all in all - i don't think you'd have much to worry about.

courtney is probably getting a dog this week! she found her husband's perfect dog at a shelter, they are going to go meet him tomorrow night and if they like him, they'll probably have him by saturday. eric (the husband) is super excited. the next weekend will be there sort of honeymoon, so if all works out she's asked me to come stay at there house for the weekend and dog sit - which i'm super excited about because the dog looks super cute - a 2 year old coonhound! so cute :)

i'm having hot flashes. i think because the building still has heat on but nature is warming up too . . . so its just getting to warm. i'm wearing a three quarter length shirt and jeans and i'm DYING! oh well. back into the lab . . . hopefully i'll be done early and i'll just peace out at like 4 . . .

i like it on days like this too :)

when its functioning!

jules you can work out with her today/tomorrow/thurs...since ill be home till thurs morning. i think thurs after work ill work out at satyans gym in his apt and then meet you guys for dinner...

i def like the city girls going to rochester idea :) as long as the dog isnt big and wont lick me...and if it will do/be those things that you megan wont mind putting it in a room when im there :) unlike metzgers parents who put me in a room so their dog could run around!

i cant wait to give my mom her bday gift. a framed pic of us from sashanks grad (which i have a copy of on my desk and i absolutely love it) and an album of our japan pics :) i think shell like it a lot.

i love you guys and our blog :)

i just got back from a really boring meeting (through which i was struggling to keep my eyes open the whole time), and it was just great to come back and see that you guys had all been so active on the blog.

meg - I think you're amazing for all you've dealt with with the whole jessie/edgar deal. it's great that you'll get your own apt soon. looks like the city girls will have to plan a trip to rochester to throw you a little housewarming party ;-) and you should definitely get a dog!

rupa and megan - I like your suggestions of working out with jackie. that wouldn't work, though, because we have memberships to two different gyms. I actually do have a lot of time to spend with her since joe lives so far - we don't see each other that often. and joe's actually really good about not monopolizing my time and not asking me to cancel plans with my friends or anything. . .i really think jackie's just being childish. she told anusha yesterday that she was in a bad mood because she had no one to go to a sports bar with to drink beer, eat wings, and watch the bball tournament. well, she didn't even ask me if I wanted to go. I definitely would have gone with her. joe wasn't coming over till 10:30, so we def could have gone to watch the game. and then she asked anusha if she wanted to order food, and then she offered anusha and satyan her extra wings. . .oh well, jackie and I are going to see maroon 5 tomorrow, so hopefully there we can spend some time together and she'll feel a little bit better.

and anusha - satyan's comment made me so happy :-). seriously, the 30 mins or so that the 4 of us were hanging out in the living room yesterday were so much fun. jackie and I saw spanglish already. we saw it in theaters. megan, I thought it was really good. I agree with what edgar said about being able to relate to the little girl - and especially the translating part is awesome.

hi people :)

i'm back again. megan, i really really like the move here idea :) i'm sure having your own place (soon!!) will be a good substitute.. but we can always dream :)

i really liked the movie spanglish. i saw it with really low expectation and just like that the writing was really good.. and the characters are really believable.

nush- satyan sounds really cute.. i'm glad things are going well, although it does sound like quite the nice rebound relationship :)

megan... if you could find a vet school that's here in the city, that would be awesome. what's with edgar? i wonder why he's suddenly worried about what is going to happen to you guys. did you guys happen to talk about it recently?

things are good here.. work is finally good again. busy, but good. this weekend my parents and sister were in town.. we went to a play friday, to tomoe (great sushi) for lunch on saturday and then on saturday night, my sister and i went to a play that her ex-boyfriend wrote that opened on friday.

anusha- i'm glad you are coming to tapas on thursday. i have been to this place about 4 times since discovering it.. i'm now obsessed. i have been searching for good tapas since i've moved here.. and this is the first place that i have really liked. it's called alta.. it's decorated really well (very rustic like a vineyard) and the food is good and cheap. and it has a decent wine list. hungry, megan? when you come, we should go.

