good morning :)

megan what are you doing for new years?

I'm here again today but havent check the blog in forever. glad christmas was fun :) jenny is coming up from DC for new years.. and I'm going to this tiny lil bar that has a live band called café wha.. it should be fun. happy wedding day to sashank!

i'm here today!

i took friday and tuesday off.
xmas was great - i got to see family although edgar didn't spend any of it with me. dollop got to wear a doggy diaper most of the weekend and i would have liked to spend more time doing nothing - but overall, very nice :)

im here

but only till 4. then im walking to penn station and meeting my brother and someone is driving us home. im so excited :) this weekend was great with all my fam. there have never been that many of us in one place before!!!

no one around today?

just saying hey :) don't think anyone else is around...

i'm here today

hi ladies... megan, you around today?

i worked from home yesterday given the strike.. considering that i do most of my work alone now, it was pointless for me to spend money on the cab to come all the way in and then leave...

it's also kinda nice that paying $$ was the biggest inconvenience for me.. it's been fairly easy getting cabs to get home and back.. it must suck for those who live in brooklyn.

i'm going home tomorrow.. my parents and sister are coming in tonight.. we are going to alta (my fave restaurant in the city) and then going to see the tree at rockefeller tomorrow and then to the MOMA to hang out. then we go home and have xmas in PA. yay.

vacation

im here on tues, but off the rest of the week. you can send it here anyway if you like, the mail room is still open, otherwise after jan 2 would be best :)

this strike is driving me nuts now. i had to go to satyans again which is fine except that i dont have any clothes...so i had to wear the same shirt again. oh well. i have no one to impress here.

i cant wait to be on vacation...i talked to jules this morning and she sounded like she was having so much fun there!

nushie . . .

when are you not going to be at work? i'm just trying to figure out when to ship your present . . .

i think i'm a little drunk

one of our post docs is leaving today - he's moving to the netherlands (which is not as weird as it sounds, he's german and his wife is actually from the netherlands) ANYWAY we had a little goodbye/we'll miss you reception with some food and a bunch of wine and champange. my cubby buddy matt likes to play bartender and keep everyone's glass full - so i've had a full glass of white and 2 full glasses of champange. plus lots of shrimp and swedish meatballs. the only unfortune part of this otherwise lovely wednesday afternoon is that i have 10 tubes of blood sitting next to me - all of which i need to separate, half of which i need to actually set up stimulation experiments. i would much rather get to go home now and curl up on the couch with a movie and my bleeding dog.

sorry megan!

the blogs will probably be sporadic for the rest of this year..

julie left this morning for colombia. im busy this week and out most of next week for the wedding, and rupa is just busy :)

the strike sucks!!! i have been the luckiest of the 3 i think because satyan lives like 20 min from my office so i have just stayed there and had to walk here. they both have had to deal with finding and taking a cab which is basically like a carpool service since they will take up to 4 people and charge you by zone not by distance...its basically a mess. i cant wait till friday to get out of here and go home...ill be back here mon and tues but if there is a strike i probably wont even go to my apt...

i was supposed to have roommate xmas yesterday but i was dreading the commute here in the morning so i cancelled :( im glad i got to spend time with julie on sunday...now ill see her jan 4 when she gets back.

megan are your plans for xmas and new years? ive probably asked this before but i forget...did you and edgar exchange xmas gifts?

shame on you!

no blogs yesterday?? i was hoping for something to read this morning :(
i'm officially finished with biochem - nushie, expect your present soon :) i think i did ok on the final, kind of how i felt about my last two tests where i got a B so hopefully . . . i hated it. enzyme mechanisms and amino acid structures are the bane of my existance.

are you guys effected (affected? i never remember) by the transit worker strike?! i heard two seconds about it on BBC world news last night - it doesn't look fun. but i couldn't figure out whether it was NYC-wide, whether manhattan was shut down too. if so, what are you guys doing?!

oh, and my dog got her period.

i got...

tickets to 25th annual putnam county spelling bee!! which i totally want to see!! yay :) and it means a chance to hang out with nush (and satyan).

it should be really fun. how was your weekend, megan?

i totally forgot to take pictures last night..

we missed you megan!!!!

