Tonight

So you're not around to be my emotional pillow for the next hour and a half. Maybe that's a good thing though. I gotta get used to you not being around every single time I need you. Though it's fun to call and obsess about the tiniest little thing. I guess I have a therapist for that now!
I am scared about tonight. Worried that what I want to get accomplished won't get accomplished and scared that I will get terrified of the prospects of screwing things up. But I think I just need to relax and concentrate on what needs to get done. Concentrate on the fact that this evening is about me and my needs. Remember that he owes me an explanation for an otherwise obnoxious act eight months ago. And reassurance that no matter how this turns out, I am still a strong woman who will get through this.
I am proud of myself for taking the step to do this. I am awed that I had it in me to swallow my pride. And I am touched that I have amazing support in my life to encourage me to take the steps. Thank you :) You know I would do the same for you, but let's hope I never have to!