jules.. hi :) i don't really have a lot to update you on :) i do like the going to the gym with jackie idea. i think time that's just you would be great for both of you.. and i'm sure time will just fix what she's not over.

closer and spanglish

i saw spanglish in the theater - i'm interested in what possibly jackie, mostly julie has to say about it. i saw it with edgar and he thought the movie as a whole wasn't great, but one of the main themes in it is the daughter - born in mexico and raised in the states - helping her mom transition between mexico and USA. he thought the translating scenes were great and he understood the daughters embarrassment.

closer . . . tell me what you think of it after you see it.

and i should move to nyc. very much should. think about it on a regular basis.

woo hoo! closer and spanglish

jules did you and jackie see spanglish yet? i heard it wasnt all that great but it looked so cute i had to see it. finally we get a movie on the day it releases!

i check the netflix website too much...the blog and netflix are my only distractions here!

move here!

that seems like the only logical solution to me!!

jackie was ridiculous yesterday - she was going out of her way to ask if i wanted to go out with her or if i wanted to order with her but wouldnt even offer anything to julie! the best part of the night though was julie came to my room - satyan and i were just laying in my bed talking, it was halftime so we were waiting for the game to start. she came in and started telling the jackie story and we were all laughing about it telling her she wasnt wrong etc etc. but the best part was when she left and closed the door he said "i love that girl. well not like i like you but i love her she is so fun!" i think i had the biggest smile on my face then - i had just been starting to tell him over the past few days that i like him but i dont it always to be just me and him, i want to meet his friends, i want him to get to know mine and then he turns around and says that :) and megan - he knows your name and includes you in jokes/comments about my friends!

geez so much for the steering away from boys topic....

speaking of annoyances of your best friend, i think im that annoyance for toral :( but from that persons point of view (me, jessie, jackie) it totally does suck when you feel like the person will do anything for the boy but cant even spend one night with you - i dont think you (megan and julie) are guilty of that cuase i see it all the time where you make time for them, but i still dont think toral does..hopefully thatll change when she moves here and we can get back to knowing more details about each others lives...

morning

is there a god/heaven/afterlife?
but i don't know if i actually want the answer to that question.

i'm in a bad mood. the funk edgar was in on sunday hasn't lifted. i called him 4 times last night. he called me back but said he didn't want to talk so the whole convo lasted about 5 minutes. And i think the only reason he called was because in my last message, i was like please call me back and just tell me everything is alright. i didn't want to be getting all upset that he wasn't calling me and then find out something happened to his family or esther.

ok, all of that was written an hour ago and i forgot to hit publish because i got distracted. its a beautiful sunny day and i just feel sad. i think edgar's funk is a "we're not going anywhere so why am i wasting my time and getting attached" so i can't fix it.

jules - i feel your jackie pain!!! here was my solution - go to the gym together. and don't mention joe! get on bike's or treadmills or do the weights next to one another . . . there is lots of time to talk and its something that you guys have always shared and can be completely no-joe time. i hate the feeling of having two people you care about fighting for your time and attention - it makes me want to scream how its my life and maybe you should ask me who i want to spend it with instead of acting like a big baby when you aren't the focus 100% of the time. i hate that jess does things like insult the random food i make (or the other night, the cheese i picked out) and is just like umm, yeah we're throwing that out? NO! its mine, i like it - why can't you accept that not everything about me is identical to you! and i hate that edgar gets in these moods over things and i just want to be like fine, be a big baby even though it frustrates me just as much and i want to get in moods but i don't because i know its not you i'm mad at but the situation and i don't want to take it out on you. but i don't want to get in a stupid fight like that because i know its the stress. and i was so upset last night that i hadn't talked to edgar yet and jess was home all night and i couldn't talk to her about it because i knew she would just be excited and possibly turn it into an argument about how she couldn't believe he was in her apartment when she got home and how it almost ruined her whole weekend because the very thought of him in the next room upsets her so (i say this because we have had that argument before - at least twice actually . . . but never that she brings it up, only when she has stopped speaking to me and its slamming doors and pouting in her room)