It just wasnt the same without you!! we talked and caught up over two bottles of wine and really good seafood. we were there till 11 which is way past my bed time :)

thanks jules!

what did julie and rupa get?

sorry megan!

i just read all the blogs from this week. i was in boston wed-yesterday. sorry about your cat :( did steve go home too? how are bruge and star taking it?

did you open it?? by the time everyone else reads these us NY girls would have celebrated xmas already :)

i got back yesterday at 2 and celebrated with satyan last night since this coming week may get busy and next week is all wedding stuff. he got me this really cool digital picture frame :) i cant decide if i should keep it at home or at work. i havent had time to set it up yet though. i gave him a nice watch but it has a metal strap and he said hed prefer leather, so we are going to exchange it next week.

it was nice to see bryan and sandi around xmas time. i brought them both gifts :) i love this time of year.

i just bought a few more gifts online and am about to run out to the store to buy one or two more things...

i want my present now, too!

i don't want to have to wait until sunday! i'm giving julia her christmas presents on sunday, also, so that's going to be a fun day. i love xmas!

megan, rupa and i had our company holiday party last night. soo much fun! i'll send you pics as soon as i download them.

you should open it!

but not tell us from who it was or what it is.. otherwise we can all better guess the secret santas ;)

thanks girls :)

my cat's name was shy. she was a stray so she was a little uncertain of humans - shy . . . don't judge, i was 7 when i named her . . .

dollop does help :)

ok, so i got a package last night . . . but i haven't opened it yet. but i want to! edgar told me that i should get to open my present early to make up for the fact that i don't actually get to hang out with you guys . . . but i wanted to wait for your judgement :)

:(

i blogged a few hours ago but it didn't come up! i basically just said the same thing rupa did -- i'm so sorry to hear about your cat. i'm glad you got to go home and that edgar has been there for you. i wish i could give you a hug. muah.

:(

awww, megan, i'm so sorry to hear about your cat. it's a good thing you got to go home and edgar is there for you. i wish i could give you a hug right now. . .

i'm so sorry

that is very sad, meg. i'm glad that you got to hang out with your parents.. and that edgar was so sweet. how nice of him to drive you.

hope hugging dollop helps! that's so sad though.. what was your cat's name?

wuv you :) hang in there and take care!

went to ogdensburg last night

i left work early yesterday so i could go home with edgar, my cat hadn't been eating for the last couple of days so my parents were taking her to the vet and worried that he would say she need to be put down. i didn't make it home in time for the vet appointment, but they called and told me that she had renal failure, was not in pain and would pass naturally very soon. she ended up dying about half an hour before i got home, but i got to see her and i spent the night at my house and hung out with my parents. i'm fine and then i start to cry and then i'm fine . . . i think i'm going to be like this for another couple of days. edgar has been great - he's the one that suggested i go home last night and that he would drive me (which is good because if i had been behind the wheel when my dad told me she was in renal failure i probably would have gone off the road)

pho pasteur

thats where im having dinner tonight :) im so excited. im going with sandi and her bf, bryan and maybe elaine. tomorrow we have meetings all day and then we are going to dinner and then gillians. ill go over to bryans after gillians. maybe i can convince him to go to roads - i wonder if they still have free wings on thurs! :)

when doctors dont know the cause

this has become my new pet peeve.however i think i had an epiphany this weekend. at the wedding there was a blind man who sang for part of the musical program. he was absolutely amazing. and he was smiling the whole night - he was just happy to be surrounding by talented musicians and he was just happy to be alive. it was amazing. it made me stop thinking so much about why my hair is falling out or why doctors dont know the cure to things like that. because it shouldnt matter....