GOD! why do i surround myself with such self centered BABIES!

boys

i love that conversation too :) just taking rupas lead and trying to come up with interesting topics. that question one is one that is still on my mind and i cant think of anything. one of satyans was is there god, my response to that is it doesnt matter to me if god actually exisits, what does matter is it exists to me and there really isnt a question to ask. he said ok, then did bush go to war for the right reasons. my answer - no. :) he laughed at me at this point and was like fine smarty pants come up with some on your own instead of just shooting all mine down! this all happened during nush day - march 31 :)

i had a great time last night too! the whole cardinals thing was really awkward...plus yesterday dev's taxi driver to the airport forgot to give him his card back so i had been talking to him telling him i would try to get it back for him...but when he called after he landed it was right after the game. satyan def asked "so whats going on with that" and it was a really awk conversation :-/

im going home today! i have a meeting in ct tomorrow from 10-12 with a background check company and its my moms bday so the rest of the time im just going to be hanging out with her. going to the doctor again for my hair, and getting a new drivers license. ill come back thurs morn and come straight to work...

jules i finished finding neverland this morning and sent it back. i really liked it! i didnt like it at the beginning cause i didnt get what was going on, but after a little bit i really got into it!

re: peter

I feel like peter is going to be mad at mari regardless - whether he finds out now, or if he finds out 3 months from now. I don't know - I honestly don't know what's the best way to handle this. I just feel like it's unnecessary to run to him right now and tell him I'm dating somebody. . . it'll just hurt him. although, like I said, I could be wrong. even though it hurt, I definitely think it was better when chirag finally told me he was dating carrie. I guess it helped me realize that nothing was ever going to happen between me and him. I may not be giving peter enough credit, but I don’t think he would be able to handle it. I mean, he can't even bear to speak to me right now. how's he going to take it when he finds out I'm dating joe?

blah. enough peter babble. last night I had so much fun! anusha, satyan, joe and I watched the end of the basketball game in our living room. the guys were ragging on anusha and me after we told them the story of how we got "married" when I lived in simmons so that nush could park on-campus. and then they were making fun of anusha for being such a huge cardinals fan. . .they couldn't figure out why she likes the cardinals so much. anusha and I just sat there laughing. the bitter part of the evening is that jackie locked herself up in her room and refused to hang out with us (and by "us" I mean joe and me). she got mad at me saturday night at the club because joe and I spent the whole night sitting in a corner and talking - and then she couldn't find us when she wanted to leave (honestly, though, we weren't hiding and we weren't that far off from where we had all been standing together). anyways, I think she's just having a hard time having to share me with joe. she doesn't deal so well when I have a boy in my life and she doesn't. so last night she barely said like 2 words to me. oh well, I'm hoping she'll get over it.

ok, nush, I know you were trying to steer the conversation away from boys - sorry for taking it back into that direction. I can't think of a quick answer to your question, though (are britney spears's boobs real? did brad cheat on jen with angelina?). let me think about it. . .i'll get back to you guys.

peter

do you worry that trying to not hurt him will then turn him against mari too? peter isnt the most stable person from what we have seen, and if he gets mad that she didnt tell him dont you think hed turn on her and tell her he didnt trust her or she didnt care and he didnt want to be his friend? maybe i dont know him well enough at all, but maybe its better to just get all the anger/sadness/hatred out towards you now instead of on mari later...he prob wouldnt find out for a long time but im sure at some point since you guys have friends in common itll slip or somehow itll backfire...

another question to steer the conversation away from boys...if you could know the honest answer to any 3 questions in the world what would you ask. i really couldnt and still cant think of any question that is worthy enough to ask with that sort of promise...satyan came up with some good ones but ill share after you guys post something...i think this is a good enough question to be a part of more than just todays blog (so when rupa comes back and has time to write after crazy monday at DE shaw you should still answer these questions!)