i really think ive been ok with that since then. my mom is a different story, and who knows, one of these days the effect of seeing him will wear off and once again i will be sad/feel bad for myself and unfortanately ill haev to see something like this to remind myself that im a lucky girl. and just writing this and writing the words "to see" makes my stomach turn.

anyway those are my two cents for the day :)

megan we are going to miss you a lot this weekend. sunday we are having dinner together.

sooo much fun :)

so, we have all this community equipment around here which is treated badly by other people. one piece is a scanner/counter thing that although not abused is really expensive. so, this chic is using it and the grad student in charge of training comes up and is like uum, you haven't been trained on this machine and only those who have can use it. so she argues with him - but she's really really asian so it almost sounds like she doesn't understand english enough to get it. then she keeps using it and the head of the lab comes in and tells her she has to stop. the woman was basically like let me talk to the boss so head (alexandra) got to be like yup, thats me and they did this polite arguing back and forth - its great! (its a set of shelves away from my desk so i can eavesdrop without them knowing) alexandra is this hippie south african woman who i love (the head of my lab's wife) so it was like dueling accents! i know this sounds crazy random but i hate cleaning up after others who use the equipment i have to monitor and don't treat it properly. so, it is GREAT to hear a PI come in and tell one of the random people where they can stick it!

they don't know

they think it's some kind of allergic reaction although they couldn't figure out what. but they think it's something i ate or something that touched my face and i somehow ingested. yes... scary. uggh.

why?

did the dr. ever come up with a reason for the face swell?

haven't read the blog in days

and just realized we are doing secret santas soon! ack! :)

megan, my address is the same as jules if you have me. if you send it to my home i'll get it much later!

hope all is well with you guys. work has been busy. my face is much better now only it got worse and i had to get steroid injections.. it had swollen like a balloon to the point that i couldn't see b/c my eyes were so squinty. it was insane. but now i'm better and just have some scarring that is going away quickly.

i missed a bunch of work days though which is part of the reason why it's so busy now :)

anyway, enjoy your tuesday!

address

315 Oxford St. #3
Rochester, NY 14607

it may never get to me if you send it to the lab :)

secret santa

megan if its for me:
40W 57th St, 31st Floor, NY NY 10019.

I know what Im getting my person...i think...

i had such a good weekend :) fri night i cooked dinner at home and just hung out with satyan. we watched mr and mrs smith. i was so disappointed. it was comical because it was so dumb but still i think the plot had such potential...then sat we went to his parents house :) it was so nice. i love going there. they are so sweet. we went to a wedding reception on sat night in jersey for one of his friends, and sunday i hung out with my family in the city all day. we did mostly wedding planning, then had dinner with kerry's family (xmas tradition) then my family hung out with satyan and they left at 830 or so.

my parents are coming back to NY tomorrow for my doctors apt. my mom was supposed to come by herself but yesterday she got really scared when she saw how many new spots there are of no hair and told my dad that it would be nice if he could come too. he immediately found someone to cover for him at work tomorrow and they will be here all morning.

then wednesday i leave for boston :) im so excited. ill see bryan and sandi on wednesday night, have meetings all day thurs, and then fly back friday afternoon.

wow

can't believe he's still giving you roses. that poor boy. . .

i vote for a $50-$100 price range for the gift.

also, megan: i don't know who you're going to be shipping a present to, but if it's to me, you can send it to me at work:

120 West 45 Street
39th Floor
New York, NY 10036

(i just want to make sure it doesn't get lost!)

and you should probably give us your address, too. . .

roses...

devs in town. i said no to lunch. he just dropped off a red rose in my building with a mushy well written card...i gave the rose to my coworker mike to give to his gf :) it was really pretty - i just didnt want to keep it...

did we decide on a range for the gifts??

baby it's cold outside. . .

it was so gross when i was walking to work this morn! kinda snowy/rainy and it was all turning into a huge slushy mess. it's actually sunny now, which is nice. . .