boys boys boys

yea, i agree with you. i dont think dev needs to know about satyan right now. it would just hurt him and upset him - there's no point in telling him. mari keeps asking me if she should tell peter that i'm dating joe. she's afraid he's going to find out about it through somebody else and then he's going to be pissed at her for not telling him (peter and mari are like best friends now, they talk on the phone all the time). i just don't think there's any point in hurting peter by telling him right now. there's no real danger of him finding out since we dont hang out at all, and i think he's still too hurt to handle it well.

oh well, i told her to go ahead and do whatever she thinks is best, but that i didn't think she needed to tell him right now.

ummm

not explicitly...but he knows that dev is still in my life, he knows dev came over at 3 am one day when he was over (i told him after not at the time), he knows dev calls me all the time (and yesterday he was sitting near my phone and def saw that it was dev and that i didnt answer...

he doesnt ask too many questions cause im pretty sure he doesnt want to know...

dev definitely doesnt know how much time i spend with satyan. i think that needs to only be discussed if satyan and i officialyl become something, which wont happen for a while cause i wont let it...

i'm scared blogger will hate me too

does satyan know how much time you spend with dev?

i think it hates all of us

i dont think its so much a rebound thing. i admit that if it were i probably wouldnt notice it in the first place and if i did i may even try to deny it, that being said, i dont think it is :)

i think for a rebound type situation i would just want lots and lots of hooking up and none of the other stuff.

but then i go and do masochistic things like have lunch with dev today. it would have been our 22 month anniversary today (which after 12 i stopped "counting" I just think of every 4th of the month...) anyway he is leaving for atl tonight and we were both free...it was really fun..he has realyl become cute since we broke up. it def cause i expect less and dont talk to him as much so when i do its just fun without all the baggage...but i still miss him. he gave me a hug before we left and he was like im glad im still in your life, its really hard for me but just being in your company makes me happy. i responded with even if we are just friends? and he was like obviously thats not what i want but if its all im going to get then yes...

:-/

blogger hates all of us i think...

i dont think its so much a rebound thing. i admit that if it were i probably wouldnt notice it in the first place and if i did i may even try to deny it, that being said, i dont think it is :)

i think for a rebound type situation i would just want lots and lots of hooking up and none of the other stuff. and there is def a lot of the other stuff here - talks about where this is going (which has only happened once, pretty serious conversation, but it ended with him telling me no more talks about it for another few months which im happy about), spending too much time together when i dont really have that kind of time to spend, and cancelling dates with other people whose company i actualyl enjoy just so i can meet some of his friends...

but then i go and do masochistic things like have lunch with dev today. it would have been our 22 month anniversary today (which after 12 i stopped "counting" I just think of every 4th of the month...) anyway he is leaving for atl tonight and we were both free...it was really fun..he has realyl become cute since we broke up. it def cause i expect less and dont talk to him as much so when i do its just fun without all the baggage...but i still miss him. he gave me a hug before we left and he was like im glad im still in your life, its really hard for me but just being in your company makes me happy. i responded with even if we are just friends? and he was like obviously thats not what i want but if its all im going to get then yes...

:-/

blogger hates me

I agree with megan - I think satyan spends more time at our apt than dev ever did! don't get me wrong, I've never seen anusha happier, so I think it's great :-) I just think it's funny that for someone who's so set on saying she doesn't want anything serious, she sure is spending a lot of time with the boy. the other day I told joe that satyan must like anusha more than he likes me, since satyan's at the apt more than joe is. in his defense, joe thinks it might have something to do with the whole distance thing. . .

anyways, I agree with anusha on the island question: I'd definitely choose my mom. she's absolutely the most resourceful person I've ever met - I know she'd figure out a way for us to live comfortably. she loves to spoil me. and she's the only person I can talk to and fight with and we don't get sick of each other.

meg, just hang in there! summer is almost around the corner. try to enjoy the last couple of months of rooming with jessie, and then before you know it you'll have your own little apartment! good luck apt hunting. I'm glad I don’t have to think about that for a while.