megan, do you have any recent pictures of dollop?? that's nice that jessie's going with you to obedience classes :)

driving in rochester

its been fine all this week - just snowing a little bit here and there and not really messing up driving. it was pain in the butt this morning, but only on non-major roads. then i was late for my meeting! ryan doesn't leave to catch his bus until 8:06am. my meeting was at 8:30. so, i really needed to catch the 8:10 bus, which is impossible if i wait until ryan leaves. so, i split the difference and left before he left, but not until 8:00. yup, missed the 8:10 bus, got to speed walk into the hospital so my feet/shoes are still wet AND i was a couple of minutes late for the meeting. which isn't really a meeting, its a weekly seminar that eun was presenting at today so its like 30 people shoved into a room with 25 chairs that actually starts on time. so, i looked like an ass . . . but i was only like 10 minutes late! i think eun is busy for the rest of the day with meetings for her kids - which is key because even though i really need/want to meet with her, i think its going to be a meeting that really frustrates me so i'm ok with putting it off until monday so i don't start my weekend all worked up . . .

i got to see my dog last night! she has TOTALLY gained weight! edgar thinks i'm nuts, but she has. and she was adorable and excited to see me and i missed her a lot and can't wait to have her back full time! plus, i'm really excited to go to the obedience class tonight with jess because jess has never been to the shelter where the class is taught (the one i volunteered at) so, we can go a bit early and go check out all the dogs and i think she'll love it. AND i'll have someone to talk to during the class instead of making casual conversation with the little girls who like to come over and play with my dog.

snow

the snow looked so pretty when i was laying in my bed knowing that i couldnt go to the gym in the morning....but then the commute - not as much fun. although the trains were much emptier which was nice. i think we all show bipolar tendencies sometimes :) megan whats the driving like in rochester?

with all these hair issues my mom is so frustrated with her whole superstition about cutting hair only when the moon is growing that we have decided to stop doing that :) i bring that up because i was supposed to get a hair cut yesterday but was just so exhausted i couldnt even get myself to go there. now im not in a rush to do it before next wednesday :)

i think a range is a good idea. i vote for less than 100 but im ok with either of the ranges...

one more thing

I love xmas! I feel like I'm bipolar today -- I read the blog or get an email about secret santas and I get all excited! but then I look at my to-do-list or at my work inbox, and I get majorly stressed out. . .

ugh! tooo much to do :(

yay!

i got my person too! and although next weekend is a bit soon. . . i don't mind doing it by then. but whatever you girls prefer is fine with me. ummm, do we want to set a price range? just throwing some numer out there:

$30-$50
$50-$100
$100 +

that was just a suggestion...

if not i think id have to be in january...

i'm so not ready!

i need to brainstorm . . . next sunday?! the pressure!

i got my person :)

so how are we doing this? the NY girls can exchange next sunday when we meet for dinner and the person who is gettign for megan will mail it and megan will mail hers?? thats sooo soon!!!

satyans working on secret santas..

i called him an explained it. he was very confused :) then when i said "youre smart you can figure it out" he felt he had to figure it out!! so expect an email from him later today...
and if he cant figure it out ill ask liz to do it :) i should have done that in the first place.

my hair doctor said the same thing as the other one :-/ except that i can get shots every 2 weeks instead of every 4...so im going to try to do that. its so hard having to miss work to do this but i guess i have to do it...i havent figured out how yet...

its so sad to see jackie feel sick :-/

poor jackie :(

does she have any medication or anything? are the dr. just saying wait and see? overall, kinda sounds like it sucks :(

tonight is my last night of babysitting!!!!!! i'm really excited, in case you couldn't guess . . . i'm going to hang out at my apartment with edgar, dollop and ryan tonight. george needs to stay home and do homework and is allergic to the dog. ryan, edgar and i are going to get sandwiches at the place on the corner (which i've been to with aunt and the boys before and ryan requested we go to again) then we'll eat our dinner at my place and watch fantastic four and i'll get to see my dog!! i hope she gets excited when she sees me . . . i miss her :( and hopefully ryan will be entertained by the movie so i can relax with my bf and puppy and not have to deal with a whining know-it-all 13 year old.