I had a really good weekend, too. I spent a lot of time indoors during the day because of the crappy rain, but it was nice to just lay around and not do anything. and I hung out with joe friday and saturday nights, both of which were great. and then last night I went over to rupa's and we had a desperate housewives double header. it's not the same as sex and the city, but I still enjoy it. jackie and I are going to maroon 5's concert this wednesday. her family was here all weekend, and she and her little sister don't get along so well, so there was a lot of bickering going on all weekend. I hope the concert will put her in a better mood.

hello ladies

I agree with megan - I think satyan spends more time at our apt than dev ever did! don't get me wrong, I've never seen anusha happier, so I think it's great :-) I just think it's funny that for someone who's so set on saying she doesn't want anything serious, she sure is spending a lot of time with the boy. the other day I told joe that satyan must like anusha more than he likes me, since satyan's at the apt more than joe is. in his defense, joe thinks it might have something to do with the whole distance thing. . .

anyways, I agree with anusha on the island question: I'd definitely choose my mom. she's absolutely the most resourceful person I've ever met - I know she'd figure out a way for us to live comfortably. she loves to spoil me. and she's the only person I can talk to and fight with and we don't get sick of each other.

meg, just hang in there! summer is almost around the corner. try to enjoy the last couple of months of rooming with jessie, and then before you know it you'll have your own little apartment! good luck apt hunting. I'm glad I don’t have to think about that for a while.

I had a really good weekend, too. I spent a lot of time indoors during the day because of the crappy rain, but it was nice to just lay around and not do anything. and I hung out with joe friday and saturday nights, both of which were great. and then last night I went over to rupa's and we had a desperate housewives double header. it's not the same as sex and the city, but I still enjoy it. jackie and I are going to maroon 5's concert this wednesday. her family was here all weekend, and she and her little sister don't get along so well, so there was a lot of bickering going on all weekend. I hope the concert will put her in a better mood.

rebound

not aware of the term, nushie darling ;)

umm . . . i'm going to start looking in late may and all of june. i want some amazing place to fall on my lap with a move in date of june 15th. that way, i can have two weeks to move out of the old and into the new before the old lease is up - but not feel like i'm paying two rents for no reason. but i doubt that's going to happen - because i also want a place in my neighborhood with off street parking, rent under or around $500 that is ok with dogs and cats. i'm thinking that is a hard sell . . .

summer

i want summer to come, but not summer as in may cause then ill be stressed, i want it to be june 4th at about 6 pm :)

my answer was my mom. i think she is one person that i can spend hours with, fight with and make up without feeling frustrated...

i asked my family that question a while ago - my dad said my mom, my mom said me - so my dad got hurt and said he wanted to pick someone else! then my brother said me. then i said my mom so my brother said he wanted to pick someone else too! it was a pretty funny conversation :) my brother was totally defensive and trying to sell him self and why i should pick him instead of mom. i felt good though :) satyan and i had the conversation last summer when we hung out and at that time i forget what his answer was, when we were asking questions out of the book on thurs his answer had changed to "i think you know the answer to that now..."

megan, when do you start looking for apts in rochester? here we started looking around this time last year but everyone kept telling us to come back in like 2 months. its so stressful to not know if youll have a place by the time your lease is up!! ellen is moving into my bros friend seans place for the summer until she moves in with her gay friend billy from high school. in her interim from when her lease is up and her summer place is ready she is staying at hotel sullivan :) im excited! i think itll be fun to spend a week with her like that...i think satyan will be quite unsure how to react to not being able to stay over at all for a week..im getting quite used to him being over :) i like it a lot :) i also like the random other boys but i seem to be making up excuses to cancel on them so i can hang out with satyan....

do i have to know them? do they have to be alive?