tomorrow night, i have obedience class at 6:30 and jess is going with me! i'm super excited for that since you are supposed to bring your whole family and i'm always alone. then, we are going to the movies, maybe to see derailed. her boss hired too many servers so she's getting screwed on shifts. she picked up a tuesday shift so she and i haven't hung out this week but didn't get scheduled for her usual friday so we are hanging out then. i'm pretty excited!

i know march is far away but i can't really peace out during the only two months of the year that eun asks me to be around. and it will be here soon enough :) and it won't be so freaking cold out by then so we'll be all more excited about doing stuff around the city! and nushie - its ok if you have to study, rupa and julie can entertain me :) so rupa - you need to check your schedule and pick a weekend that works for you!

:(

march is so far away! picking secret santas now seems like a good idea. we need to do it soon, though. i'm going to colombia soon and running out of shopping days quickly. . .

nush, i can't believe you haven't booked every weekend in march! i think i'm free, too. i don't know, i can't think that far ahead.

my happiness for the day: our company just installed mozilla in our computers! now i don't have to use internet explorer anymore. yay! i'm such a dork. but hey, it's easy to get excited about pretty much anything after you've spent a few hours waiting in the hospital's emergency room . . .jackie's been pretty sick the past couple of days. tuesday night she vomited blood, so she freaked out and went to the emergency room. i met her there -- they gave her an iv and some medicine to soothe her stomach, and they ran a bunch of tests. everything looked normal. the doctor said she probably has gastritis and so they gave her some prescriptions, told her to call her regular doctor to schedule an endoscopy, and they sent her home. then yesterday afternoon she started vomiting again. i left work early and met her at the hospital. this time she was there for like 6 hours. . .same drill as tuesday: they gave her an iv and some medicine, did more tests, again said that everything seems normal. the doctor thinks she has a stomach virus, so that with the gastritis probably aggravated her stomach and caused the bleeding. . .anyway, they sent her home. her mom flew in from miami last night and is with her now. she'd planned this trip over a month ago, so the timing was really fortunate -- it sucks to be alone when you're sick.

i'm exhausted now, though. the past couple of days have been really draining. and i don't know if i'm just tired or if i might be getting sick, but i'm not feeling so hot myself. my head feels so heavy. . . i'm so glad it's thursday.

free in march but studying...

the studying will be in full swing by then so i dont know how fun ill be. we could pick secret santas now and ship all of them - unless i get julie of course or vice versa, that would be dumb :)

i volunteer my beloved bf to do it :) ill ask him about it tomorrow after we decide which method to do.

so far im free every weekend in march beleive it or not so whatever you girls want is fine with me

january

i don't mean to disappoint but i have to delay my coming for a while . . . like until march. it can't happen in january, the only weeekend thats open is too close to when i'll be staying with my cousins again. also, with that whole new schedule i mentioned (2 to 10ish) i'll be working friday nights. january and february are RSV season - so thats when i'll be getting all of my fresh samples. i don't want to take time off then - which wouldn't be a big deal if i could fly out on a friday after work but since i'll be at work so late, thats not really possible sooo . . .

do you guys want to celebrate xmas in march? or do you want me to ship my gift? and are any of you available in march?

not bored :)

it's nice to not check the blog a while and then have to scroll to read all the blogs. i think both your routines w the boyfriends sound very cute... :)

glad you aren't seeing dev!!

megan, are you still coming in january? did we all pick a weekend? can someone get their boyfriend to do our secret santa emailing this time? i'm excited...

we must be boring julie and rupa :)

we usually dont have nights like this - i think its mostly stimulated by my need to work out every day, so if im busy at night (like tonight and tomorrow) i have to work out int he morning, ie i have to get up and out of bed at 630 am. so im not interested in talking/cuddling at night - i just want to go to sleep....i think its the walk to work that bothered me today - its kind of nice that that is one of the bigger problems i have with him. its very reassuring.

speaking of problems - dev is in town this weekend. luckily im leaving friday to go to jersey, but he wanted to meet for lunch on fri. i said no....

i make edgar tuck me in

thats how i work through the whole go to sleep way before he does. we cuddle and have the typical going to sleep chit chat and then when i decide i'm falling asleep i dismiss him . . . well, i say it a little nicer than that but basically thats it.

subject lines...

i def opened the blog right as allen walked by my desk :) even though it was a nice subject line i hope he didnt see it! and lesson learned - be more careful about those!!

routines arent *bad* todays was just so blah. i mean last night i fell asleep before he came to bed - i dont think i even rolled over to kiss him goodnight or even say goodnight :) then this morning i barely even saw him and the worst part i had to walk to work all by myself. i dont like that from his apt. its cold out and at least he usually walks with me to the bus stop (which is really close to his office) then i take the bus...

oh well - today i talked to uma chitti the whole walk which was a lot of fun, but i used 30 of my day time minutes on that call!!!

i like allen

i don't know allen, but i like him . . . he seems like a really reasonable boss.

its not THAT random that my ID was on the bus - the bus is the shuttle from my parking lot, sort of a tech shuttle except it just goes from my lot to the hospital main entrance.

and i don't think there is anything sad about a routine - as long as you both like it :)

i just finished lab meeting and now i have lecture in 15 minutes. lab meeting was kind of fun, it was a discussion on some pannels that . . . never mind, i can't think of any way of explaining this easily. maybe i've just been here long enough that it seemed like a good meeting because i'm finally understanding whats being said. guess its time to move on!

good morning

Ive been so good- i went to the gym last night, ran 5 miles and then went again this morning in satyans building. i went downstairs at 630 which was so hard to get out of bed!! and when i got back he was still sleeping! i showered and left - he was still getting ready. it was kind of sad because it really felt like home / like a routine. oh well...after 10 months i guess thats what you get :)

allen asked me today "how is my experiment going" meaning having steve manage me. i said "horribly." we talked a bit and he said please stick with it for a week or so and we will figure something out...anyway in a way its kind of nice - i have like no work to do anymore :) i just read all the time...

your id was hanging on the bus?

that is awesome. how random... I'm so glad you found it. :) enjoy the
cash since it was quite a lot of work having them around for so long..
and yay for your caramel macchiato.. starbucks is definitely an
occasional indulgence thing.. jules and I did it every day for a while
but were spending too much money and calories on it :) I like the
75cent coffee from the corner guy.. straight up, no added syrups.

happy hump day!

playing soccer mom

so, i got to drive ryan (the 13 year old) to school this morning at 7:30. and have passive aggressive fights with him all last night (wanted to watch victoria secrets thing and talk to his gf over homework and sleep). i have lab meeting at 9. i felt this all boiled down to a necessary trip to starbucks on my way to work. so, now i'm chilling with my venti nonfat carmel machiato (spelling?) - dude, who gets these huge coffees every day?! $4.16 every morning?! i felt i deserved it this morning (plus, my aunt and uncle left me a waaay too huge envelop of cash - i think i'm going to leave about half, but it still allows me absurdly expensive coffee once in a while) PLUS its cold outside and i wasn't THAT early to catch the bus, so i waited instead of walked into work. hop on the bus with my nose not in a book for (apparently) the first time since last thursday - and my ID (which i've been searching for and has been totally complicating my work life) is hanging in the front of the bus. i guess it must have come off my jeans thursday evening and i hadn't ridden the bus/noticed it was there since . . . my day is starting out AWESOME! man, i must sound bipolar on this blog . . .

hola

hi girls! megan, i'm glad things are better. i'm really bad at that, too, making people talk. . .

nush, that sucks about reporting to steve! i agree with rupa -- you should leave! and hopefully that new dermatologist will be a superstar and can figure out what's going on with your hair.

rupa, hope you feel better!