if the answer to those questions is yes - then edgar. he's handy, i can talk to him for endless hours, and i already like having sex with him. if the answer is no to those questions . . . then i'm not sure yet. i would want someone a bit *old school* so they can teach me how to not be reliant on electricity and grocery stores. and i would want it to be a man - because at some point, i'm going to get bored of talking.

this weekend was bad and good. friday - i didn't nothing. i worked a little late because of the stuff eun dumped on me. saturday - i got up and walk dogs at the shelter. in the rain. for 3 hours. i was a miserable person by the end. then i picked up edgar and we went out to eat. then we hung out for a while until it was time for him to get ready for work. i went to the mall at like 7:30 and talked to my old manager - i'm going to work possibly 3 shifts april 20, 22, and 23. i walked around the mall and bought a couple of shirts at h&m. i got a coffee from starbucks - but now i get my mocha's with skim milk. jess did a nutritional analysis for a class and DAMN the milk in coffee-type drinks kills you! it was still good, so i've officially switched. jess went home saturday afternoon, so edgar slept over saturday night. we hung out on sunday - i made him breakfast :) then jess unexpectedly got home so there was a lot of tension and edgar was all upset - which he had kind of been all day. i called him before i went to bed - twice actually. once he didn't pick up and then again when i was in bed. he was still upset.

i want summer to come 1. because i'm sick of winter and 2. because i want my own 1 bedroom that i can decorate how i want, control completely, and have whoever i want in the apartment there with me.

good morning

i had a fun weekend :) mostly studying or with satyan...fri night i hung out with a girl from oxford, sonali then went to satyans place and hung out there for an hour or so, home and in bed by 12. sat i spent the whole day with my parents (my dad had a conference here in the morning). we went to moma, got manicures, went shopping, out to lunch/dinner, then sat night i went out for a drink with satyans friend, home and in bed by 1130 :) then sunday i studied all day, went to the gym with dev (he is super cute now that we arent dating...its soo frustrating. but im enjoying the cuteness, he is my new personal trainer at the gym :) then satyan came over, we finished one of my netflix movies and watched desparate housewives. very lowkey but also very fun. now i have to get my tax stuff in order. my dad is starting to freak out and its so unlike me to be last minute like this!! although i file for an extension every year anyway which is why i have been putting it off...

question for the morning:
if you had to be trapped on some deserted island with one person who would it be?

movies

ok, everyone else might be gone . .
but jules - if you do read this - see the upside of anger! it looks really good :)

happiness

so, i've been wanting an armband for my shuffle but hadn't ordered it because the apple website said it wouldn't ship for like 5-7 weeks, so i figured i would just keep popping my head in the apple store and see it at some point. two days ago i gave up and decided to order it - the waiting time on the website was down to 2-3 weeks. well, i just got an email from apple saying it shipped today, so i should have it sometime next week! isn't that exciting! i'm in such a great mood :)

nush, if you and your mom want to hang out in your room, then i guess monica and d can just sleep on the couch. it's all good :)

i dont know what movie we're going to see - i dont even have an idea of what's playing anymore. i don't really care, i'm just excited about hanging out with him :)

apt

i love it too :)

you could do that, but my mom is coming at 830, and i think we are going to just hang out in the apt till my dad gets back around noon...so you prob dont really want to do that. jackie called today and i told her i felt bad walking through and she said her sister doesnt mind. i guess you put up with anything when you get a free hotel in the best part of NYC :)

what movie are you going to? there arent too many out there that i have been wanting to see.i think i wanted to see everything right before the oscars then no real motivation.

im having dinner with this girl i went to oxford with then satyans coming over to finish gandhi. i cant believe ive never seen it before. its really good. ive learned a lot that i had no idea about and i cant believe ben kingsley looks just like him!!

yea, april fools day here is fun :)

although i have managed to get a little bit of work done this afternoon. i'm going out to dinner and a movie with joe tonight. he's so cute :)

nush, if you don't mind, i could sleep with you on your bed tonight. then jackie's sis and friend can have my bed, and that way it won't be so crazy in the morning. if not, then i guess walking over the sofa bed isn't so bad. i had to do it this morning, too. oh well, i love our tiny apt anyways :)

meg, good luck with your counting! at least the sun is shining over there. no sun at all here (although at least it's kind of warm), and it's supposed to rain all weekend. BLAH.

my boss is crazy

eun is presenting monday results from a series of infant studies over the last three years. i've known this for a while - but assumed she was doing the last two years since we haven't talked about this year's infant experiments AT ALL. then she sees me this morning and is like yeah, it would be great if you could get me all those numbers today. then at like 1 she's like umm . . . i was looking through what data i had from last year and i don't have some of ngozi's number (the tech before me) so here are the cds and dvds that her experiments are on - could you count those also today? thanks your the best. no, she is not playing an april fool's joke. she really wants all these numbers so she can spend her whole weekend coming up with some analysis and putting together a presentation. she will also cram in two days of quality time with her kids because she has such guilt over not being their for them constantly.

i'm growing bitter. the only thing that is saving me is that i had a REALLY great day yesterday and its friday and the sun is shining. edgar picked me up right from work and we got coffee and walked around a park near the hospital for an hour and a half. then i went home and hung out with jess - i renewed my gym membership and then talked her into a wine and cheese night. between the two of us, we spent $60 at a liquor store on wine, including closing our eyes and picking a bottle each at random from the clearance carts of wine by the check out. i didn't like the cabernet she had picked out, but i tried a "tawny port" that had a good rating and it was DELICIOUS! i think i'm a port girl :) and we watched king of the hill for like 2 hours - i love king of the hill :)

haha

thats funny :) no one around here even realizes its april fools day...

this morning was such a fiasco jules! with jackies sister and her friend on the couch...satyan and i had to stand on the mattress (whcih isnt that sturdy to begin with) to crawl over them and get to the door...i had to do that twice...and ill have to do it tomorrow morn too cause my mom gets in around 830! oh well such is living in a small apt in nyc with lots of guests!

speaking of guests - ellen is going to be without and apt for the first week of may (she is subletting seans place in the west village for the summer!!) so i offered for her to stay with us. im pretty sure she will take me up on it, ill be in new orleans for two days, but shell just be in my room :) i think itll be fun to spend time with her that week. its been a while since we have been able to catch up...

d. e. shaw's favorite holiday

hi ladies - we've been a little bit busy running around today. i walked into an office with no chairs this morning at 8am. i was so confused for a few minutes, then i remembered that it's april fool's day. so i just borrowed a chair from a neighbor. then, when i tried logging into my computer, i realized that my mouse wasn't working - someone applied tape to the bottom of everyone's mice in the hall. one (not so smart) girl fell for it, thought her mouse was really broken and called our systems department to get a new one. she felt kind of dumb after that. i love april fools day :)

nush, i'm glad you had a nice anusha day! i have no idea what i'm doing tonight or the rest of the weekend. it's kind of nice to not have any plans :)

ehh

i saw my dermatologist from CT. he siad it is called alopeshia areata which is apparently very common (1/3 of people have it most dont even know it). he gave me a topical antibiotic that i put on the spot twice a day for 8 weeks...and the hair will 80% grow back in that spot but it could easily happen again in the same place or anywhere else...it is mostly heriditary and stress is the straw that breaks the camels back (a phrase that i think is stupid but conveys the message...)

my mom was pretty freaked out, she was getting chills when she would see it. i kept telling her that this is nothing compared to what other people go through...

the rest of the day was nice though :) satyan and i hung out in the city - went to the park, a museam, went to cafe lalo which is where youve got mailed was taped, played in a play ground, went out to dinner, watched a movie :) he deemed it anusha day :) it was nice to have someone get my mind off of all this...

i may see him tonight but i just want a low key night and i want to study too. my parents are coming at 830 tomorrow morn, my dad has a conference all day. so my mom and i will just hang out...

where is everyone?

nushie - how did your appointment go?