things here are pretty busy -- especially since i'm going to colombia in 2 weeks! i'm so excited -- the holidays in colombia are soo much fun! and i really miss talking to my parents every day, so i'm looking forward to that, too. the only problem is that i have a ton of stuff to do at work before my trip. and in between all the holiday dinners and christmas shopping and stuff, i don't know when i'm supposed to have time to work out and sleep! jackie's mom gets in tomorrow and she's spending the weekend here. we're going to see phantom of the opera on thursday and the radio city xmas spectacular on friday -- which should be exciting! i have so much to do before that, though. . .

because this place is a mess

they changed the hierarchy because allen wanted steve and drew to learn to manage people and he didnt want 7 direct reports. so he now has 4 and they each have one (well they will when we hire a new person). i reported to drew and alex reported to steve - but steve did a bad job so they switched us and i report to steve and now liz reports to drew. but for the past year they have done such a bad job of monitoring us - we still do our job and do it really well they just have no clue of how things work since we take care of all the day to day stuff...anyway now that he is trying to manage, he has taken that to an extreme and has been micromanaging. oh well. my work load has actually decreased because now i just say no to anyone other than steve. seems very wrong but thats what he wants...

hi

megan i'm glad to hear that you talked :) and that you guys will get on similar schedules! spending time together will totally help.

nush, can't you talk to someone about not reporting to steve? isn't there someone else that they could make your manager.. does anyone know that he was interested in you? that's weird that he's micro managing.. LEAVE!!! :) you would be much happier somewhere else i'm sure.

sorry about your hair.. is it the same thing? are there patches of skin w no hair?

all is fine w me.. work is getting really busy but really fun.. i got really sick last week w a fever and cold and stuff and i just can't seem to shake it.. it's not nearly as bad as last week but i keep sniffling. and i have this week rash on my face that i think is related.. i went to a dermatologist for the first time last week but he had no idea what it was so they did a skin biopsy and now i ahve to wait a while till they will know. uggh.

at least it's almost xmas.. i'm excited about that :)

bad reviews

'cause they didn't like what you were doing? or because he did something wrong? what happened to larry and allen?

good :)

its always better to make someone talk...im really bad at that. id rather just "ignore" things and then bring it all out at once..luckily satyan never lets me do that.

i made an apt with a new dermotologist in NY for a second opinion on my hair. its getting much worse and starting to scare me. im looking forward to this second opinion...

work is getting so frustrating (i sound like a broken record). i now officially report to steve. and he got bad reviews for managing me so now he has reverted to mico managing me. i have to ask his permission to do anything - even if its work related with another member of the team! its so ridiculous...

getting better

i made him talk to me last night. i met him at my apartment after ryan's concert and we talked. it went ok, at least we aren't pissed at one another :) i think i'm going to be stressed through the holidays (my final is 12/20 @7:15pm!) and then the next day i'm presenting at lab meeting. but then i'll just have a relaxing couple of days off . . . THEN i suddenly have a screwed up schedule for january and february which i'm totally excited for - samples won't be coming until afternoon so i'm going to work like 2 to 10 instead of 9 to 5 - a similar schedule to edgars!! which is part of our problem, that we never see each other so i'm really excited . . .

yeah

i think that the best thing would just be to demand it out of him.. if he's trying to avoid having the fight now b/c there are people there.. well just by telling you that he's made and making you wonder.. well taht means that you ARE having the fight even with people there.. if anything it's worse b/c even though you aren't arguing in front of them.. it's leaving you upset and him upset and the buildup is worse than just having it out to begin with.

i think it's perfectly reasonable to just go for a drive and have the talk about what is bothering him NOW instead of waiting 5 days. is there a way you could sneak out w him after the concert? it's almost like you are doing all the other parts of the argument anyway.. just not the part that will actually solve it. that is the part he's delaying.

i don't know him well enough to know if this would work.. it might be that he just refuses to talk about it this week (which is weird)

but you definitely deserve better than just being shut out for a week.

friday free

i don't know whether i'll have legitimate work to do but at the very least i'll have lecture from 11 to 12 down the hall from my lab. plus, i'll get up early anyway to make sure the boys get to school so at the very least i might as well come here until class.

i know edgar's not enjoying this - and he's got class and work to deal with too - why doesn't he just suck it up and get it out there, even though the timing isn't ideal. i just want to say f-you, i don't feel like putting up with your bs get out of my life! how do you stay mad at someone for 5 days and not explode?!?

hi!

urgh... i'm sorry megan. it's especially annoying when someone will not tell you why you are fighting yet you find yourself clearly in the middle of the fight.

so the babysitting ends on friday? at least it's a date that isn't too far away.. and it sounds like you deserve an ALL DAY mental health day friday instead of just an abbreviated one. is that possible?

hopefully the concert tonight will be cheesy enough that it ends up being a little relaxing.. and congrats on your test! that is exciting.

cyberhug from me.. just hang in there.. things will work themselves out very soon.. they always do. wuv you!

can't

dollop's at edgar's house because my cousin and my aunt are both super allergic to dogs. plus, i just got handed 5 tubes of blood to deal with . . .

i'm not entirely sure what the fight is about - he hasn't told me yet. he didn't feel like it on thursday - the only night last week that we saw each other for more than passing hellos. i had to go to work early all last week so i went to bed early - right after he got home. by thursday, he was mad at me about something but he didn't feel like talking about it then. on friday, he came over after his class but apparently we had had a magical conversation (which we didn't) which included dropping the dog off at his parents house that day would be convenient (which it wasn't) so i was all fired up about that when he got there so he went to his parents and got the dog. at that point, we were both running late for our respective friday things so we spent a wonderful 20 minutes together gobbling food and parted. we've had a couple of forced phone conversations since then as he doesn't want to talk about it until after this little babysitting gig is finished with. i was practically in tears on the phone with my mom talking about it because i was so angry - and i try not to say anything bad to her about him because i don't want her to decide he's evil again. i've had a headache since yesterday and i think this is why. i'm totally short tempered with EVERYTHING (man, do i want to kill my 13 year old cousin) and work is not exactly making my day today either. so far, the only good thing is that i got a B on my biochem test which i was very unsure of. and tonight instead of relaxing i'm going to go to a middle school concert to support my cousin. then, i have to go to my apartment and search for my ID. and i just found out that i have to come to the lab at a horrible hour (2am-ish)tonight to at stimulation to some cells i wasn't expecting. Oh, i am so feeling another abreviated friday this week. i'm going to need it to mentally prepare myself for the talk that will follow (since its the first night edgar and i will be able to have the talk)

i think my heads going to explode.

:-/

what was the fight about megan? you should just go home and play with dollop and watch a movie :)

im soo exhausted. friday night i just stayed home with patty and watched a movie (empire falls part 1 - jules it was lots of fun!) then sat was the bachelorette party. we had the best time. yesterday i just lazed around and hung out by myself which was nice.
this weekend im going to a wedding in jersey and then sunday my fam is coming for prasad/wallace xmas dinner.

blah

i'm staying at my aunt and uncle's so obviously i can't find my ID. i went back to my apartment this morning to get it - couldn't find it there either so back to the house yup, still couldn't find it. an hour later, i head to work still without the ID.

edgar and i have been in a fight since last week at some point (he's mad at me and the way he is acting is pissing me off) so its completely making the rest of my life seem shitty. i would say i need a mental health day and peace out of work early but i know thats not going to change anything because my bad mood is totally centered on him.

nobu 57

waaaay overrated and waaay too expensive. the food wasnt bad but id never go there on my own tab...

it was a fun night though :) it was nice to be out with all my coworkers; we never really do that.

today im going to see conan :) i leave work at 3, and hopefully wont be late in getting there this time. satyan and i are taking 2 other people in the fund of funds world and will prob go out to dinner with them afterwards.